After I Gave Up Hope of Surviving My Terminal Illness, They Begged Me to Live

Name: After I Gave Up Hope of Surviving My Terminal Illness, They Begged Me to Live
Author: A Gentle Breeze from the South

绝症死心后，他们求我活下去

by A Gentle Breeze from the South (南方有清风)

Status: Completed
Length: 297k Words
Genre: Two Male Leads
Updated: 23d ago
English: Request a translation

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Synopsis

[Two male leads + angst + groveling pursuit + ancient-style ABO]

A love-starved, suspicious scum gong vs. a cold, heartbroken, frail shou

The Chu family had two sons: the elder was stunningly handsome, while the younger knew both the past and the present.

Rong Yong once thought he would grow old hand in hand with the elder Chu son, and become a peerless ruler and subject with the younger.

But a marriage substitution shattered everything.

The one he loved most became his younger brother’s fiancée, while his trusted friend and brilliant aide became his bedfellow.

With nowhere to vent his fury, he blamed it all on that man.

He blamed him for throwing himself away, for bringing it all on himself.

After three years of neglect and humiliation, he thought this was simply how things would be: they would spend their lives resenting each other.

But he never imagined that the other man would no longer be willing to go on.

He hid his terminal illness and secretly prepared for the end, taking their child with him, saying goodbye to the world a little at a time.

It was as if, without his knowing, the man had stopped loving him for good.

But Rong Yong had only just realized that the one who had wanted them to be ruler and subject, bound as one, was that man. The one who had wanted to grow old together was also that man.

It had been that man all along.

They had both been abandoned by their parents, wild weeds that fought to grow in the cracks. They should have been the most perfectly matched pair in the world.

In the end, to win him back, Rong Yong willingly became the stand-in for the younger brother he had once envied most, and protected him for the rest of his life.

At the beginning of the story, they were both grieving that they hadn’t won that man’s love.

By the end, they seemed to have both won him, yet had also lost him forever.

Content warning: Neither the gong nor the shou remains faithful in the end. Not a traditional happy ending.

Other names

After My Frail Consort's Tragic Ending, I Became My Love Rival's Substitute与病弱君后be后朕做了情敌替身Alternate title on Fanqie

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2.3kReads · 30 days

103.9kReads · all time

250Shelf adds, last 14 days

8.5Score

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When I first saw A-Qing's name, I almost clicked "quit," thinking it was just another pretentious author using a melodramatic title for some kind of melodramatic novel. I never imagined that the single word "sorrow" truly captured A-Qing's life! Such a bright and resourceful person, so perfectly shrewd, was dragged into the mire by those closest to him.
38 likes1y ago
The author possesses astonishing talent. Everything about this story is good, except the romance between the two male leads is poorly written. The male lead is so ruthless yet incomprehensibly stupid, and unusually despicable, easily deceived by others and himself.
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The writing is excellent, and I'm so angry it's not finished yet! It's a bit angsty for the sake of angst, but it's not one of those cliché angst stories you see everywhere. The whole thing is just so frustrating... This story is also a bit frustrating; the male lead really doesn't have any redeeming qualities.
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Author, this is too cruel! Chu Qingchuang only longed to be loved, but instead suffered endless torment. When the truth finally came out, everyone just regretted it. Why did he suffer so much? In the end, those who misunderstood him were only heartbroken and filled with self-reproach. They didn't deserve forgiveness; they should have suffered too. Chu repaid them a hundredfold.
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