The Moonlight Once Shone on Me

It's so sad. After reading Xiaomai's story, for some reason, I hugged my knees and thought about my life of more than 20 years. Maybe it has nothing to do with the story, but my emotions have reached a critical point. Some memories and emotions that I have deliberately suppressed in my daily life will suddenly pour out. I don't know who to tell, so I can only use this place to talk. It was also on a day full of expectations that I was chatting about my current situation with my ex who was about to go abroad. He did not respond to my enthusiasm, but proposed to break up. Only then did I realize that his family had always disapproved of our relationship. His mother's concern for me in high school was just to make me willing to coax his son, so that his disobedient son could safely and obediently complete the college entrance examination. After the big exam, she put it aside and asked her ex to stop contacting me. I have always believed that even if there is distrust or deception between people, as long as I treat others sincerely, others will respond sincerely. And that day I learned that an adult can take advantage of a minor without any hesitation. She can coax you with her talk of being a good boy and ask you, a day student, to accompany her son to evening study hall. Then you walk for fifteen minutes by yourself, crossing a long, dark riverside road to go home. You can also think that this relationship consumes too much of your emotions and you want to separate. He treats you differently from others. My child, I understand that he likes you very much. Please consider it again. And this ex seemed to love me, but he didn't seem to love me, but I needed an emotional sustenance point too much. Lacking love, I clung to him like a drowning man clinging to a lifebuoy. That day I found out that he no longer liked me that much after graduating from high school. It was just that I could always provide emotional value, and while he was enjoying it, he didn't want to be the bad guy who broke up with me. It was also then that I learned that a man can sleep with a woman he doesn't like. You can also tell your girlfriend, why are you so depressed? You are just too lazy, please don't bother me. Looking at the above, I seem to have met Liang Haoyue's mother who has a purpose, and her boyfriend who suddenly wants to go abroad and break up without any warning. It's just that my boyfriend may not love me as sincerely as Liang and Yang, and my ex's mother is not that vicious. She just took advantage of the innocence of a senior in high school to achieve her own purpose of disciplining her child, and it did not harm my life and health. Xiaomai and I seem similar, but also very different. My father also passed away, but what he brought to me during his lifetime was more fear and sadness. I was surrounded by his family, asking me all kinds of news, and asking me why I was so complacent in taking second place in the exam. And my mother told me that I had to obey them for my tuition and living expenses. Therefore, in order to earn a few hundred yuan a month for living expenses, I constantly suppressed my fears and forced myself to go into the abyss. Later, I was crying alone in the brain hospital. The doctor asked me where my parents were. If there was no guardian, they would not give me medicine. And my father scolded me for being rude because of a new woman I met because my phone was out of battery and I didn't reply to her message in time. She thought I had a problem with her. And where is my mother? When I was a child, she was like Xiaomai's mother. She endured a lot of hardships and helped me grow up. She loved me and I loved her too. But when she was in junior high school, she couldn't stand it anymore, so she told me that she wanted to divorce and go out to work. She had no money, so she asked me to obey my father's family obediently. Even if they might treat me badly, I had to endure it. I listened to my mother very much and I endured it for many years. Before graduating from college, I thought of my mother who worked hard to make ends meet. I found a job with a good salary and gave up the postgraduate entrance examination, hoping that I could stop my mother from worrying about life. Before my senior year of college, when my father passed away, I learned that my mother had married someone else after he left and gave birth to a son the next year. Now she has a worry-free life and does not need my support. That younger brother had his own small room and a very comfortable small desk. They would buy him exercises and patiently explain them to him. But back then, I just finished my homework and gave it to my mother to sign, and then my mother showed off to others that my daughter was very sensible. Until now, I have been working overtime every day until I can't breathe. Occasionally, I have some free time. I want to chat with my mother, but I can't talk much. After a while, she said she was going to prepare lunch/dinner, send her brother to school, etc. Then I said, OK, you go and do it. I don't know if my mother still loves me as much as before, if she will love me like Xiaomai's mother, but I can only love her, otherwise I will have no one to love me and my emotions will collapse. I thought back on everything, and suddenly I wished that it would be great if I were Xiaomai, at least I would really be loved by many people. I can take advantage of an incurable disease to leave, and I can stop all struggles at the best age. But I am not Xiaomai. I still need to continue living in the world. I need to continue to be that child who is very successful in the eyes of others. I can only hide alone in a city far away from my hometown, away from the past events that made me collapse. But fortunately, now that I am an adult and have a fixed income, I can go to the hospital to prescribe medicine by myself without having to worry every day about whether I will have money to eat and buy medicine next month. So, I am getting better now, and I hope our Xiaomai can be happy in another world, free from all diseases. If you turn into wind and rain in the next life, can you hug me with a touch of moisture on a spring morning?

I was deceived by the name, but in fact Yang Sheng is the male protagonist, Moonlight is him, and the person I truly love is also him. Yang Sheng is also very good, better than Liang Haoyue

Wuwuwuwu If there is a parallel time and space, can we give Xiaomai and Yang Sheng a good ending? They obviously love each other, but they can only love but not love. I really wanted them to be together even if it was just for the last time, but she didn't know that it was Yang Sheng who was holding her until she died.

Chao Xiaomai will definitely grow old happily with Yang Sheng in her next life??????

So in the end, it was Yang Sheng who accompanied Xiaomai. Wuwuwuwuwuwuwu.

One only knows how to cherish it when he has lost it, and the other one thinks he has lost it after he has gained it. It's a combination of circumstances, it's really fate.

It's so bitter, Chenchen. It's really bitter between them. If Yang Sheng hadn't seen that letter, would he have thought that Xiaomai loved Liang Haoyue for the rest of his life? He would have really gone crazy, oh, oh, oh, all his tears have dried up, oh, oh, oh.

Wuwuwuwu Liang Haoyue kill me I think he is a bit of a scumbag

My spirit is very good. My spirit is so good. It's good. I'm good.

Ah, it's even more cruel and there's even bigger bad news 5555555