Narcissus's Redemption Countdown

[Main story complete; bonus chapters updating]

★ The cover is meant to be viewed sideways

★ Blurb:

“I know everything about who I was when I was young: my likes, my dislikes, my helplessness, my hardships, my breakdowns, and the pleasure I felt every time I lost myself while staring into the mirror.”

Reader’s guide:

1. Shen Zhi is twenty-eight; Shen Jichuan is eighteen.

Older Shen (Shen Zhi), top VS younger Shen (Shen Jichuan), bottom

2. The story is told from both the top’s and the bottom’s perspectives in roughly equal measure. The top is not weak, but past experiences have left him with PTSD, auditory and visual hallucinations, and other mental health conditions, which he manages with medication. The protagonist is mentally ill because that’s the author’s thing. If that’s not your cup of tea, please don’t read.

3. Both Older Shen and Younger Shen have flaws at this stage of their lives. Neither is perfect. Insulting either one is basically insulting the same person (?).

4. This is a narcissistic romance, written to satisfy my own tastes, so I let loose. The angst and melodrama are off the charts. If you have a lot of triggers, please don’t read.

5. Another day of trying to write a sweet romance. It has a HE ending, though the journey will be bittersweet.

6. A short novel, around 100,000 to 200,000 words.

7. The author enjoys all kinds of stories and writes everything. For the same subject matter, whether I write from the top’s or bottom’s perspective only makes a difference in the intensity of the sexual tension. I’ll choose whichever perspective gives me more tension and better hits my preferences. So if you have specific demands, such as requiring the author to write danmei only from the top’s perspective or only from the bottom’s, please don’t read.

8. Gksk, please don’t read this story. Older Shen loves Younger Shen, and Younger Shen loves Older Shen. They both love each other so much they’re obsessed and driven crazy. There’s no question of one loving the other more; they have always been inseparable.

If no one loves me, I’ll love myself. If no one saves me, I’ll save myself. The snowstorm has passed, Jichuan has come to a stop, time flows backward, and love fills the sky.

Theme: Fear neither the future nor the past.