I Regretted It After My White Moonlight □□ Me

[Angst, No Moral Compass]

Wang Meng set aside his pride and dignity, trying every possible way until he finally got to be with his own moonlight, Qin Rui.

He is my moonlight, but who is the moonlight he can't forget, yet can never have?

All I wanted at first was to be with him. But love is selfish and never satisfied, and I foolishly hoped to find a place in his heart.

Then I accidentally saw the photo he had treasured, and reality slapped me hard across the face. My dream shattered completely right there.

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I love Qin Rui. I've loved him for years, so much that I'm willing to set aside my dignity and do anything for him without a second thought.

I'm happy to let him trap me, tie me up, bind me. I'll do it gladly, without regret or resentment.

But later I realized that it didn't have to be me. Anyone would do, wouldn't they?

As long as that person was as shameless and degraded as I was, willing to throw themselves at him, then it could be anyone, right?

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What happened to when you cried and told me you liked me?

A breakup?

Ha! Dream on!

You still want to run? Will you try to run again? You want to leave me?

Keep dreaming!

If you don't want to spend the rest of your life confined to my bed, then stay by my side like a good boy, until... until the world ends!

Written April 9, 2021

Theme: Let go of your obsession and set yourself free.