A Cup of Poison, a Thousand Miles From Home

After reading it, it was almost dawn, and I wanted to go to bed quickly, but after tossing and turning, I got up and decided to write something. Although it is not good to mention another book in the review section of a book, it is inevitable that I need to start from another book before expressing my views on this book. Maybe some people like to start from the beginning (such as me). When I first watched "Notes of a Crane", I still remember that it was during the epidemic and it was midnight. I was sitting on the quilt holding my phone and crying. I shed tears more than once when I watched "The Crane" from beginning to end. It was rare to feel such heart-wrenching pain because of the words on the screen, so it was so impressive that I will never forget it. I still remember my excitement when I saw the author sharing the news of the physical book on Weibo, and I still remember the feeling of holding the thread-bound spine in my hand. Fast forward a few years, and "Guan He" can be regarded as a "small achievement" and has become a "representative work" when everyone criticizes some romance works. A friend once asked me, you like this book so much that you recommend it to people around you. How do you feel now? I thought about it and found that I had nothing to say. Sometimes there is a strong sense of conflict. I have watched a lot of critical commentary videos. I think what they said is right, but I can't stand up and say something. I can't say it because "Guan Crane" is still in my favorites. I still dare not watch it a second time because I think I will still shed tears because of those words. Reading this book, it comes from a novel recommendation from a certain book by Xiao. Someone asked under the post, does the author still write like that? I still remember the reply of the poster. She said that the author may have been afraid of being scolded before, so this new article has changed a lot! I find that these "significant" changes have very little impact on me, because I still sit in bed in the middle of the night holding my phone and crying at the screen... Why do I keep crying when I am so strong and brave and have a happy ending? (Spoiler alert below!! I think one particularly clever thing is that Yulin's true identity is revealed at the very end of the last chapter of the book. In fact, there are many hints of her identity in the text not long after the beginning, and it is not complicated or concealed. Readers can guess that she is almost inseparable after thinking about it, but the people in the book do not know it. This greatly avoids the ending in some books where "the heroine's life experience is finally revealed, she realizes a class leap, and the mismatched higher-class male protagonist can finally be together happily." The consummation of love requires a good match, so the heroine who appears as a grassroots character at the beginning will eventually need additional blessings to establish a love relationship with an "excellent" male protagonist. It may be some kind of royal bloodline (which enchants the feudal imperial power by the way). It may be the memory of a new life. It may be some modern ideas installed in the minds of ancient people (I don't mean to say that the above themes are bad! I also like to watch the above themes! I mean love). All these things may be given by fate, screenwriter, author, or the system, but their own efforts seem to play a secondary role in their own destiny. Well, some grassroots types work hard on their own, and the reward after hard work is to reward her for being able to cross the class and repeat the above... But Yulin is not the case. At the beginning of the article, she gave up her status as a criminal official and went from being a slave to a female household. At the end of the article, she left alone and easily (with Zhang Yao, who was far away in Yuzhou and had an ugly handwriting behind her). Some people may object, isn't she also a "bloodline of the royal family in exile"? But in my opinion, the blessing of this double identity does not play any role in the article. Except that the truth is finally clarified at the end of the article, there is nothing more. In my opinion, Zhang Yao is a very novel male protagonist. The author's description of the feudal imperial power is so thorough that I always feel scared when watching Emperor Fengming's speeches. I feel disgusted and frightened. Zhang Yao has faced such an uncertain and suspicious monarch for more than ten years. Beizhen Fusi was well-known, and Jin Yiwei was the emperor's hand and eye, but the person sitting in the first position below him had already become ashen as a dead tree. Fate has tied them together. Whether it is Zhang Yao, Zhang Min, or Xu Songnian, they are just ants tied to a rope at the feet of the emperor, struggling to survive. It is impossible for a person to give birth to something that he himself does not have, so whether Zhang Yao revealed the news to Wu Zongxian, released Han Jian, or spared no mercy on those who were punished several times, etc. These changes seemed to be made under the influence of Yulin. In the final analysis, it was because he was a kind person. Because he was a kind person, when he was forced to kill people by wandering outside the law for the sake of the emperor, he felt disgusted, hated himself from the heart, and could not survive. You can't die. A person who does not believe in ghosts and gods wants Yulin to solve his puzzle of "if Guanyin were alive...". "I used to not believe in the existence of Guanyin, so I was abandoned by gods and Buddhas. I have no merit in this life, and I am all retribution. Now I want to beg for forgiveness and devote myself to worship. Do you think I still have time?" A person who can go beyond the law and kill people, what he wants in his heart from the beginning to the end is death, but the whole hall of gods and Buddhas looks on indifferently, and there is no court in this world that can judge you. Fortunately, Yulin came, a man seeking life and a man seeking death. Perhaps the look in the crowd outside Pichang Temple was destined. Zhang Yao was destined to be lucky enough to meet this person who could "judge" him. "Who is he from Yulin? Yulin saved him as a favor. But in the Saha world, there are endless black waters. How can he be qualified to ask Yulin to come and ferry him to the shore?" But Yulin is here. "Why is Zhang Yao not here? Where has he gone? Can he hear her voice? Will he know what she did today? Will he let go of his chaotic and painful life because of her existence?" The process of Yulin's heartbeat is a hidden thread (I think), because love is not that important to Yulin, or in other words, Zhang Yao is not as important to Yulin. Her fear of Zhang Yao, who has revealed her own emotions several times, is that she wants to "build an ancestral hall" and "give birth to children in a pool of blood", which will slow down a woman's pace, exclude a woman's destiny, and deprive a woman of her life. The fear of the future that weakens a woman's self-esteem actually seems to me that her struggles and contradictions are what we are also facing today. Many times, I looked at her and felt very distressed. I wanted to hug her and hold her injured hands in my hands to warm her. Except for the person who wants to die, everyone says that you are a mayfly shaking a tree, that you do not know your own abilities. They use their past friendship to persuade you, they use so-called moral ethics to stop you, and they accuse you of saying that men are superior to women, but you are Yulin. I hope that when the dust has settled, my dear Yulin can do nothing for a day, whether it is sitting under the eaves and watching the rain, or watching Zhang Yao doing needlework, or just relax quietly like this. Dear Yulin, sleep well without thinking about anything. In fact, I kind of hated Jiang Huiyun at first. Even if everyone's stance is different, why are you so proud of your own stance? Later, I found that I couldn't hate her anymore, because her flesh and blood became more and more plump, and she became a living person standing in front of me. She was brave enough and strong enough. She kept looking into the distance, wanting to return to the battlefield with her father and brother to fight. "Since ancient times, buildings have collapsed and ancestral halls have been burned down, but don't be afraid, and don't feel pity. Anyway, those buildings and ancestral halls are not yours." This sentence shocked me enough, and its residual power will probably remain in my mind for a long, long time. There is never enough to say, and if I were to talk about it in detail, I would never be able to write enough. Finally, thank you to the author for creating such a story. I hope everything goes well for Yulin and Zhang Yao in their world. Also: I will wait patiently for the birth of N extra episodes! ! !

Teacher, I really want to watch the extra episode [crying] [crying] [crying]

26.3.27! Finished spreading flowers! ! Very, very, very good work! ! ! ! Complete and expressive! In my opinion, it's not an unwarranted moan at all! In the ancient context, the friendship between women, the bravery of women, etc. Are all very touching. It allows people to see the situation and dilemma of women, and the focus is very good. Whether it was then or now, we still have the same dilemma... It is really uncomfortable... Also, this article does not have the kind of description that does not maliciously vilify women. I like to read this kind of article that writes women very well! Finally there is no such vicious female supporting role! The emotional progression between the male and female protagonists was also described in a eloquent way, without being blunt at all. It really made me feel that the two of them are soulmates! It's very natural to get excited, it's not abrupt at all! It feels so good to be female! The female protagonist does not need the male protagonist to save her. The male protagonist really needs the female protagonist to save her. The female protagonist is also very sober and calm. She always knows what she wants to do and will not be easily changed. Except for the main character, the other characters in the author's works are all very real and the descriptions are very vivid. From watching cranes to poisonous wine, I feel that the author's writing power is getting stronger and more expressive! I hope the author will get better and better and take care of your health, but don't be idle now. Hahahaha, please update the extra chapter as soon as possible. Oh my god, you still have extra chapters that haven't been updated yet. This ending makes me so satisfied. I want to watch sweet extra chapters.

Suddenly I remembered that you had also posted about this late at night last year. You said at that time that you had been reflecting on the reasons for these remarks. At the same time, I also saw your changes in the new article. I really like Yulin Yaoge. You said at that time that you wanted to write about those gentle yet powerful people, so I want to say to you now, thank you for creating them, and please keep writing about these gentle yet powerful people. I wish you all the best.

I cried almost every chapter. Looking forward to the extra chapters! ! ! !

Waiting for the big extra episode woo woo woo

I like your works very much. Both Crane Watching and Poisonous Wine give me a lot of strength. In fact, when encountering difficulties or suffering, the best way is to stick to your own ideas and stick to the path you think is right. In this way, whether you are right or wrong is your own responsibility. It is better than being dragged away by the general trend to an unknown place. Today I I am in my senior year of high school, and I hope to be able to make a life for myself like the one in the article. After I finish my exams, I will also create. I will turn all my pain and thinking into nourishment and put it into the article to give others warmth and thinking. I will use my dreams to give people who read the book a perspective and tell them that everyone can live like this. Thank you for your work [cat head] [cat head] [green heart] [green heart] [cat head] [green heart] [green heart] [yellow heart]

Woohoo, I still need to see educated people write novels!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhing me writing a side story quickly [crying loudly][crying loudly] I want to watch the birth of children and building an ancestral hall.

Author, when can you give me a sequel? I really want to see I beg you. Are you going to write a sequel after finishing another book?