A Male Lead With Symptoms of Self-Harm and Suicidal Tendencies, Shut Off From the World With Nothing to Live For 有自残自杀症状的男主，封闭自己，没有牵挂

1. 251 我 I Probably Don't Want to Live Anymore 我大概不想活了 It's Xiaoshanqing是晓山青Two Male Leads227k WordsCompleted [Two male leads] [Older master and younger disciple] [Gentle top × gentle bottom] Lu Yuan has lived a long time, died, and come back to life. But Mr. Lu feels he's lived long enough and wants to die now. Five things to do before dying: take care of them, then make a graceful exit. But after meeting Mr. Wu, he gradually found he couldn't bear to die. He had waited so long for the man to return. They should spend a long, happy life together, joined in marriage and sharing a pillow. Both the top an 1.5kReads8.8Score26514d adds

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2. 252 他 His Freesia 他的Freesia So-and-So Xi奚某某Two Male Leads390k WordsCompleted Cold, refined, gentle, and powerful mixed-race top (Jin Ci) X soft-hearted, physically and emotionally frail bottom (Qiao Sheng) (Reunion after years apart / Both virgins / Art / Sweet romance / CEO / Prestigious families / Age gap) “A crack opened in his heart, and a tide surged in. Long-hidden longing, heartache, and vulnerability crumbled inside him, flooding his every limb. Qiao Sheng wanted to press closer, closer still, and sink into that broad chest without a shadow. This was his whole wo 2.2kReads8.9Score31114d adds
3. 253 温 The Gentle Mushroom Is So Cute, and the Sharp-Tongued School Bully Loves Him Fiercely 温吞蘑菇真可爱，嘴毒校霸狠狠爱 Little Youngster稚子小Two Male Leads443k WordsCompleted Pure relationship, 1v1, happy ending, a balanced mix of sweet and angsty Sharp-tongued, devoted, narcissistic top (prone to eating his words) Mild-mannered mushroom spirit bottom (a little spacey) (but smart!) Chasing his wife to the crematorium, a little melodramatic, no love rival. If you can't handle that, don't click. . Wen Su is the only mushroom spirit at the Alliance Academy, and he has a secret he can't tell anyone. He has practically no presence. On the surface, he's mild-mannered and g 3.6kReads9.4Score51514d adds
4. 254 开 From the Start, I Have Hundreds of Millions in Hell Money: I'm Invincible in the Age of the Uncanny 开局冥币亿万：诡异时代我无敌 Sis, Don't Be Like That姐姐别这样Mystery4.5M WordsOngoing [Supernatural horror + apocalypse + tycoon + ghost money + rules + comedy + no heroine + fast-paced power fantasy (buys a supernatural-horror site by chapter 7, keeps buying everything without dragging things out, and buys an entire city in 200,000 words) + mid-story twists + late-game rule deduction] The supernatural apocalypse arrives, and evil ghosts run rampant. Within the rules, ghosts cannot kill people. While countless people struggle to survive the apocalypse, carefully searching for a w 144.3kReads9.4Score15.5k14d adds

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   It's so good! It's the best book I've ever read on Tomato Bookstore.

5. 255 野 Wild Taming 野性驯养 Li Huaisha李怀沙Two Male Leads353k WordsCompleted The physical edition of Yanziqi is now available on all platforms. The wicked get their comeuppance. A cunning, cold-hearted crown prince x a volatile, insecure, sickly bottom Mutual torment + rekindled romance + melodrama + suspenseful twists + 1v1 + coercive love When Liang Yan was a child, his father brought home another boy. The boy looked like a beggar, hardly spoke, and was painfully thin. His father told him the boy would be his companion in study: he was quiet and would become his best f 15.8kReads9.5Score2.7k14d adds

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   It's so good! Liang Yan is really great, and I really love Xiao Qi. The ending is a happy one. Highly recommended!

6. 256 宝 Don’t Cry, Baby! Give Big Brother a Kiss 宝贝不哭！哥哥亲亲 Tian Yingzhui天盈坠Two Male Leads1.3M WordsCompleted [Two male leads] + [Both devoted only to each other, both strong] + [Healing] + [Unrequited love becomes mutual] + [They choose each other] [One-sided love at first] + [Pampering each other later] [Genius fashion designer] VS. [International movie star] He Sen has many labels: genius fashion designer, heir to an elite family, domineering CEO, cold-blooded devil... (In front of others): aloof, cunning, cold and ruthless (In front of Su Yu): obedient, clingy, devoted [He Sen: I believe in no gods 5.2kReads9.3Score52914d adds

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   This book is truly excellent; it's a story of redemption.

7. 257 时 How Am I Supposed to Survive Around Conan When I Keep Coughing Up Blood 时不时吐血的我在柯南身边怎么活 Moonlight Tea明月茶Anime Fanfiction1.2M WordsCompleted [Detective Conan + No Romance + Little Sister Ai + Beautiful, Strong, and Tragic Hero] Feng Jianhe transmigrates and gets a buff from the start: his constitution is permanently set to -1… Also known as: “How Do I Survive Beside the Grim Reaper When I Keep Coughing Up Blood?”, “The Hospital Is My Home, and Everyone Helps Me Get Back There,” and “There’s No Need to Worry About Me, I’m Really Fine. The Important Thing Is That I Didn’t Kill Anyone.” Shipping fans, keep to your own corner~ 13.7kReads9.4Score1.8k14d adds

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   La la la la la la~(￣▽￣~)~

8. 258 我 In The Grave Robbers' Chronicles 我在盗墓笔记里 Little Fish Who Made It Ashore上岸小鱼Mystery163k WordsOngoing [Plot-driven / No breaking up canon couples / Unraveling mysteries / Woman disguises herself as a man / A tribute to The Grave Robbers' Chronicles] Nineteen-year-old student Li Yuan wakes up inside a cave and runs into the Iron Triangle as they come to retrieve a map. By chance, Li Yuan joins Wu Sansheng's team and embarks on an adventure to find the Queen Mother of the West's palace. A monstrous beast in Devil City, terrifying and bizarre illusions, snakes lying in ambush on all sides, teammate 2Reads—Score—14d adds

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   Some are, some aren't, but they're really beautiful.

9. 259 年 The Top Student Is Pretending to Be a Struggling Student Again 年级第一他又在装学渣 Crane Shepherd of the Nine Provinces鹤牧九州Two Male Leads344k WordsCompleted Jiang Fengyan, a new student in Huada’s finance department, was known to most of the university for topping the provincial college entrance exam and for his striking good looks. He was utterly indifferent toward people and everything around him, turning away everyone who tried to get close. People assumed he was above worldly concerns, but... “Are you following a streamer?” his roommate asked in surprise, discovering that Jiang Fengyan, hailed as the aloof campus heartthrob, was watching a liv 7.6kReads9.3Score1.2k14d adds

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   This book!!! The main characters are two little bitter gourds.

10. 260 见 Seeing Love 见爱 Frog Fluffing Cotton青蛙弹棉花Two Male Leads271k WordsCompleted A mature, gentle, calm and self-possessed top × a lonely, sensitive bottom starved of love, with a hidden temper [Complete + healing + partially raised together + mutually devoted + extremely doting + character growth] Content warnings: abrupt ending / angst for the secondary couple Cong Junsheng was taken in by the Cong family as a child, but was never given their love or affection. Before learning the truth about his birth, he blamed his parents. After discovering the truth, all he wanted was 675Reads9.1Score10314d adds
11. 261 盗 Tomb Raiding: Starting in the Underwater Tomb at Xisha 盗墓：开局西沙海底墓 Black Coffee纯咖啡Mystery71k WordsOngoing [This is not a romance!] My name is Chen Ling. The moment I opened my eyes, I found myself in a tomb-raiding world. I chose to enter the underwater world of 1985, and the System told me my mission was to find the Ultimate. I gladly accepted. Knowing the blood and tears that would unfold in this world over the next few decades, I longed to change the supposedly heartbreaking ending and fight for a happy one. Wu Sansheng called me a Holy Maiden, while Zhang Qiling said I seemed familiar. What secr 8Reads—Score—14d adds
12. 262 柯 Detective Conan: Tang Xiaoyi Doesn’t Want to Be a Tragic Beauty Today Either 柯南：唐晓翼今天也不想当美强惨 Ye Ye Mo耶耶摸Anime Fanfiction389k WordsCompleted [No romance, mainly Detective Conan. You don't need to have read Case Closed to follow along.] “Goodbye. Take care.” After those final words, the young man in a Tang suit leaped into the hot spring, thinking he had reached the end of the road. But when he opened his eyes again, the world before him was no longer familiar. [Ding! Congratulations, you've been bound to the Rescue System! You have been sent into the Detective Conan world.] [Save the characters in the Detective Conan world who should 10.2kReads9.3Score1.8k14d adds
13. 263 白 The White Moonlight Wants Nothing More Than to Die 白月光一心想要求死 Little Half-Moon半月牙子Two Male Leads343k WordsCompleted A depressed, suicidal bottom × a gentle, attentive top Lu Xi × Jiang Yan Jiang Yan... or Jiang Yan? It's hard to tell. After a car accident, Lu Xi thought he had transmigrated into a book, but in reality, he was only imagining the book's plot and casting himself in it. Jiang Yan happened to meet Lu Xi after he was brought to the hospital. He personally cared for him while waiting for him to wake up, only to find that the awakened Lu Xi was afraid of him. But when Lu Xi saw the name he had writte 642Reads8.8Score10514d adds
14. 264 我 I'm Sure I Told You I Loved You a Long Time Ago 我肯定很久之前说过爱你 Shi Bai时白呀Modern Romance306k WordsCompleted [A sunny, healing pastry chef × a robotics engineer with severe social anxiety] [Sweet urban romance + devoted puppy-dog boyfriend + 1v1 + happy ending + pure-love redemption + a guide to taming the socially anxious + healing food] Lu Xitian keeps having the same dream. In it, on a stormy night, a young man holds a blood-soaked knife while someone lies in a pool of blood on the ground. She has had this nightmare over and over for a month. Then one day, while delivering a cake to a customer, she 9.8kReads9.6Score1.3k14d adds

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    [I'm almost crying] Cen Jia Zhou always thought that dying young was the only ending to his lonely life... But after meeting Lu Xi Tian, ​​he realized that the worst ending was that he had never met her at all. [I'm almost crying][I'm almost crying]

15. 265 盗 Tomb Raiding: Immortal, Yet Utterly Broken 盗墓：不死，但破碎感拉满了 Ruoshui Ting'an若水亭安Two Male Leads316k WordsCompleted [New book, low rating] [Two male leads, a magnetic, beautiful, strong yet tragic protagonist, an incredibly captivating beauty on the receiving end, readers can ship whoever they like] [Fanfiction, with original headcanon that the girl is Second Master’s sworn younger sister, apologies for out-of-character portrayals] [A mix of sweetness and angst, happy ending] Yun Chu wakes up inside a coffin. Someone claiming to be a System tells him he has an immortal body. The good news: an immortal body. T 4.8kReads9.1Score62314d adds
16. 266 名 Detective Conan: I Really Just Want to Go Home 名柯：我真的只想回家啊 Bamboo Grove Without Bamboo竹林没有竹子Anime Fanfiction667k WordsOngoing [Main story complete, Detective Conan, fake angst plus wild fan theories and turning him into a saint, no CP, saving the five-man squad from their tragic fate, Red Faction, apologies for out-of-character portrayals, fast-paced] Shingo Akamatsu was trapped in the game Red vs. Black when his gaming pod malfunctioned. From then on, he became a man of mystery in Beika City. With the System's save-and-load feature to rely on, he did whatever he pleased, constantly finding ways to get himself hurt. Bu 48.2kReads9.4Score5.3k14d adds
17. 267 溺 Drowned: The Unexpected Charm of a Depressed Boyfriend 溺亡【抑郁小男友的反差萌】 Three Flying Birds三只飞鸟Two Male Leads170k WordsCompleted [Rekindled love, reunion after years apart, reunited from the very first chapter, depression, bittersweet romance, contrast, powerful leads, equally matched, no angst between the couple, both each other’s first and only, happy ending] Tender, devoted CEO Jiang Xu (top) × depressed, aloof yet unexpectedly adorable Gu Chong (bottom) A story about a comic artist and a pianist. (The author would rather not get flamed, so extreme top- and bottom-focused readers should proceed with caution.) Five year 2.5kReads9.1Score30714d adds

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    It's so touching, I almost cried. [Crying][crying][crying]

18. 268 美 The Beauty Keeps Crawling Into My Arms, He's a Clingy One to the Core 美人总往怀里钻，骨子里就黏人精 Distant Flowing Mist杳杳流霭Two Male Leads365k WordsCompleted Completed [Two male leads + devoted to each other + a touch of “everyone loves him” + healing + beautiful, strong, and tragic] Xi Yu is the most beautiful “ornamental vase” in the Xi family: exquisite and fragile, the perfect bargaining chip for his father. The first time they meet. A torrential downpour, one reckless night. The second time they meet. Xi Yu: What do you want from me? Shen Huaiqing: Just stay by my side. You don’t have to pay me anything. Everyone who gets close to Xi Yu comes wi 5.3kReads8.9Score71314d adds
19. 269 谍 Espionage: 2,000 Deaths from the Start 谍战：开局死亡两千次 Jin Daye金大涯Urban958k WordsOngoing Xie Shu, male, formerly an Olympic shooting champion in the twenty-first century. One day, he kills himself and wakes up in 1940. Reason: Unknown. Identity: Unknown. Status: Being buried alive. Xie Shu: ...What a disastrous start! The good news: He gains the ability to rewind time whenever he dies. The bad news: He wakes up at a live burial site and has to die two thousand times before he escapes. While helping a passing guerrilla unit complete its mission, he somehow ends up as the illegitimat 38.4kReads9.3Score5.7k14d adds

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    Hey, aren't there any non-CP (no romantic pairing) stories?

20. 270 名 Detective Conan: Turns Out I'm the Beautiful, Strong, Tragic One 名柯：美强惨竟是我自己 Bujian Zhou不见州Anime Fanfiction484k WordsCompleted [No CP | Forum | Beautiful, Strong, and Tragic | Police Academy Squad Rescue] -This is an unserious synopsis. Kashima Tetsuya had just kicked the bucket when he transmigrated, and of all places, he ended up in the world of the famous Grim Reaper Elementary School Student. He had only been grown up for a few years when his whole family was wiped out in a disastrous start from the start. The organization took him away and handed him over to Gin, where he suffered years of inhuman training. Just as 1.8kReads8.1Score23714d adds
21. 271 盗 Tomb Raiding: My First Love Is Actually from the Wang Family 盗墓：白月光居然是汪家人 Rabbit in Space-Time时空里的兔子Mystery66k WordsCompleted Recently, several agents working for the Space-Time Administration have gone missing. They all ended up in the world of The Grave Robbers' Chronicles. In search of them, Wang Wanyue also came to this world. She only meant to complete her mission, but somehow she got caught up in the story and drawn into the game. (This story includes the Old Nine Gates era. The pacing is slow, and some details may differ from the original. The writing is amateurish, so please be kind.) 3Reads—Score—14d adds
22. 272 重 Reborn, I Become the Neurotic Tycoon's One and Only 重生后，被神经质大佬独宠 Uncultured, zz有辱斯文zzTwo Male Leads351k WordsCompleted [BL + melodrama + coercion + submissive × sharp-tongued + seven-year age gap + a little angst + unhinged] [The rating has only just appeared, so it won't go up from here.] In his previous life, Jiang Huai betrayed his boss and eloped with his kept man, who was saddled with five hundred million in debt. They were together for three years, until the kept man killed Jiang Huai with his own hands. The gears of fate turned backward. Jiang Huai and the kept man were both reborn three years earlier. Fr 1.6kReads8.1Score14014d adds
23. 273 盗 Tomb Raiding: The Five-Flower Group's Beloved 盗墓：成为五花团宠 A Little Bird一条鸟儿Mystery149k WordsOngoing I've been single for more than twenty years, and the first time I asked for someone's WeChat, I got four handsome guys. But what am I supposed to do when the domineering CEO I like turns me down? No problem. I just added Wu Xie and Zhang Qiling on WeChat instead. Content warning: The female lead is a master schemer, but her plans don't always work out. She's led around by the main group early on, but fights back later. 1Reads—Score—14d adds
24. 274 盗 Tomb Raiding: This Madman Is Something Else 盗墓：这个疯批不一般 Lin Qimu Xia林柒沐夏Mystery40k WordsOngoing Warning: Poor writing ⚠️ OOC warning ⚠️ The characters belong to Uncle San; any OOC is on me. Also, there are headcanons. If you don’t like them, don’t force yourself to read; just drop it. [Content warning ❌: Original female lead, BG romance. The heroine is a madwoman, not a good person and not kind-hearted. She’s ruthless and heartless, and if she can use force, she’ll never waste words.] A mysterious and powerful young woman from another world, aloof and cold. She should have fallen into dark 23Reads—Score—14d adds
25. 275 抑 The Depressed Beauty Is Flirted with in the Countryside Until She Goes Wild 抑郁美人在乡下被撩疯了 A Tangerine Candy一颗橘子糖Two Male Leads498k WordsCompleted [Sunshine-loving, rugged fruit farmer top × depressed, aloof painter bottom] Also known as "Born Toward the Sun" Two male leads + healing and redemption + feel-good + comeback + sweet romance + 1v1 + happy ending “When you’re having an episode, you look like a little sparrow caught in the rain.” Xu Qingyu was sent to the countryside by his family to recuperate, where he met the most annoying creature of his life: Cheng Xiao. The guy had a handsome face and showed up at Xu Qingyu’s door every day 952Reads8.9Score12314d adds

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    I really have a love-hate relationship with this book!

26. 276 病 The More I Treat His Obsession, the Worse He Gets 病娇的他越治越病 One Six Two Four一六二四Modern Romance203k WordsCompleted A redemption story about a gloomy, obsessive man, with two devoted leads in a one-on-one romance Dream enterer × insecure, obsessive man - Recurring nightmares, insomnia, and gaps in his memory. Shen Mo has no choice but to follow his therapist’s advice and seek help from a dream enterer. In his endless nightmares, she appears when he is at his most helpless, at fifteen, and pulls him from the dark abyss, standing by his side with gentle resolve. Keeping him company, guiding him, embracing him… 1.5kReads8.2Score14114d adds

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    The male lead is a pitiful, gloomy guy 👻. After he killed himself, he found the female lead to heal him. He deserves to be with her! [Admiration][Admiration]

27. 277 新 Today, After the Rain 新雨后的今天 White Mountain Crane Qing白山鹤卿Two Male Leads527k WordsCompleted [Male author + mutual devotion + reunion + based on a true story] Shen Luojia lost control only twice in his life. The first time was in the hallway of Xiangyu Shipbuilding Experimental Middle School, when he ran into a boy so quiet he seemed almost transparent. Li Hebai, a boy who even hid in a corner when he cried. Shen called it love at first sight. Everyone else called it crazy. The second time was in the office at Cat House. Gripping a katana, he told a group of people who looked like they 36Reads—Score—14d adds

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    Based on a true story. Male author + bipolar disorder + forced love + long-distance angst + happy ending.

28. 278 盗 Tomb Raiding: I Ran Away After Becoming the Clan Leader’s Guard 盗墓：穿成族长侍卫后我跑路了 He Yiguo禾一锅Two Male Leads58k WordsOngoing 1v1, with the protagonist on the receiving end; includes a change of love interest My name is Zhang Haishan, and I transmigrated. My former underling has become the person I serve, and there’s a jerk by my side who tries to brainwash me every day. The person I love is a sweet-looking schemer who died young. After so many twists and turns, everything has changed beyond recognition, and I toss and turn, unable to sleep. But none of these hardships can extinguish my noble spirit and heroic soul!! 32Reads—Score—14d adds
29. 279 盗 Tomb Raiding: Homecoming 盗墓：归处 Ling Guan玲观Mystery562k WordsOngoing The Grave Robbers' Chronicles: The Reboot arc follows the TV series, while the story after that follows the original novel. Please keep the two timelines distinct. A debut work ✚ Not a wish-fulfillment story ✚ Not a strong female lead story (the protagonist isn't a genius, and getting tricked or manipulated is par for the course) The author isn't a full-time writer. I'm a typical overworked wage slave, with limited time, so update times and chapter counts are unpredictable. Readers, think carefu 211Reads8.3Score10714d adds
30. 280 总 The CEO's Wife with Autism Has Run Away from Home Again 总裁的自闭症老婆又离家出走了 Autumn Again秋一秋Two Male Leads504k WordsCompleted The CEO’s Crybaby with Autism (Also known as: The CEO’s Autistic Wife Ran Away from Home Again) [Marriage Before Love] Rational top x needy bottom (both are each other’s first) When a CEO meets his arranged-marriage partner, who has autism and doesn’t know how to express love, their relationship becomes a slow journey of growth and nurturing. Sheng Bolang nurtures Wen Yunshi’s growth with love. Under his attentive care and guidance, Wen Yunshi becomes the CEO of the Katie Group. Love is Sheng Bo 17.5kReads9.3Score2k14d adds
31. 281 别 Don't Call Me a Child of the Moon 别叫我月亮的孩子 Xiaomi Is Me小米就是我呀Modern Romance996k WordsCompleted [Gloomy, Insecure Moonlit Boy × Warm, Radiant Little Sun] Jiang Jinye is the quietest shadow in school. Bruised all over, he lives with his father’s alcoholism and beatings. Everyone calls him gloomy, broken, and beyond saving. Until one day, Wen Fengqing, the top student in his year, sits beside him and becomes his “little tutor.” She sees the bruises beneath his uniform and says softly, “Jiang Jinye, you’re like a child the moon forgot here on earth.” He has spent so long curled up in the dark 170Reads—Score—14d adds

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    "Don't Call Me the Moon's Child" - Wen Fengqing x Jiang Jinye. She's the dazzling sun always sitting in the front row; he's the insecure boy hiding in the corner, afraid to look up at the light. Everyone calls him "the moon's child," avoids him, and gossips about him. Only Wen Fengqing would force a piece of candy into his mouth in the afternoon classroom and deliberately take a detour to accompany him home after evening self-study. She spent three years telling him: You are not the moon's child; you are my precious human being. Later, the person who never replied to his messages posted only one sentence on her social media: "She is my Qing." #MutualRedemption #Reconciliation #HappyEnding

32. 282 盗 Tomb Raiding: The High Priest Returns to Dust 盗墓：大祭司归尘 Ling Yun灵澐Mystery372k WordsOngoing Shower the characters with affection + try to keep them in character (but no guarantees) + female lead has no love interest + original character details + the female lead is a smiling schemer with a dark side. She never lets anyone who crosses her get away with it, and she's fiercely protective of her own. Scene 1: Gui Chen stared at the little dumpling, who looked about six or seven, and they glared at each other for a long while. "Tell me! Why did you wake me up early? According to the schedul 207Reads6.2Score—14d adds
33. 283 病 The Frail Beauty Is Actually a Brutal, Bloodthirsty Regent 病弱美人竟是残暴嗜血的摄政王 Yin Wuling殷无令Two Male Leads471k WordsCompleted It took Xiahou Xi ten years to go from a fallen prince to a regent with power over all under heaven. It took only one month to go from regent to a gravely ill, amnesiac loner with nothing left. His heart turned to ashes. All he wanted was to be a couch potato, living off what he had until he died. But nobody would agree. They all came looking for him, each more enthusiastic than the last. The young and handsome Prince of Zhennan said, “Ziyuan, don’t be afraid. I’ll protect you. Let’s see who dar 2.5kReads8.9Score31714d adds

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    Wow, wow, it's so beautiful!

34. 284 王 After the Prince Learned to Read Minds, He Quietly Watched Him Find Creative Ways to Get Himself Killed 王爷会读心后，静静看他花式作死 Waiting for a Thousand Joys待千欢Two Male Leads425k WordsCompleted [Dual Male Leads + Mind Reading + Equally Matched + Devoted Spoiling + Protective of His Own + Monogamous 1v1] A man bent on dying and doing nothing vs. a sharp-tongued schemer who loves making trouble Chi Nansheng settled the scores from his past life, thinking he could finally be free. Instead, he ran into a ridiculously unlucky System and accidentally got bound to it. The moment he opened his eyes, he had already been drugged with a muscle-relaxing powder and made a prince's consort. Wait, he 2.4kReads9.3Score38714d adds

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    Highly recommend [Sparrow's Delight]!

35. 285 课 My One-Night Stand Stood Up During Class Roll Call 课堂点名时，一夜情对象站起来了 Ninety-Three Flower Shop九叁花店Two Male Leads295k WordsCompleted (Completed) [1v1 | Younger possessive puppy-like top × Depressed, beautiful yet tragic bottom | Healing and possessiveness | Six-year age gap] The night Su Yu regretted most in his life was the night he approached a stranger under the dim lights of a bar. He had wanted to end his twenty-eight years of living by the rules with one reckless encounter, but never expected... to run into that man again the next day. Zhou Si'an, the young master of the Zhou family in Lishi, had gotten everything h 1.8kReads8.4Score23814d adds
36. 286 纯 If Pure Love Won’t Work, Then I’ll Force You to Love Me 纯爱行不通那就强制爱 Suck It Up不服憋着Two Male Leads192k WordsCompleted Main story complete (Fake) Gentle psychologist, gorgeous Omega: patient, guiding, and knows how to love an Alpha (Real) Sensitive, insecure, self-destructive gorgeous Omega: gives up on pure love and turns to an Alpha CEO's coercive obsession The youngest psychology professor in the ivory tower, a gentle and patient guide whose consulting room is always welcoming. His cool, refined face is the moonlight in countless Alphas' midnight dreams. Bo Xi had many wishes. With each one he fulfilled, he c 3.1kReads8.9Score54214d adds
37. 287 不 [No Redemption] 【不赎】 Gu Shaotang from Taiwan宝岛的顾少棠Historical1.8M WordsCompleted Sixteen years imprisoned, seven years as a substitute, and in the end he found himself behind bars. His mother hated him, and his father despised him. He thought that if he behaved and endured the torment, he could earn his parents' love. He never imagined that the true, irreconcilable hatred lay between his parents, with no hope of resolution in this life... Reborn, he finally discovered that the man he had believed was his father was not his father at all, and what he had thought was atonement 681Reads6.3Score11014d adds

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    The male protagonist suffers terribly in the beginning, traumatized by his mother's abuse—she really beat him! Later, he reunites with his biological father, but that's also tough. However, the protagonist slowly improves. His emperor father dotes on him. It's a father-son/brotherly romance, currently without a romantic pairing, so feel free to read on. It's not your average story. [Sparrow's Masterpiece][Sparrow's Masterpiece][Sparrow's Masterpiece]

38. 288 偏 Obsessive Possession! The Reclusive Boy Is Pretending to Be Good to Fool Me Again 偏执占有！自闭少年又在装乖骗我 Wu Cenjin雾岑今Modern Romance432k WordsCompleted [A fox-like older sister who pretends to be gentle and acts sweetly vs. a pure-hearted, troubled, autistic boy] [The male lead is a mad love-struck obsessive + humbly lovesick + devoted to one person + both leads are sexually inexperienced + happy ending] Original title: Possessive Obsession! The Autistic Boy Is Pretending to Be Good and Tricking Me Again A little fox from a fallen clan, who has traveled from ancient times to the present, finds her life completely changed the moment she meets Ji 1.6kReads8.4Score14514d adds

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    I feel your pain and don't want you to be sad anymore. I will love you well, protect you, and make sure you live a happy life!

39. 289 重 After Being Reborn, the Obsessive Young Master Can’t Stop Thinking About Me 重生后偏执少爷总对我恋恋不忘 Qiao Yunyan乔云烟Modern Romance181k WordsCompleted (Complete, rebirth, autism, slow burn, one-on-one romance) Gu Junyu lives by three rules: 1. Weiwei is always right. 2. If Weiwei tells him to go east, he won’t go west. 3. If Weiwei is wrong, see rule one. Li Weige had always kept her distance from Gu Junyu, but it wasn’t until she was on the brink of death that she realized just how much the obsessive man with autism loved her. Then she was reborn, back in the past. This time, she wanted to repay him for his kindness in her previous life and h 17.5kReads8.9Score1.6k14d adds
40. 290 快 Quick Transmigration: Salvation for an Autistic Soul 快穿之自闭症患者的救赎 The Hard-to-Find Sandpiper矶鹬难求Ancient Romance202k WordsOngoing [System] [Wild imagination] [Not romance-focused] [Growth] Cen Jingwan is autistic. One night, she took her own life and successfully checked out. While looking for a Host, Autism Rescue System 402 discovered her soul. It thought Cen Jingwan was special, so it chose her as its Host and began its journey to save an autistic person… Across one world after another, Cen Jingwan comes to understand the meaning of life, while the wounds of her childhood slowly heal. First world Bunny maid VS wolfish g 8Reads—Score—14d adds
41. 291 拯 Saving the Aloof, Withdrawn Autistic Boy 拯救傲娇自闭症少年 Bro Brocade锦衣郎Modern Romance151k WordsCompleted [An autistic boy and a kindhearted college student, a sweet romance about healing] In a world where no one came to save him, Lin Suyue’s arrival was a sudden ray of light in Xia Ziheng’s life. Though the campus heartthrob and the domineering CEO big brother both pursued her, Lin Suyue had eyes only for Xia Ziheng. Everyone said Xia Ziheng was ill, but they never realized that his arrival had also brightened her life. “Your hands are beautiful. Beautiful enough to wear our wedding rings.” Lin Suy 296Reads6.7Score—14d adds
42. 292 迟 Chi Guang's Redemption 迟光救赎 Pants Laurence裤头劳斯Two Male Leads321k WordsCompleted [Many plot holes in this book are left unresolved. It's full of loose ends, huge ones, and some that go incredibly deep.] Wen Zhi Yao was the eldest son of the Wen family, lost and then found again. He returned home at sixteen, took over the group at eighteen, and shouldered the family for eight whole years. Calm and flawless, he stood above the masses like a god. Until one day, he died alone in an empty conference room. No one even noticed he was gone. Reborn, he no longer wanted to keep forcin 2.8kReads8.7Score25514d adds
43. 293 变 The Deranged Hacker and His Sweet Little Husband 变态黑客和他的小娇夫 Nine Heavens h九天hTwo Male Leads229k WordsCompleted [Two male leads: aloof silver-haired hacker top x lively, cheerful, quick-witted beauty bottom] Li Yimiao notices someone following him. It seems his every word and action are being monitored, and mysterious red marks keep appearing on his body. Just as he wonders if he’s imagining things, a few text messages shatter his peaceful life. He browses some products and decides they’re too expensive to buy. The next day, a package arrives at his door. He’s about to throw away the mysterious delivery w 4.9kReads9.3Score80014d adds
44. 294 漂 The Handsome Lame Boy Gets Drunk and Asks for a Proposal! His Big Brother Can't Hide His Grin 漂亮小瘸子醉酒求亲！哥哥爽翘嘴 Shun Jiu舜九Two Male Leads344k WordsCompleted [The full audiobook version is now available] Mu Tangbai awakens and discovers that he is a lackey working for a vicious villain in a novel about two equally powerful leads. To earn money for tuition, he follows the villain’s orders and helps kidnap the protagonist gong to an abandoned factory. He even films the protagonist gong being humiliated. In the novel’s ending, the protagonist’s group chops him into pieces and dumps him in international waters. His fate is gruesome. When he comes to, som 5.1kReads8.8Score63714d adds

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    A beautiful but insecure little cripple, whose edges have been worn down by life.

45. 295 虫 The Zerg's Adopted Male Consort Is Seriously Ill 虫族之捡来的雄主病的不轻 Long Live the King大王万岁Two Male Leads601k WordsCompleted The rating just came out, so it’s definitely going up (⩺_⩹) Transmigrated as a male insect, I picked up the Federation's richest man [Two male leads + gong-focused + insect race + devoted couple, both strong + 1v1 pure love] Reborn on a garbage planet and so poor he has nothing left but his life, Si Yubai's lifelong dream is to save up twenty thousand star coins and get an insect-style ID card. One day, he picks up a half-dead female insect from the garbage dump. The guy not only eats all his fo 5.1kReads8.8Score68614d adds

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    There was a bit of a knife in my past life 🔪

46. 296 拜 Please! After I Was Reborn, the Little Madman Clung to Me and Wouldn’t Let Go 拜托！重生后小疯子抱着我不撒手 Ganlu Temple's Iron T Mo Yan甘露寺铁T莫言Modern Romance456k WordsCompleted A madman driven insane by love x the sweet girl who heals him Lu Miaomiao is kept by the mysterious madman of the Feng family for more than ten years. At first, Lu Miaomiao is afraid of him and always wishes she could stay as far away from him as possible. But after she dies, the madman everyone fears becomes a fool, lost in his own fantasies and unwilling to wake up. At last, on a lonely night no one knows about, he follows her into death. Reborn, she plans to keep her distance from the mad 11kReads9.3Score1k14d adds

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    This one meets the requirements.

47. 297 看 Guarding the Gate, Then Becoming the Sect Master's Plaything 看门，然后成为宗主禁脔 Yidian伊迪安Two Male Leads280k WordsCompleted [Sickly-sweet, unhinged beauty top]× [Older, laid-back bottom] [Cultivation + obsessive and unhinged + forced love + chasing his wife to the crematorium] The rating just came out, so it's low. It'll go up later. Wang Xu was a laid-back rogue cultivator. What was the best job for someone who just wanted to eat, wait, and die? Obviously, guarding the gate. Who would have thought that after just two days on the job, he'd be imprisoned and forced into a relationship, then treated like someone's wife 1.7kReads8.1Score16214d adds
48. 298 近 The Modern-Day Assassin 近代刺客 Giant Fish Anong巨鱼阿侬Two Male Leads218k WordsCompleted (Truly sweet on the outside, dark within) handsome shou / (falsely ruthless) devoted gong They say love is an assassin’s greatest taboo, but how can anyone have no feelings? I clearly saw them in your eyes. The eccentric and arrogant young master of the Xiao family in Nangang fell in love at first sight with Wu Mian, a gifted portrait artist. He tried everything: relentless pursuit, threats, coercion. Wu Mian scorned it all. As a string of baffling murders unfolded, he seemed to uncover the othe 10Reads—Score—14d adds

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    One has schizophrenia, the other has post-traumatic stress disorder; a sadomasochistic relationship between two seemingly innocent but actually cunning individuals.

49. 299 被 The Little Emperor Imprisoned by the Left and Right Chancellors 被左相右相囚禁的小皇帝 Liang Wang两汪Two Male Leads523k WordsCompleted After the Beijing Rebellion, the imperial family of the Yu Dynasty was handed over to the Northern Barbarians, who subjected them to every kind of humiliation. The only survivor was a ten-year-old prince. The capital was moved to Nanjing, and the boy ascended the throne at ten, with the two chief ministers doing their utmost to support him. But the young emperor was unable to have children. Little by little, he fell into another abyss. He said he loved him deeply, yet their struggle was a fight 9.4kReads6.4Score61714d adds

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    As long as Your Majesty is here, I'll go to hell...

50. 300 雇 Hiring This Lookalike Was a Huge Mistake 雇上这种替身算是踢到钢筋了 Cat Cat Monster Cat Cat猫猫怪怪猫猫Two Male Leads260k WordsCompleted [A substitute who’s straighter than a steel bar × a boss with an atypical form of OCD] [Switch couple, not the soft and clingy kind of story] [A warm, healing romance] The substitute doesn’t know what OCD is, so he looks it up: “fussy,” “germaphobic,” “everything has to be arranged neatly” Right. He thinks he gets it. Isn’t it just being a housekeeper for someone who makes a fuss about everything? He can do that job! Until One night, this man, who’s usually capable of handling anything at work, 1.3kReads9.1Score17814d adds

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    The first book is about obvious obsessive-compulsive disorder, and the second book is about hidden depression.

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