Bucket List

I wish Wangshu to be brave twice in his life: One time was after the death of my grandmother in the welfare home. I came to X town alone, intending to find her abducted son, and then find a quiet place to die quietly. One time was when I met Shen Dai. Shen Dai was his high school classmate. He fell ill and was picked up by him during his graduation trip. When he woke up, he shamelessly followed him to find someone—— "You've been taking care of me all night, how can I not repay the favor, old classmate?" Zhu Wangshu knew that this man had a bad reputation, he was a playboy, and he had many ambiguous relationships with him. But when Shen Dai pulled him to pretend to be a ghost to avenge the kidnapper and vent his anger for his grandmother who died of illness, her eyes were so bright that it made his heart tremble. Zhu Wangshu was pulled by him and ran wildly, and suddenly thought: It's worth it to live such a happy life before death. They went skiing, skydiving... And went to all the places they had never dared to go before. When Shen Dai was lying side by side with him, pointing out the stars in the sky to him, the light shone into Zhu Wangshu's eyes. He suddenly didn't want to die. He wanted to lie with Shen Dai like this for the rest of his life. But he couldn't say it. A person who plans to die has no right to delay anyone's life. ＊ Shen Dai only found it interesting at first. Zhu Wangshu was so weird - her eyes were always bent when looking at him, but she refused any approach from him. He thought the man was playing hard to get until he accidentally saw the bucket list on Zhu Wangshu's bedside. The last line read: "Go see where grandma last lived and be done with it." Only then did Shen Dai understand: Zhu Wangshu's self-destructive courage in the past was not a love of life. In fact, together with his rejection, he was saying goodbye in advance. He privately contacted people in the orphanage where Zhu Wangshu grew up, and wanted to tell Zhu Wangshu that there were still people in the world who were thinking of him. Zhu Wangshu got angry at him for the first time: "Who do you think I am, and why do you make decisions for me?" Shen Dai stayed where he was, watching him turn and leave, his body cooling down a little: He wanted to save him, but why did he seem to be forcing him? After the quarrel, Zhu Wangshu couldn't help but secretly went to the orphanage. Ever since he failed the college entrance examination and his lie about going to college was exposed, he has not dared to go back. On the third day of peeking, he was caught by the new dean. The dean handed him the things left by grandma and opened the letter, which read: "Xiaoyue, is it hard to work outside? Grandma has saved all the money you sent back for you." He clutched the letter and cried until he sobbed. Shen Dai's message lit up on his phone—— "I'm sorry, I was so self-righteous. But I still hope you can live, even if it's not because of me." When Zhu Wangshu dialed the phone, Shen Dai answered quickly. "I'm sorry," Zhu Wangshu paused, "are you still willing to accompany me to the places I mentioned last time?" There was silence on the other end of the phone for two seconds, and then there was the sound of rummaging through the suitcase: "Send me the location. Also, we agreed to go skydiving in Y City. When will you resupply me?" "Just Y City?" Shen Dai's voice was a little hoarse: "All places, all places... As long as you change the name on that list, I will go with you." Intention: Live well.