That Little-Known Story

"Let the seeds of fearlessness be hidden in a corner and bloom into bright flowers, just like that unknown story." Recently, I was reminded of this novel because of the release of the movie, and I read it again. As expected, I cried a lot. I watched it for the first time in 2016, and for a long time after that, whenever I thought of that sentence, Chen Mingsheng, I'm here to find you, I couldn't stop crying. It was as if I was instantly pulled into that heavy rainy night by these words, pulled to the side of the red taxi, and watched the story play out again. An unknown taxi driver died unexpectedly, and an artist who restored cultural relics committed suicide at home. No one would inexplicably connect these two things, and no one would know their stories. Yang Jintian would not know that the sweet and sour pork ribs he ate that night was made by Chen Mingsheng. Chen Mingsheng's colleagues would not know that the money was reserved for his marriage. Yang Zhao would not know that Chen Mingsheng could not restrain his longing and risked his life to return her. Yang Zhao's family would not know that Chen Mingsheng was a great policeman. When I first watched it, I was still young. I always felt that the heroic deeds should be carved into monuments for people to worship, and that the vigorous emotions should be admired by the people around me. After watching it, I just felt that it was sad and worthless. I lived in obscurity and died quietly. No one cared about it, no one knew about it. It was so worthless and sad. The turning point was in high school, when I finally escaped from the cobweb of heroic narrative and discovered that all living beings are no more than dust. I am also a speck of dust in the world of others. I will fall away as soon as I brush against it. As long as I remember the joys and sorrows, I will be fine. When I read the book at this time, in addition to sadness, I also read a bit more firmness. The firmness of Chen Mingsheng's faith and the firmness of Yang Zhaoai allowed them to overcome secular rumors. Looking at it this time, I can actually understand Yang Zhao's death. One of the aspects of the setting that I like very much is that Yang Zhao did not die for love when he learned about Chen Mingsheng's death, but four years later, he died when he found that the world had forgotten Chen Mingsheng. I have read a sentence before - in a person's life, he has to die three times. The first time, when your heart stops and your breath disappears, you are biologically declared dead; the second time, when you are buried, people dressed in black attend your funeral, they declare that you no longer exist in this society, and you leave quietly; the third death is when the last person in the world remembers you and forgets you, so you truly die, and the entire universe will no longer be related to you. I used to be quite afraid of death, but I can't say that I'm not afraid now. I just don't know if I've become numb after seeing too much and can't do anything about it, or if I'm finally able to accept it. Existence is actually very interesting. Margery said that thinking is not a matter, it is a product of the material world, but even if it is just a product, it is still an existence. Just like when we look up and see twinkling stars in the sky, they may have looked like they were tens of thousands of years ago. Light traveled in the universe for a long time before reaching our coordinate system. What we see now is not the existence of matter itself. The stars that are still bright in front of us may no longer exist. The same goes for people. What the dead leave in the memories of the living is not synchronized. It is a scratch left in their lives many years ago. In fact, Yang Zhao has always been separated from the whole world. Whether it is family, career or friends, she is like a gust of wind, blowing past and passing away. She will not deliberately leave anything behind, and there is no bond to worry about. Even if she did not meet Chen Mingsheng, she might commit suicide one day in the future. But they met. Chen Mingsheng was Yang Zhao's utopia. It was Yang Zhao who brought Chen Mingsheng out of the corner of the heavy rain. Yang Zhao said, it was me, I pulled him out. It was Yang Zhao who pulled Chen Mingsheng out of the mire of self-abandonment and slowly withering away. He also indirectly pulled Chen Mingsheng from a peaceful life back to the undercover drug den where he once was. There is also Chen Mingsheng's own kindness in this. Saving Bai Weiwei made him become Bai Ji's most trusted person and became the police's front line under the drug lord; Chen Mingsheng agreed to drive Yang Zhao all the way to the Hua Ke Golden Seat that was difficult to reach due to heavy rain. One makes him a great narcotics officer, the other makes him a real human being. I used to think that if Chen Mingsheng had not been so kind and determined, he might not have been able to reach a high position under Bai Ji, nor would he have had his leg broken and died. He might not have caught drug addicts on the way to Mount Wutai, been photographed and published in newspapers, been recognized, and returned to Bai Ji's staff. But without these, it would not be Chen Mingsheng. Yang Zhao's death for love was not an impulse caused by grief, but a relief that could not be let go after calm reflection. There is a saying that people are like rainbows, and you will know they are there when you meet them. But some people are like rainbows that come once in a lifetime. If you miss them, you will never meet them again. Yang Zhao knew very well that Chen Mingsheng was such a rainbow. This once-in-a-lifetime experience was not only because of Chen Mingsheng, but also because they experienced and blended together. The process of falling in love allowed two people to domesticate each other. There is no more ten thousand roses in the garden. Yang Zhao also knew that there was no more Chen Mingsheng. She finally wrote - I had a time during that time I can describe every minute and every second with my poor words I can remember all the details with my exhausted heart But this time is short Like a story that just started and then ended abruptly I spent a lot of time trying to start a new story but i didn't succeed I began to fear the kind of situation where I could only use "many years have passed" to describe life So after holding on for so long, I finally decided to give up. Her paranoia prevented her from leaving the garden named Chen Mingsheng. Her estrangement prevented her from finding the anchor to stay in the world. Her intensity prevented her from accepting the gradual passage of emotions, and death was no longer a terrible thing. There is no need to continue the story, it just stops at this moment, just at the moment when I love you most. "If snow-capped mountains could be seen, if fate could be predicted; If time could go back, if years could come back; Can that passer-by still enter your dream? And are you willing to look back? "

Chen Mingsheng, happy International Anti-Drug Day

I finished reading... How can I put it now? There are no words to describe my current mood. Maybe it's depressed, maybe heavy, maybe sad, but I didn't cry as much as I imagined. The myriad of emotions overwhelmed me to the end, and I was already numb and unable to react with joy or sadness. In comparison, this is even more uncomfortable. The overwhelming depression is like warm water slowly spreading over my chest, and even breathing brings a dull pain. I started this story in March this year and ended it in May today. I wrote this text maybe because I want to leave something behind or to conclude the nearly two months. Many people say that I read slowly, but I don't think so. I like this way. I like to read over and over again. The pace is slow. Maybe it's because I am such a person. In fact, I have also tried fast-paced reading. It is very refreshing. But after reading it, I can't find the details that remain in my mind. I have read a lot of abuse articles like this one, and I have also read anti-drug articles of the same type. Maybe because I have read so many articles of this type, I have learned a lot about the stories that happened in another corner of the world. I now have great respect for this position, but I can no longer find the shock I felt at that time. Maybe I can only feel the emotions at that time when I return to that story. This is one of the reasons why I wrote this article. It can be said to be reluctant. Even if the story finally ends, the passage of time still does not prevent me from entering their story. It happened to be the 12th anniversary a few days ago. I realized that it had been 12 years... I closed the book and I, like everyone else, was overwhelmed by T Da's pen. The faint, overwhelming depression penetrated into my bones from the first sentence. It came from the inside out and made me stop and relax several times. In fact, I admire T Da. The complexity of human nature, the purity of love, and the cruelty of reality are all mixed together, just like everyone in the story is struggling, and everyone is separated by a layer of membrane. He didn't talk about the hardships of his undercover career, she didn't talk about her uneasiness, Xue Miao didn't talk about his concession, and Yang Jintian would never understand why her sister chose someone who was "unworthy" of her. In the end, almost everyone only saw their "incompatibility". In fact, their love had never had anything to do with the worldly "good match." She still goes her own way, neither salty nor indifferent. She is a sober and stubborn woman, but her love is more magnanimous than anyone else. Her love has never been a vigorous sacrifice. In the four years since Chen Ming's death, it seems to me that her own struggle has become more intense. For her, there may have been no difference between life and death. Even if it is an inevitability of character, she forgot that the anniversary of his death happened to be an opportunity, which made her lose in this pull with time. So she was going to find him... Yang Zhao could accept Chen Mingsheng leaving, but she couldn't accept that she had forgotten him. In fact, I hesitated for a long time when I clicked on the turning point of the chapter. I knew what the ending was, but I didn't know too many details. Even when I actually saw that chapter, I still wished that the story had another possibility. But I also knew that T. Da didn't say that the ending was written from the beginning. This article was not originally written for everyone's happy love. On the other hand, it seems that their encounter was an unexpected conflict, pushing them to the destined ending. This is an untold story… The beginning of the story is: Chen Mingsheng, I'm here to find you The ending of the story is: Chen Mingsheng, I'm here to find you If snow-capped mountains could be seen, if fate could be predicted. If time could go back, if time could come back again. Can that passer-by still enter your dream? And you, are you willing to look back? Chen Mingsheng Yang Zhao The other side of the world must be happy😭 —— 2026.5.7

I read this story a long time ago, but because of be, I only read fragments. I bought the book while it was being republished, subscribed to VIP, and came here to comment. A lot of Gothic special skills will be written, and the aesthetic ceiling will always be. Brother Sheng will always live in my heart, living a happy life with Sister Zhao in another balanced world. Tribute to the heroes!

I cried so much that I couldn't help myself. I read it maybe five, six, seven or eight times. I can't remember how I understood why Yang Zhao committed suicide four years later. I suddenly realized something today, ah... It turns out that I am afraid that I will become someone who forgets that story, so I insist on using my own death to bring an end to the story in this world, even if no one knows and cares about the whole story except myself...

It's considered a meeting. Let's hug each other tightly and kiss again in another place.

This is another form of he, right?

Overall, I liked this one. Although there are only 70 chapters, it leaves a deep impression. When I read this article, I always couldn't understand why two people fell in love so passionately. I have read too many romance novels with a fantasy aspect, and for a while I felt very heavy when I read this kind of reality. I think why Yang Zhao likes or is obsessed with the male protagonist is related to the fact that the female protagonist is an antiquities restorer and her family personality. Just like there is a sentence in the article, "History is vague, just like the human soul, half real, half false, half living in dreams, half rooted in reality." The heroine may feel that there are no pure people in this world, but she glimpsed a strong and vigorous Chen Mingsheng through the broken limb, and she glimpsed the beauty through the scars. Therefore, he was attracted because Yang Zhao was indifferent to almost everyone before meeting Chen Mingsheng. After meeting Chen Mingsheng, she expressed her love boldly, warmly and straightforwardly. I also understand why the heroine died for her love. In the article, it was mentioned that Yang Zhao's ideal country is Chen Mingsheng. To put it bluntly, it is a kind of spiritual sustenance, and love is a very great thing. It is invisible, but it can bring courage and hope to people. So I think love is actually inexplicable. It can bring people profound memories that will last a lifetime. Some people live with their memories, some force themselves to forget, and some sleep with this memory. And why does Chen Mingsheng like Yang Zhao. I think it's a redemption. Chen Mingsheng's native family and experience were terrible, especially after breaking his leg. But Yang Zhao is a different kind. She loves him and even accepts everything about him from the bottom of her heart, just because she loves Chen Mingsheng, not some kind of Chen Mingsheng. Yang Zhao never concealed his thoughts, which probably gave him a great sense of security. So when she decided to fall into the quagmire with him, she had no regrets. Chen Mingsheng may have already fallen into trouble. There is also some understanding of the extra story, if the snowy mountains can be seen, if fate can be predicted. If time could go back, if time could come back again. I think if Chen Mingsheng had not broken his leg, they would have been together, because what attracted the heroine was Chen Mingsheng's character background, and his broken leg was just a medium (?) For her to see it so quickly. So that passerby will still enter your dream, and you will look back. Maybe my understanding of love is not deep enough now, nor can I fully understand it, but I still feel regretful and sad when I think about it. "When everyone started to forget you, I found myself starting to forget you, and I panicked. So Chen Mingsheng, I came to find you."

At this moment in Wutai Mountain, I think of you

I'm so sad. My chest hurts from crying. I feel a little bit dead.