A Male Lead With Symptoms of Self-Harm and Suicidal Tendencies, Shut Off From the World With Nothing to Live For 有自残自杀症状的男主，封闭自己，没有牵挂

1. 301 戒 Diary from a Conversion Therapy Center 戒同所日记 Youthful Years, Thinking of the Brocade Zither华年思锦瑟Two Male Leads29k WordsCompleted A diary recording the final two months of my life... Maybe I'm just not meant to be loved. Otherwise, why would everyone who loved me leave? 12.6kReads8.2Score2.4k14d adds

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   I don't know why the rating is so low; it's probably only 98% tragic.

2. 302 国 Why Is the Lord of the Kingdom So Distraught? 国主为何如此崩溃 Cat Cat Monster Cat Cat猫猫怪怪猫猫Two Male Leads550k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + equally powerful + secretly unhinged + sweet romance + multiple personalities] Chu Mingxin was utterly devastated. How could he not be? He’d transmigrated into a novel his older sister wrote back in middle school! He didn’t even want to think about how earth-shattering and outrageous the plot was! He planned to cling to the male lead and enjoy a life of easy wins. The male lead would go on a killing spree while he cheered from behind. Even if the sky fell, the tall male lead co 68Reads—Score—14d adds
3. 303 什 What? Mr. Xie Is My Virtual Boyfriend? 什么，谢总是我养的纸片人？ Sea Salt Cream Cap海盐奶盖Modern Romance256k WordsCompleted At seventeen, the Ning family found their biological daughter. Gu Yu, the adopted daughter, was discarded like trash and sent back to the impoverished mountains, where she moved into a cave dwelling. Life was hard, but luckily she found a life-simulation game. [Life-simulation game + cozy daily life + life gets better + sweet happy ending] ←←← Female lead's perspective * Male lead's perspective ↓↓↓ Xie Changxiao was gravely ill. The doctors said he had only three months left to live. The day he 2.1kReads9.3Score31914d adds

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   A fake heiress versus a sickly young master 🌼 What do you do when you encounter a nurturing game when you're at your poorest? I need help urgently...💜💖 A nurturing game, heartwarming daily life, sweet happy ending, a story of love and redemption from the male lead's perspective. He, who has little will to live, meets the woman who wants to save him. 🌺 Highly recommended, you won't regret reading it.

4. 304 路 An Extra's Guide to Surviving in a Comic 路人乙漫画生存指南 The Long Road Back South迢迢南归Modern Romance1.5M WordsCompleted Dropped by the author. You can go straight to the final three chapters. Male lead, no romance. Ensemble cast. Academy for people with special abilities. A year after the school arc of the comic Superpower Academy ended, the college arc finally began. It opened on September 1, with the main cast entering Supernova Academy for the Gifted. [The main cast ending up in Class F really is a classic] [That person in Class F must be a big shot] [The people in Classes S and A are so strong too] [What abou 25.1kReads9.5Score2.8k14d adds

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   Perhaps Lu Renyi? But it seems he doesn't care about his own life and doesn't actively integrate into the group. This Yi just wants to travel the world, so what!

5. 305 穿 After I Transmigrated, I Gave Up, but My Target Started Pursuing Me Instead 穿越后摆烂我被攻略对象反攻略了 Jiang Li Jiang Li江黎姜离Two Male Leads1.4M WordsOngoing Dual male leads, everyone's favorite, cultivation, System, angst first and sweetness later, reincarnation, amnesia, twists. I transmigrated into a hidden extra, and not just any extra, but a crucial one! The original story never even mentioned me! The calamity that will destroy the world is fast approaching, yet the System's missions are utterly baffling. Am I supposed to form a friendship bond with the child of destiny? Or win over the world-ending villain? And there's more than one child of de 460Reads9.4Score11014d adds

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   The first book was only released on New Year's Day! It's a female-to-male transmigration cultivation novel with two male protagonists, initially 1vN, later 1v1, angsty at first, sweet later, with many plot twists. The second book is a prequel to the first, also a female-to-male transmigration cultivation novel with two male protagonists, 1v1 pure angst, finding sweetness amidst the shards of glass. Don't worry about the details of the tags; male body, female soul—it's inherently difficult to define the exact gender. If you insist on being pedantic, I can't help you; you're right.

6. 306 十 Ten Lifetimes of Entanglement, All Ending in Tragedy 十世纠缠皆成殇 Jiang Li Jiang Li江黎姜离Two Male Leads300k WordsOngoing Dual male leads, one-on-one romance, a love full of hatred, cultivation, transmigration, reincarnation, and heartbreak. He transmigrates in a dream, taking over someone else's identity. The moment he opens his eyes, he finds the original owner's enemy standing before him. And that enemy is none other than the supreme ruler of the Demon Realm! At first, Jiang Li thinks it's all a dream. Carefree and sharp-tongued, he eventually enrages Shang Ying and gets a thorough beating. Only then does he rea 147Reads8.9Score10114d adds
7. 307 竹 My Childhood Friend Is Always Afraid I’ll Break 竹马他总怕我碎了 Moon Dwells, Yue Sinks月栖玥沉Two Male Leads887k WordsOngoing Ruan Yumian: A severely depressed boy who is always thinking about ending his life. Pei Sijin: A devoted lover who is always ready to lay down his life for him. To protect his childhood friend, Pei Sijin spends every day on the verge of going berserk: Awful relatives causing trouble? Kick them out! Someone spreading rumors behind his back? Call the police! He gets seriously injured? No matter, as long as his beloved is safe! After finally recovering enough to leave the hospital, Pei Sijin dec 1.7kReads8.6Score16714d adds

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   Welcome to the world of Ruan Yumin and Pei Sijin—the darkness here is long, but the light will always come. Other people's childhood sweethearts: mischievous together, copying each other's homework, a superficial brotherhood. My childhood sweetheart: severely depressed, a genius student, conducting a silent, epic cry for help every day right under my nose. Okay, the redemption script suddenly hits me on the head. While others face a wife-chasing-after-the-crisis scenario, here's "Saving my childhood sweetheart: Did he eat on time today?" I stood by him through the ordeal of a zero-score math test being watched by the whole school, confronted the verbally bullying teacher, protected him during class brawls, and had to watch out for scheming classmates trying to steal him away. I, Pei Sijin, a sunny and cheerful boy, was forced by him to become an encyclopedia of depression and a 24-hour human monitor. Later, under a sky full of fireworks, I asked him his New Year's wish. He said, "I hope the new year will be better." And in my heart, I said: My wish is for your "little bit" to become many, many bits.

8. 308 万 The Man Everyone Hated Has Had a Change of Heart 万人嫌他想开了 Spring Returns, and Soon Grows Tiresome春归易厌Two Male Leads280k WordsOngoing (I just started posting, so I don’t know if the numbers will go up later. Hope you all enjoy reading ⌯>ᴗo⌯ .ᐟ.ᐟ) Original title: Everyone Hated Him, But He Came Around [Two male leads + mutual firsts + younger man/older man + universally hated to universally adored + a touch of groveling] [A ruthless, possessive young heir with a bit of a softer side, but not much (gong) × a sickly real young master, hated by all and pretending to be a playboy (shou)] Wen Yu was the real young master the Lin fam 2.2kReads8.4Score18214d adds
9. 309 卑 Wretched Pleasure 卑劣为欢 The Deer and the Rabbit鹿与兔Two Male Leads377k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + misunderstanding + sweet and angsty + melodrama + devoted to each other + happy ending] Li Qiaonan can’t stand Xu Huai’an. He hates how Xu throws his weight around, relying on his status as the Xu family’s second young master. So Li always looks on coldly. But when they meet again five years later, Li discovers that the person before him is nothing like the bold, carefree boy he remembers. He approaches out of curiosity, intending to have a little fun. But as they spend more ti 3.5kReads8.6Score33614d adds
10. 310 藏 Snowbound in Tibet, I Was Taken in by a Lovesick Yandere 藏地暴雪夜，我被病娇捡回家 Nan Fengyu南奉语Two Male Leads610k WordsCompleted [Dual male leads * aloof, straight artist bottom × obsessive, yandere Tibetan top * equally matched * fate * intense push and pull * semi-coercive * cunning * chasing his love * the unattainable first love * domineering * mutually exclusive * first love] The sacred lake foretold 99 ways he would die. An obsessive Tibetan holy son had watched him for four years, all so he could keep him locked by his side! Chen Xingwan, a straight man studying at an art academy who is allergic to intimate contact 5.3kReads9.2Score79714d adds

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    This was the most delicious meal I'd ever had in ages, I'd been rolling around in bed looking at it! [Admiration]

11. 311 名 The Great Detective Whose Lips Were Prised Open by Gin in Detective Conan 名柯之被琴酒撬开嘴的大侦探 Xiao Yu,肖宇丶Anime Fanfiction626k WordsCompleted “Great detective, this is the third time you’ve tried to sneak out.” Gin clamped a hand around Shinichi Kudo’s jaw. His bone-white teeth sent a chill down the back of Shinichi’s neck. Shinichi Kudo looked at the familiar faces appearing one after another on the screen before him. He knew Gin had been keeping him under surveillance. “Gin, this is the last time. I won’t run away again.” Shinichi Kudo looked at the man advancing toward him as if emerging from an abyss. Gin was a demon. He had been 5.5kReads8.9Score70014d adds
12. 312 无 Infinite: The Dawn Game 无限：黎明游戏 In the Lanshan Mountains岚山里Two Male Leads3.3M WordsCompleted [Infinite Flow Dungeons] [Two Male Leads] [Ensemble Cast] [Return to the Human World] Psycho! Ever since Yu Shijiu could remember, people had called him a psycho, one insult after another. He picked at his ear and said nothing. What made someone a psycho? Being mentally unstable, having something wrong with your head... or killing people? Does killing someone make you a psycho? Yu Shijiu laughed. "Then there are far too many psychos in this world." Killing someone isn't limited to taking their l 18.9kReads9.3Score3.3k14d adds

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    The love story in the "Dual Male Infinite Flow" genre is more about a slow and steady flow than a specific plot.

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