He Regretted It When I Was Dying

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[Story complete] Blurb:

Yan Yan was diagnosed with stomach cancer on his birthday.

When he received the pathology report, Yan Yan was working overtime at the office, coding. After seeing his boss's empty promises in the work group chat, he calmly quit and left the group on the spot.

After five years of work, his wallet was still empty.

Yan Yan didn't want treatment. He decided to spend the last fifty thousand yuan on his bank card traveling. He'd buy a one-way ticket and, once the money was gone, quietly wait to die by the sea.

But as soon as the plane landed, Yan Yan was trapped in a crushing crowd.

In the jostling, he lost his balance and nearly fell underfoot, but just as he was about to hit the ground, he fell into a familiar embrace.

Yan Yan stared up in a daze at the famous star wearing sunglasses. A sharply defined jaw, a high nose, dazzling good looks. One thought filled his mind.

What could be worse than seeing your ex doing better than you when you're about to die?

-

A good ex should be as good as dead.

But Duan Siyu clearly wasn't.

Yan Yan went to the beach to watch a bonfire and nearly got his eyebrows singed. Duan Siyu appeared out of nowhere and grabbed him by the collar.

Yan Yan went to a nightclub to watch a show, and when a dancer invited him onstage, Duan Siyu appeared again, grabbing his hand and stopping him with a menacing glare.

Yan Yan went to a bar in the middle of the night to drink himself into a stupor. When he started throwing up, Duan Siyu snatched the drink away and smashed it. “Yan Yan, do you even care if you live or die?”

Yan Yan shook off Duan Siyu's hand and rolled his eyes. “What's it to you?”

Duan Siyu was furious, his eyes bloodshot. He said like a madman, “I never agreed to break up. How is it none of my business?”

-

His fifty thousand yuan savings were nearly gone.

Yan Yan spent his last two thousand yuan to go to Duan Siyu's concert.

The star shone brilliantly onstage.

Yan Yan sang along with the fans in the crowd, smiling as he thought that at least he hadn't agreed to Duan Siyu's pleas to get back together.

After the concert, Yan Yan resolved to walk into the waves flowing toward the deep sea, sink beneath the surface, and never return to shore.

The cold seawater filled his lungs.

Before losing consciousness, Yan Yan thought with regret that his life had been far too short. If there was a next life, he would rein in his temper and tell Duan Siyu the truth at least once.

At least once... I love you.

In his fading consciousness, a pair of strong arms broke through the waves and held Yan Yan tight, pulling him from the sea.

Moonlight streamed into his eyes like water. Yan Yan thought he was dead, but he seemed to hear Duan Siyu pleading, “Don't die, please...”

Arrogant, proud superstar seme x aloof, depressed office worker uke who says one thing and means another

HE, 1v1, both virgins, younger seme

The uke will recover, and find salvation in the end. They have only ever had each other.

Note:

1. The seme is arrogant and overbearing.

2. The uke already has intense self-loathing, which was not caused by the seme.

3. The characters are not perfect, and they grow as they find redemption.

4. Please don't apply anything in this story to real life.

Blurb for This Time, I'll Be the One to Give Up on You:

Zhu Nan became a canary at someone else's mercy.

More ironically, his sugar daddy was his first love.

Ten years ago, Wei Zhaoxing left without a word, leaving Zhu Nan alone and dazed in the afterglow outside the airport.

Ten years later, Wei Zhaoxing suddenly appeared again, insisting that the Zhu family send him off to the Wei family.

Zhu Nan thought that, as an adopted son and a lowly actor, he was destined to cling to someone like a parasitic vine. It made no difference which family he went to. Even if Wei Zhaoxing was his former lover, he knew how to keep his place.

On his first day in the Wei home, Zhu Nan was careful to keep his place. He chose the smallest room in the house. It was damp and faced away from the sun, but at least it was safe.

Wei Zhaoxing frowned. “Sleep in my bedroom.”

Zhu Nan politely refused. “No need. Thank you for your kindness, sir.”

Later, when everyone said Wei Zhaoxing was about to get engaged, Zhu Nan was careful to keep his place. He packed his pitifully few belongings in the middle of the night, only for Wei Zhaoxing to catch him red-handed.

Wei Zhaoxing snatched the luggage away and grabbed his wrist, his eyes bloodshot as he asked, “Zhu Nan, what am I to you?”

Zhu Nan answered without hesitation. “My sugar daddy.”

He once treasured a fallen star, holding it in his hands, only to be burned by its fiery light, hurt so badly he nearly died.

So he wouldn't make that mistake again.

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Wei Zhaoxing spent ten years finally taking control of the Wei family. He could have anything he wanted, but the only thing he wanted was a little shadow named Zhu Nan.

But time had passed, and even a little shadow could grow up.

He wanted Zhu Nan to sleep in his bedroom, but Zhu Nan would only curl up in a cramped little room.

He wanted Zhu Nan to call him big brother, but Zhu Nan would only address him formally as sir.

Even after wrapping up filming, Zhu Nan would rather stay on set with nothing to do than go home and see him.

No matter what Wei Zhaoxing did, even when he pinned Zhu Nan against the wall, Zhu Nan didn't react or even get angry. He was like a stagnant pool that would never ripple again.

Later, with no other options, Wei Zhaoxing dug out a photo of them at eighteen and pleaded softly, “Tell me, Zhu Nan, what do I have to do for us to go back to how we were then?”

The boy in the old photograph was bright and refined.

Zhu Nan stared blankly at the old picture, finally reacting. For the first time, he looked Wei Zhaoxing in the eye, his gaze filled with years of hatred. “We can't go back, Wei Zhaoxing. You were the one who gave up on me first.”

You were the one who gave up on me first.

So this time, I'll be the one to give up on you.

Despairing, obsessive seme x cool-headed, indifferent actor uke

1v1, both virgins, HE

They have only ever had each other.

Theme: You don't have to apologize for being human. Make peace with yourself.