The Ninth Time My First Love Killed Me

[The main story is complete. Read without worry!] Tsukiyama Haru was an ordinary person who died on her nineteenth birthday. The one who killed her was her first love, the man she adored: a cute, handsome, exceptionally popular genius jujutsu sorcerer. On the ninth rewind of her life, having already tried eight different ways to die, Tsukiyama Haru finally decides to strike first and take out that bastard! A certain special-grade curse user discovers after dying that he’s alive again. At first, he thinks it’s because he can’t accept what happened, so he’s forced to repeat this long death over and over. But on the ninth rewind of his life, the curse user finally realizes that what has trapped him isn’t his inability to let go. It’s his lover’s love. Cursed by the lover who died, he must endlessly relive the pain of losing her and the lightless years in which her face and voice are gone. Because love is the most twisted curse in the world. * The pairing is the King of Curses. * Killing your wife will land you in the crematorium arc [absolutely] * A story that puts everyone through the wringer. Most characters besides the heroine remember all nine loops. Also known as Schrödinger’s Loop. Please check out my upcoming novel, [Genshin Impact: How to Raise a Xiao]. Visit my author page to see it. Please add it to your reading list! After a friend recommends it, Kohira Yukari starts playing the game [Genshin Impact Character-Raising Guide]. The gameplay is completely different from the gacha RPG her friend described, but clueless Kohira Yukari doesn’t suspect a thing. She assumes it’s a spin-off from the same company. What does it matter what game she plays? If it’s from the same series, it must be fun too! First, she adopts a little bird. Yukari: “Wow, his name is Great Demon Golden-Winged Peng? So cool!” What? The little bird is being controlled by an unknown boss? Yukari: “Spend money! Spend money! I’ll pay to beat that boss at match-three and set my baby free!” What? The little bird eats snow to stave off hunger? Yukari: “Waaah, my baby’s so pitiful! Spend money! Spend money! Buy everything! I’ll get him nutritious meals! Kaiseki! Almond tofu! High-calcium milk! I’ll make sure he eats well and grows big and strong!” The little bird comes back with a new friend. Yukari: “...How did my baby become friends with a rock? Waaah, my baby. He must have gotten stupid from eating snow earlier, right?” With Yukari’s devoted attention and generous spending, her baby grows up healthy. Then one day, the System displays a message: [The young Great Demon Golden-Winged Peng you raised has reached adulthood. Would you like to release him?] Though Yukari is heartbroken, she knows her child is all grown up and can’t stay by her side forever, so she reluctantly releases him. * Not long afterward, Yukari forgets all about the game and happily goes hiking with Sonoko and the others. A thick fog rolls in on the way, and their car breaks down in the forest. Strange mist rises all around them. Clueless Yukari isn’t afraid at all. She cheerfully doodles on the car window. First, she draws a heart, then her baby, and happily writes his name. As she finishes the last stroke of “Xiao,” Yukari looks up and sees figures flickering in the thick fog. A young yaksha wearing a mask steps slowly out of the mist, his golden eyes fixed on Yukari. “Three hundred years. At last, I hear you call my name again.” “Now, can you tell me yourself why you abandoned me back then?” * A sweet romance. I started playing the game and got so excited about Xiao that I had to start writing. The main story will begin at the end of the year. * Set in the Detective Conan world. I’ll tweak the timeline and rescue a few Conan characters who would otherwise die. The heroine won’t travel to the world of Genshin Impact, but other Genshin Impact characters will make guest appearances. * Three content warnings for now. Theme: Even in the darkness, there should always be light in your heart.