Those Years When He Had No Name or Claim

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Jian Xun and Pei Jue got together while they were students. Their love was intense and youthful, but as time passed, their passionate relationship reached a dead end.

He used to think he was different.

In the end, he was just the oldest and least exciting of all the canaries Pei Jue kept.

He thought their relationship would continue indefinitely in the shadows,

until, just before his twenty-sixth birthday, he was diagnosed with bone cancer.

Pei Jue had always been fickle, changing lovers faster than he changed his underwear.

But he kept Jian Xun by his side for a full seven years.

In Pei Jue's eyes, Jian Xun was dull and plain-looking, with nothing special to offer in bed. He was the sort of person who would disappear into a crowd.

And yet, from the moment they met, Pei Jue felt that Jian Xun belonged to him, and should belong to him for life.

He couldn't explain why.

Perhaps Jian Xun was convenient, and he couldn't be bothered to let him go.

After all, when you've been cheating around for a long time, a change to a milder flavor can be nice now and then.

After spending more than half a month tangled up with his new lover, Pei Jue came home for once and suddenly noticed a few bottles and jars beside the bedroom bed.

He and Jian Xun had long since run out of things to say, so he asked casually, just to fill the silence, what they were.

The young man raised his clear, refined eyes and pretended to be calm as he tossed the medicine into a drawer. "Just something to help me sleep," he explained flatly.

At that, Pei Jue understood. He must have neglected Jian Xun for too long, and the other man couldn't help begging for his affection.

So, as if granting a favor, he grabbed the young man's wrist and lifted it above his head, then leaned down close to his ear, his breath hot and his pose intimate.

He chuckled nonchalantly. "What's the point of taking pills? You'd be better off having a few more rounds with me. Don't you think?"

Content warnings:

1. They were each other's first love, but the top is not faithful and is still a rotten old scoundrel.

2. There is a reconciliation arc, but the ending inevitably goes toward a bad ending. Extremely angsty!

3. The story contains plenty of melodramatic, potentially worldview-shaking content, all for the sake of the plot!

4. The top has a business-marriage partner, but there are no romantic feelings between them. They have no further involvement later!

That's all I can think of for now~ I'll add more if I think of anything ꉂ(ˊᗜˋ*)

Blurb archived on 2026.6.22

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Blurb:

Xuanyuan Jiahao, known as Jiahao, considers himself wildly arrogant, cool, dazzling, and unbelievably awesome.

One night, he accidentally wanders into a gay bar and ends up in a passionate one-night stand, only for his partner to run off afterward.

He's furious. How could anyone resist his irresistible charm?

He's also panicking, because honestly, even though it hurt afterward, it felt great.

Wait, wait, wait...

No, no, no!

Xuanyuan Jiahao is horrified. He's Jiahao! Even if he's gay, shouldn't he be the world's number-one top?

For some reason, Xuanyuan Jiahao feels that the way his college roommates look at him is a little strange.

Could it be because he's too handsome?

Well, it's only natural that people are jealous of him.

But why do his roommates buy him milk every day?

What do they mean, he's too short and needs calcium? I'm a 180-centimeter top!

And if they want to drink milk, fine, but why do they have to squeeze into his single dorm bed with him?!

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