The Protagonist Is Depressed, Utterly Radiating Despair 主角抑郁，浑身都透露着绝望

1. 201 空 The Empty Cocoon and the Light-Year 空茧与光年 Cloud Letters云书简Two Female Leads250k WordsCompleted [Two female leads|Mental illness|Aesthetics of pain|Realistic fiction|Happy ending] The year I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, my pillbox held seven kinds of white tablets. The doctor said it was a lifelong illness and I would have to learn to live with it. The day I met Su Wan, her eyes told me that I deserved to be loved, too. University separated us at opposite ends of Beijing. She pursued her artistic dreams at the Central Academy of Fine Arts, while I fought the waves of emotion at a 6Reads—Score—Shelves

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   It was written by me and absolutely meets this requirement.

2. 202 与 Sinking into a Beautiful Dream with Her 与她沉溺美梦 The Light Shines In光照进来Modern Romance392k WordsCompleted Jaded, aloof wild rose × sharp-tongued, straight-laced math genius | Rekindled love × angst and sweetness × yandere × mutual salvation × devoted couple, happy ending In just five years, Zhou Shuci went from a math genius to the founder of the Wanshi Group, ruling over a six-hundred-billion commercial empire and controlling half of Jingzhou City. Yet all he wanted to know was whether she regretted leaving him for twenty million. When they met again after years apart, her mere presence brought 5.1kReads8.4Score330Shelves

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   The female lead suffers from depression due to her parents' preference for sons over daughters, which is also why she broke up with the male lead. The story begins with a long-awaited reunion, and the male lead is love-struck. The author's writing is excellent and it's worth reading.

3. 203 我 I Died in the Year He Hated Me Most 我死在了他最恨我的那一年 He Sees Qingmuchuan他见青木川11k WordsCompleted I died the year he hated me most. Unable to bear his hatred any longer, I chose to take my own life. When the funeral home handed my ashes to Nan Heting, he patted the urn and smiled for the first time that day. “It's too dirty. She should have been reduced to dust!” He swept his hand, and the urn crashed to the floor. That's right. He thought I had caused the death of the woman he loved most. He had stayed by my side for years, all for this moment. He walked away, trampling my ashes, but before 20.8kReads—Score641Shelves

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   I like it so sweet, it makes my throat hurt (I'm really not kidding).

4. 204 黑 Darkness Invades: I Can Only Summon Myself! 黑暗入侵：我只能召唤我自己！ Love-Chan Doesn't Want to Work恋酱才不要工作Urban590k WordsCompleted [Darkness Invasion] [No female lead] Darkness descended, and countless evil gods set their sights on Blue Star, known as the Origin Star. At this critical moment, Blue Star's consciousness awakened, granting humanity the power to repel foreign enemies. Talents were the power humanity relied on to survive. Su Yuan, who had transmigrated here for reasons unknown, had no ties to hold him back, so he decided to go home! However, his talent was Heroic Spirit Summoning, and the heroic spirits of this 3.2kReads8.4Score337Shelves
5. 205 当 I Went Mad Serving as a Secret Guard, Then Someone Told Me I'm a Prince 当暗卫当疯了，有人告诉我是皇子 Fu Zhunan负烛南Ancient Romance356k WordsCompleted [Female-to-male transmigration] [Complete] [Click to follow the protagonist as he fights his way from cannon fodder to supporting male character to villain to main character.] [Transmigrate into a book + silly, hilarious protagonist + unmatched fighting skills but a screw loose, with a mental illness] Zhou Jinzhi, a pampered young master, transmigrates from a girl into a boy! With disaster striking and his family wiped out, a twist of fate turns him into a royal palace bodyguard. He assumes he i 1.3kReads9.0Score167Shelves

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   This is the first time I've seen an author write about a protagonist with schizophrenia. I'm going to read it!!! [You think about it][crying][staring]

6. 206 竟 I Was Taken In by a Depressed Girl Found in the Park 竟然被公园捡到的抑郁少女收留了 Wu Mingsè吴铭瑟Urban283k WordsCompleted [One heroine] + [Depression] + [Mutual healing] School bullying? Bai Qiu goes right over and kicks the bully! “Th-thank you...” Xia Ling’s voice is soft and sweet. Sitting beside the hospital bed, Bai Qiu feels a pang of heartache. “Since you’ve decided to leave, where will you go now?” Xia Ling’s aunt asks. “I haven’t figured it out yet...” “Then come stay at my place for now.” “Huh!?” 565Reads8.7Score101Shelves
7. 207 我 I'm Depressed, and You Want Me to Save the Protagonist? 我一抑郁症你让我拯救主角？ Yun Qian Yu Mo芸芊羽沫Two Male Leads310k WordsCompleted The rating has only just appeared, so it’ll gradually go up. (There’s no obsessive tag, I clicked the wrong one.) [Reading guide] ✓ A broken, vulnerable master × a long-suffering, revenge-driven disciple · mutual disguises · ✓ Intense emotions × an understated writing style · a paradise for detail lovers The point of view varies throughout; primarily from the receiving lead’s perspective. Yu Muhuai died once. In that world, he curled up deep in an alley, rainwater and mud running into his nose a 1.2kReads8.4Score239Shelves

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   Superb!!!

8. 208 穿 After I Transmigrate into a Book, the Villain I Raised Bullies Me Mercilessly 穿书后被自己养的反派狠狠欺负了 Xiaobai Is Pigeonholing People小白在放鸽子Eastern Fantasy1.5M WordsOngoing [Girls' Love + Tragic Romance + Yandere + Long-Planned Scheme + Two Heroines + Rebirth vs. Transmigrate into a Book] [Four Years of Writing] One day, Qin Xiyao suddenly transmigrates into a villainess novel, becoming a mere background character. What's the first thing she should do? Obviously, latch onto the protagonist! But what if the protagonist is the villain? Then she should raise her from childhood, of course~ Help her find opportunities! Defeat the bad guys! Save the world! But just as Qi 26.4kReads8.4Score2.6kShelves
9. 209 痛 Slashing Through Pain to Slay the Gods 痛苦斩斩斩斩斩斩斩斩斩斩斩神 Sheep Sheep Is Lazy羊羊很懒Male-Channel Fanfiction674k WordsOngoing [Godslayer + Immortality + Insomnia + Keep half your brain to yourself] Zhou An transmigrated into the world of Godslayer and developed a disease called [Insomnia]. He went a whole year without sleeping, and neither the doctors nor the Night Watch could do anything about it. So he decided to kill himself. But after trying, he discovered that he seemed to have gained the ability of [Immortality]. For most people, [Immortality] might be an incredible power, something they'd dream of having. But fo 1.7kReads8.2Score198Shelves

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   These books are all very good and fit their titles perfectly. The first one is about rebirth, while the last one is more of a tragic beginning followed by sweetness, so it's not very sweet. The second one might not resonate with you much, but the protagonist dies many times. The third one is somewhat sad. Books five and six are purely tragic. Book five offers a bit of redemption, and the sixth book has a bit of a "peasants rise up and sing their praises" feel to it. Anyway, just read them, and you'll find yourself completely silent.

10. 210 当 When a Depressed Girl Meets a Yandere Boy 当抑郁少女遇上病娇少年 Su Ningnian苏凝年Modern Romance228k WordsCompleted Depressed teenager Lin Yuening was hospitalized after a suicide attempt, and fell for the boy in the next bed at first sight. But the feelings she’d suppressed under the weight of her own insecurities finally surged out the day he transferred to her school. 3.2kReads7.5Score546Shelves
11. 211 谁 Who Says I Don't Like You? 谁说我讨厌你啦？ Like a Scene, Like Brocade似景似锦Modern Romance110k WordsOngoing "I like him more than anyone, and I hate him more than anyone." -[Sweet and angsty, high school romance, healing, two top students Content warning: The female lead has suicidal tendencies, depression, and anxiety] At first, they couldn't stand each other. Until her deliberate efforts to keep her distance started getting under his skin, so he deliberately kept making his presence felt around her. Through his efforts, he succeeded in falling for her. And she became unable to live without him. But 32Reads—Score109Shelves

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    [Facepalm][Crying][Crying]

12. 212 高 High Martial: After His Memories Were Revealed, the Whole Country Wept for Him 高武：记忆曝光后，全国为他流泪 Leisurely Evening Breeze晚风悠人Urban488k WordsCompleted [No System + Passionate + No Female Lead + Fast-Paced and Straightforward + No Forced Showing Off and Face-Slapping + Genius] He was once Daxia's top prodigy, with countless military achievements to his name. But during one mission, he defected to the foreign races and turned his blade on his own people. When the footage was released, everyone condemned him. The entire country wanted to tear the flesh from his bones and peel off his skin. But after one memory was revealed, everyone learned what 3kReads8.9Score274Shelves

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    These books are all very good and fit their titles perfectly. The first one is about rebirth, while the last one is more of a tragic beginning followed by a sweet ending, so it's not very sweet. The second one might not resonate with you much, but the protagonist dies many times. The third one is somewhat sad. Books five and six are purely tragic. Book five offers a bit of redemption, and the sixth book has a bit of a "peasants' triumph" feel to it. Anyway, just read them, and you'll find yourself completely silent.

13. 213 生 A Song of Life's Sorrows 生命悲歌 Fate Be Like This缘来灬如此Modern Romance1.0M WordsCompleted [Human nature + family + first person + male and female audiences] (Adapted into an audio drama with real voice actors; a motion comic is in production and coming soon.) Fate is never set in advance, yet it always pushes people toward unknown wilderness when they least expect it. The Ballad of Life uses simple, heartfelt storytelling to unfold a journey through hardship, perseverance, and struggle, revealing the most moving strength found in an ordinary life. There are no earth-shattering legend 10.7kReads9.2Score894Shelves
14. 214 琢 Carving Clouds 琢云 Mu Qiqi木砌砌Two Male Leads236k WordsCompleted (A little angst + happy ending + rekindled romance) Lin Zhuoxun x Xiao Yunshen A seemingly cheerful but secretly depressed bottom x a devoted, innocent top The first stirrings of love in youth are pure and passionate. I was once barren earth, but your arrival brought me back to life. 957Reads8.6Score150Shelves

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    It made me cry TT

15. 215 绝 Despair Subway 绝望地铁 False Justice伪正义Mystery971k WordsCompleted To and from work, I take the subway every day. I used to think the subway had become part of my life. Numb, boring, and the same old routine. Until the day I woke up on the subway and realized I was wrong. The carriage announcement rang in my ears: "Welcome aboard the Despair Subway. This train is about to arrive at the Human World Station. Passengers with tickets may disembark by presenting them. Passengers without tickets will be forced off at the Hell Station." I knew that tonight, the mad sc 990Reads—Score101Shelves
16. 216 不 Don't You Hate Me to the Core? Why Are You Crying Now That I'm Dead? 不是厌恶至极？我死你哭什么 One Drink to Banish a Hundred Sorrows一醉解百忧Two Male Leads257k WordsCompleted (The rating just came out. It'll go up.) Male-male romance / reborn and awakened / everyone gets their comeuppance / from universally hated to universally adored / real and fake young masters The real young master, Wen Shuran, is reborn. In his previous life, he did everything he could to win his family's affection. But because of one thing the fake young master said, he became the family's hated "villain" and "troublemaker." Wen Hengshu took everything from him: his parents, his identity, e 6.9kReads8.2Score1.1kShelves

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    That's pretty awesome, but not to the point of being utterly despairing. It's more like a redemption story (^.^)/

17. 217 厌 My World-Weary Wife Is So Well-Fed and Soft!! 厌世老婆养得白白嫩嫩！！ Xiao Sui小绥Two Male Leads111k WordsCompleted [Two male leads / Marriage Before Love / both pure / guiding partner / healing / mutual devotion] (Complete) Mu Xu (top) x Lin Jin (bottom) [Marriage Before Love] [Gentle, insecure top VS world-weary, long-haired beauty bottom] Lin Jin couldn’t find interest in anything. On the night he decided to end his life, he ran into Mu Xu, a classmate from high school. They entered a fake marriage. The timid Mu Xu had been in love with someone for years. When they met again, that person was about to jump 24.6kReads9.4Score4.6kShelves
18. 218 绝 Classroom of Despair 绝望教室 Cat Jiujiu猫九九Mystery1.1M WordsCompleted One day, a classmate who had been dead for a long time dragged everyone in our class into a bizarre QQ group and forced us to take part in a death vote. After I managed to escape the Desperate Classroom, one massive conspiracy after another unfolded. To survive, I sold my soul… 141Reads5.7Score—Shelves
19. 219 从 Starting Out as a Full-Time Undercover Agent in Northern Myanmar 从缅北开始做全职卧底 Moonlight Before My Bed床前明月光Mystery1.2M WordsOngoing “Perhaps the beings created in darkness can also defeat the darkness.” After being kidnapped, Mu Guang, born with a personality disorder, is trafficked to northern Myanmar. Faced with death and threats, he stays calm, decisive, and ruthless, earning the admiration of a drug lord. But no one knows that this antisocial man has long been an undercover police officer... Five years later, a new police officer named Mu Guang reports for duty at the Shun'an Municipal Public Security Bureau, only to be 10.3kReads9.5Score1.2kShelves

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    My heart isn't feeling well (especially with the first book).

20. 220 灵 Spiritwalking Through Time and Space 灵行时空 Silence Has Lasted Long Enough沉默够钟Mystery867k WordsOngoing The Red Moon's invasion tore through space and time, and supernatural horrors descended across the globe! From the start, the protagonist takes control of a useless C-rank ghost, only to discover that it's a universal puzzle piece. But before he can grow strong, A-rank and S-rank paranormal incidents come one after another: Murderous illusion, evil ghost doppelganger (Split Ghost Persona, A) A gluttonous feast on a bridge in the rain (Hanging Ghost Incident, S) A terrifying haunting, the living 6.9kReads8.0Score1.1kShelves
21. 221 塌 After His Career Imploded, the Vampire Painter Got His Comeuppance! 塌房后，吸血鬼画家被反制了！ Heji赫笈Two Male Leads156k WordsCompleted Dual male leads: Shy little madcap illustrator’s apprentice Lin Han Che × composed vampire painter and mentor Isesos (The vampire painter got turned on his head, so I don’t even know which one’s the top. Let’s leave it at that...) No matter what, Lin Han Che would gladly die on that day. He not only attended his idol’s art exhibition, but met the man himself. And not only did he meet him, he even got to talk to him... What? Idol, you need an apprentice to wash your brushes? Me, me, me! I can do 5Reads—Score—Shelves

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    I'm just venting my frustrations—sentenced to a life sentence by fate with no right to appeal—"Precisely because there is no cure, one drinks poison to quench thirst." (Opening remarks of Volume Two, "Poison")

22. 222 你 Your Mystery Novels Make You Better at Solving Cases Than the Police? 你写悬疑小说比警察还会查案？ Ju Jiuzhi桔九织Mystery1.0M WordsCompleted (No System, no female lead, not invincible, mostly everyday life, Conan-like bad luck, cases both big and small.) (Warning: The protagonist does everything for himself and is no conventional good guy. Don’t read if that bothers you. Also, no female lead doesn’t mean no female characters; it just means there are no romantic scenes. Don’t read if you don’t want women to appear.) Other people transmigrate and find opportunities and connections waiting for them. When Lu Ci transmigrates, the only th 7.1kReads8.9Score846Shelves
23. 223 绝 Desperate Game Season Two 绝望游戏第二季 Nine Dragons, Ninth Master九龙九爷Male-Channel Fanfiction265k WordsCompleted I found this story’s ending too unsatisfying, so I wrote a continuation to make up for what was left unresolved and fulfill my fellow readers’ wishes. In my novel, all of you Darkedge Divine Guards will receive a legendary power-up, and the full twelve Darkedge divine positions will finally be filled. Characters from Desperate Dawn will also appear, but the plot has absolutely nothing to do with Desperate Dawn, so please forgive me. I’m writing from an omniscient perspective, so the story will m 857Reads8.7Score101Shelves
24. 224 他 Where He Belongs 他的归处 Worried Unicorn操心的独角兽Two Male Leads22k WordsCompleted The internet was flooded with stories of Song Qing’s heroic deeds. I saw a video someone had taken: Song Qing leapt gracefully into the lake like a carp, then slowly disappeared, as if that had always been where he belonged. 4kReads8.1Score650Shelves

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    The first book really had a subtle sense of death about it, and the ending was also very regrettable, with only one chapter. The second book, however, was an "if" version of the first, a happy ending, so sweet that it brought tears to my eyes.

25. 225 前 I Didn't Know How Good My Wife Was in My Past Life, but Now I'm Clinging to Her and Begging for a Hug 前世不知老婆好，重生纠缠要抱抱 Spring Never Fades春不熄Two Male Leads471k WordsCompleted (Completed) [Two male leads + ABO + sweet and angsty + reborn + winning back his wife + redemption + mutual devotion + divorce reality show + livestreaming + devoted couple, 1v1 + happy ending] [Reborn Alpha puppy who only has eyes for his wife & cool, gentle Omega beauty suffering from both physical and mental illness] In his previous life, Lu Heng was rebellious. He was determined to divorce the person his family had forced him to marry. Then he was unexpectedly left paralyzed and abandoned by 10.1kReads8.7Score1.2kShelves

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    Koike. A masterpiece. Absolutely heart-wrenching.

26. 226 心 State of Mind! 心境！ Soul of the Mind心境之魂Eastern Fantasy3.1M WordsOngoing (Eloquent writing + xuanhuan fantasy + suspense + supernatural + spiritual cultivation + ordinary-person progression + no System + no clichés + no invincibility + no mindless characters) Wu Jing, a young herb gatherer from Qingshi Town, falls off a cliff and attains sudden insight, glimpsing the secret of a century-long lifespan! But the road to longevity is filled with deadly dangers. The stunning heiress he treats has an ancient heart demon sealed inside her; the Daoist temple he joins conceal 137Reads—Score—Shelves
27. 227 死 The One Thing I Wanted to Record Before I Died 死前，我唯一想记录的 He Yuyi鹤羽依Two Male Leads25k WordsCompleted I fell in love with my non-blood-related older brother, but he found me disgusting and sent me to a conversion therapy center. After I got out, my mental state deteriorated day by day, and in the end, before I died, I wrote this 3.1kReads8.1Score656Shelves

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    Trust me, just watch.

28. 228 枝 Zhizhi, You Wind Around My Heart 枝枝绕我心 Chan Xiaxia缠夏夏Modern Romance209k WordsCompleted [Both leads are devoted only to each other + happy ending] What Shen Zhiyi doesn’t know is that from the moment she returned to the country, a massive net had already been laid out for her. All Sheng Hanzhou’s plans for revenge collapsed the moment he saw Shen Zhiyi. Now that he’s seen her again, all he wants is to keep her bound to his side forever. The past no longer matters; all that matters is their future. When Shen Zhiyi falls ill, he holds her tightly and wonders why it couldn’t have been 13.6kReads9.0Score1.1kShelves

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    In this book, the female lead suffers from depression, and the separation is due to a misunderstanding. The male lead only discovers her depression later, and they reconcile. I didn't skip a single chapter; it was so good! [Laughs]

29. 229 无 A Wound That Cannot Be Spoken Of 无诉之伤 Ling Bai聆栢Modern Romance156k WordsCompleted [The obedient child nobody loves] x [The father, a prisoner of trauma] Those unheard cries and that unforgivable past have become a silent wound in Fu Wenbai’s eyes. Love is forbidden, pain is part of everyday life, and even existing feels like a mistake. Dad won’t love Luoluo anymore. Luoluo is the one who caused Mom’s death… But, Dad, I really am in pain. I really am sick. I really don’t know how to pretend I’m fine anymore. If you could love me just a little more, just a little, that would be 2.8kReads8.1Score292Shelves

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    Nice...

30. 230 暴 After a Thug Sets His Sights on the Swan, She Becomes a Caged Bird 暴徒盯上白天鹅后，她成了笼中雀 Yu Jiuqing虞九卿Modern Romance294k WordsCompleted Top-Tier Thug × Resilient Ballerina [Forced Love + Cross-Cultural Romance + Taking by Force + Soft-Hearted Heroine + Male Lead Is No Good Man + Size Difference + Seven-Year Age Gap] With one breathtaking dance, she looked like a swan with a broken wing onstage, and a man took notice of her. That very night, she was being hunted. With nowhere else to go, she fled into his car, and he saved her. He rubbed the ring in his hand, his words cold and menacing. “Spend the night with me.” He never expect 8.1kReads6.5Score481Shelves
31. 231 我 My Family Only Started Loving Me After I Became Severely Depressed 我严重抑郁后，全家才开始爱我 Mu Jiufeng木九风10k WordsCompleted My whole family only started loving me after I fell into severe depression 1.9kReads—Score129Shelves
32. 232 逃 The Day I Tried to Run, Mr. Shen the Mad Dog Stole a Kiss and Took Me by Force 逃跑当天，被疯狗沈总欺吻强夺了 Yu Jiuqing虞九卿Modern Romance165k WordsCompleted My new work is out! You can find it on Tomato Novel. I hope you’ll enjoy it. Your support motivates me to write, and I’ll do my best to tell every story well! 2.6kReads—Score113Shelves
33. 233 花 When the Flowers Bloom and Fade: Transmigrated into the Dark Group's Beloved 花开荼蘼【穿书成黑暗团宠】 Fish Roaming the Ninth Heaven九霄游鱼Modern Romance1.9M WordsCompleted [Transmigrate into a book (sort of) + System + ensemble cast + lighthearted supernatural battles + official love interest is dead] Chang Le wakes up to find she has transmigrated into a novel about secret identities as a deranged, wicked female supporting character! In a dangerous world of supernatural powers and rampant alien species, things go wrong from the start. Chang Le thinks she just needs to stay alive, win over the domineering eldest brother, celebrity second brother, soldier third bro 936Reads9.2Score136Shelves

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    This book is incredibly fitting. The official couple dies at the start, and the female lead genuinely suffers from mental illness. Before losing her memory, she was in a state of despair and madness. The early part, before she fully regained her memories, is relatively light and heartwarming. The later part, as the main plot and the female lead's past memories unfold, becomes more oppressive and heavy. Chang Le is truly a bittersweet character.

34. 234 我 I'm Dying, Yet the Paranoid Young Marshal Begs Every God and Buddha with Red Eyes 我快死了，偏执少帅红眼求遍神佛 A Sword Drawn, Wind Rises引剑风生Two Male Leads293k WordsCompleted [Two Male Leads + Warlord + Devoted Love + Angsty and Satisfying + Regret and Redemption + Both Pure] [Obsessive, Violent, Devoted Warlord Top x Resilient, Gentle, Kind Beggar Bottom] Jiang Yushu was a fraud who had carefully plotted his way into the governor’s mansion in disguise. Shen Changye had always known that the fraud pretending to be his younger brother was a lowly beggar. At first, he treated the beggar like a puppet on strings, tormenting him at will. But when Jiang Yushu truly gave u 4.9kReads9.4Score547Shelves

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    Here, take it~ It'll be enough to make you suffer for a while~

35. 235 我 My Girlfriend with Severe Depression Is a Rich Heiress 我的重度抑郁症女友是豪门千金 Gentleman Thief侠盗9k WordsCompleted To keep my girlfriend, who suffers from severe depression, alive, I worked around the clock drawing design plans, delivering takeout, and driving for ride-hailing apps, all to scrape together thousands of yuan a day for her treatment. My friends all said they were afraid I’d work myself to death and told me to give up. I didn’t care. As long as she could stay alive, I was willing to give up everything. But when I delivered a late-night order at two in the morning to the most expensive villa dist 29Reads—Score—Shelves
36. 236 栀 Zhizhi, Be Good! You Can’t Escape My Grasp 栀栀，乖！你逃不出孤的手掌心 Yu Jiuqing虞九卿Ancient Romance566k WordsCompleted A cool, reserved young female doctor vs. a mad prince (the heroine later becomes empress!) [Abduction and coercion + taking a minister’s wife + redemption arc + devoted romance + melodrama + forced marriage + obsessive male lead] Xie Zhao is rescued by a young village doctor. But there’s always a cool detachment in her eyes and brows. He loves women like her. He wants to possess her. But the young doctor is engaged. No matter, he can steal her away. If she doesn’t love him, he can keep her by hi 6kReads7.0Score287Shelves
37. 237 影 The Movie Emperor’s Beloved Is Spitting Blood Yet Again 影帝的心尖尖又双叒吐血了 Cloud in the Clouds云中的云Two Male Leads1.2M WordsCompleted (Beautiful, strong, sickly uke with fragile organs who keeps coughing up blood + wealthy, handsome actor seme who falls in love at first sight) Ye Rong is just like his name: surplus, useless, and a nuisance. His mother died in childbirth, so his father and siblings never liked him. From childhood, his family sent him away to Rongcheng, a remote city more than ten thousand miles from the capital, Jing City. His adoptive parents beat and berated him from a young age, leaving him riddled with ill 10kReads8.9Score1.3kShelves
38. 238 嘘 Hush! You Can't Escape My Grasp 嘘！你逃不出我的手掌心 Yu Jiuqing虞九卿Modern Romance398k WordsCompleted [Coercive Possession + Powerful Hero and Vulnerable Heroine + Heroine on the Run + Hero Has a Face, but No Conscience + Devoted to Each Other + Chasing His Wife to the Crematorium] The first time Meng Yanci saw Shen Youning, he was captivated by her eyes: foxlike, sly yet harmless when she smiled. They looked perfect for cutting out and preserving as a specimen. He wanted her badly. Unfortunately, once he had her, she had a boyfriend, then a fiancé, but she never had herself. She even tried to r 2.3kReads7.1Score134Shelves
39. 239 穿 Back to My Parents' Teenage Years 穿回爸妈的少年时代 Ying Mufeng应沐风Modern Romance360k WordsCompleted Xiao Ran woke from a deep sleep to discover she'd gone back twenty-five years, to a time when her parents were still in high school... “To Dad: I want to teach you how to be a good father. You have to study hard.” “To Mom: You're a person in your own right first, and my mother second.” A seemingly two-faced but truly obsessive heroine: Everything you see is what I want you to see. (No romance + family bonds + a little angst) 1.2kReads9.2Score109Shelves

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    Don't be fooled by the title! The female lead's unexpected personality was both heartbreaking and exhilarating to watch. (Completed) ≡ω≡

40. 240 从 After Disappearing from the True Young Master's Body, He Went Mad! 从真少爷身体里消失后，他疯了！ Zhao Jiujiu昭九玖Two Male Leads366k WordsCompleted [A true young master who gets accused of having schizophrenia, infuriates everyone, and really does become ill later + a sunny, cheerful recipient who pretends to be his second personality] [Contains pseudo-selfcest elements] [Main story and bonus chapters are complete] [Dedicated to two lovers reunited across time and space] Wen Jiaran had a secret. Every time he fell asleep, he would enter the body of a major villain in some novel he had read. The villain, Lu Yanze, was the true young master. 23.5kReads9.4Score4.4kShelves
41. 241 娇 Jiaojiao, You Can’t Escape My Grasp 娇娇，你逃不出我的手掌心 Yu Jiuqing虞九卿Modern Romance331k WordsCompleted [Ruthless pursuit + Obsessive, unhinged hero + Heroine runs away + Groveling for forgiveness + Both leads are each other’s first + Coercive love] “Jiaojiao…” “He’s not good enough for you. Come to me.” A cruel smile played at the corner of Zhou Yuheng’s mouth. At the sound of his voice, the woman could no longer hold herself up and started to fall backward. But he swept out an arm and caught her by the waist, stopping her from hitting the ground. Yu Jiao’s eyes misted over as she glared at h 3.2kReads8.4Score184Shelves
42. 242 插 No Escape: General Manager Shen's Canary Just Wants to Run 插翅难逃：沈总的金丝雀只想跑路 Yu Jiuqing虞九卿Modern Romance488k WordsCompleted Stubborn Beauty x Obsessive CEO [The Husband's Groveling Era + Canary Romance + Obsessive, Unhinged Male Lead + Substitute + White Moonlight + Dead Lover Trope] On a stormy night, Wen Yang fled frantically in a raincoat, only to run straight into the headlights of Shen Yan's car. The man stood backlit, holding a black umbrella. He sneered, "Can't the iron gate at home keep you in? I should've locked you to the bed with a gold chain." She collapsed in the muddy water, trembling, her almond-sh 7.2kReads8.5Score408Shelves
43. 243 假 If Only You'd Let Me Be Young Again 假如许我再少年 Forest Bath森之汤Modern Romance268k WordsCompleted Ye Qingchen’s despair: She didn’t dare tell him she loved him. Zhou Shi’s grief: He didn’t have time to tell her he loved her. The phrase “if only” describes the overwhelming regret one feels over something that has already happened, and the futile fantasy of trying to change it. [The first time they met, he was twenty-five and she was twenty. He didn’t trust her and missed his chance to save her from despair, sealing her fate. The second time they met, he was thirty and she was twenty-five. The 5kReads9.1Score357Shelves

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    The female lead forces the male lead to marry her in order to get revenge, so he hates her, doesn't trust her, and constantly humiliates and makes things difficult for her after the marriage. In reality, the female lead is poisoned and won't live much longer… The whole story is filled with despair [crying]

44. 244 穿EN After Becoming Everyone's Most Hated, I Slayed with My Peerless Beauty 穿成万人嫌后我靠盛世美颜杀疯了 Frost Pavilion寒霜榭Two Male Leads370k WordsCompleted [Irresistible Beauty That Kills / Live-Streaming Dog Training / Love Triangle Drama] Shen Shuangjian transmigrated into the body of a man hated by the entire world, someone everyone despised. Because he was an illegitimate son, his powerful, wealthy older brother ignored him. Because he had a crush on the capital’s heir apparent, everyone in their circle openly mocked and targeted him. And because he was frail and sickly, the show he was supposed to appear on had been postponed, earning him onli 25.7kReads9.2Score3kShelves
45. 245 我 I Have Never Truly Lived 我从未真正的活过 Xiaohu Who Likes Cats and Dogs喜欢猫狗的晓虎Modern Romance118k WordsCompleted [Pure despair | Ultimate tragedy | No redemption | Suffocating from beginning to end | No twists, no rebirth, no coming to terms] Diagnosed with moderate depression and bipolar disorder at the age of twelve, a boy spends ten years learning one thing: how to hide his own death perfectly in the middle of a crowd. This is not a story about fighting back. There is no comeback, no redemption, and no one opening the door at the last moment. It is a story about “not existing.” When no one has ever tru 5.9kReads6.9Score1.1kShelves

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    It's really good.

46. 246 杀 Killing City: Mental Pollution 杀戮都市：精神污染 Uncultured, zz有辱斯文zzUrban1.0M WordsCompleted [Mild horror + plot twists + bizarre thrills + growth + not a power fantasy + superpowers + beware if you want a straightforward protagonist] Red hail descends, and half the people in the world turn into monsters. They possess superpowers and do whatever they want, with no trace of humanity. Qi Xutian is born with a superpower exclusive to villains. Everywhere he looks, he sees Homelander wannabes. When it comes to being the first to awaken, he can't compete, so he has to take another route: bec 3.7kReads8.8Score387Shelves

    Reader note

    This book features an exceptionally good young boy, who transforms from a somewhat arrogant teenager to someone who seems emotionally numb. It explores tangled causes and effects, hurt in the name of love, and how gentleness and kindness lead to pain and numbness. Readers mostly ask if the protagonist will find happiness.

47. 247 死EN After I Faked My Death, He Went Mad 死遁后，他发疯了 Shiqing Roasted Coconut石青烤椰Two Male Leads250k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + transmigration + faked death + unhinged + wall-stalking + confinement + mutual devotion + System + entertainment industry] Tong Zhao went to a small world twice to complete missions involving Shu Sizhuo. The first time, twenty-one-year-old Tong Zhao rescued eleven-year-old Shu Sizhuo, and the two lived in a run-down rental. During the day, Tong Zhao took him from place to place, hiding from danger. At night, he soothed him to sleep and comforted his young, fragile heart. In the 10.1kReads9.0Score1.3kShelves
48. 248 蚀 A Love That Cuts to the Bone 蚀骨危情 Qi Lao You淇老游Modern Romance753k WordsCompleted Xia Weiming died, and Shen Xiujin personally sent Jian Tong to a women’s prison. During her three years behind bars, Shen Xiujin’s order to “take good care of her” changed Jian Tong beyond recognition. She was even “persuaded to donate a kidney” while in prison. Before she went in, Jian Tong said, “I didn’t kill her.” Shen Xiujin remained unmoved. After her release, Jian Tong said, “I killed Xia Weiming. I’m guilty.” Shen Xiujin’s face turned livid. “Shut up! Don’t let me hear you say that again 68.3kReads9.2Score5.1kShelves

    Reader note

    Xia Weiming, who never appeared at the beginning of the story, was the beginning of Jian Tong's life tragedy. If only Jian Tong hadn't fallen in love with Shen Xiujin [crying] "I killed Xia Weiming, I admit it." "Jian Tong, I'll give you my kidney, can you give me your heart?" "Shen Xiujin loves Jian Tong for all eternity, and Jian Tong loves Shen Xiujin for all eternity."

49. 249 未 The Flowers Faded Before Spring Arrived 未见春来花已逝 Li Yidingxing李一定行Modern Romance209k WordsOngoing [The main story has a tragic ending; the bonus chapters have a happy ending. Both are complete.] [Pure love + romance + angst + school life + a touch of ensemble cast + slice-of-life + depressed heroine Gu Xihuan and sunny hero Liang Suian] Gu Xihuan thought she would remain in pain like this forever, until the day she died. After entering Ling'an No. 1 High School, she meets many kind and lovable classmates. Most of all, there is Liang Suian, her friendly deskmate and class president, whose 454Reads6.4Score102Shelves

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    The female protagonist suffered from depression and ultimately committed suicide by jumping off a building.

50. 250 好 All Right, I Love You Too 好啦，我也爱你 Not Good at Growing Flowers不擅长养花Two Male Leads21k WordsCompleted The sequel to “All Right, I Love You” This story is told from Song Qing’s perspective. You are my one and only. I love you, I really, really love you. I’ll love you in this life, and in the next one too. La la la, I can’t think of anything else to write~ 13Reads—Score—Shelves

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