My Younger Days

Name: My Younger Days
Author: Xun Bai

我的年少时

by Xun Bai (荀柏)

Status: Completed
Length: 144k Words
Genre: Modern Romance
Subgenre: Workplace & Marriage
Updated: 1y ago
Source: Fanqie

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I dedicate this book to my one and only youth, which I remember with such regret! [Redemption + unrequited love + love that goes both ways + tragic ending] When I was six, I followed my mother to another village after she remarried. My broken family made me want to escape from my mother from a young age. I met Yang Luobei when I was seven. We were each other’s only friend. While he went to school, I stayed home to look after my younger siblings. When he started high school, I had only just graduated from elementary school. That year, the boy I liked wore a blue school uniform and waved to me beneath the locust tree. “Want to walk home together?” One look was all it took to sweep me off my feet. While he was at university, I worked away from home because my family was poor. When we met again, he waited for me beneath the cypress tree every day. I kept searching for the boy who waited for me beneath that cypress tree. He said I should marry someone worthy of me, but I got married at eighteen. Ten years later, I met Yang Luobei again. He was still in graduate school, wearing the scarf I had knitted for him with my own hands. After my divorce, I raised my child on my own and rekindled things with Yang Luobei. Beibei, the cherry blossoms are blooming. Beibei, what you’re smoking isn’t a cigarette. It’s longing. Just as we were preparing to get married, Yang Luobei passed away in May of that year, far away in Yunnan. I could never again find the boy who waited for me beneath the cypress tree. That’s why my pen name is “Xun Bai.” It means “searching for the boy beneath the cypress tree.” He was gentle and kind, giving me all his patience and affection. I said, “In our next life, don’t leave me behind.” He said... “Big Sis, why are you smoking too?” “What I’m smoking isn’t a cigarette. It’s longing.” Beibei, the cherry blossoms have withered, and you’re gone too. You were my whole sky. Yang Fan, I wish you happiness. Yang Luobei, Yang Fan, the cherry blossoms are blooming again.

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I read it in one breath, the writing is delicate and beautiful, and it uses poetic brushwork to describe life and delicate emotions. It is full of the texture of life and makes people feel empathetic and wistful when reading it. We must embrace new life every day! Come on! ! !
7 likes8mo ago
Great, great, great, at least it seems to me to be great. I have opened books on other platforms, and I have also used things in my own life to write, but most of them are empty. The author is really great. She dared to recall but I didn't. The author's timeline is very clear. The information I can extract should be as old as one of my sisters. At that time, there were still differences in the concepts of men and women among the older generation. Although I was younger, they also expected a boy from me, but they failed. As I wish... I almost died when I was eighteen. My parents love me, but they love me as they see me, not as I am in real life. I have experienced the darkest moments, but I am lucky. My good friends have been scolding me.
7 likes10mo ago
This is a youth elegy wrapped in regret and tenderness. A broken family creates a desire to escape, but the bond with Yang Luobei turns into a glimmer of secret love. The pull of study and life makes love miss each other, the waiting of cypress trees and the gift of scarves make regrets tender, and the suspense of "when preparing to get married" adds a heart-warming footnote to farewell. The author uses delicate brushwork to cut open the folds of youth, so that everyone who is tossing and turning in their fate can find their own shadow in the words, and their eyes will be wet with unfinished or passed heartbeats.
6 likes8mo ago
Dear author, I just hope you live a good life, the past is over, the writing is so good, the writing is beautiful, and the story is eloquent, about the misplaced life, the broken family, the lost white moonlight, the amnesia lover, you are so miserable, I hope you will go well in the future and be happy.
6 likes10mo ago
I like descriptions of life, "Go to the city." He raised his arm and looked at the time. The way he moves his hands and feet is so elegant.
4 likes1y ago
It can be called a memoir, with delicate emotions, poetic and picturesque, and eloquent narration.
4 likes1y ago
The book is very realistic about the impact of family and studies, and the pull is very delicate. The author's writing style is also superb. The descriptions of various emotions are directly touching people's hearts. The plot is so attractive that I watched it until the end! Don't say anything else, just watch it! [Laughing out loud]
3 likes2mo ago
The writing is good, keep up the good work
3 likes1y ago
I finished reading it in one go and I was quite emotional. What is youth?
2 likes8mo ago
Beautiful, detailed story
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