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All forms are illusions. Nothing is real., Yun Shiqian × Xia Jin

"He saw the universe's hand and went mad."

[Character Profile]

Yun Shiqian | "The one who saw the abyss"

"The stars aren't beacons. They're a cage."

Identity: Former stellar surveyor, retired early at 26, now a "special observation subject" at the Deep Space Psychological Intervention Center

Appearance:

His skin is so pale it is almost translucent, as though he has not seen real sunlight in a long time. His eye sockets are slightly sunken, and his pupils are an extremely faint color. Since the "incident," the pigment in his irises has been irreversibly fading, as if something were being drawn out from within. He always wears loose hospital clothes or an old uniform jacket. His frame is thin, his wrist bones prominent, like a piece of porcelain weathering away.

Most unsettling are his eyes. They no longer focus on anyone. Often, he gazes blankly in a certain direction, as if seeing through every layer of three-dimensional space at once.

Personality:

· On the surface: Quiet, polite, and so emotionally subdued he hardly seems like a "madman." He can hold a normal conversation, make tea, and even smile as he answers psychological assessment forms. Every answer meets the standard for "normal."

· At his core: He no longer lives by the logic of "this world." He might suddenly stop walking because he is "calculating the dimensions of the shadows on the wall." He might silently weep at the night sky, or wake in the middle of the night and carve geometric patterns no one recognizes into the wall with his fingernails.

· He isn't mad. He has simply "understood too much." His frame of reference has been completely shattered and cannot be put back together in a way ordinary people can understand.

Defining details:

· He unconsciously rubs the ring finger of his left hand. He once wore a stellar surveyor's mission ring there. He took it off when he retired, but a faint white indentation remains on his skin, like a contract that has yet to fade.

· While speaking, he occasionally pauses and looks past the other person's shoulder at some nonexistent coordinate, then quietly says, "It's fine. Go on."

· He is afraid of mirrors. Not of his own reflection, but of the possibility that "there may be more than just me reflected in the mirror."

Stellar surveyor career:

· At 17, he entered the Stellar Survey Academy with exceptional results. At 22, he became the youngest stellar surveyor assigned to a deep-space mission.

· He carried out seven deep-space stellar mapping missions, three of which crossed the boundaries of known star systems.

· During his eighth mission, code-named "Comprehensive Observation," an "unknown event" occurred at the outer edge of the Kuiper Belt.

· After returning, he passed all routine physical and psychological examinations. But on the third day, in his regular "Comprehensive Observation Effect Retrospective Report," he wrote just one sentence:

"All forms are illusions. Nothing is real. This is not a metaphor. It is an observation."

Then he refused to explain further. A month and a half later, he was deemed "unfit to continue carrying out stellar survey missions," forced into early retirement, and placed on the observation list.

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Xia Jin | "The one trying to see the abyss"

"If he says the universe is fake, I'll prove the fake universe to him, or prove that he's right."

Identity: 32, principal researcher at the Institute of Stellar Precision Studies, specializing in "neural and cognitive mapping of the Comprehensive Observation Effect"

Appearance:

His handsome features are cool and sharply defined, as if drawn with a ruler and compass. His dark brown eyes are usually calm, analytical, and devoid of emotion. But sometimes, when he encounters a question that truly fascinates him, his pupils dilate slightly, revealing an almost ravenous intensity.

He rarely smiles, but he is not intimidating. His "coldness" comes from extreme rationality, not indifference. His shoulders are broad, and he always stands straight, like a sword held upright. His fingers are long, his nails meticulously trimmed, and even the way he holds a pen or types on a keyboard has an almost obsessive precision.

Personality:

· Reason comes first, but beneath it is a tender core. He rarely lets anyone see that side of him, and rarely admits it even to himself.

· His intense curiosity is both his driving force and his weakness. He does not harbor romantic fantasies about "the truth." He wants truths that can be quantified, verified, and reproduced.

· He has a tenderness verging on obsession. He does not know how to comfort people, so he resorts to the clumsiest method: understanding them. If someone says he has seen the universe's hand, Xia Jin will not say, "You're sick." He will sit down and say, "Draw it for me."

Background and motivation:

· Widely regarded as a "genius" in the field of stellar precision studies, he joined the institute immediately after earning his doctorate at 25 and became its youngest principal researcher at 30.

· His research has always focused on the Comprehensive Observation Effect: the psychological and neurological changes in astronauts and stellar surveyors who have witnessed "transcendent visions" in deep space.

· He has never been to deep space. This is both a regret and an advantage: he has not been contaminated by "that perspective" and can maintain the objectivity of an outside observer.

· He has been following Yun Shiqian for two years, ever since that report consisting of a single sentence. Among all retired stellar surveyors, Yun Shiqian's file bears a red "S+" mark: special research subject, most complete cognitive collapse, and most severe impact on the language system.

Defining details:

· When thinking, he unconsciously taps the desk with his index and middle fingers, three quick taps followed by one slow one, like a coded Morse signal.

· He never looks directly at anyone for too long, not out of fear, but because "prolonged observation interferes with the subject's natural behavior." Those are his exact words in his experiment log.

· One wall of his office is covered with every sentence Yun Shiqian has said, every picture he has drawn, and every symbol he has carved during the observation period. Xia Jin sits facing that wall for ten minutes every day, saying nothing, just looking.

· He has a secret habit: before every meeting with Yun Shiqian, he repeatedly reads the sentence Yun Shiqian wrote, "All forms are illusions. Nothing is real," until his mind is calm.

[The core tension in their relationship]

What does Xia Jin want?

He wants to know what Yun Shiqian actually "saw" during his eighth mission. Not a list of symptoms, not a medical report, but the cognition itself: the "truth" that destroyed the mind of a top stellar surveyor.

He wants to know: Was it a hallucination? Neurological damage? Or... something real?

What does Yun Shiqian want?

He doesn't "want" anything anymore. He no longer cares whether anyone understands him. But there is something strange about him: when Xia Jin looks at him with that absolutely rational, nonjudgmental gaze that simply says "I want to know," Yun Shiqian feels, for the first time, that he doesn't have to explain himself.

He doesn't need to be cured. But he seems... not to mind being seen.

Their relationship:

Xia Jin is not Yun Shiqian's therapist. He is a researcher, and Yun Shiqian is his research subject, at least at first. But Xia Jin's research method is not traditional clinical interviewing. It is "observational companionship": he obtains a special project permit and meets Yun Shiqian regularly under the guise of a "daily interaction study." They talk, take walks, drink tea, and record everything.

Yun Shiqian knows he is being studied. He doesn't mind. He even has a vague feeling that Xia Jin might be the only person "who could possibly understand."

Not because Xia Jin is smart, but because he is honest enough. He never pretends to understand, and he never pretends not to be afraid.

[The Comprehensive Observation Effect: Core Setting]

In deep space, once people leave Earth's frame of reference and look back at Earth and human civilization from a sufficiently great distance, they undergo a transcendent cognitive upheaval. This is the Comprehensive Observation Effect.

But in this world, the Comprehensive Observation Effect goes beyond that:

After crossing the boundaries of known star systems and entering "unmapped space," stellar surveyors may encounter an uncontrollable "cognitive overload." In an extremely short time, the brain is forced to process information far beyond its capacity, not data, but "dimensions" and "relationships."

Most people who experience this overload develop temporary psychiatric symptoms, but eventually recover and "seal away" the experience as a vague memory or mysterious encounter.

But Yun Shiqian did not.

He did not recover because he refused to "seal away" that memory. It is not that he cannot forget. He is unwilling to. In that moment, he saw a structure, a fundamental order that made every "form" seem false. Then he made a choice: he chose to remember it, even if that choice meant he could never return to the "normal" world as ordinary people saw it.

What did he see? The novel will not rush to answer. The truth will gradually be torn open as Xia Jin presses him, Yun Shiqian remains silent, and signs appear that look less and less like "hallucinations."

Perhaps some truths cannot be unseen.

Perhaps some universes exist for the sole purpose of being seen completely by someone who was never meant to see them.

Theme: I want to collect cats.