Even Dazai Is Still Alive

What if the beginning of everything never really existed, and it was all an illusion?

The world that once was has been destroyed, and you somehow survived, against all odds.

Would you choose to carry on, or stop in your tracks?

Oh, right, I forgot to mention one thing. The concept of death disappeared from you when the world ended.

So, in fact, you can't even die if you want to. (Dog-head rose)

Dazai: Thanks for the concern. I don't want to live, but I can't die either. Having to stay alive makes me really want to kill myself.

To truly find death, he begins a journey of wandering through other worlds.

He's tried more or less every possible way to die:

He wished upon the Holy Grail to die, only to get covered in black mud.

He made a malicious request of an unknown entity, asking to die, but instead received a curse from the Dark Continent.

He traveled over mountains and rivers to find a Mushishi and search for a bug that could kill him, only to be told it wouldn't work.

He went to the Academy City on the science side, where he tried anything in a desperate attempt. Sure enough, he became even more lively.

He tried a different approach and went to New York to have aliens kill him, which only proved even more conclusively that he couldn't die, no matter what.

Just as he was about to give up and let things slide, he was dragged off to become some kind of Master. Now even his daily dips in the water are supervised by swords.

He stumbled his way into Chaldea, but the Mistress of the Underworld insisted he could only go on living.

Dazai: ...Can't you just let me go live by the Sanzu River? Seriously, I can't go on living like this!

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This is a story about someone who longs for true, eternal rest, but has to keep living for now.

Whether it will have a happy ending depends on what happens next. I don't know either.

Warnings:

The blurb may change at any time before the story begins. Since this is part of a series, Ranpo and Rice Ball from the other two books will probably appear.

The style will probably mix serious plot with everyday life. I've rewritten the outline several times, and this time I'm scrapping it all and starting over.

Whether it ends happily or sadly depends on how things develop. Don't count on a writer who never sticks to their outline being able to settle on an ending. (Covers face in pain)

I'll start this one once I've improved my writing. I can't ruin my absolute favorite character!

I'll only know what potential content warnings there are once I've written some of it.

My thought process has always been a little strange. (Thinking)

If you're interested, feel free to bookmark it and check back in a few years, when I finally start.

Theme: A story about longing for eternal rest, yet having no choice but to keep living.