A Redemption-Type Male Insect, But He’s the Bottom

[Self-indulgent fic, please check the POV, CP, and reading guide before you begin!]

Obsessive, self-loathing, half-ruined, reborn military male insect top, Ailian

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Cold-hearted, self-centered, genius transmigrated male insect bottom, Xierwan

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After transmigrating twice, Xierwan is now an ordinary, diligent male insect pharmacist.

His life went from an insect's life to a human life and back to an insect's life. He lived well and studied hard, and finally, as an adult, the Federation assigned him a female insect...

Then he realized he might be the protagonist gong of a redemption story.

He doesn't think of himself as someone who can redeem others. He detoxifies, treats, and rehabilitates his female insect, patching him up bit by bit, thinking that once he's fixed, he'll send him back to the battlefield so he can shine again--

never realizing that as he polished this dim jewel until it gleamed, the jewel had also focused all its attention on him.

His female insect came to see him as his only and final hope and light.

So in the end, as he watched the insect bow his head and kiss his fingertip, he fell into deep thought.

What is going on? Am I really the protagonist gong?

But I... don't feel that way at all.

--That's what he thought, right up until the moment the female insect finally turned the tables and left him dazed and dizzy.

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Ailian had thought being reborn was just another cruel joke played by fate, forcing him to watch helplessly as he once again walked into the abyss and toward despair.

But he received the favor of a star.

So as long as he could stand by his side, it didn't matter if he twisted everything he had once believed or shattered every boundary he had assumed was fixed.

Ailian: I don't deserve you, but I love you.

I love you against my instincts, even if it means we both perish.

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--You can't be my male offspring, female spouse, elder, young insect, servant, confidant, test subject, and beloved all at once.

--But you need me to be.

So I am.

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You don't exist to redeem me.

But I'm so glad you exist.

·Reading Guide·

#SC, strong x strong, 1v1. Past and present, no exes. Ailian was married in his previous life, but his male offspring was an insect scumbag. There was no positive physical contact or positive emotional development.

#Fictional, alternate-universe setting, unrelated to reality. Please don't project it onto real life.

#Self-indulgent fic, unconventional top/bottom roles. Note: the bottom is a transmigrated male insect! Note: this is not a typical redemption story!

#The last paragraph of the blurb adapts an internet meme.

#Romance-writing practice, but there are lots and lots and lots and lots of setting details. Half the story is romance, half worldbuilding. Chapters with extensive setting details will be marked in their summaries. There is also a lot of introspection and stream-of-consciousness writing. Check the chapters before the paywall for reference. Read with caution.

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Please add to your reading list: [Quick Transmigration] The Comments Say I'm the Protagonist Gong, danmei, bottom's POV, Quick Transmigration

[The second story in the Qing Heng series, with the roles reversed again]

As a seasoned transmigrator, Qing Heng is delighted to be born this time into a normal, ordinary modern society.

He decides to be a good person and try out some new things and careers, like inheriting the family business and becoming a domineering CEO.

His life proceeds smoothly, just as planned.

But when he meets the new assistant he's hired...

A few lines suddenly float before his eyes.

[The protagonist gong makes his entrance!]

[Hehe, CEO. Hehe, sickly beauty.]

[Looks aloof and delicate, but is actually a hot miner? I'm devouring this.]

[Wwwww, that waist, those legs, I'm huffing and puffing--]

[You're also pecking rice for your wife, huh? (dog with a flower in its mouth.jpg)]

Qing Heng: ...?

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He realizes he may have transmigrated into a book.

His role is... the protagonist gong.

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Fiance x real young master

Disabled A x transmigrated sunshine O

Domineering CEO x all-around assistant

Research genius x cross-dressing livestreamer

In control x thinks he's the top

Mental instability x transmigrated golden finger

? x O who hates A's aloofness but has disordered pheromones

Lofty Sword Venerable x kind and gentle medicine cultivator

Cold and violent Demon Venerable x seductive furnace cauldron

Noble, haughty pharmacist x talented young nobleman from ancient times, now in the modern day

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Completed: The Blades Have Been Delivered to This World. Danmei spin-off, no CP. The Quick Transmigrator ultimately achieved the true ending.

Bungo Strays, Detective Conan, Katekyo Hitman Reborn, Naruto. Classic tragic, beautiful, strong characters who die after receiving a fatal blow... So, do you really want to become that lighthouse?

--The world is destined to be destroyed, and you are its only hope.

Completed: The One-Sided Arrows Are Absolutely Real. Danmei spin-off, bottom's POV, 2.8 million characters, just finished, very popular (heart)

A love-hate saga, with countless arrows pointed at the protagonist as he saves the world.

A chaotic love story. Amid all the rationality, acceptance, and pain... we found a little love.

--I keep repeating that I don't care, or perhaps it's just because I still long for love.

Theme: The bright moon only needs to hang high in the sky.