
I Have Never Truly Lived
我从未真正的活过
- Status
- Completed
- Length
- 118k Words
- Genre
- Modern Romance
- Subgenre
- Youth Sweet Romance
- Updated
- 5mo ago
- Source
- Fanqie
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Explore more →Looking for a Book That Leaves You Feeling Helpless and Despairing
Please, everyone!
Please Recommend Extremely Depressing, Soul-Crushing Books. I Want to Sink into Endless Darkness
Looking for books similar to Genshin Impact: I’ll Fall into the Abyss to Keep an Old Friend Safe (Nine Reincarnations in Genshin Impact).
Tomato Novel's Four Great Tearjerkers
I want to read something similar to He Sinian, I Finally Found the Courage to Leave. Which of these three should I add?
Tomato's Four Most Heartbreaking Novels
I’m in the mood for an angsty novel. Please recommend some sophisticated tearjerkers. I’m also looking for inspiration.
Looking for Angst That’ll Make Me Cry Uncontrollably!
I've suddenly been in the mood for tearjerkers. Nothing too long! It has to be devastating, so pile on the angst! I want to cry until I soak my pillow! The kind of story that makes you cry yourself thin!
Tomato's Four Great Tearjerkers 🍅
Short Angsty Stories Rated 9.5 or Higher That Leave You Unable to Move On for Three Days and Make You Lose Three Jin!!
They Should Have Shone Brightly, but Were Born at the Wrong Time and Met a Regretful End
Looking for books like "You and I Are Called Poetry". www, poets, I'm sobbing. I want stories where people who should have been full of youthful spirit shine through the written word. They deserved better endings. I just want some happy stories about ancient writers.
Desperately Seeking Heart-Wrenching Male-Male Angst!!!
Looking for books like "Quick Transmigration: After I Faked My Death by Dying of an Incurable Disease, the Obsessive Big Shot Went Crazy". Note: I want angst, not rage-inducing drama. I don't want a story that leaves me feeling frustrated!!
Looking for a Tragic Ending. I Didn’t Even Cry at See Spring, and My Tear Threshold Is So High I Feel Like Something’s Wrong with Me
Preferably under 350 chapters and the kind that makes you sob uncontrollably. I have an extremely, extremely, extremely, extremely high tear threshold.
What Are Tomato's Four Great Tearjerkers?
Tearjerkers That’ll Make You Lose Ten Pounds! Short, Heartbreaking, and Guaranteed to Make You Cry. The More Anguish, the Better
The Protagonist Is Depressed, Utterly Radiating Despair
No two-male-lead stories, no two-male-lead stories, no two-male-lead stories. Important things have to be said three times.
Nothing But Angst!!! Knives Flying Everywhere!!!
No sweetness. Don't leave me any way out! Please!
The Heroine Has Depression and Is Suicidal… An Angsty, Tearjerking Story That’ll Make You Lose 10 Jin
BE Angst Novels!!!
I want something that will absolutely wreck me!
Extremely Angsty, the Kind That Breaks Your Heart and Brings You to Tears
Heartbreakingly angsty, like "A Love That Eats Away at Your Bones".
Give Me Angst! I Need Angst! It’s Been Too Long Since a Story Wrecked Me
Make it hurt as much as possible!
I Just Accidentally Deleted My Entire Bookshelf 😱😭😭
Does anyone have any highly rated books to save this poor child? 😭😭
The Protagonist Endures Countless Sorrows Alone. Bring on the Heartbreaking Angst
I want angst! Give me angst! Hahahahaha!
Angsty Story + Bad Ending, The Kind That Tears Your Heart to Shreds!!!
Novels Where Every Word Reveals Despair and Pain
I have an extremely high tear threshold. In the novels I've read before, I only felt regret or thought things were unfair, but I have never actually cried for the characters.
Looking for Heart-Wrenching, Tearjerker Novels
I Just Finished Fallen Into Twilight, and Nothing Can Hurt Me Anymore
Not really.)
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The author's writing style is very good, and the writing is very delicate and sour. Shen Du will always think that he is a waste, a speck of dust, not even as good as a small sparkle on the wings of a butterfly, but no matter how insignificant it is, it will trigger the "butterfly effect". The whole world will change for Shen Du's existence, and the whole world will be happy for Shen Du's existence.
The writing is very good, and the plot is very interesting, but I felt very heavy and dull after reading it. When I read this book, it gave me a feeling, but I don't know how to describe it. I can't express it in words. This feeling is generally quite sad. This is the second time I have read this type of book. I feel that this kind of book makes people sad, but I just want to read it. I am reading it. My heart throbbed during the process. I really like this feeling. I don't know why. It's so sad. I can't help but feel good after reading it. But I really like this type of reading. This is the first time I've posted such a long review. I'm absolutely positive about the author. I'm going to read the author's other novels. I feel like I quite like his writing style and style.
Very sad, this author's writing is really good! Very very good! It was very immersive when I read it. It's really beautiful. The whole book is sour, like an unripe green plum. It's sour (a characteristic of the article) and it's beautiful (it's really beautiful).
It's very depressing to watch, and sometimes I think of myself a little bit. When reading a book, I always hope that the protagonist will be bolder and leave a little mark on the heroine's life, even though I know it is unlikely to happen. The writing is very good and the emotions are delicate, but there are some repetitions and inconsistencies that could be changed. It's really a waste of money to put it on a cool text app like Tomato. I hope this work will become as popular as "Butterfly Dream Zhuangsheng" in the future.
Resonated deeply. I understand how tiring it is and how painful it is to pretend to be a "normal person" in the eyes of humans in a world that does not belong to me. I, too, have always tried to act like a "normal person" in the eyes of humans. My smile is fake, my happiness is fake, my gentleness is fake, my ideals are fake, my expectations for the future are fake... They are all fake and they are all performed by me. Only hatred for the world is real. I played the role very successfully and deceived everyone, even almost deceiving myself. Because I was tired from acting and found that I could no longer pretend. We are not sick, no. We just happen to be born into this world that does not belong to us. Human beings in this world measure us according to their own standards and conclude that we are "abnormal" and "sick". One day we will go home, and our home is not here, not in this world. So I never feel that I am bad. On the contrary, I am a very good person. I don't think it's me who doesn't deserve it. What I don't deserve is this world of nothingness.
The text description of the whole film feels light (?). The emotional line mainly describes the protagonist's longing and love for his grandma and the various conflicts in his heart towards the girl he likes. The protagonist is depressed, his parents are divorced, and the grandma who loved him passed away. All kinds of boyfriends are stacked up, and you will feel the oppression of the protagonist's real and spiritual world.
I had insomnia the night I finished reading this novel. How should I put it? After reading it, I couldn't calm down for a long time. When I read it, I felt an indescribable anger in my heart. I was very desperate. I thought Su Wanyin would lead him out in the end, but I didn't expect that it would just make him fall into a deeper abyss. Shen Du has been denying himself. As long as he is bolder, even if he is just a little bolder, the result may be different, but he didn't. He was really like what he said, curled up like a mouse and died in a corner where no one cared, as if no one cared. The most cruel thing is that Su Wanyin didn't know that Shen Du was a patient from beginning to end. If she had known about it, the outcome might have been different.
A novel is very long, long enough to write a person's life. A novel is very short, short enough to finish a person's life.
It describes the situation of patients with depression very realistically. It's a bit depressing. It's great. I hope everyone will know more about it.
It's very beautiful. It brought me into it, and I just feel sad.