I'm Not Going to Date the Campus Hunk

In 2023, I have lived for another year. Maybe I should celebrate it, even if I don't expect it. When I read this book, it was almost finished, and of course, it was also when my wife left. I wonder why I keep thinking about this book. It obviously has nothing special about it, right? I thought maybe I would never know the answer, or maybe I already knew the answer and just didn't want to think about it. I embedded this book into my life, which may be strange to say. When I was reading this book, I was the most failed person in my entire life. Of course, I may be even more failed now, but now, at least I am normal, which is good, I told myself. Like a dark cloud that cannot escape, tears dripping down mixed with rain. What do I want to say? Sorry, I don't know. My memory has faded a lot. After all, it's better to forget the dark memories. I don't think my parents did anything wrong, I was just stuck in my cage and couldn't get out. My parents are very similar to Gu Jiu's parents, just similar. At that time, I held hatred, a hatred that transcended everything. I attributed all the pain I felt to my parents. I refused their approach. It was too late, so it was no longer necessary. I refused to accept them. I was sincerely disgusted by them all. I substituted myself into the protagonist, and the person seemed to be split in two. I was both Gu Jiu and Bo Shangyuan. Maybe people can indeed have two shadows. Looking back now, I no longer have any emotional feelings. I am used to pain, used to everything, and used to looking at the night sky without a single star in the mud. I couldn't escape from all this. I knew clearly that the bravest thing I had ever done was to step onto the edge and blow away all my emotions in the night wind. It's so cowardly, it's terrible, but it can't be changed. I think, at least one thing has changed, I no longer hate my parents, I hate myself. I lost everything, everything, probably myself? I don't know, I just feel more and more strange. This world seems to be separated by a curtain of rain, making it impossible for me to integrate. At least one more year of survival. If I go down this road, I will never reach dawn. If both possession and loss are painful, just don't care. As long as you don't care about everything, you can get used to the feeling of suffocating in the water. I'm lucky, I know that, I don't deserve this, I know that. I would also think, it would be better if I went crazy, at least being crazy would be a good excuse to escape. But no, so it's still that bad. All passive things that make people feel happy are no different from drugs. Once you leave them, you will lose your happiness and become numb. Then, even crying has become a luxury enjoyment. I refuse to cry. This will unbalance the fragile balance and make me unable to face everything normally. Novels are always novels, and absurdity is the color of reality. Sorry, I told myself. I am not Gu Jiu, and I cannot be like Bo Shangyuan. My memory is getting worse, which is a good thing. The so-called book review should be related to the book. Will my words be related to this book? Maybe it should be buried in my world. I'm lucky, and just telling myself that makes me feel a little bit normal again. Pain is as ubiquitous as the air, part of what sustains life. I am becoming more and more timid. I don't even dare to read this article for fear of being stabbed by a little bit of glass, even though I have read it countless times. This text is destined to be buried in the dust. The meaning of living, after only living is left, is as illusory and as cheap as a rainbow. It would be great if I were crazy, so that I could sink to the bottom of the water where light cannot reach, and have everything I fear. Are you going home?

Ahhhh, it's so beautiful and sweet! ! !

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Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh

It's such a high-quality product. Why did I only see it in 2023? ! ! ! (Cry cry cry)

It looks good, there is no need to cater to others

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good! It's just that the ending is a bit rushed, and I haven't seen the car yet. I'm thinking about starting the car on Weibo (although it's impossible)?

Ah, it smells really good, but I feel like the ending is a bit simple for some reason. I thought there were more chapters

I really like this book. When I first read it, I thought the writing was really not very good, and the plot was not that great, but I was really struck by the haha, and the part where the attacker and the sufferer were forced to separate. The more I read, the more I liked it. I finished it in one day and recommended it to a friend. She also thought it was good, and she also chatted with me about the author's book. However, it was a pity to see the author's words at the end, and I didn't see any new books when I opened my wife's homepage. As for subscribing to the full text, I will definitely do it. I subscribed to that account before, but I forgot the password. Recently, more physical books have been published, so I have no money for the time being.

I spent money to get into Jinjiang's trap because of this novel. It is really well written. The author should not underestimate himself and believe in his own strength, because you have the support of so many little cuties. It is understandable to be said that the writing is not good. There is a Hamlet in everyone's heart. We are not saints. Don't care about that. It's so tiring. Read more to support yourself. Don't let the bad mood occupy your heart and make it so uncomfortable. Believe in yourself, come on^0^~