
They Regretted It After My Heart Turned to Ash
心如死灰后他们后悔了
- Status
- Completed
- Length
- 651k Words
- Genre
- Danmei (BL)
- Era
- Modern Era
- Updated
- 4y ago
- Source
- JJWXC
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In booklists 133
Explore more →Feel-Good, Comeback, and Face-Slapping Danmei
Some aren’t quite as satisfying, either. My personal rating scale: 5 stars for excellent writing and plot; 4 stars for above average; 3 stars for a time-killer.
Bought and Read All
I bought the full editions. Update: I didn't expect anyone to read this. I'm an omnivorous reader, and aside from pure eye-candy characters and brainless stories, I'm fine with all kinds of niche and dark, twisted content. If that bothers you, proceed with caution.
Personal Compilation: Misunderstanding Stories
Mostly angst, reborn, quick transmigration, and the like. They’re probably usually based on misunderstandings. I’m making a roundup here instead of creating a separate shelf for them.
Bottoming Burden 2
The gong is a newborn, devoted to his beloved shou; the shou's family is cold and proud. Retired from the zhq.
Sweet-and-Sour BL (Complete Edition)
Sweet-and-sour stories I thought were pretty good after buying all the chapters!!
Romance and Tenderness
Stories to take your time with, with a slice-of-life feel. Beneath their calm surface, they offer warmth and beauty, with an extraordinary sense of romance and tenderness shining through every line.
Reading Log
I read all sorts of things: infinite-loop stories, top-focused BL, original danmei, quick transmigration, and more. The rating system is limited: four stars means five, while three stars means either four or three.
Sickly, Self-Destructive, and PTSD
A collection of the list maker’s trashy personal preferences. Some are fanfiction, some are original, and they cover a huge range. They’re all books I reread; barring surprises, they’re all BL.
Give Me My Ship
Most feature fragile babies who are emotionally distant, have PTSD, or tend toward self-destruction. There are both shou-centric stories and stories with no romance, so check the tags if you have triggers.
BL: Readable, but Only a Little
As the title says, I mostly haven't finished these. Four stars means pretty good, three stars means just about readable, and anything below three stars didn't make the list. (Very subjective! Spoilers! Mostly me ranting.)
Definitely Not Universally Hated
All of these feature a bottom as the main character. At first, everyone sees them as universally disliked, but later they all regret it and chase after them, only to get nowhere. I’m a simple person, and I love this stuff.
Fans of Beautiful, Strong, Tragic, Sickly Characters, Come On In!!
Sickly, beautiful, strong, and tragic: absolutely divine!
One Star: Major Turn-Offs | Two Stars: Couldn't Finish
From afar, it looks like a gathering of great minds. Up close, it’s a meeting of gossipmongers.
Battle-Worn, Sickly, Beautiful, Strong, and Tragic, Savior, Death
There are lots more I've read but haven't fully subscribed to, so I didn't add them. I like stories with physical torment, savior complexes, and protagonists who die but get a happy ending. Don't come in if that's not your thing.
Sickly Bottoms
I have strict standards for sickly characters. I don't like it when a healthy original body suddenly becomes sickly after the protagonist transmigrates, or when a sickly character somehow has absurdly high combat ability. This is my personal list, updated over time. The stars are not ratings.
Mostly Original Settings, Hurt/Comfort, Battle-Scarred, Beautiful and Tragic Heroes
I get excited whenever the protagonist gets hurt. I like seeing them hold back their pain while others worry over them and take care of them, or regret it afterward. I especially like interstellar settings, historical settings, and quick transmigration. I try not to recommend popular stories. Feel free to recommend some!
Heartbreak on Jinjiang Literature City
Carefully selected angsty stories. Today I'm a tearful tomato (B-tier list; if something isn't B-tier, the System must be mistaken).
For Personal Use: My Favorites
Probably some of my favorite books on Jinjiang
[For Personal Use] Danmei 1.0 (Non-Fantasy Danmei
Organizing all the books I've read qwq
Fragile Bottoms: The Fast-Paced Version
A speed-run of my weak-and-sickly-bottom preferences. I’m not explaining my taste as I go. This isn’t a list for people with strict preferences, and orthodox types can stay away.
Strong Protagonists in Modern, Showbiz, Detective, and Professional Settings
Modern-day stories I'm saving. Whether they're realistic or supernatural, strength can come from within: business rivalries, fighting villains, career ambitions, or simply facing life head-on.
Sickly Beauty, So Irresistible!
I’m all about the ICU trips, doge~ The focus may be more psychological or physical, but the sickly beauty elements always get me. Also, please recommend me some more w
Stories I Didn't Like / Dealbreakers
Stories that made me uncomfortable in the middle or later parts. Their blurbs and early chapters really hit my buttons, so this is to keep me from falling into the same trap again
Transmigration, Rebirth, Showbiz, System
Don’t ask, just clearing out my bookshelf
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I love every article and every character I write, I just said that I really love them. I have [never] mentioned any words about black history, and I have absolutely no such attitude. I do not think any book is black history. I treat every article and every character with my heart and sincerity. I have expressed my strange attitude towards many background settings, I have ridiculed the setting of grading children, and denied the setting of the power of words. My writing of this setting really does not mean that I endorse it. My setting is that due to the disparity in status between men and women, a large number of female insects have turned into neutral chaos. The society has become repressed and distorted, and the unprotected male insects are sold as goods. What I want to write is that under this background, abnormal repression will definitely lead to the trend that will eventually transform into this, and then in such a crumbling and collapsing environment, the story of the attack and the enemy, and the story of them smashing the world. I [didn't know] the sensitivity of this setting, and I didn't figure it out in advance. This is a serious mistake on my part, and it's my fault. But please allow me to say something. I really want to explain that I chose this without knowing the premise, just like I chose to smash the unreasonable world backgrounds above. The response I was asked was this: The theme of the previous book was "Give the Golden Finger to the Attacker and the Recipient". The main character, Dou Xiangfang, was one of my XPs, so I wrote such a story. The genre of this book is "being chased and loved", and it is my xp that the protagonist is so doting on the protagonist. I can guarantee that this book will not cause any discomfort to you. I am not an author whose character design will collapse. If it collapses, I will refund the money in full. I will refund as much as you paid, okay? I have always said this, and I have always said this to the comments that questioned me under the old article. I have always said this, and I can't help but hope to communicate well with everyone. What I want to express is "I am sure of my ability to control the direction of the article and conform to the setting of this book." And the sentence "there is a situation that makes you uncomfortable" is because the quarrel between readers mentioned above "will you refund the author's money if this happens?" All my responses followed this sentence. I didn't think too much or think through it at the time. This is my fault. In the past, I would always say, I really want to write this book, please give me a chance. The origin of this habit is my bad habit. I can't help but want to prove something. The more I prove, the worse it gets. I am not trying to please anyone. In the last book, I also clearly said, "This book is all about attacking favors and receiving favors." In my eyes, this is a setting, not a position. I never thought that this would become a position. I never specifically loved or hated them based on their position, I just loved my characters, I just loved them. I always have a naive fantasy. If my friend, you really spend some time with me, you may know what kind of person I am, and maybe you are willing to take a look at what I say instead of believing those words that are not entirely true. You may know that I will collapse, I will be stressed, and I will do stupid things, but I will not quibble. As I write this, I begin to worry whether you will think that what I have said is all quibbles. I just thought that maybe someone is waiting for me to respond, maybe someone is waiting for me to make it clear. If I try to say something clearly, it can make some friends who have been together sincerely less painful, then I will finish it. I won't write anymore, there won't be a small one, and I won't write another big one, don't worry.
(If you read the comment area, please skip it. I don't want to affect your emotions and decisions. I just have nowhere to say it, so I come here, hoping to be seen.) First of all, let me explain that I don't know much about what happened, and I don't check Weibo. As a result, it took me so long to see and know about this incident. On this day, I also read through various comments and Weibo. In the process, there were many words that I didn't understand or understand. But I want to explain the problems I see from my standpoint and my perspective. First of all, it is a matter of character that I am angry. As an old man who lived in Jinjiang for seventy-eight years, I dare to say that there are very few authors who write thousands of words every day, and the flowers they update are all small red flowers, and they never stop. You must know that the small pink flowers need to reach more than 3,000 to light up, and the red flowers seem to need 6,000 or 7,000. Based on this alone, I think she has done a good enough job. Secondly, someone is actually saying that she deserves it? ! Doesn't anything happen if you can't open a trumpet? ! Do you know why I opened a trumpet account? It's because of the keyboard warrior. Do you know why there are so many trumpet accounts? It's because the writing is so good and the writing style is so recognizable that old readers will recognize it immediately. She has been getting rid of the shadow of the past and wants to start over, hoping that she can write quietly and conscientiously again, and describe every story and plot carefully to avoid the shadow of the past from affecting the current article. If you are lucky and someone who is reading the review has read her book, you will find that from a chronological perspective, her writing style is becoming more and more depressing, and so is her speech. The articles at the beginning were real light-hearted cookies. Now, even if I say I want to write sweet articles and light-hearted articles every time, in the end there will still be shadows of dark reality, and there will still be knives in the articles. The reason for these is that the inappropriate remarks of readers (perhaps they should be called keyboard warriors) affect the three dimensions and thus the writing style. And now some people are actually saying that she deserves it. Third, let's talk about the settings involved and what are the English abbreviations. I don't really understand, but I saw some comments saying that it was the Zerg setting or something else. Here I would like to ask, the article classification is just to make it easier to search, but why do you require the author to write clearly according to a detailed type? If we had that kind of limited thinking, how could the products come out so well? Ideas and inspiration do not come according to the standards of templates. When did you want to write something that must have a clear label before you can write it? If the classification is incorrect, why not write the article? To put it bluntly, you can't stand the fact that this article is in the wrong category. Why, is it difficult to click a cross? Is it harder than typing a string of abusive comments? Is it necessary? The ultimate reason is that her writing is good, and you want to read it but don't want to eat it, so you are contaminated and made a mess. I think you have less time to do in the third dimension. In addition, I would like to make a digression. Regardless of the concept or outline, many authors are all the same if you take it as a single word. The only difference is whether the author's description is good, whether it is wonderful, whether the writing is beautiful enough, and whether the plot is full of twists and turns. To be honest, there are really very few novel themes and fantastic ideas. Why? Let these keyboard warriors do the talking. To write something different, for example, polish all the different edges and corners of the author. In the end, there are only two possibilities, either to close the book to adjust the psychology, or to keep it the same. Don't tell me why there are teachers who write well and have high output even if they keep writing, because they don't care about the opinions of keyboard warriors. If it's a bit more straightforward, the comment section will be clean without reading anything. The reason why the author of this book ends up like this is because he has a bad habit of trusting readers too much. The above are all my personal opinions and do not involve anyone else. It doesn't involve the author's fans, it doesn't involve unrelated authors, it doesn't promote the author himself, it doesn't promote the author himself, it doesn't promote the author himself! ! ! ! ! At the end, do you know how sad I am? I was bullied all the time in high school and was bullied (cold violence) in school. Three-quarters of the classmates in the class are boys, including my two deskmates. All the boys isolated me, and I only talked to girls during those two years. My only good friend said that you have not been depressed in the past two years and you are really strong. I am not really strong. It is no exaggeration to say that I survived by relying on the author's literary talents. I am addicted to the feelings she described, and, not afraid of people's jokes, I have always imagined that my future relationships can be like this, whether it is love or friendship. This fantasy has even become my spiritual support. It allows me to gain strength from it, allows me to see hope, and makes me feel that no matter how bad or bad I am, there will be people who understand me, and there will be people who are willing to believe in me and protect me. On the other hand, it allowed me to see the distorted reality while using humorous words to give me the greatest protection, so I was still happy even if I laughed and cried at the same time. Therefore, these people took away the psychological refuge that I had always had, leaving me without a place to go. Got it? Are you satisfied? ? ?
Which one? Let me take a look. How many of the people shouting below have seen it? What do others say? What does it mean when someone who didn't even click on that book asks for a refund under other books? Today, if you think this cupboard dish is not delicious, why don't you ask for a refund for all the twenty meals you had before? Then can you spit out the food you have eaten and restore it? When you write on a trumpet account, you have to pick out the person, and when you pick it out, you have to criticize the writing for not meeting your expectations. People have already opened a trumpet account and are not dancing in front of you. Oh, yes, some people even say that she writes on a trumpet account behind others' backs. . . Help, I can't write in a large size, or in a small size. Go ahead and write, write whatever you want, and don't ask for a refund under every book. When you buy a book, you are betting. If you get spiritual satisfaction from this book, you have to return all the books that you don't like? What's the point? The comment section is full of chaos, I'm really annoyed
Isn't it why... Isn't it such a heinous crime to write about Zerg? What's the difference between asking for a refund because of this kind of thing (not just Zerg) and asking for a refund after eating someone else's food and finding out that their views are different from yours? The author is a rare author who is unique in emotional dramas. He describes emotions in detail. I wish you can get on the boat and sail away from this storm like a little flame, and everything will be safe.
I was planning to re-read it three times and read the comments. The sky is falling. Don't leave other dishes if you don't like them. Who did Xiao Huo Miao offend? If you are sad and lock the article, who will compensate me for my abusive article top 1?
In any case, I once gained the motivation to live from this book. Little Flame is a life-saving existence for me. Thank you for bringing me such a story, which I still remember deeply even today, long after I read it.
Madam, I really like the small flames of this article, but suddenly it came to your house collapse and so on. After reading some of your posts, I actually think it's nothing. The main reason is that the current reader circle is very sensitive to some words, and when it involves gksk special offer or something, everyone suddenly started to rip it off. There are thousands of world views, just forget it if you don't like it. It's really weird to say you want to refund your money after reading the article. . Reading your article and some of your words, I can feel that you are a little emotionally sensitive and have low self-esteem. I hope that the protagonist in your novel can give you strength and tenacity. I hope that the storm will pass as soon as possible and that you still love life and the world you write [Compare Heart] ps. I don't want to participate in fights, and I rarely browse the forum. It's normal for everyone to have different ideas. I just hope you won't get too excited. I wish everyone good health and a happy life.
Madam, Xiao Huo will always be happy, and you will also be happy forever. I also love every article and character of yours. I don't remember how long it has been, but I probably read your articles when I was very young. Thank you for coming, thank you for writing these warm words, thank you, thank you, thank you for giving me an outlet when I was very bad. I didn't know what happened before. I was not very popular in the community before and I changed my phone number several times. I like to find the details of a knowing smile when I scan the article and feel the warmth written by a warm person. The warm words of the world, the warm characters, and the energy and love contained in the author's writings can be felt by you. I have never deliberately looked for you, but I am always surprised to find words that move me and fall in love. These have always been the best moments for me when reading novels. I originally thought about coming back to read them after the Chinese New Year, but I found out that I had always read what I thought was fake to brainwash myself. Boss, as long as I read your articles, I can feel your love for the characters. So when I saw the news that you stopped writing, I didn't believe it, haha. I don't think there's anything good about reading an article and strictly checking the actions of the author's 18 generations of ancestors. I wish you happiness forever. I don't read the main attack, but I read the article without looking at the stance, so I can't understand it... Anyway, I looked at the comments below a year ago, and I feel really sad. No matter what, I wrote these disgusting words for the sake of my own emotions over the years. Happy New Year, peace every year, Sanqian and the flames, please stay happy.
Just post one here. I've read this article and the one next door taking the blame before, and I've updated them. After looking at a few of the author's columns, I found that there's another one I'm interested in. I'll read it when I have time. After briefly understanding the dispute, I can only say that I don't find anything offensive about the mixed food. Regardless of the perspective or the subject matter, I only treat it as a routine or a literary hobby. But I can't represent anyone else, only my own opinion, so I can't say much. In my opinion, the author's biggest problem lies in his lack of response to this matter. What is the specific truth of the matter? Is the author's idea intentional or unintentional? What is conveyed through the Internet and interpreted by others is too complicated. Only the author himself knows what it means and what is going on. If you are unintentionally magnified and misunderstood and you lack the experience to deal with it, then my supplementary vote is to tell the author to take a vacation, relax, stabilize your mentality, and be happy! It's really uncomfortable for emotionally fragile people to be surrounded by lingering negativity... It's too uncomfortable... This incident can also serve as a reminder to the author and a lesson in wisdom. If the inconsistency is intentional, because I personally don't care, just think that because of my fragile emotions, I have a violent outburst, and I am a bastard. I definitely like these two articles, and I actually liked them when I read them. Well, come on, I don't know how to end this paragraph.
I don't really like reading IF, so I stayed with this IF for a long time before reading it. However, the IF line also made me burst into tears. My eyes were swollen the next morning. IF is really good and ideal, but when I think about another child, I really want to cry [burst crying]