●Enigma × Omega
●A gentle, fragile beauty of a bottom × a younger wolfdog top whose sheep's clothing doesn't quite fit
After losing his memory, An Yan went to a suburban sanatorium to recuperate.
He instinctively rejected all Alphas. Everyone around him said it was because an Alpha had once broken his heart.
But An Yan didn't think those memories mattered.
Because here, he unexpectedly fell into a new relationship.
Though his boyfriend was younger, he was assertive and domineering, caring for An Yan's every need to an almost obsessive degree. Yet he had a wonderful sense of boundaries and was gentle, noticing all of An Yan's little thoughts and granting his every wish. Even when his feelings ran deepest, he only dared to kiss An Yan's hair.
He was just a little insecure and jealous, often asking whether An Yan still had feelings for his ex-boyfriend.
After they made love, Xu Fangzhi nestled in An Yan's arms, rubbing his lower back as he murmured into his neck, "You really don't remember him? You really don't have any feelings for him?"
An Yan kissed the corner of his eye, deciding he should make his boyfriend feel completely secure. So he said:
"I don't. He's just an insignificant part of my past."
"Let's pretend he never existed."
Exhausted, he didn't notice his boyfriend stiffen for an instant.
Even though his boyfriend was an Enigma, a violent class born from the secondary differentiation of an Alpha and superior to all other differentiated genders, and even though the people around him couldn't understand why An Yan, who rejected Alphas, would accept an even more dangerous and unpredictable Enigma.
An Yan simply smiled and said, "Maybe we're just destined to be together."
And so his words became a prophecy.
The moment his memories returned, An Yan's knees were covered in blood from the broken mirror shards. His resentful tears fell into the blood, and he choked so badly he couldn't say a complete word.
At last, he understood why his boyfriend had asked him about his ex-boyfriend again and again.
With a creak, the door behind him opened, cutting through the darkness in the room.
"...Yanyan?"
His boyfriend's gentle call made An Yan's heart twist in pain.
He turned around, eyes red, and stared at his boyfriend's stunned face. In a hoarse voice, he asked:
"Xu Fangzhi, is it fun to toy with me?"
"Watching me fall in love with you again and again, watching you deceive me over and over, is that fun?!"
How could he have forgotten?
Forgotten how this man had abandoned him back then.
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You say I hurt you. You say I wronged you. Then look at me with eyes full of hatred. Don't let me go. Don't ignore me.
Don't leave me in a grave without you.
[Reader's Guide]
* 1v1; the top and bottom are each other's one and only in every way.
* Size difference: 175 cm vs. 192 cm.
* Sweet at first, angsty later, with lots of groveling and chasing after the wife.
* What seems like the top's single-minded obsession is actually the entanglement of two obsessive people.
* Melodramatic angst and brainless cathartic fun. Don't read it expecting too much logic.
Theme: We are destined to be entangled for life