What Should I Do If I Like Gin?

[Complete. Reading guide and a coming-soon story are below the blurb: How Did All My White Moons Escape Death?] The usual ways of courting someone don't really work for Gin and me. Because Gin is a hitman, and the people in the Organization think I'm a psycho. I joined the Organization as a child, was dumped on Gin, who was still called Kurosawa back then, to raise for a few years, and then was sent somewhere else to carry out missions. My codename is now White Liquor. Everyone else thinks I've forgotten Gin, but isn't there some kind of saying about this? I think I fell in love with him back then. I want to see Gin every moment of every day. I want to love him, and I want to see him cry, but only for me. He can't cry because of someone else. I want to lock him up so I'm the only one who can see him. The problem is that when we reunited, I realized Gin seemed to have forgotten me. That wouldn't do. So I slept with Gin. Mm... He still doesn't seem to remember me, and he wants to shoot me. Bourbon: "Things have been unsettled in the Organization lately. Gin especially seems to be haunted by a ghost." Vermouth: "What century is this? Where would a ghost come from? Bourbon, what do you mean?" Bourbon pointed at someone. "That one. The ghost haunting Gin." Vermouth: "Then it can't just be a ghost. He's a man." Bourbon: "?" "Obviously, he's a male ghost haunting Gin." "..." Vermouth says I'm mentally unwell now because I was starved of love as a child, but Gin can't love anyone. Whatever. It's enough that I love him. Coming soon: the Boys' Love spin-off How Did All My White Moons Escape Death? Click into the author's profile to see it: Yu Shou Jiang Ye started playing a new game. He was very fond of the characters in it, and sincerely regarded his favorite characters as his white moons. [Congratulations, player! Your affection with a designated character has reached 100%. The cuddles-and-sweetness route is now unlocked.] Yu Shou Jiang Ye happily entered the game and started playing through the cuddly romance routes for each of his favorite white moons. He never expected... [Your White Moon No. 1 jumped to his death, leaving you five office buildings and his hat-wearing subordinates.] [Your White Moon No. 2 died after being sealed, leaving you his twenty fingers and all his forces.] [Your White Moon No. 3... at least died of natural causes, leaving you his top assassin and the distillery.] And that was nothing compared to his other white moons, numbers four through seven. Each one had it worse than the last. Yu Shou Jiang Ye: ??? As Yu Shou Jiang Ye stared in shock, the game System wailed, "We're so sorry! We didn't mean to set up the story this way. Please, please don't report us!" The System wanted to find Yu Shou Jiang Ye more stories with new white moons, but he flatly refused. He only wanted these white moons of his. He visited their graves at the appointed times, and tearfully took good care of the inheritances they left him. He never expected that going all-out as a player would make him No. 1 in the business world. Yu Shou Jiang Ye was so successful in his business ventures that he triggered a hidden achievement. The worldlines refreshed and merged, forming an entirely new world. In this new world, Yu Shou Jiang Ye retained ownership of all his inherited real estate, and several of his white moons quietly came back to life under different identities. Before Yu Shou Jiang Ye knew it, the bandage-wearing detective, the King of Curses from a thousand years in the future, the curly-haired police officer who returned safely from the Ferris wheel... had all recovered their memories of spending time with the player, and learned of everything the player had done for them. They looked at one another, all realizing they were among your white moons, and felt deeply confused. They looked at you and felt your sincere affection. Yu Shou Jiang Ye: Wait a second, something's not right here. The blurb has been screenshotted and saved. Author's Weibo: @Jian Yun Gugu - Jinjiang Reading guide: 1. Daily updates at 6 p.m. If I can't update, I'll post a leave notice. Trust me, I'm great at finishing what I start (yeah)! 2. Protagonist is the top, protagonist is the top, protagonist is the top! Don't get it wrong! Bai Shenxun (White Liquor) tops Gin. Bai Shenxun loves him so much, and is a serious lovesick fool. The protagonist will have some breakdown scenes early on, but after around twenty chapters he'll become an absolute lovesick fool. 3. Although this is based on a Japanese anime, I've added some elements of my own to make it a better reading experience and accommodate readers who aren't very familiar with Japan. Please remember to separate it from reality. 4. Respect one another. Don't mention other authors' works under my story, and don't mention my work under other authors' stories. Please don't compare them disparagingly. Every book is a treasure to the readers who love it. Let's communicate kindly and create a harmonious reading atmosphere. 5. This work is serialized exclusively on Jinjiang Literature City. All forms of reposting are prohibited. The Jinjiang app costs only three cents per thousand characters, so it's very affordable. Thank you to everyone who supports the original! Theme: Love can overcome any hardship