A Male Lead With Symptoms of Self-Harm and Suicidal Tendencies, Shut Off From the World With Nothing to Live For

1 小 After the Young Master Was Reborn, He Just Wanted to Die Frightened Bird into Dream485k WordsCompleted 24.3kReads9.0Score2kShelves

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[Crying][Crying]✨"Happy twentieth birthday, Enoch Wen."🎈The day he was diagnosed with terminal leukemia, his family was happily planning an eighteenth birthday party for his younger brother. After hearing the news that he had confirmed that he had terminal leukemia, his parents, brothers, and everyone thought that he was just faking it, that he had bad intentions, and wanted to ruin his younger brother's birthday party. Enoch Wen, who had always been defensive in the past, didn't say a word this time. The night before his brother's birthday was also Wen Enuo's twentieth birthday. Wen Enuo returned to the seaside town where he had lived for eleven years. When the New Year's bell rang, he jumped from the cliff and fell into the dark sea. 🍂—It's nice to be alone, but he never wants to come again.

10 够 Wild Enough! When Little Crazy Batch Meets Big Crazy Batch, There Is No Way to Escape. It's Erliang238k WordsCompleted 4.4kReads9.0Score600Shelves

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The protagonist suffers from depression and bipolar disorder, and has a particularly severe tendency to self-harm.

11 分 I Called You After We Broke Up Moss Blossoms, Silken Threads130k WordsOngoing 17.5kReads—Score4.1kShelves

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Good looking woo woo woo

12 眼 The Blind Fake Young Master Is Tired of the World, and the Boss Begs for Favor Pass by on Horseback369k WordsCompleted 9kReads9.3Score1.2kShelves

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Genius fell, no nostalgia for this world, committed suicide many times, good-looking (♥∀♥), recommended! ! !

13 把 After Bringing Home My Amnesiac Nemesis Xp Supremacy380k WordsOngoing 7.6kReads6.5Score1kShelves

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[Send heart][Send heart][Send heart]

14 漂 Pretty Darling, You’re Too Good at Flirting! Are You Trying to Get Yourself Killed? Cai Cai Wants to Get Rich546k WordsCompleted 45.1kReads9.5Score7.3kShelves

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It's really sad and beautiful.

17 鲸 Whale Falls into Abyss The Evil Dragon Blows Bubbles39k WordsCompleted 29.5kReads8.1Score4.7kShelves

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"My name is Yu An... The well-known Yu... Ping An An An..." The male protagonist had a bad life since he was a child. No one loved him when his family died. Later he met a grandmother who was kind to him, but she died when he was five years old. At that time, he rushed into the rain and walked aimlessly and accidentally picked up a little boy. From then on, he made every effort to send him to school and was kind to him. He left all the tenderness to him, and the two depended on each other. Later, because he expressed his love for the younger brother he picked up, the younger brother felt that such feelings were disgusting, so he personally sent the older brother who loved him to JTS. He was violated and tortured every day for two years and 27 days, with countless wounds on his body. Burns and needle holes, not a piece of skin, is good... Later, he was afraid of forgetting these atrocities, and wrote a bloody letter on the bed board... After he got out, he suffered from severe somatization and severe self-mutilation. Death was a happy thing for him... He thought he would escape after getting out, but it turned out not... He couldn't escape at all... Little fish, little fish, swim quickly, freedom in all directions...

18 小 Kitten Breeding Manual Moss Blossoms, Silken Threads228k WordsCompleted 5kReads9.0Score707Shelves

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This book is in line with Shou's crush on Gung for 8 years. Gong is a dubbing actor in the circle. He committed suicide and self-mutilation before he knew his ex. I feel so sad when I read it. Shou has no worries and is about to commit suicide again. Gong found out about it. Gong is really gentle. [It's a pity that it's a serial]

19 琢 Zhuo Yun Wooden Masonry236k WordsCompleted 1.2kReads8.6Score211Shelves

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The protagonist was diagnosed with severe depression when he was 14 years old. He committed suicide many times and had many scars on his wrists. His suicide was also discovered several times. The illness was described very realistically. He posted a video on a social platform. The picture showed a small scar on the protagonist's wrist. The text was as follows: [What are freedom and love? I may never have it in my life. The butterfly stayed on my fingertips, and I admired its beauty. A butterfly's life is short, but it is beautiful and free. However, it is a scavenger, and its unbearableness radiates from the soul. But its external beauty made me forget its unbearableness for a moment. I am a bird bound by the innate rules of the world. I open my arms and want to fly freely into the sky, but reality will always hit me hard. The ridicule of language and psychological distortion make me close myself and become a bird locked in a cage for people to play with. From the time he and I met and fell in love, our fate was so unfair that I didn't quite understand it. I am twenty-two years old this year, and my life has been a mess. At the age of thirteen, I began to think about what the meaning of life is. Before I met him, I had been living in a state of confusion. After meeting him, I discovered why there are people in the world who are handsome and have good grades and have an enlightened family. Compared with him, I am like mud under the ground. That winter when my tears burned me to death, I compromised with my dad and left the country. Would he hate me for leaving without saying goodbye, hate me for walking away? Obviously a few months ago we were still telling each other our true feelings. I can't go back and there's no way I can go back. I didn't even have time to say to him, "I love you," before leaving. When I left him, I once wanted to leave him. I had no reason to live, I couldn't contact him, I hated my cowardice, my incompetence, and I hated myself. I was a dry land, but his presence made me rejuvenated. He pulled me out of the abyss countless times, but I had nothing to give him. The heartbeat of youth is pure and passionate, but I don't know how long this heartbeat can last. Maybe it's just young and frivolous. Will he already have a wife and children when I see him again? But he loves me so much, he won't. I don't know either. I wanted to curse him for being the only one, but that would be too selfish. Never mind. As long as he is safe. I don't know if you can watch this video. Today is your birthday, happy birthday. I miss you so much.

20 我 After CCTV Exposed Me, the Entire Internet Was Left Devastated My Dream Is to Be a LandlordUrban251k WordsCompleted 28.1kReads8.8Score1.7kShelves

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I went, the ending was something I didn't expect. Because most of these novels get better and better later on, but I think this ending is normal. This world has no attachment to him. Death is the real relief for him

21 重 Reborn: The Hated Real Heir Wants Only to Die Spring Dawn at Mingtang1.4M WordsCompleted 13.8kReads8.9Score1.2kShelves

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It's really a pity that I missed this book. I burst into tears when I read it, but I felt so sad😭

22 谁 Since When Does the Male Lead Hold and Kiss the Male Lead’s Doormat? Dreaming of Night Plays377k WordsCompleted 59.8kReads9.5Score7.3kShelves

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The first book was super sad. In the first book, the protagonist experienced thousands of small worlds, and finally returned to the original world, only to find that his parents and friends had become a bug and disappeared completely, and then became completely closed. In short, it was very sad. The writing in the second book was also very good, and it was also super sad.

23 逃 After My Escape Failed, I Was Ruined [Quick Wear] Fu Shi'an378k WordsOngoing 972Reads9.2Score105Shelves

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There was a bit of a routine in the early stage, but in the later stage, the protagonist started to act a little abnormal when he was imprisoned, and finally died of suicide.

24 清 Qing Leng Beta, Was Forced to Love by Crazy Batch A Kiss the Hot Wind341k WordsCompleted 59.9kReads9.2Score8.1kShelves

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Suffering from depression + avoidant personality

25 用 I Sing with My Life, and the Whole Internet Breaks Down, Begging Me Not to Die Old-Age Rice ScoopUrban442k WordsCompleted 9.6kReads9.3Score898Shelves

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[Crying] [Crying] [Almost crying] "I made a deal with the gods. I will use the remaining sixty years of my life in exchange for you to live until the flowers bloom on your birthday." 💖Wen He's birthday has also become his memorial day. He warmed many people with his songs, except himself, 🥰 "This world is already cold enough, there must be something to warm the heart."

29 万 The Whole Internet Went Viral After Thousands of People Complained About Showing His Face Lemon and Cola448k WordsCompleted 15.5kReads8.3Score1.4kShelves

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🌿🌿A year ago, Xu Mian was rumored to be involved in match-fixing and was boycotted by the entire network, and retired early. His mother was seriously ill and his right hand was partially disabled. He was like a rat crossing the street and was yelled at and beaten by everyone in the e-sports circle for a whole year. Torn between life and death, he struggled to survive: "We have to see him win the championship once." Ling Yanzhou: Xu Mian, the former captain, was silent for a year after being betrayed by his trusted teammates. Now he has reorganized the team and made a comeback, eyeing the PCL Autumn Championship title. When he met Xu Mian again, Ling Yanzhou drank something he shouldn't have... Xu Mian knew that he was dirty, but he still coveted this glimmer of light, until the truth was revealed: "You really make me sick!" Xu Mian was not sad, and even felt relieved. The second before the river water submerged above his head, he luckily muttered to himself: "Fortunately, he has never been in love..." "Fortunately, he hates me to the bone..."

30 老 Is Your Husband Too Harsh? Kiss Her Twice and She Will Soften Shun Jiu338k WordsCompleted 9.6kReads8.7Score1.1kShelves

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Anorexia + severe depression + claustrophobia.

31 滴 Drop! Luxury Experience Card Carrot Terminator416k WordsCompleted 12.6kReads9.5Score2kShelves

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These two books are really special and make me cry. After reading these two books, I almost feel autistic. You guys can read them. The scores are quite high.

32 穿 After Becoming Everyone’s Most Hated, I Took the World by Storm with My Stunning Beauty Frost Pavilion370k WordsCompleted 26kReads9.2Score3.1kShelves

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If you haven't seen it, you've lost a million dollars.

33 商 The Business Prince Cried: Why Doesn't My Wife Stop Fishing? Mr. Gemini360k WordsCompleted 37.2kReads9.4Score5.9kShelves

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The feeling of unworthiness is at the top, being loved is a kind of pain [almost crying] [almost crying], Zisha really cried to death [crying]. ①My life is like spring and scenery ten thousand times. 💜🔥Two male protagonists redeem sweet pets 1v1, ✨cold and self-destructive, beautiful and sick, VS a mouth-disliked, upright and rebellious young man✨, everyone in A knows that Wen Ling is a flower on the high mountain, with cold silver hair, as ice-like as jade, and a ruthless look on her face and eyes when she smiles. The flower is actually dying. Her younger sister died in a car accident and her mother became mentally ill. Wen Ling has been living in the damp and has a serious tendency to self-destruct. 🌸Until one day, I became roommates with the gay and homophobic young master, and I had hope every day to win the SB fight. 🌺 "You are the same-frequency resonance star that I found in the lonely universe. You are the scorching sun that projects warmth when I am stuck in the darkness. You are the one who guides me to step on the moisture and thorns to spring. I feel your vitality, and then I have the courage and strength to live towards death, and flowers bloom from sick bones."

35 薄 Thin Snow Cover Words TeerpMarriage & Romance283k WordsCompleted 8.9kReads8.9Score1.1kShelves

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This is beautiful, it made me cry [cry][cry][cry]

36 病 After the Sick and Heartless Son Returned to China, the Actor Took Revenge Wildly Nya Valley429k WordsCompleted 7.1kReads—Score676Shelves

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I have depression and anxiety, as well as some other mental problems. I have confused memory, stomach problems, and bad lungs. I even had my legs broken and was miserable [crying][crying][crying][crying]

37 亲 If You Kiss, You Will Know That You Are Kissing! the Pretty Little Face Turned Red Ink, Paper, and Inkstone278k WordsCompleted 9.2kReads9.4Score1.4kShelves

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The first club is afraid of having low self-esteem and has that tendency to close himself off. The second book Qian Qian is really brave. He has a tendency to be depressed, but his husband saves him~ The third book is sweeter. The fourth book is written by me~

41 谁 Who Cares About the Life and Death of Their Ex-Boyfriend After a Breakup? Lemon and Cola360k WordsCompleted 13.7kReads9.3Score1.1kShelves

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Highly recommended and very sad. In the first book, Lu Qing lost Gu Zhiyan, who loved him the most, so he wasted half his life in exchange for meeting him again. But the Gu Zhiyan they met again was no longer the poor boy he was a year ago. When the truth was revealed, Gu Zhiyan knelt down and begged all the temples, worshiping an ever-burning lamp devoutly. What he asked for was not a long life, but a life and death together... The second book: On his birthday, Xiao Yu was imprisoned by his father in a rehabilitation center. From then on, he lost Fu Zechen, who loved him the most. When he escaped from that hell on earth with scars, Fu Zechen threw him away without hesitation. When the sharp blade cut through the flesh and blood, bright red gushed out, taking away all the warmth in his body. In his blurred consciousness, he seemed to see a person running towards him quickly. The third book: After a diagnosis, Shen Ning cruelly abandoned Qin Jiu who depended on each other for life. He met Shen Ning again and was stabbed out of all life by a knife. Dragging his scarred body, he finally watched his sweetheart walk onto the championship stage... The fourth book Jiang Li is a madman who took the lead in a nurturing game and became possessed. He knew that Yi Zhen didn't love him, but he still dragged his bruised body and stalked him. In the end, he did not wait for his salvation, and walked into the sea in despair facing the rising sun... Book 5: Lin Ran held his last live broadcast on the day he was diagnosed with cancer, but he did not expect to receive a variety show invitation. On the variety show, he said: Lin Ran, you are so mean. Under the setting sun, the sports car crashed through the fence and rushed towards the cliff without hesitation. He Ze unbuckled his seat belt and gently took his baby into his arms. Book Six: Wen Mo was taken home by his parents when he was 19 years old, and his mother gave him his first gift. He happily wore it on his body, and a year later when a confirmed case came out, he realized that it was the talisman given to him by his mother! He went from being full of energy to being exhausted. That day, he took the initiative to let go. ... Recommended recommended recommended! ! !

46 娱 The Sickly Beauty in the Entertainment Industry Became Famous After Marrying the Male Lead Tianyuezhou367k WordsCompleted 17kReads9.4Score2.1kShelves

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It's sour and sweet, the knife is inserted a little too close, and it makes my heart sour when I show it to my child... [I'm about to cry]

47 被 After Being Abandoned, I Fell in Love with the Ceiling Nan Qilu334k WordsCompleted 47.3kReads9.3Score6.7kShelves

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①The sinister boss who dotes on his wife is crazy (Qin Zhao) VS gentle, inferior, sensible, kind and accepting (Shen Heqing). 💖💖Sweet pet article, the opening paragraph is very tough, the iron wife is a slave. 🌼🌼Shen Heqing has been troubled since childhood and has always been the one abandoned. 🔪My friend said: You are so powerful, it doesn't matter if you miss an opportunity, just give it to him. 🔪The biological parents said: We are sorry for you, but An An has been in our lap for eighteen years, and we really can't let go. Even when facing the person he loves most, everything forces him to give up. 💖💖Qin Zhao's confession was rejected by Shen Heqing. He nodded expressionlessly, turned around and went abroad, not paying attention to the young man's pale face. Unexpectedly, after seeing each other for so many years, Shen Heqing made himself miserable. Qin Zhao told himself not to be soft-hearted. 🌺Qin Zhao: I remember you were very crazy back then. Shen Heqing: I feel a little uncomfortable... Qin Zhao: Come on! Hug me! In the beginning, Qin Zhao was rigorous, dignified, and arrogant. Three days after sticking to Shen Heqing: Wife... Wife? Young married woman! ! !

48 重 In This New Life, Brother Dian Regrets It Non-Common Name1.1M WordsCompleted 2.9kReads8.6Score226Shelves

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This, I feel sorry for the first grade of junior high school [crying]

49 清 The Cold-Blooded Autistic Boy Had a Kiss in the Middle of the Night and Was Gloomy and Fearful of Society Hero A Fu1.1M WordsCompleted 14.8kReads9.3Score2.7kShelves

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Highly recommend this, two male protagonists, rebirth, plot barrage, HE ending, a little abuse in the middle, good-looking, finished

50 破 After Being Broken and Waiting to Die, the Tens of Billions of Ceos Are Favored by Heaven Sleepy Lemon TartMarriage & Romance284k WordsCompleted 825Reads8.8Score101Shelves

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The sick beauty who fell from the altar VS the innocent and secret crush on the business boss. I got the rose I dreamed of. Eight years of secret love finally came true. [Almost crying] [Almost crying]