
My Childhood Friend Is Always Afraid I’ll Break
竹马他总怕我碎了
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- Ongoing
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- 887k Words
- Genre
- Two Male Leads
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- 19h ago
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Other names
- The Loner Boy's Devoted Childhood Friend孤僻少年的忠犬竹马Alternate title on Fanqie
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Five-star review! 🌟 Reasons: 1. The author didn't abandon the story (that's already amazing!) 2. The protagonist is tragic, but at least he's alive (where there's life, there's hope!) 3. Pei Sijin deserves five stars (after all, he's an ideal person) 4. If I don't give myself five stars, who will? Thank you to all the readers who followed the story, shed tears, sent hate mail, and still continued to follow. This story is complete because of you. Love you all! ❤️
The author writes exceptionally well, and as a story about a character with a weak constitution, it has many highlights (a treat for those who enjoy stories about depression). The protagonist (shou) is initially a very aloof person (but becomes incredibly adorable later on), but he adores the other protagonist (gong), the love practically overflowing from the screen, his eyes never leaving him.
😱I posted this twice before but couldn't see it, so I'm posting it again. When reading, don't just focus on the rating. This book is truly amazing! The writing is delicate, the characters are well-developed, and there are occasional little skits. The psychological descriptions of Mianmian (the bottom) are very detailed. I highly recommend this book if you like reading about depressed bottoms.
It's about a 3.5 Out of 5. The author's writing style is quite gentle and narrative, which I really enjoyed 💕. But from my personal perspective, I know that 1 was desperate to see 0's phone because 0 was eager to know how 0 was doing. However, it's very impolite to "steal" a peek even though you know 0 doesn't want you to see it. You look at the phone out of concern, but...
Author, I love you so much! (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤ It's so good!\(°O°)/ Reading this book is so different from reading other books! (≧▽≦) It's that gentle, tender style~ I don't know how to describe it! (╹▽╹) It's like the spring breeze, the summer sunset, the autumn moonlight, and the winter snow. I've read so many books, but this is the first time I've felt this way!
The author writes exceptionally well, with a particularly accurate analysis of the symptoms of depression. However, one symptom of bipolar disorder is somewhat overlooked: depression involves the urge to harm oneself, while bipolar disorder involves the urge to harm not only oneself but also others. The protagonist, at this level, might struggle to control himself.
The writing is excellent, with a gentle, narrative feel. The logic is clear, the plot doesn't drag, and it beautifully depicts the symptoms experienced by someone with depression. The plot progression is smooth, and the guiding role of the romantic partner is truly important. Rather than saying Si Jin's existence is Mianmian's salvation, it's more accurate to say that Mianmian deserves sunshine.
The author writes so well! It really made my heart ache. I'm sure Mianmian will get better eventually. Pei Pei is also a wonderful partner; he truly accompanies and respects Mianmian's emotional needs. I hope Mianmian can get better and better. "Healing is not a war against the body, but a reconciliation with oneself."
I devoured the latest chapter, my eyes welling up several times; I truly empathized with the story. I wanted to write something about this book, but a thousand words stuck in my throat, and in the end, only four words remained: I feel it deeply! Not just as a reader, but as someone who has struggled in the darkness myself—that feeling of being seen and understood.
It's amazing!!! It's exactly my type, a little bit angsty and angsty, but super good! The author is also very cute ❤️ The only thing is that I have to be strong and calm in front of my mom, haha. If you like BL stories with a little angst and one of the characters is depressed, you absolutely have to check this out!!! (Although I still don't understand why there are so few authors who write this good).