How Could a Substitute Top Have Feelings?

Although it is short, it is very beautiful. It is an atypical crematorium. Although there are stand-in jokes, they do not account for much and are not the focus. It is completely pure love. "Stand-in Bai Yueguang" is just the perfect male god in Shou's imagination. Shou's rivalry feels a bit like love at first sight, but the moment they first met with the "male god" gave him The feeling of heartbeat is very similar (it can also be said that it is in line with his imagination of the lover he wants, and there is no real so-called male god). In addition, Gong is urgently short of money, so he signed a contract with Gong for three years to be a so-called substitute. Gong is very rational in character. He is a person who is good at planning and controlling himself (his desire to control is actually quite strong and sinister, but because his desire to control is only for himself and rational, he does not feel like a father). He controls both life, work and emotions, so he fulfilled his promise during the three-year "substitute contract". Since it is only a "contract" "Zuo" will not be emotional (but I prefer that he is actually emotional, and fulfilling the contractual obligations with his character is enough for Shou. Then in the relationship, he likes Shou to dance and is more delicate and gentle when doing. It is an exception, and he will make suggestions for a better future path for Shou. If he does not have feelings, then what should be done in the process It should be as dry as working and paying public wages. It is impossible for a person to be emotionless. He will get deeper and deeper into the relationship because of the emotion. This will allow him to react sensitively to the nerves of an artist. He will be with you like a lover day and night. However, it is difficult to pretend to be obedient on the surface and make people fall in love and forget them even after separation. However, there is a "contract" layer in Gong's heart, so his feelings will not be too strong and he can easily control them freely. After the relationship ended, the emotion he once had was taken back and he followed the direction he originally expected. It's not that this relationship did not leave a deep mark on Gong's heart, otherwise he would not be moved by Shou's confession text messages later). Or let's talk about the "controlling desire" that is important in this part of his character. The beginning and end of the contractual relationship with Shou was within his control. After he and Shou separated, he had a brief relationship with a supporting character. This relationship was also under his control. He felt that after he "broke up", he should fall in love, just with a friend. The supporting character he introduced intentionally met and developed a relationship. The article said that they were very similar, so their relationship heated up quickly and they were in sync with each other. But I think this was also based on his purpose of "wanting to have a real relationship". This was still the result of his control, and the progress of his relationship with the supporting character was within his expectations. The supporting character's first two boyfriends broke up because of his neglect of relationships. This situation of two parties getting together and breaking up is very normal and reasonable for the supporting character, but Gong is different. He is quite different from ordinary people. Gong is rational enough to calmly draw his expectations for the future from the current situation of the two people. It is also when he makes appointments and meets to give surprises when the relationship is slowly fading. This is normal behavior, but if you can already predict the outcome. It's not that he has "done everything he can for this relationship." My personal opinion is that he didn't try his best. Since he knew it, expected it, and really liked it hopelessly, he should have met with the supporting character no matter what the reason and method, and directly and honestly explained the problems in the relationship and future crises. The two parties should work together to avoid the possibility of separation, which is also a good way for both parties to get closer to each other, but he didn't! ! He is not like a supporting character who instinctively avoids problems when faced with them. Since he knows the cause early and has anticipated it, why not forcefully save it like "losing control"? Friends say you won't have emotional conflicts this way? Shouldn't we talk about it? It's not a contradiction or a lack of impulse, but it is essentially a conflict point where the relationship breaks down. There is not only one answer: he doesn't like the supporting role that much. This kind of intentional and controlled love is not deep at all, and of course it disappears quickly. At this time, he has almost taken back all the feelings, (this kind of free and easy retraction without giving) Being polyamorous is also consistent with my previous relationship with Shou (who was together for three years and separated without any regrets), and the similarity in personality is only superficial. In addition to the neglect of feelings, the attitude of the supporting character to first avoid the work that was not done well, the first to not contact people is the sense of responsibility, and turning a blind eye to people in need of emergency help. These are their gaps and differences. If you say something unpleasant, you should put it in Love dramas are all negative points. Obviously Gong, who is completely different from the supporting character in these issues, will not like such behavior (this is not to say that the supporting character is not good, it just means that he is an ordinary person's thoughts and actions, but Gong is different. He has higher standards for himself, and also vaguely hopes that the other party can be in harmony with him. Just like in the past three years, I suggested that Shou except the choreographer to incorporate new elements into the dance He thought it was good to get a better future, which was also a high standard. Although Shou didn't think about it so much in the past three years, after the separation, he felt that Gong's suggestions were really good for his personal growth, and he agreed with them and developed in this way. In the past three years, Gong insisted on setting up a charity fund because of his sister's leukemia, and Shou did the same. This is a co-production, and Shou's behavior became one of the reasons for Gong's heartbeat). Although he and the supporting character are already boyfriends, he is not in a state of mind that he can lose control for him, so he only achieves the "passing line" and does not do more. He will save it if he can, and end it if he can't. To put it ruthlessly, he is similar to such a dispensable and indifferent state to the outcome. You care, but it really doesn't matter much. He invests less and disappears quickly. He has not been heartbroken because of the breakup of his relationship with the supporting character (there is another interesting point) Point, it is clear that the breakup was because the supporting character was angry when Shou asked about their past while Shou was drunk. Gong's attitude was not liked when others asked about private matters, but here he was abnormally angry and broke up. Later, when his friend mentioned the breakup, Ging couldn't help but think of the past memories shared by Shou when Shou was asked by the supporting character. Was it because he didn't care about the memories of the three years together with Shou? This can actually be compared with the emotional process of Shou. After the breakup, this person silently accepted Shou's pursuit. According to what he kept saying for three years, he really had no interest or feelings for Shou. Shouldn't his character reject it mercilessly from the beginning and completely cut off the traces Shou left on him? Also because of Shou's insomnia, he went to meet Shou when someone asked him to contact him, and he couldn't help but put Shou off the blacklist and read his confession messages every day, etc. Intellectually, of course he shouldn't do this to his ex who has no feelings and doesn't want to be together anymore. This is already a sign that he has lost control. His reason often told him that it was time to break off, but his emotions failed to make him do it. In the end, emotions prevailed. In the end, he couldn't help but bully him while doing it. This was the biggest loss of control. He said it was the suppressed emotions that exploded, so he bullied people into tears. Shou is not only in sync with Gong, but also a very good match. They can be labeled as a match made in heaven. Gong has this desire for control, and Shou is relatively lacking in love due to his upbringing. After such a period of time, Shou has grown into a better person worthy of Gong's liking, and can satisfy Gong invisibly without conflict. Although this relationship is short-lived, this emotional experience The story, as well as the psychological process, are really complete. The only regret is that although the emotional and psychological changes between the two are present, they are not detailed enough, and the extras are not enough. In fact, it could be longer. I didn't feel much at the beginning, but by the end I really liked this article. It is really a kind of emotional process that I like very much.

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It's really painful to watch. Your ending was too perfunctory. Deep well ice. The relationship between Gong and the male co-star is so delicately written, and the psychological activities are very detailed. The relationship between Gong and Shou is written in a perfunctory manner. Either you change Shou, or you write it well. The ending happened just after Mader got together, so what should I write about? I have been reading this article for several months. Every time I think about this article, I feel extremely depressed. What am I doing? It ended just after we got together. It ended in a sloppy way. What's wrong with you?

More than a year ago, I accidentally read this. When I saw it, I was just like most people, and I was very disappointed. Today I accidentally thought of it, and I came to take a look again. I saw a long comment from a teacher in the comment area, and talked about a lot of details. After the second time I read it, I really had a different feeling. The first time I read it, I also felt , Gong responded too little, the two were not equal after all, and showed too little love. When they were together later, I always felt that Gong's transformation was a little abrupt. However, the second brush found that love is always hidden in the details. Those three years are the foundation. No matter how rational Gong is, if He warned himself, but when he confirmed that he was frankly and passionately loved by Lin Wen, desire defeated reason, and the long-suppressed emotions rebounded, so he lost control. Seeing the last part of the two people's intimacy in the bathroom, Xie Chenyou's gentle smile made me It feels that, at least at this moment, he is satisfied in his heart. The bird that flew out has returned with full of love, and his heart and eyes are full of him. The inequality and misplaced emotional position of the previous few years have been made up for at this moment, so that later, after confirmation After being loved, the raging love was out of control. I was anxious to get the certificate. How could there be such a vigorous love in such a short period of time? In such a short period of time, such a calm and self-possessed person. What he showed in the following chapters was not the proof of love in the previous years. Well, in the past few years, love was buried in reason and pride. He said that he didn't love Lin Wen. He didn't fall in love with her for three years. How could he fall in love with her later? I prefer that Lin Wen didn't understand his emotional needs in three years. How could he still understand him later? But , and couldn't control himself, he gave Lin Wen opportunities little by little, and gave himself opportunities. He only allowed himself to get the purest, cleanest love without any external causes. As long as it belonged to him, it was only for the love of him. So when he felt Lin Wen's hotness, he Afterwards, reason could no longer control emotions, and love gradually recovered and rebounded so much that he even asked someone to get the certificate before he proposed. Afterwards, he himself felt that his behavior was funny, and his own reason was always irrational to Lin Wen. (These personal opinions more or less make up for my unhappiness. For people like me who are in a bad mood and just like to look for sugar in glass shards, this article is worth appreciating and discovering details carefully. Although the above opinions only belong to me, I am more willing to believe that the love between the two of them is the best. Xie Chenyou wants purity and Lin Wen gives it thoroughness. The two are born together.

I felt a little uncomfortable after reading it for the first time, but it was okay. At that time, someone in the comment section said that after a few months, I still feel uncomfortable thinking about this book, but I still think it has such great stamina. Until then, I often thought of this book inadvertently and re-read it for the second time. After reading it for a second time, I couldn't hold it anymore. I always felt regretful, sad, and felt that something was missing. I have watched it several times from August to now, and the feeling of regret is always lingering in my heart. It makes me feel uncomfortable from time to time. Just like Xie Chenyou said, they missed it after all, and I still can't let it go. Every time I think of some of the small details in it, I feel that the author is really good at portraying it, which makes my whole heart twitch. Maybe Xie Chenyou's feelings for Lin Wen during those three years were not love, but I think at some point his heart was moved by Lin Wen, even if it was just for a moment. It is precisely because of the moments that happened that I was even more upset. It would be great if the author was willing to write more of their stories so that the ending does not seem so fast-paced. It's really good that Lin Wenwen and Xie Chenyou are together in the end. They fit each other and are a perfect match. They will be with each other for life.

Three brushes to take back some of my previous thoughts. The relationship with Zhang Qianyu is like the "strong alliance" that friends joke about. It is essentially an elite friendship. This is the kind of love that Xie Chenyou understands/recognizes. "People" meet the standards and "emotion" is controllable. The principle of "receiving questions/requests - judging feasibility - passing/rejecting" was strictly followed. Even Zhang Qianyu had to go through this process if he wanted to kiss in public. Responding to everything but not acting on emotion (not crossing the line), just like Zhang Qianyu who fell into a trough on New Year's Eve, thinking that what was waiting for him was Xie Chenyou's tenderness, but what greeted him was a computer and Xie Chenyou who stayed up late to solve the problem and went to sleep alone. Sincere but hollow, sometimes it is more helpless than perfunctory. That "surprise" meeting, Xie Chenyou just thought about the location a little more, but felt that it was a lot of trouble and the standards were so low. Because this is based on "appreciation" + "appropriate attempt" based on the rational level, it can only give so much, and it fulfills all the superficial obligations of a boyfriend. The Christmas soda made Zhang Qianyu mistakenly think that he had seen Xie Chenyou's reality. So on New Year's Eve, he tried several times to "knock open" Xie Chenyou's heart but was unable to get in. He finally realized that this was just Xie Chenyou's house (colder than home). Even if he entered the most personal world of Xie Chenyou, he still could not enter his "personal world" (Compared to Lin Wen's first visit, he felt a sense of belonging when he saw Xie Chenyou cooking for him. In the same space, the "love" of the owner gave different meanings.) Zhang Qianyu has always looked up to Xie Chenyou's "halo" because of his admiration for Qiang, and put himself in a low psychological position. He thought that the obstacle came from the career gap, and he kept internalizing himself in unsuitable jobs. He went further and further away. In the later period, he did not even have the courage to make a phone call. Returning to the starting point of the emotional line, the ending has already been determined. From the very beginning, Zhang Qianyu looked at Xie Chenyou through his own filter + to inquire about Liu Henian. He did not really understand her carefully, so he worked hard in the wrong direction because of the non-existent contrast. After Liu Henian's window was closed by Xie Chenyou, his anxiety reached its peak when he faced Lin Wen alone... So Zhang Qianyu was the one who fell in love with the "perfect lover" he imagined. The reason for Xie Chenyou's failure was the truth about the bar he chose. Zhang Qianyu approached but did not enter his heart. This "rational love" is like diving with an oxygen bottle on your back. The oxygen (love) is limited, so the behavior is shallow and static, and you focus on the data (examining yourself). When the oxygen is exhausted, you will eventually return (break up). The love with Lin Wen (during the contract period) began with the trust that penetrated the coldness and the hot warmth of the palms when they first met. The heart was awakened and wrapped in "responsibility", which penetrated into every detail of the cohabitation life day after day. Doting, getting close, possessing, and controlling are all so natural, there is no need to think or weigh. Just like breathing on land, you don't consider whether there is enough oxygen, and you can freely do whatever you want (all active and transcendent behaviors). But Lin Wen couldn't see Xie Chenyou's sincere dedication. Just like his home, Lin's mother felt that it was a simple, elegant and warm house that was not made by her son. However, Lin Wen felt that there were few things belonging to Xie Chenyou and it was just his "place to stay". He blindly demanded things with a condescending attitude, and also used the name of "substitute", which brought a huge sense of frustration and inequality to Xie Chenyou. All these violent, uncontrollable and twisted emotions were not within his rational understanding. Every time they conflicted, his heart kept covering them up with the excuse of "dedication". Xie Chenyou refused to think about this relationship, because admitting to being tempted would mean violating his principles and falling into a "humble and ridiculous" situation, which his strong self-esteem and reason could never tolerate. The deeper fear is that the true, imperfect self revealed by Lin Wen will be rejected and denied. So I was brainwashed forcefully again and again. The confession after the reunion was a precise "minesweeper". Lin Wen spent 585 days of growth to achieve spiritual equality between the two. It also convinced Xie Chenyou that the real him was not only seen but also loved. It also exposes the lies of reason. Even without a contract, he still pays attention to and protects Lin Wen uncontrollably. (Fortunately, Lin Wen didn't know about many of the little tricks, otherwise the slap in the face would have been even louder) This love that resonated with reason and emotion was no longer suppressed, and began a series of exposures (break-in videos, celebration banquet times, etc., There is no such thing as coincidence in Xie Chenyou's case). In the end, because Lin Wen only gave him one person's laughter and tears in a sea of thousands of people, he couldn't wait to keep it to himself. Although Lin Wen is not Xie Chenyou's type, when you truly love someone, he is the standard for everything. I like the author's little ingenuity. There are many mirror scenes between the two relationships. The same actions and lines have opposite emotions depending on the object. For example, in the same "official announcement" occasion, Xie Chenyou also "leaned back" and subtly distanced himself from Zhang Qianyu, while he and Lin Wen created a small world of intimacy between the two of them (this is why I brushed it three times, like a treasure hunt). And Xie Chenyou will use words to correct his behavior, and Zhang Qianyu, he tries to use words to make up for the slack in actions. The "miss you" he says really means that he is thinking of you at this minute. As for Lin Wen, he would use words to wipe away the overflowing emotions. He said, "The weather is nice and I will go get the certificate." He was so plain that it was hard to tell that he had waited until his patience ran out. So action is Xie Chenyou's love thermometer. A very interesting person. A real relationship, both parties are "empty to void", a false relationship, both parties give "truth", two misplaced feelings, a wonderful story.

Second brush! Super super like it! The emotional line is so delicate, I love it! It feels like the emotional line between the two of them is actually very clear! In this article, Xie, Lin, and Zhang all have their own character shortcomings. We can't call them shortcomings, they just have different personalities. I think the biggest difference between Zhang and Lin is that Lin is a little sun who is always full of energy and always hits the south wall but wants to break through it, while Zhang chooses to hit the south wall and find the next direction to move forward. In fact, both people have low self-esteem. Lin's low self-esteem is reflected in his arrogant behavior. If he is more arrogant, he will appear to be picky about other things, rather than the one who is chosen to be picked on. Zhang's self-esteem is even more reflected in his inner inferiority, so he chooses to escape after getting entangled. In fact, there is nothing wrong with them. This is just a choice, but everyone has to bear the consequences of the choice. Because of his personality, Lin never told Xie that he liked Xie in the past three years, which made him almost lose him; because of his personality, Zhang always wanted to be worthy of Xie, thus forgetting that they were partners. Xie Shen is the kind of person who thinks a lot, takes every thing and emotion seriously, and then reflects it in actions, but he doesn't say it. There is a way that if you love me, you will naturally understand all my details. If you don't love me or don't love me that much, there is no need to say anything. He has always been like this in his two relationships (the two relationships refer to him and Zhang, and later with Lin, the three years of the previous contract are not counted as a relationship). If he had not met Lin, I really doubt that he would have died alone. Because he himself also knows what kind of relationship he wants, so when this relationship makes him feel that something is wrong, he will break up decisively. To put it more informally, he will talk about many relationships but not marriage. In fact, if he and Zhang communicated more, or if Zhang was not in a company with so much pressure, they might be able to continue, but Zhang's character is destined to work hard in that company and shine. Lin had fallen in love with Xie during the three-year contract. In fact, he thought he was in love very early on. What Xie wanted was the unwavering choice to choose him. In fact, I still think that he may not have been attracted to Lin during the three years of the contract. Lin was very good and excellent. Xie actually felt these shining points during the three years they got together, and he did not reject it and appreciated it very much. This can be seen from the suggestion he gave Lin Ti to transform. According to Xie's character, he would not interfere in other people's life plans, but when he said it, it was an action. But the sudden rapid heartbeat ends with a contract. Xie Shen attaches great importance to the equal status and equal relationship between the two people in the relationship. Just like in the past three years, he has never brought Lin Wen into his social life because he believes that this is always just an equal transaction and not a love. All kinds of emotions are covered up under the contract. A deformed relationship can never grow the flower of love in Xie's place. In my opinion, the evening when the last 15 days of the contract ended was the real beginning of their love.

After finishing the second brush with some memory, I have new ideas. It was a love affair with Zhang Qianyu where reason prevailed. It seemed sweet at first glance, but upon further reflection, it seemed superficial. When Zhang Qianyu comes online, he goes online, and when Zhang Qianyu goes offline, his presence in his life slowly drops to 0. Sometimes he won't take action without the right push from the outside world. Just like that kiss, he comforted her immediately, but if he didn't know it passively, he wouldn't have noticed the other person's emotional changes for so long (he could understand Lin Wen's mood with just one look after being separated for more than half a year [bad laugh]). When bugs arise during the relationship, Xie Chenyou chooses to "patch" rather than "thoroughly optimize the program", which can be solved quickly but is not a long-term solution. For example, he realizes the bug of gathering less and leaving more, but he chooses to kill two birds with one stone "meeting by the way" and stop as soon as he clicks (neither has the urge to meet immediately nor spends energy to completely change). Therefore, he has intentions but not much, and his mobility that matches his emotional state is not strong (it looks good in isolation, but after knowing the upper limit of Xie Chenyou's mobility, it is far behind). As for the three-year stand-in, it can be as small as a pinch doll (daily life). If Xie Chenyou just fulfills the contract, the simplest and most direct thing is to buy one ("patching" not only achieves Lin Wen's purpose, but also may prevent him from pinching him again in the future). But he chose a more troublesome and costly method: study hard and practice hard right away [laughing and crying]. For Xie Chenyou, this was an "irrational and ineffective investment", but it not only brought immediate surprises to Lin Wen, but also prepared countless surprises in the future. As big as career development and loan repayment, in the current situation where things are going smoothly, it is a reliable suggestion to prepare for a rainy day. For a genius in science and engineering, Xie Chenyou took the initiative to do something that was time-consuming and labor-intensive, from rigorous mathematical logic to delicate emotional art, from understanding the current situation to studying the future. If the starting point is just "dedication", why bother to take the initiative to do it in too many places that Lin Wen can't see or think of, and still achieve "perfection". Xie Chenyou always has a few principles towards others (including Zhang Qianyu). He doesn't like to share private matters; he refuses outdoor intimacy; his career and relationship strictly follow his own pace, but this is not the case with Lin Wen (is he accommodating or indulgent). Therefore, Zhang Qianyu's section can be said to be the control group, comparing the difference between Xie Chenyou's treatment of "the object of his heart" and the "person he truly loves". Xie Chenyou is a true love, with super strong mobility and a high degree of attention. His rationality often trips, his emotions are involved in ups and downs, he suffers from headaches, insomnia, and acts impulsively and childishly. It also shows that when Lin Wen grew up, he gave him pure love and opened his heart and soul. In his world, Xie Chenyou was the most important. I tend to think that Xie Chenyou has been attracted to her for a long time, but has been severely suppressed by the substitute/self-esteem/reason, and subconsciously acted under the pretext of fulfilling the contract. Dedication or love are separated by a piece of paper. In the past three years, there have been many small details of going in both directions. Unfortunately, Lin Wen doesn't know how to love. His wrong approach did not pierce the paper but stabbed his heart to death. "I've never been tempted" is Xie Chenyou's brainwashing (shouldn't/can't be tempted). "I haven't fallen in love for three years, will it be possible in the future?" Is also Xie Chenyou's doubt about Lin Wen. The story is more like the process of Xie Chenyou believing that Lin Wen really loves him, so once he is convinced that "Lin Wen loves 100% Xie Chenyou 100%", it is the beginning of equal love. Xie Chenyou is a person who depends more on what he does than what he thinks and says. When his actions conflict with his thoughts, just look at the actions, which are his emotional instincts that are beyond the control of rationality. If he doesn't do it, it can be so dull that people think they have broken up long ago. If he does it, it can make people think that he is holding someone dear to his heart. Even now that he has done everything single-handedly, he is still thinking "Lin Wen wants too little" (Mr. Xie misses Lin Wen's coquettishness and makes demands, but Mr. Xie doesn't leave much room for others to express themselves).

It feels so perfunctory in the later stages. . . Can you expand it a little bit? . .

The author writes very well, and I like the writing style very much. It is a rare good novel, and I want to express my personal thoughts. Although the final ending of the novel is a happy ending, I hope that this novel will be a bad ending, not a bad ending in the traditional sense, but what I think is the best ending. In my opinion, the best ending should not be for Lin Wen and Gong to be together again, but for each of them to start a new life. Why would Gong think of Lin Wen and Gong after breaking up with the second male lead? After Lin Wen's father passed away, he grew up. He should not only grow in life, but also grow emotionally. When Lin Wen fell in love with Gong, he went through so many things and was able to go on alone. I think he will also be strong in his relationship. Although Xie gave him a lot of care and attention, it was not love after all. The relationship for three years was based on a substitute contract, and only Lin Wen felt love for him. When Xie was with the second male lead, he was also noticed by Lin Wen. I have also experienced the feeling of being cut by a knife, but it will only make people numb. If you think back to the past after getting back together, the contract and the ex are the breaking point of the quarrel. The novel can only be a novel. The writing is so beautiful, forgetting that human emotional changes are complex and diverse. In my opinion, although Lin Wen has a bad temper, he also has many shining points. In fact, I think that in the year since he found his partner, Lin Wen will not be without good luck, and he may also meet the next great person. The last thing I want to see is his character being polished by this so-called experience. Lin Wen doesn't need to change his character, and he doesn't need to be mature in front of his partner. People in love are inherently naive. The biggest feeling after reading this article is that I hope that Lin Wen will not be with Gong. I thought the author would write that after Gong and the second male actor got together, Lin Wen gave up his feelings for Xie, started his new life again, and found his sincere and beautiful relationship again. Xie and Lin will never have any intersection in the future. But in novels, I always care about the two protagonists being together. I think it can be written from the perspective of two people, restarting their respective lives, instead of ending in a messy way. I hope Lin Wen can be happy, and Xie Tingyun can also meet a like-minded person. Since it ends with you two having sex, I wish you happiness forever.