Fifteen Years of Passing Time

Recently, I have been archiving the early articles of p. I accidentally clicked on this book, Fifteen Years Later, and stayed up all night to read it. I wonder if I had watched earlier, would my life have gone a little differently? But the fact is that my future was basically determined when I was reincarnated. As for how I will go, it won't change much, but I have too many regrets and regrets in my life. When I saw the words "genius" and "local talent", I was thinking, Well, I am neither of these two. I don't have the brain of a genius, nor the diligence of a local talent. I can be considered a fool (joking about myself). In fact, I am a very contradictory person. On the one hand, I have low self-esteem, and I have to hide my self-esteem well so that no one can see it. But on the other hand, I am very proud. I feel aloof and do not join in with others. I am a bit of a bad person. I can say that I am a bit like Liu Rong, but I am much more stupid than her. Dreamers are no match for doers, and doers will lose to doers with dreams. The ones who lose the most are the confused ones. I happen to be that, right? But looking at it this way, the four girls in the early part of the book are also like this. They are all pushed away. I don't know what I want, but the opportunity happens to appear in front of me, and I seem to be able to catch it, so I try harder and catch it. But in the end, except for Butterfly, who is so heartless (hhh, but I quite like her), the girls have found their own direction again. I can find it when I am 27 or 8 years old, right? (I am now 20) People always have to be cornered before they think of panic, eh. In fact, while watching the growth of the four girls, I have been reflecting on the life ahead. I can sum it up in four words: I regret it so much! When I was in junior high school, I didn't seem to understand the importance of the high school entrance examination. I always lived carelessly and ended up in a very ordinary high school. In high school, I continued to hang out and wait to die. The teacher was lecturing on stage, and I would secretly hide novels on my desk to read. I would read everything, from some essays to various types of novels. I thought my taste was good and noble, but in fact I was not (of course I didn't think so). In my senior year of high school, I finally became a little more nervous. Seeing that my grades were no longer comparable to those of my undergraduate degree, the teacher suggested that I do it alone. I gritted my teeth and said I wanted to give it a try. In retrospect, I didn't feel that much pressure at that time, but at that age, I always liked to complain about nothing. I had to talk about mental illness, couldn't study anymore, and clamored to see a psychiatrist. Come on, in the end I couldn't hold on anymore and went for a single move. I was at home holding the college admission notice, and I felt uncomfortable. My mother asked me if I wanted to re-study, but I didn't have the courage to say that. Until now, this matter is still pressing in my heart. I told my friends that I would not regret it, but only regret it. How could it be possible? Just self-paralysis. Seeing these girls getting good grades in the college entrance examination and seeing Chang Luyun choosing to repeat their studies, I fell asleep on my side and soaked the pillow with tears. I hated myself at that time for why I couldn't be braver and work harder. Why? After crying, I have to tell myself that I have learned from the past, but I can catch up with those who know what is coming, and I can't live in the past forever. Until I saw the blow of fate and Liu Rong broke her leg, I was thinking why it was so unreal and such a proud girl to be like this? What a blow to self-esteem. After a year of depression, she stood up again, not her legs, but her person. Seeing her stumbling and straightening up again, I felt that the regrets and regrets I had in the past ten years were nothing more than that. There was no comparison with her, and the suffering I experienced was not worth mentioning. No matter how difficult it is, both me and any girl in the book have dreams and a future. Failure is not terrible, regret is not terrible, and all difficulties are not terrible. What is terrible is to stay there forever and become the person least respected by you. Fortunately, the ending of this story is happy in the end. It was great to see these girls live out their first thirty years. If I had read this article earlier, would my past have been different from my present? But it is impossible. The length of time will dilute the concentration of suffering, and the past will only leave traces on the body. Living is for dreams and the future. The stories of these girls are ordinary and seem to be experienced by everyone, but they shine brightly in the ordinary. It was written casually, not very good, don't go too far. No matter how miserable the past was, the future can continue to be written. We are all so ordinary, yet so shining, always experiencing it, and always on the road. Let's encourage each other. 2025.11.19

I am 18 years old this year and have been watching P Big Streamer for fifteen years. This article was written 14 years ago. I think if I had read it when I was about 10 years old, I would have been bored by the obscure truths in it, and would have rushed to the computer desk, which symbolizes fun. But if you are lucky enough to read it, you may comfort yourself that you don't have to worry about the Chinese and math scores of around 60 in third and fourth grade. Geniuses you think are everywhere, and they are also in pain. They will also become confused after meeting more so-called children from other people's families. In the future, you will have more of a calm mind than they do. If I had watched it when I was 14 years old, I would not have been anxious about being assigned to a key class in junior high school and faced with a plummeting ranking. I would not have been worried about my weight of 1.5 Meters but 120 kilograms. What a blessing it is to be able to eat and do everything a normal person can do. You can't be accepted by your classmates, and don't devote yourself to please, that's not called friendship. Don't be sad when you miss out on the city's key high school by one point in the high school entrance exam. Later, you will surpass many people who originally put your grades first. If I had watched it when I was 16 years old, I might have been more determined, like Chang, who clumsily but consistently put in ten or twenty times the effort of others in painful and incompetent studies. Perhaps become more determined to be that "ground material". I no longer glance at the person who is no longer in my world, even if it is the last time we meet in this life. P's articles, whether they are Big Brother or Password, including this film, I have read through, and I just feel a taste lingering in my heart and lungs, and slowly, the pain of labor is coming. I always feel that the future is vague and nihilistic, and that only those good kids who are much better than me can have a clear future, but in fact that may not be the case. Xiao Chang is not the smartest child, but she is indeed the one who has been studying for the longest time. If I had only seen her who was already studying abroad, I would never have imagined that she was actually a repeat student at a key university. Xiao Liuzi, Xiao Liuzi, you are definitely the kind of person I always want to be. During my 18 years of study, I will think of you every time I am in pain. When I think of people like you, I resent God for why he can't let me be you and people like you. Why do I need to read things that you can remember at a glance? Why do I need to read things many times when you can understand them after reading them once? Why is there always such a big gap between people, and why is there always someone on the other side of the world who is happier than me? God created me, why can't he treat me well and make me the happiest person? Thank you, Priest, for writing this book, writing about this group of girls, writing about them being angry, laughing, moving forward in pain, and then in the whirlpool of society, they finally become all kinds of passers-by in TV series, rushing through the camera in a flash. The ending of this article seems too hasty. I still want to know more about the girls. Didn't Xiao Chang and the boy who liked her in high school meet again? Has squad leader Gu, who looks very similar to Liu Rong, become a veteran in society? Liang Xue's life will get better and better, nothing is worse than the past. Is this the end of the story of Xiao Liu and Boss Liang? What does the future look like? Thank you for writing a story about four girls. It's so well written. Each girl has a shadow of myself or someone else around her. Love these girls so much. If in the future, I don't want to live that day, or I am overwhelmed by life and can't breathe, I will definitely open this article and read it again, telling myself that it doesn't matter, living has a future, and dying is the future that I personally kill myself.

I feel like I am pieced together by several girls, each of whom has experienced most of the ordeals, including depression, part-time job, jealousy, and divorce of parents. Marginal person, isolated, poor, but looking back now, I have gotten better and better. No matter how bad life is, it will never be worse than before. Now I have to take a 24-hour train away from home to go to college. I escaped from a Hebei middle school similar to Hengshui that I often experienced. Even the bath water was cold and more than 40 people were crowded into a dormitory. Now I feel more and more powerless. My parents' grudges and financial situation. In fact, after college, many things are not my choice. I started somatization when I was 12 years old. I have only been taking medicine for seven months since I was 19 this year. I am really just a passerby. A. I don't have that much talent and ability to execute. I follow the crowd and have ambitions but no strength. I'm much better now. I take medicine on time every day and sleep. I can actually sleep for 13 hours a day. I'm still very sleepy. I'm in a good mood recently. I think I'm getting better. I'm almost over this difficulty. When the somatization is completely gone, I can stop taking the medicine. I have found a public psychological consultation. Six times for free. After 80 times, twice a week. Well, it's really good. I will get better and better. I envy a girl like Liu Rong. My surname is also Liu. Well, in short, I don't accept my fate and I will definitely get through it. The doctor also said: I still remember what you looked like when I first saw you. You were in pain all over your body and looked... I said: It was like you were about to die. The doctor said: Yes, you are really in a much better condition now. You have experienced most things in the book. It is well written and really good. I like you p. Your protagonist is always tough and is my role model. I will always remember that sentence. Your heart must be as hard as a stone. I will do it. I don't accept my fate.

25.9.28 One brush ends I finally read all pp's articles I decided to delete jj and study hard. Actually, I didn't have very high expectations for him in this article. But reading the whole article is really inspiring to me I figured out a lot of things I have been confused these past few years, not knowing which path I should take. Now I seem to understand a little bit more And I don't seem to understand But no matter what, I have to work hard.

After fifteen years of streaming, God P's writing is really apt. My life seems to be a collection of the lives of all the protagonists and supporting characters. When I was in elementary school, I was a silent butterfly who would have my homework books torn up due to jealousy. I was also Liu Rong who was inattentive and would be called on ten times in a class by the Chinese teacher and head teacher. But because of my poor health, I was always sick, so my time in school was very short. Even if I couldn't speak twenty sentences with my classmates every day in school, I felt lonely. In junior high school, I was Liang Su, who didn't do his job, and Hu Die, who didn't care about other people's eyes. Only love can be considered love; when I reached high school, I suddenly realized that I had locked up my heart and studied hard. However, I did not have the ability of the Liang family to perform exceptionally at critical times. I failed in the college entrance examination. Although I was dozens of points above the key line, I applied for a second university in accordance with my parents' wishes. Then, because I failed in the examination, I found a stable job in a strange place that I didn't like. My whole life seems to have been arranged by my parents. When I was in college, I didn't know what I wanted. I just knew what I didn't want, but I was unable to resist. Probably because I fell in love too early and established an incorrect view of love since I was a child. I have never pursued a fruitful love. I was ready to make a "floor material" when I got to work, but I found that the "floor material" was difficult to make. I kept procrastinating, so I had to pretend to be calm and calm. For example, I am nearly thirty this year. I am alone, doing nothing, eating and waiting to die. All my salary for so many years has been spent on a face that others will say looks like a recent graduate. It seems that I have nothing, but I am still young and I am no longer praised for my beauty. In fact, my life is not really bitter, and I am even a little bit miserable, but I have always felt that my growth was accompanied by the kind of indescribable dull pain. There will always be things in my heart that my parents, relatives, lovers, and friends cannot understand. I will always feel that I am living alone and confused. This may be because you have to walk this road of life by yourself.

Liuguang's fifteen years of reading This book was really slow to read, and it was written more fluently, but it suited my taste, and it seemed to have a different flavor gradually. I feel like this book was probably written by Sister P when she was a student (ps: when I wrote this reading, I didn't see the author of Sister say anything. At the end of the second volume, I saw Sister saying it was the end of the semester, and I felt it was right!). For me, the descriptions of those student days are too detailed and distant. As the protagonist grows up, it also brings me back to my long-lost student days. The ignorance in junior high school, the day and night study in the senior year of high school, the hazy emotions in adolescence, the 'conflicts' between classmates, and even the toilet slogans in school days are all surprisingly similar. The pretentiousness unique to the student days is also very precious. The book begins with four girls, each with their own difficulties. They learn to grow, and the first step to growth is to break those innocent and romantic ideas of childhood. Life will always break some things cruelly, but it will also put some things back together. Fortunately, we have all grown up. Various characters, different lives, and different stories are all very familiar to me. Now that I am almost three years old, I read this article and feel that many things are very familiar. Most of us have struggled like this. It seems that we have seen ourselves and them growing up again. As Sister P said in the postscript, although there are regrets along the way, it is also a youth worth remembering. Live in the moment, no matter the outcome. 2026.8.1

Tiantian's early works, such as "Fifteen Years Away", "Passing Through" and "Big Brother", make me feel sour when I look at them. At the same time, they have a touch of natural sweetness. I quite like them [Come on] [Sprinkle Flowers] [Star Eyes] [Love Eyes] [Kiss] [Orange Heart]

Tiantian finished writing it piecemeal, and I also read it piecemeal. Although Tiantian said that the body and mind were scattered, but these pieces come together and become a gathering (it's so weird🧐). Ah, I didn't expect Tiantian to finish writing 220,000 words. I am still wondering whether Xiao Xiaorong will agree. Their story has not yet reached its climax, but I think it is best to end it this way. Well, after all, on the one hand, I want Xiao Xiaorong to agree, but I don't want her to agree (I feel that neither of these two are very suitable). Tiantian also said at the beginning of the article that it is her feelings, insights and understanding of growing up, and that their lives may not usher in any climax events (whether Wu Lun is big or small, good or bad), it is over, it seems that they have truly mastered it, real.

Although P University classifies this article as black history, I really like this article. After reading it, I felt like I had seen the first half of life of some people who really existed in this world. Their laughter and crying were so real.

I didn't expect to resonate with the article from fifteen years ago... Maybe youth is like this, people change one after another, and things come and go. But the future is still long, I believe you will live a wonderful and fulfilling life [Come on]