I Look at You as You Look at Me

My girl Do you know? Many times I miss you very much. But, that is already in the past. Although, we did not come together, This may be fate. Even so, I want to take our relationship further. After all, time is ruthless, Even if I are willing, You may not be willing either. At that time, our relationship was young and shy. Half shy and half open, it is thought-provoking. Reality is always so cruel. Even if I go back to that time, The woman I still love is unforgettable. In a trance, yesterday is right in front of me, You are still clearly visible, So beautiful and touching that I admire you endlessly. It seems that the world belongs to the two of us, Everything can be ignored, Only your image in my mind will last forever. I know that you have me in your heart, I have you in my heart, However, we can't trust each other. This kind of suffering has been going on for a long time, I can't stop. Time is time, Time proves everything, A wandering heart should have a destination. Time flies, Stars change. The past, remains in those years. You are the wave of my life. You are the hope of my life. With you in my life, it seems so gorgeous and unrestrained. Time flies by, Time flies by. Love is boundless, Love is forever. It was that summer, It was that summer. By chance, We met. Everything is normal, Everything is natural. From your actions, I know you like me very much. Why am I not like this? One evening one day, We were walking on the street. One on the left, One on the right. I wanted to hold your hand, But, I never did, After all, this is the first time we have walked like this. As we walked, we said, It was getting dark, We didn't know. Your eyes are shining with satisfaction and joy. Walking by your side, It really makes me feel responsible, Because you are the woman I love. Since then, We have often met. That time allowed us to get to know each other, That time made us feel very happy, That time brought us great joy, During that time, we got along very harmoniously, That time enriched our lives. We get along very well, It can be said that we have a good understanding of each other. Every time we meet, We are very happy. Every conversation, We are very honest. We cherish every time we meet. Every separation, We are all reluctant to leave. I believe, You are the girl in my life. Because of our mutual concerns, Because we were still very young, There were repeated times in our relationship, In the end, we broke up. When we break up, our reluctance, When we break up, our reluctance to leave, When we break up, our countless twists and turns, When we break up, our reluctant farewell. Everything is so calm, Everything is so indifferent, I seem to have returned to the past, I seem to be in a dream. There is always a shadow in my heart, A lingering shadow, A shadow that cannot be forgotten, A shadow that makes me happy, Always, a shadow that I miss. With this shadow, I am not afraid of anything. With this shadow, I am willing to do anything. With this shadow, I can forget everything. This shadow has always lived in my heart, This shadow has always followed me. Come on, come on, come on, That's it. Breaking up may not be a good ending. This is our choice.

Fantasy revision, mutual help, collected

That era I was born in Kuitun, Xinjiang in February 1965. As we all know, in that era, living conditions were poor and daily necessities were scarce. People's living standards are very low and life is very difficult. Notwithstanding the low wages, daily necessities had to be provided by ticket. Bicycles and sewing machines can be purchased with a ticket. Cotton cloth is purchased with a ticket. Pork is purchased with a ticket. Non-staple food and milk powder must also be purchased with a ticket. Even daily soap and daily necessities must be purchased with a ticket. At that time, there were bicycle tickets, sewing tickets, cloth stamps, food stamps, meat stamps, soap stamps, etc. Tickets were required to buy anything. In the era of planned economy, people's life was very hard. It is precisely in this way that our generation understands what life is and how to live. People of that era were very hard-working, very frugal, and very friendly. Neighbors live in harmony. If something happens to someone's family, everyone is willing to help. Even though everyone is poor, sometimes they can't afford it. However, helping others is a part of our friendship. Everyone does their best and helps as much as they can. The more people you help, the more practical problems you can solve. People of that era were very innocent, simple and helpful. The innocent friendship between people can be seen everywhere. The relationship between neighbors is very harmonious. People are very warm to each other. Although people living in that era were not very wealthy. However, people's spiritual realm is very high. Be full of enthusiasm for work and be positive, hard-working and progressive in life. Everyone yearns for a better life. Everyone is working and studying diligently for a better life. In that era, adults were very busy and hard at work. Because productivity is low and there is no machinery, all work must be done manually. After work and dinner every day, the unit often organizes meetings and studies for everyone. There are only three days off each month. After working for ten days, take one day off. At that time, people called rest "big worship". Although I am young, I can see how hard my parents work and how difficult people's lives are. This made me more confident in life and cherish the hard-won wonderful life. In those days, we all lived in bungalows. Ten families live in one bungalow, and each family has only one room. The area of ​​a room is only about twenty square meters. It seems very crowded for a family of four to live there. Some families have four children and two adults, a total of six people, living in it, making the room even more crowded. Sometimes, when neighbors come to visit, there is no place to sit, so they have to sit on the bed. The living conditions at that time were like this, and every family was like this. That era was an era of scarcity of materials. Everything is precious. When we were children, we all made our own toys. On a small wooden board, draw the shape of a pistol and let the adult cut it off with a saw. Then, polished with old sandpaper, a wooden pistol became a toy that we couldn't put down when we were children. Winter is here and we make our own skis. The two boards are about the same size as your feet. Two thick iron wires are fixed to each board. The two ends of the wires are bent and nailed to the board. There are ropes attached to both ends, making it easy to tie the skis to your feet with a long rope. It's easy to make. Wearing skis, we can glide freely on the snow. We also have our own skateboard. A shelf was nailed with wooden boards and two angle irons were installed underneath. Two forks made of steel bars are also needed. A man kneels on an ice cart, holding two forks and gliding on the ice. Girls of that era were so ingenious that they sewed sandbags by themselves. There was no cloth, so I had to beg the adults. The mother had no choice but to give her a piece of cloth. You have to save it yourself. The girl carefully cut six square pieces of cloth with scissors. Then, sew them together tightly with needle and thread. Sew it into a cube and fill it with sand. Finally, sew the opening. A beautiful sandbag is made. There is also the shuttlecock that girls love to play. Also made by myself. The bottom of the shuttlecock is an iron spacer wrapped with a small piece of cloth and sewn on with needle and thread. After sewing, sew a tube for chicken feathers on top. The tube for inserting chicken feathers is preferably a goose quill tube. The tube is filled with chicken feathers. The best chicken feathers are those from big roosters. The shuttlecock made in this way is beautiful. At that time, whoever had a beautiful shuttlecock would be envied by his peers. In that era, the schoolbags we carried to school were all sewn by our mothers. The schoolbags carried by each student are different and varied. The schoolbag only needs to be beautiful, generous, strong and durable. At that time, no one laughed. At that time, every child longed for a white shirt, a pair of blue pants, and a pair of white sneakers. Be it a boy or a girl. With this three-piece suit, it feels like I have an identity, and I look calm in front of my classmates. Normally, I would hate to wear this three-piece suit. Only take it out and wear it when there are activities. Especially when there is a sports meeting in school, I take it out and put it on. Some students didn't have it, so they had to ask others to borrow it. When borrowing, you should say a lot of nice things to others. Otherwise, people won't be willing to lend it to you. In that era, what I looked forward to most was watching a movie. Although movie tickets are not very expensive, parents rarely watch a movie together as a family. I remember a movie ticket at that time was 15 cents. Watching a movie together as a family is the happiest thing for me. I remember one time, one night. I came home from school and my father was busy cooking. After my father saw me coming back, he said to me: "After dinner, let's go watch a movie as a family." After hearing this, I jumped up with joy. In that era, every family raised dozens of chickens to supplement their family income. Some people have good conditions and even raise a pig. In winter, when the New Year is approaching, improve the life of the family. At the same time, it also earns some income for the family. Some people have cultivated some land beside the channel. Pinch up the garden and plant some vegetables. As a family, the problem of eating vegetables in one summer is solved. In that era, only a handful of households had televisions. The TV sets are all black and white. Every night, children from the neighborhood come to watch TV programs in an endless stream. The whole room was blocked and filled with people. This is true every day. Only, Wednesday night is quieter. Because Wednesday night is an opera show. All the people who come to watch the TV show are adults. Therefore, it seems relatively quiet. Young people of that era were eager to have a dual-card tape recorder at home. It can both play and copy tapes. The drawers at home are full of tapes. The tapes come with the original soundtrack and cassettes copied from the original soundtrack. The sound effect played by the original soundtrack is better than the sound effect of the copied audio tape. Therefore, the price of the original soundtrack is more expensive than the copied audio tape. Young people of that era, in order to keep up with fashion, both men and women had their hair permed. Young people like to wear bell-bottom trousers with the trousers covering the tops of their feet. Young men and women like to dance disco together. Walking on the street, all the songs coming from the tape recorders in the stores are Teresa Teng's songs. In those days, every family had to store a lot of winter vegetables before winter came. Green radish, potatoes, Chinese cabbage, and the better one, an onion. It lasts all winter and continues to be eaten until the following spring. That era has passed. That era reminds me of it all the time. That era will appear in dreams. That era is my lasting memory. Thanks to that era for bringing me lasting memories.