Novels Where Every Word Reveals Despair and Pain 有没有那种每个字都透露着绝望与痛苦的小说

1. 101 不 I Stopped Handing Over My Salary, and My Wife Who Spoils Her Brother Panicked 不上交工资，扶弟魔老婆慌了 City Lord城主11k WordsCompleted He won’t hand over his paycheck, and his sister-obsessed wife is panicking. 792Reads—Score714d adds
2. 102 小 The Little Troublemaker Doesn't Have Long to Live 小坏蛋他命不久矣 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads273k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled love + the pursuit of a former lover + happy ending] School bully, sickly bottom Academic superstar, top On Xiao Yu's birthday, his father locked him up in a conversion camp. From that day on, he lost Fu Zechen, the person who loved him most. By the time he escaped that living hell, battered and bruised, Fu Zechen had discarded him without a moment's hesitation. When they met again, his eyes held no trace of affection, only indifference and estrangement. “You're not w 15.5kReads9.2Score1.2k14d adds
3. 103 我 My Ex-Wife Humiliated Me in Front of My Wife, in Public 我被前妻当着老婆的面在大庭广众 City Lord城主Modern Romance10k WordsCompleted My Ex-Wife Humiliated Me in Public in Front of My Wife 454Reads—Score314d adds
4. 104 活 Alive! As Long as She’s in This Town, She’s Alive 活性！只要她还在这座小镇就活着 Bo L Tang波l棠Rural Life114k WordsCompleted You are alive. Your body is alive. But are you still human at heart? Did you see someone today? Did you make a choice today, not because it was easy, but because it was right? Did you do something today where no one could see, something only you would ever know about? It was small, so small you’d feel embarrassed even to mention it. But you did it. That is your humanity. That is your vitality. To be alive, you need humanity. Even if you mutate, you can still be human. Without humanity, you’re no 15Reads—Score—14d adds
5. 105 每 Someone Worries I’ll Kill Myself Every Day 每天都有人担心我会自杀 Alice's Forest Cottage爱丽丝的森林小屋Modern Romance334k WordsCompleted Lin Qingran died in the cold seawater, her life ending forever at the age of twenty-four. Afterward, the family members closest to her were consumed with regret and got the chance to start over. Can they change her fate this time? And what about the person she couldn’t stop thinking of, even as she died? Will they find their happy ending? Lin Qingran noticed that her family had started acting a little differently. Their annual family meeting had become a quarterly one. Her usually stern grandfa 5kReads9.0Score36814d adds
6. 106 离 After Our Divorce, My Wife Wants to See the Kids. I Won't Let Her 离婚后老婆想看孩子，我不允许 City Lord城主10k WordsCompleted After the Divorce, My Wife Wants to See the Kids, and I Won’t Allow It 249Reads—Score—14d adds
7. 107 忘 Forgotten River Teahouse: Ghost Stories Galore at the Ghost Festival Teahouse 忘川茶寮——中元茶寮鬼话连篇 Bo L Tang波l棠38k WordsCompleted Wangchuan Teahouse: Ghost Stories Galore at the Zhongyuan Teahouse 1Reads—Score—14d adds
8. 108 万 The Universally Hated Young Master Reborn 万人嫌小少爷重生以后 Known to All众知Two Male Leads170k WordsCompleted Gu Xingqiao is a little simple-minded. He was born after a difficult labor that cost Lady Gu her life, and a few years later, his older brother and father abandoned him. The unwanted Gu Xingqiao met the powerful, gentle Lin Xiujin. Lin Xiujin was a ray of light in his miserable childhood, and as time passed, that light reached into his heart. Lin Xiujin came across a little bundle of misery with nowhere to go. He took him home, doted on him, and protected him. But he never expected the little on 7.4kReads8.1Score41114d adds

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   This book, [Sending Hearts], is quite heart-wrenching. Despair permeates every line. The protagonist's mother suffered a difficult childbirth and died years later. His father and brother blamed him for her death and abandoned him. However, this unloved protagonist met the person he loved (the other male lead), who shone like a ray of light in his life. But after discovering his feelings, the other male lead also abandoned him, ignoring the protagonist's suffering and the extinguishing of light in his eyes... Don't let the low rating fool you; it's really good, highly recommended!!! I cried buckets while reading it [crying][crying][crying]

9. 109 一 A Blossom, A Cup of Wine, An Immortal Life 一花一酒一仙人，亦眠亦醉亦长生 Eat a Billion Less少吃亿点Eastern Fantasy1.0M WordsCompleted [This book is also known as The Nine Tales of Peach Blossom Spring] [The print edition of The Nine Tales of Peach Blossom Spring goes on sale at 7 p.m. on November 15!] [Immortality + taking disciples + no female lead + lighthearted comedy, no tearjerkers] When your master serves food, you spin the table; when your master chants a spell, you chatter away. When your master rests, you sing; when your master sleeps in, you bang on a pot. Your master is immortal, but your life is short; your master 196.6kReads9.5Score24.6k14d adds

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   Very sweet

10. 110 我 My Younger Days 我的年少时 Xun Bai荀柏Modern Romance144k WordsCompleted I dedicate this book to the youth I had only once, and which I regret so deeply losing! [Redemption + Unrequited Love + Mutual Devotion + Bad Ending] When you aren't brave enough as a teenager, you grow up with regrets. All these years, fate has always been like this: it has given me so much, but it has also made me lose so much. Sometimes I think, let it be. Life is long, with more sorrow than joy. It's not one particular thing that leaves you gasping for breath. It's the slow realization 43Reads—Score—14d adds
11. 111 双 A Double-Faced Jianghu, Dedicated to the Eighteen of Every Story 双面江湖献给所有故事里的十八号 Bo L Tang波l棠Eastern Fantasy187k WordsCompleted The world sings the praises of heroes, But who remembers the nameless extras? The jianghu is more than flashing blades, It lives in serving tea and sweeping floors, too. Two voices separated by countless mountains and rivers, yet keeping exactly the same rhythm. Unhurried, neither too loud nor too soft. Like a heartbeat, like breathing. Like the jianghu itself, quietly and ceaselessly carrying on. 11Reads—Score—14d adds
12. 112 老 My Wife Went on a Business Trip to Japan and Came Back with a Daughter 老婆去岛国出差，带回来个女儿 City Lord城主14k WordsCompleted My wife went to Japan on a business trip and came back with a daughter. 803Reads—Score1114d adds
13. 113 新 Writing Tips for Beginners 新人写作技巧 City Lord城主633k WordsOngoing [Chapters in each volume may be updated or revised over time. Readers are welcome to study the material and leave comments or suggestions.] 1. Describing Appearance Use a character’s physical features to convey their personality, status, age, and other traits. Example: He was tall and gaunt, with sunken eyes and tightly pressed lips, giving him a stern, unapproachable air. Her long hair flowed like a waterfall in the breeze, and her eyes shone with confidence. 2. Describing Expressions Reflect 55Reads—Score—14d adds
14. 114 等 Those Who Await Immortality 等仙之辈 You Zi Yin油子吟Eastern Fantasy1.6M WordsOngoing “Fellow Daoist, have we met somewhere before?” “Son, who are you?” “I seem to remember having a disciple I was very fond of. Why can’t I remember who it was?” “Who exactly owes this venerable one spirit stones?” “Who was it that hit this demon yesterday?” Jiang Yang was the sort of forgettable nobody no one ever noticed, and no one could remember him either. Once he set foot on the path of immortality, he began a cultivation journey unlike anyone else’s. Want revenge? Sorry, you’ll have to remem 47.6kReads8.6Score4.4k14d adds
15. 115 上 The Ancient Powerhouses Have Arrived 上古大佬团驾到 Bo L Tang波l棠Eastern Fantasy108k WordsCompleted The ancient supreme gods Di Jun and Donghuang Taiyi, long since retired and all but legendary, were bored one day. They decided to take their wives, Xihe and Changxi, on a “business trip” that was really a “government-funded vacation,” visiting the Heavenly Court and the Underworld, both under the administration of the current management, the Jade Emperor. When word got out, the officials governing the Three Realms fell into unprecedented panic and chaos. They mistook a simple family outing for 13Reads—Score—14d adds
16. 116 谁EN Whose Simp of a Male Supporting Character Gets Held and Kissed by the Male Lead? 谁家舔狗男配被男主抱在怀里亲啊 Dreaming of Night Plays夜戏梦Two Male Leads377k WordsCompleted [Irresistible bottom, bittersweet romance, angst first and sweetness later, livestream variety show, a chaotic love polygon, two male leads, both virgins, happy ending] Wen Yanyu, a universally hated supporting character who hounded the male lead relentlessly and dragged himself into a storm of public outrage, suddenly awakens to his own consciousness. The System binds him and sends him off on missions. After countless cycles of torment leave him exhausted in body and mind, Wen Yanyu returns wit 56.6kReads9.5Score7.3k14d adds
17. 117 小 No One Has Ascended from This Little World in Ten Thousand Years, So I Came to Investigate 小世界万年无人飞升，我前来查看 City Lord城主13k WordsCompleted No one in this small world has ascended in ten thousand years, so I’ve come to investigate 85Reads—Score214d adds
18. 118 盘 The Meal on the Plate: The Execution Ground, They Watch You, They Remember 盘中餐：刑场——它们看着你，它们记得 Bo L Tang波l棠58k WordsCompleted The Meal on the Plate: The Execution Ground: They Watch You, They Remember 2Reads—Score214d adds
19. 119 诸 Riddled with Illness, I Refuse Treatment. Why Are You Crying? 诸病缠身，我不治，你们哭什么 So, Mister所以先生Urban307k WordsCompleted [Also known as: "Your Son Has Been Gone for a Long Time" and "My Depression Was Getting Better, but I Still Had Stomach Cancer"] Guo Lu was just passing through, a person suffering from depression, schizophrenia, and stomach cancer. After learning that he had only a few years left if he did not seek treatment, Guo Lu wanted nothing more than to end it all on his own terms. After the conflicts with his family accumulated and finally exploded time and again, the people close to him at last learned 4.4kReads8.8Score39214d adds

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    The first one, "Zhuang Zhou Dreaming of a Butterfly," I remember was quite tragic; everyone died. The other three were books I read a while ago, so I don't remember them very well.

20. 120 大 My Senior Brother Is Terrifyingly Strong, Yet Far Too Cautious 大师兄强的可怕却过分稳健 City Lord城主7k WordsCompleted The Eldest Senior Brother Is Terrifyingly Strong, Yet Far Too Cautious 48Reads—Score—14d adds
21. 121 江 Chronicles of the Jianghu: Chaos in Botang 江湖册波棠乱 Bo L Tang波l棠Historical119k WordsCompleted Historical setting: Early Republic of China, around the 1910s to 1920s · What the era represents: The imperial throne has fallen, warlords carve up the country, and Western culture pours in. This is an age when the codes and honor of the “old jianghu” are gradually lost, transformed, and ultimately destroyed by the guns and schemes of the “new world.” The story of Bo and Tang is the most moving verse in this elegy. 3Reads—Score—14d adds
22. 122 绝 The Desolate Seafloor 绝望海底 Little Bird Stewed in an Iron Pot铁锅炖小鸟Urban332k WordsCompleted [Entertainment + Singing + Sickly Hero + Healing + Tearjerker + Positive Energy + Redemption] Bai Chen transmigrates to a parallel world, only to discover that he has cancer and needs a huge sum of money for treatment. A singing contest hosted by pdd is underway, drawing a massive audience and offering a huge cash prize! So Bai Chen joins to earn money for his medical bills. In the preliminaries, Bai Chen sings “Under the Sea,” and the entire livestream falls silent, lost in thought. In the knoc 28.9kReads9.3Score2.3k14d adds

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    There's violence throughout the entire story, and even the travelogue ends with a knife wound. I'm devastated.

23. 123 离 After Our Divorce, My Ex-Wife Wants to See the Kids. I Absolutely Won't Let Her 离婚后前妻想看孩子，我绝对允许 City Lord城主9k WordsCompleted After the Divorce, My Ex-Wife Wants to See the Kids, and I Absolutely Won’t Allow It 339Reads—Score514d adds
24. 124 糖 Candied Hawthorn Inn 糖葫芦客栈 Bo L Tang波l棠Fantastical Romance133k WordsCompleted Pure dialogue, a novel told entirely through lines of speech. The martial world can be a little bitter, so why not try a candied hawthorn? The first bite is tart, but the sweetness lingers. Another one, dear guest! Welcome to the Candied Hawthorn Inn! 10Reads—Score314d adds
25. 125 周 Dr. Zhou's White Moonlight Is Dying 周医生的白月光快死了 Ten-Line Que十行阙Two Male Leads219k WordsCompleted [Fragile, ill bottom VS cold, aloof top] [Heart-wrenching angst + mutually exclusive devotion, 1v1 + bad ending + extreme bottom fans, beware] Wen Ci had terminal stomach cancer. The doctor said he had at most thirty days left, and Wen Ci could live those thirty days for Zhou Ying. But Wen Ci died on the twenty-seventh day. After his death, Wen Ci left behind twenty-seven unread letters, a rabbit, a book, and a crushed red maple leaf. 19.7kReads9.3Score3k14d adds

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    I think it's pretty masochistic.

26. 126 课 Spring and Autumn in the Textbooks 课本春秋 Bo L Tang波l棠Modern Romance212k WordsCompleted Seasons in the Textbook A Republican-era classroom, with one teacher and several students [Volume One] First School Year (Autumn 1932–Summer 1933): The Beginning of Learning Opening Note: In the autumn of 1932, the ancestral hall in Qingxi Town opened its doors as a school. Five children walked inside. Over the next six years, they would see the whole world from here. A Poem for the Opening The ancestral hall’s threshold stands three inches high. The children lift their feet to cross, unawar 26Reads—Score—14d adds
27. 127 蚊 The Mosquito Emperor Has Fallen! 蚊天帝，陨落了！ City Lord城主10k WordsCompleted The Mosquito Heavenly Emperor has fallen! 10Reads—Score—14d adds
28. 128 恨 Who Can I Tell My Grudge To? 恨谁诉？ Youthful Years, Thinking of the Brocade Zither华年思锦瑟Two Male Leads122k WordsCompleted Each chapter is a standalone tragic love story with an open ending, so use your imagination. Some stories are set in ancient times and others in the modern day, but they're all tragic. If that's not your thing, feel free to skip them. 676Reads8.7Score13314d adds

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    Extremely sweet to the point of being explosive!

29. 129 血 The Blood-Red Wedding Dress: My Five-Hundred-Year-Old Ghost Girlfriend 血色嫁衣我的五百岁女鬼女友 Bo L Tang波l棠Mystery214k WordsCompleted A female ghost in a blood-red wedding dress! A sinister plot that extinguished all humanity! A meeting five hundred years in the making: she came back in this life for you! Young Gu Linchuan secluded himself in Jiangnan to prepare for his exams, only to encounter Rong Qianlu, a five-hundred-year-old female ghost dressed in a blood-red wedding gown. Her family was slaughtered when she was alive, turning her into a vengeful spirit, but Gu Linchuan’s gentleness brought out her vulnerable side. The 11Reads—Score—14d adds
30. 130 我 I Have Reached the Pinnacle of Junior College Cultivation, the Strongest in the Mortal World 我乃大专巅峰境修为，人间至强 City Lord城主19k WordsCompleted I Have Reached the Pinnacle of the Junior College Realm, the Strongest in the Human World 12Reads—Score—14d adds
31. 131 任 The Mission Starts Over a Hundred Times 任务重来一百次 milieModern Romance20k WordsCompleted “You came to save me, so why can’t you look only at me? Why do you have to give your attention to those one, two, three insignificant people?” “You seem so shy. You never take my hand first. Even just now, you only did it because of someone else.” “Now that you have me, you don’t treat me as well as you used to. There wasn’t any strawberry milk today either, was there?” 5.8kReads8.6Score1.2k14d adds

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    Although not every single word, I was truly desperate in the end.

32. 132 推 Push: The First Time I Got Pushed, I Hit Back! 推——第一次被推就打回去！ Bo L Tang波l棠64k WordsCompleted Push Back! The First Time Someone Pushes You, Hit Them Right Back! 14Reads—Score114d adds
33. 133 蛙 The Frog Emperor Ascended in a Pool and Saw Countless Members of His Kind 蛙族大帝飞升水池，看见无数同族 City Lord城主10k WordsCompleted The Frog Clan Emperor Ascended Through the Pool and Saw Countless Members of His Kind 6Reads—Score—14d adds
34. 134 从 The Swallow Who Crawled Out of the Dark Abyss 从黑暗深渊中爬出的燕子 A Lifetime of Xiuer秀儿一生Modern Romance509k WordsCompleted Tell me, just how unlucky can one person be? Her own father married four women, and her stepmother treated her like a thorn in her side. In the prime of her youth, she was tricked by a villain and taken away. At long last, she found a little warmth and thought she’d found love, only for it to turn out to be another ill-fated relationship. She got married, thinking she’d found a home, but her life became a complete mess. And that wasn’t the end of it! One by one, all her loved ones disappeared... 95Reads—Score1114d adds

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    This book is really good!

35. 135 入 Entering the Imperial Court 入皇庭 Little Fruit Pear小果梨Ancient Romance686k WordsCompleted [Forced Marriage and Possession, Obsessive Pursuit, Compulsive Love] [The Scheming, Stunning Farm Girl Is Forced into Marriage by the Crown Prince and Made Empress] In her previous life, Lu Xiaotao was an orphan who couldn't read, couldn't tell right from wrong, and spent her days groveling and throwing her weight around. After seducing one of the Crown Prince's subordinates and being abandoned, she became the Crown Prince's woman by a twist of fate. From then on, she served as his consort, reli 10.7kReads6.9Score81514d adds

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    This book will bring tears to your eyes when you see the heroine's suicide and the hero's belated deep affection; it gets better and better as you read on.

36. 136 主 Sacrifice the Protagonist to Heaven! Boundless Magic? 主角祭天！法力无边？ Bo L Tang波l棠95k WordsCompleted Sacrifice the Protagonist to Heaven! Boundless Magic Power? 3Reads—Score—14d adds
37. 137 被 My Wife Hypnotized Me and Uncovered My Secrets 被老婆催眠，她问出了我的隐私 City Lord城主13k WordsCompleted My wife hypnotized me and asked about my secrets 22Reads—Score114d adds
38. 138 记 The Memory Trial: The Moment the Nation Wept for Him 记忆审判：那一刻，全国为他痛哭 Big Fish, Ah大鱼呀Urban1.7M WordsCompleted [Narcotics Police] [Anti-Drug Campaign] [Narcotics Officer] [Sacrifice] A scarecrow stands in the wilderness, shielding the endless expanse behind it. In early autumn, ten years after he left home, he asked someone to place his final wish in your hands. The fire he lit never went out. Only the one who kept watch has gone. The national emblem on his cap is like his name: “Please bury it with me.” Birds sweep across the blank spaces of time, like a long story waking from beneath the dust. His eyes 5kReads9.2Score70114d adds

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    Xie Wenyi fell in love with Liu Shan at first sight. Back then, their relationship wasn't as peaceful as it is now; they had their share of bickering and even ended up in the hospital. Liu Shan, too, had her share of terrible times—she had chains around her neck, lived in a basement, and even in a dark room. But six years have passed, and they seem like an ordinary married couple, but if you think about it carefully, it's not that simple!

39. 139 情 Record of the Illusory Sea of Love: The Great Void Livestream 情天幻海录太虚直播间 Bo L Tang波l棠Ancient Romance479k WordsCompleted The Illusory Realm of the Great Void, by the shores of the Sea of Love. Fairy Jing Huan had been staring blankly into a water mirror for three days. What it reflected was not her peerless beauty, but the countless scenes of the mortal world: office workers scrolling through their phones on the subway, middle-aged men and women haggling at matchmaking corners, livestreamers crying, “Brother, love me!”, and exhausted wage slaves staying up late making PowerPoints until they went bald... “Such mudd 3Reads—Score—14d adds
40. 140 双 A Person with Bipolar Disorder Speaks from the Heart 双相情感障碍患者的心里话 City Lord城主9k WordsCompleted The Inner Thoughts of Someone with Bipolar Disorder 13Reads—Score114d adds
41. 141 藏 Hidden in Midsummer 藏于盛夏 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 84.2kReads9.6Score14.8k14d adds

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    They're all tragic endings, and I like every single one of them.

42. 142 饕 Gluttony’s Execution Ground: Crime and Punishment at the Bottom of the Food Chain 饕餮刑场——食物链底层的罪与罚 Bo L Tang波l棠60k WordsCompleted The Gluttonous Execution Ground: Crime and Punishment at the Bottom of the Food Chain 2Reads—Score—14d adds
43. 143 和 Say Goodbye to Your Entire Clan! Kangxi Armor Fusion 和你的九族说再见吧！康熙铠甲合 City Lord城主9k WordsCompleted Say goodbye to your entire clan! Kangxi Armor Merge 18Reads—Score—14d adds
44. 144 我 I Have Never Truly Lived 我从未真正的活过 Xiaohu Who Likes Cats and Dogs喜欢猫狗的晓虎Modern Romance118k WordsCompleted [Pure despair | Ultimate tragedy | No redemption | Suffocating from beginning to end | No twists, no rebirth, no coming to terms] Diagnosed with moderate depression and bipolar disorder at the age of twelve, a boy spends ten years learning one thing: how to hide his own death perfectly in the middle of a crowd. This is not a story about fighting back. There is no comeback, no redemption, and no one opening the door at the last moment. It is a story about “not existing.” When no one has ever tru 5.9kReads6.9Score1.1k14d adds

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    I started crying while looking at this, and I don't even know why. [Laughing]

45. 145 大 I Had the Cultivation of a Great Emperor, but My Wife Took Half in the Divorce 大帝修为，离婚被老婆分掉一半 City Lord城主12k WordsCompleted With the cultivation of a Great Emperor, I divorce and my wife takes half 11Reads—Score114d adds
46. 146 蛮 The Savage Era: The Legend of Tang Yan 蛮荒纪元：棠焱传奇 Bo L Tang波l棠Historical87k WordsCompleted The Wilds Era: The Legend of Tang Yan 6Reads—Score—14d adds
47. 147 杀 Slaughter Kindergarten: Killergarten 杀戮幼儿园——Killergarten Bo L Tang波l棠78k WordsCompleted Killergarten 4Reads—Score—14d adds
48. 148 女 Little Bedtime Math Stories for My Insomniac Girlfriend 女友失眠数学小故事 City Lord城主7k WordsCompleted A little story about a girlfriend with insomnia and math 13Reads—Score—14d adds
49. 149 诡 The Eerie Hotel: I Break Deadly Plots Through Endless Deduction 诡异饭店：我靠无限推演破杀局 Jia Huan嘉奂Mystery134k WordsOngoing [Horror Rules] [Light Infinite-Flow] Want a seat at the table? Then bet your life first! Lin Fan accidentally wanders into a bizarre restaurant, where the ingredients are actually the diners. Can he survive only by filling the menu? If every step comes with a rule, perhaps turning those rules against the restaurant is his one chance to stay alive... 148Reads—Score—14d adds

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    Putting yourself in the protagonist's shoes felt quite hopeless; it seemed like there was no other way out but to go completely insane.

50. 150 报 Revenge? The Scalpel Turns on My Unrequited Love 报复？手术刀划向白月光 Clever Cat King聪明的猫KingModern Romance8k WordsCompleted Revenge? The Scalpel Turns on His One True Love 312Reads—Score—14d adds

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