Books That Hurt to the Bone, Hurt So Much You Can't Breathe 痛到骨髓，痛到无法呼吸的书。

1. 451 银 When the Ginkgo Leaves Fall 银杏落下时 Wanyan Yuning完颜雨凝Two Male Leads62k WordsCompleted [If you enjoy this, please leave lots of comments and ratings. Love you!] #BoysLove #Angst #Tragedy #BEAesthetic #Realistic #MutualDevotion #UnforgettableRegret #ConversionTherapy #DoubleDeath At nineteen, Cheng Ye and Lu Ming thought love could conquer everything. A ginkgo-leaf bookmark, two handmade rings, and a promise to go south. They ran away together on a rainy night and kissed beneath a bridge, believing that if they went far enough, they could reach a future of their own. But their pa 305Reads—Score—Shelves

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   By the end, you'll understand what it means to "always carry it with you." (Dual male leads! Bad ending! Short story!)

2. 452 最 In the End, She Said, "We're Even" 最后她说：我们两清了 King Revolver左轮王Marriage & Romance20k WordsCompleted At last, she said, “We’re even now.” 25Reads—Score—Shelves
3. 453 恨 After Hating Me for Five Years, They Put My Portrait on the Wall? 恨我五年，我被黑白照挂墙上了？ King Revolver左轮王28k WordsCompleted You hated me for five years, and now my black-and-white portrait is hanging on the wall? 41Reads—Score—Shelves
4. 454 没 No One Loves Him 没有人爱他 The Third Prince's Civilian Girlfriend三太子的圈外女友32k WordsCompleted No One Loves Him 527Reads—Score—Shelves

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   Kidney removal is excruciatingly painful

5. 455 情 Emotional Undertones: Days of an Old Promise 情绪底色·旧约时光 Jin Xing'er Who Likes Catsharks喜欢猫鲨的金星儿24k WordsCompleted Emotional Undertones: Memories of a Past Promise —Reads—Score—Shelves

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   [Smiling face][ ...]

6. 456 真 A Misunderstanding About True Love 真爱的误会 Jin Xing'er Who Likes Catsharks喜欢猫鲨的金星儿Modern Romance6k WordsCompleted A Misunderstanding Called True Love —Reads—Score—Shelves
7. 457 星 Stardust Reboot: A Book of Lovers in Nanshi 星尘重启：南市爱人书 Jin Xing'er Who Likes Catsharks喜欢猫鲨的金星儿7k WordsCompleted Stardust Reboot: A Love Letter from Nanshi —Reads—Score—Shelves
8. 458 悲 The Tragic Reborn Woman and the Transmigrated Crown Prince 悲惨重生女CP穿越太子爷 Jin Xing'er Who Likes Catsharks喜欢猫鲨的金星儿19k WordsCompleted A Tragic Reborn Woman and a Transmigrated Crown Prince —Reads—Score—Shelves
9. 459 都 A Web of Urban Intrigue 都市暧昧疑云 Jin Xing'er Who Likes Catsharks喜欢猫鲨的金星儿18k WordsCompleted A Web of Suspicion and Desire in the City —Reads—Score—Shelves
10. 460 都 Wild Grass Beneath the City Neon 都市霓虹下的野草 Jin Xing'er Who Likes Catsharks喜欢猫鲨的金星儿25k WordsCompleted Wild Grass Beneath the City's Neon Lights —Reads—Score—Shelves
11. 461 沈 Ms. Shen’s Divorce Gift 沈女士的离婚礼物 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀6k WordsCompleted Ms. Shen’s Divorce Gift 3Reads—Score—Shelves

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12. 462 他 He Wrote His Love Into His Diary 他把爱写进了日记里 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀7k WordsCompleted He Wrote His Love in His Diary 8Reads—Score—Shelves
13. 463 毕 Ten Years After Graduation, the School Bully Insists I’m His One True Love 毕业十年，校霸非说我是他白月光 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted Ten Years After Graduation, the School Bully Insists I Was His White Moonlight 7Reads—Score—Shelves
14. 464 替 After Being Sent as a Substitute Bride, the Sickly Prince and I Schemed Against Each Other 替嫁后，我和病娇王爷互相算计 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀21k WordsCompleted After Becoming a Substitute Bride, the Sickly Prince and I Schemed Against Each Other 9Reads—Score—Shelves
15. 465 校 The School Bully Comes Looking for His Child’s Mom 校霸带娃找妈 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Marriage & Romance16k WordsCompleted The School Bully Shows Up with a Kid, Looking for the Kid’s Mom —Reads—Score—Shelves
16. 466 天 A Baby from Heaven: My Ghostly Husband Is Hard to Handle, So I’m Taking It Easy and Guarding the House 天降萌宝：诡夫难哄，老娘摆烂镇宅 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀15k WordsCompleted A Baby from the Sky: Taming My Hard-to-Handle Ghost Husband? I’m Done Trying, So I’ll Keep the Home in Line —Reads—Score—Shelves
17. 467 我 I Livestreamed My Entire 996 Company Transmigrating 我向全网直播996公司集体穿越 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀9k WordsCompleted I Livestreamed My Entire 996 Company Transmigrating to Another World —Reads—Score—Shelves
18. 468 全 Everyone Knelt and Begged Her to Become Empress 全员跪请她做女帝 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀14k WordsCompleted Everyone Kneels and Begs Her to Become Empress —Reads—Score—Shelves
19. 469 为 You Divorced Me for Fame and Fortune, Now You Cry as I Make the Diva a Star 为名利和我离婚，我捧红天后你哭什么 One Hundred Thousand Words十万字Urban2.0M WordsCompleted Also known as: After Our Divorce, I Became the Pop Queen's Personal Assistant [Showbiz + One Female Lead + Sweet Romance + Everyday Life] Right after divorcing his celebrity wife, Lin Zhou unexpectedly became the personal assistant to a rising pop queen. Just then, his memories from transmigrating came back, and Lin Zhou naturally began plagiarizing works from his past life. And so, the legendary man behind the pop queen finally made his entrance! His ex-wife, a second-tier singer: “Lin Zhou is 26.5kReads8.6Score2.8kShelves

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    Turn directly to Chapter 101; suitable for reading at night when you're alone in bed and feeling lonely.

20. 470 寒 The Poor Widow Is Fierce and Fearless 寒门娘亲飒爆了 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀12k WordsCompleted The Poor Scholar’s Mother Is a Force to Be Reckoned With —Reads—Score—Shelves
21. 471 论 My Thesis Was Exposed? My Research Shocks the World! 论文被曝光？我的科研震惊全世界！ Old Town in the Southern Lands南国旧城Urban645k WordsCompleted Also known as: My Paper Was Exposed? My Research Shocks the World! [Tech-focused] [Top student] [Leveling up] Lin Feng comes from a poor family. After doing poorly on the college entrance exam, he ends up at an ordinary second-tier university. But once he starts college, his brain keeps developing. As long as he accumulates enough knowledge, he can work out the future of related technologies. During his four years at university, he neglects sleep and meals, spending almost all his time in the la 871Reads8.2Score111Shelves
22. 472 被 I Was Brought Back to the Family Estate, but I Won’t Be the Real Heiress! 被接回大院后，真千金我不当了！ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀15k WordsCompleted After They Brought Me Back to the Compound, I Refused to Be the Real Heiress! 111Reads—Score—Shelves
23. 473 逍 The Carefree Little Immortal Farmer 逍遥小仙农 One-Yuan Spicy Strips辣条一块钱Urban2.3M WordsOngoing A down-on-his-luck college student is fishing by the stream when he happens upon a token bearing the inheritance of the Azure Emperor. From then on, he leaps from obscurity to success and enjoys a wonderful life. With a little yellow dog at his side, he gathers herbs in the mountains, catches fish in the river, grows flowers and raises bees, hunts in the wilderness, tames rare birds and exotic beasts, helps the villagers prosper, and builds a secluded mountain village like a paradise. 246Reads9.0Score163Shelves
24. 474 万 The Woman Everyone Hated, Now a Stand-In, Begs to Be Sent to the Cold Palace 万人嫌替身她跪求入冷宫 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀26k WordsCompleted The Hated Stand-In Kneels and Begs to Be Sent to the Cold Palace —Reads—Score—Shelves
25. 475 布 A Fearsome Man in Commoner's Clothes 布衣凶猛 Li Poshan李破山Historical3.5M WordsCompleted [War + Passion + History] “Mu, do you want a wife? Just say the word and I’ll bring one to you in a bit.” A streetwise young rascal crosses paths with a rich girl fleeing disaster. I transmigrated into a chaotic age. Armed with blades, bows, and horses, I’ll protect my family and keep us alive. 5.8kReads8.8Score574Shelves
26. 476 儿 My Son Is the School Bully, and His Mortal Enemy Is My Ex-Husband 儿子是校霸，他的死对头是我前夫 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀9k WordsCompleted My Son Is the School Bully, and His Archenemy Is My Ex-Husband —Reads—Score—Shelves
27. 477 重 Reborn in the 1980s: The Pickled Vegetable Seller’s Comeback 重生八零：咸菜西施的逆袭人生 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Modern Romance9k WordsCompleted Reborn in the 1980s: The Pickled Vegetable Seller’s Comeback —Reads—Score—Shelves
28. 478 我 I Took My Kindergarten Class into a Cultivation Apocalypse 我带着幼儿园，穿进修仙末日 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀15k WordsCompleted I Brought My Kindergarten with Me When I Transmigrated into a Cultivation Apocalypse 1Reads—Score—Shelves
29. 479 校 The School Bully Keeps Trying to Pay My Hospital Registration Fee 校霸他总想给我交挂号费 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀10k WordsCompleted The School Bully Keeps Trying to Pay My Hospital Registration Fees —Reads—Score—Shelves
30. 480 摄 The Regent Has Two Faces 摄政王他有两幅面孔 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Ancient Romance6k WordsCompleted The Regent Has Two Faces 1Reads—Score—Shelves
31. 481 开 From the Start in the Cold Palace, My Maxed-Out Medical Skills Conquer the Harem! 开局冷宫，满级医术通关后宫！ A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀Ancient Romance11k WordsCompleted From the Start in the Cold Palace: Max-Level Medical Skills Conquer the Harem! —Reads—Score—Shelves
32. 482 别 Don’t Mess with the Transfer Student: She Used to Run the Gang 别惹转校生，她曾是扛把子 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀7k WordsCompleted Don't Mess with the Transfer Student: She Used to Be the Top Boss —Reads—Score—Shelves
33. 483 病 My Yandere Ex-Boyfriend Became My Client 病娇前男友变甲方 A Single Spirit Shines Alone一灵独耀8k WordsCompleted My Obsessive Ex-Boyfriend Became My Client —Reads—Score—Shelves
34. 484 我EN My 26-Year-Old Female Tenant 我的26岁女房客 Super Big Tank Kobe超级大坦克科比Urban2.1M WordsCompleted After a wild night at a bar, a beautiful woman pinned him with a paternity claim, and the down-and-out young man suddenly became a father. As if things weren't bad enough, the owner of his rented home changed, and he was about to be kicked out. But his new landlady was beautiful! Should he ask to share the place? She coolly gave him a single word: “Get out!” A romantic entanglement sparked by a housing problem. 120kReads9.7Score13.9kShelves

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    Those are the two books.

35. 485 负 The Negative-Equity Lovers 负资产恋人 Wuchuan Wind五川风Urban171k WordsOngoing (A work of realism. The story starts slowly, but its impact builds.) A middle-class man in his thirties is hit by the property bubble’s collapse. With his assets shrinking and his marriage all but over, I had planned to give up and lie flat in this city. Until one day, Lin Shu, a fragile-looking college girl full of contradictions, barged into my chaotic life under the guise of a mysterious tenant. She’s sensitive and vulnerable, yet has an instinct for influencer culture that runs deep. To put 28Reads—Score—Shelves
36. 486 重 Reunited After the Divorce 重逢在离婚后 Old 2zi老2子Modern Romance342k WordsCompleted The first time they met, she was another man's wife, with a child in her womb. The sight of her bending down to rescue a cat, then lowering her head to stroke her pregnant belly, became an obsession Shen Aotian kept hidden for seven years. The second time they met, she had long since left her broken marriage behind and, by an unexpected twist of fate, become the lover of her sworn enemy's maternal uncle. Zhao Yilei was an ordinary woman from northern China, trapped in a marriage full of endless 19Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Women who mature before dating and marrying tend to find more stable, peaceful, and lasting partners. Instead of a peaceful, in-depth conversation, he just wants to "keep things quiet." Your outpouring becomes an accusation, and his avoidance reinforces your despair of not being loved. The female protagonist finds true love after her divorce; the male protagonist's unwavering devotion helps her become a better person. Her kindness and sincerity bring peace and longing to the male protagonist. Find someone who is already good, someone who makes you a better person. [Kissing emojis]

37. 487 龙 The Dragon King's Wife 龙王妻 Dreaming Disciple in Deep Meditation潜心梦徒Mystery2.2M WordsCompleted On the night of the blood moon, the Dragon King takes a bride. Luo Anzhi was born a noblewoman, but fate swept her up and made her the Dragon King's wife. From then on, she set out on a path unlike anyone else's... 996Reads9.1Score363Shelves

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    The beginning was great, but the later parts were so painful it was suffocating and heartbreaking. Several people in the comments said they cried, and I cried too. It's really good. Watch the Dragon King's Wife first, then watch the River God's Bride.

38. 488 双 My Strict Teacher Became My Scheming Boss 双面严师成了我的腹黑上司 LiuqibaZz六七八ZzTwo Male Leads482k WordsOngoing A wolf who loves to discipline people with his hands, has a fiery temper, is overbearing and fiercely protective, and is all bark with a soft heart meets a poor, kind puppy who is ordinary, obedient, patient, and cries when wronged... Lu Linchuan is both an adjunct professor and the heir to Luqi Media. Ran Mingyang is a student Lu Linchuan thinks highly of, and after graduation becomes his assistant. Their backgrounds, family circumstances, and personalities are as different as fire and ice. One 5.4kReads7.4Score357Shelves

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39. 489 河 The River God's Bride 河神新娘 Dreaming Disciple in Deep Meditation潜心梦徒Ancient Romance2.1M WordsCompleted A sacrificial rite brings the young girl Chu Xiyan together with the River God, setting in motion a deeply moving love story. They save one another and help each other become whole, enduring the tangled joys and sorrows of love and hate... 169Reads8.8Score—Shelves
40. 490 星 The Galaxy Falls Into My Arms 星河落下入怀中 Sunrise over the Starry River日出星河Marriage & Romance42k WordsCompleted The Galaxy Falls into My Embrace 198Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Both of these stories were so heartbreaking! [Crying][crying][crying]

41. 491 听 Listen to Her Play Paganini Once More 听她再奏一曲帕格尼尼 Sunrise over the Starry River日出星河Marriage & Romance19k WordsCompleted Listen to her play Paganini once more 13Reads—Score—Shelves
42. 492 我 My Stunning Boss 我的绝色女老板 Eggs Are Made of Steel蛋似钢打Urban2.8M WordsCompleted A new work is here! You can read my stories on Tomato Novel. I hope you’ll enjoy them. Your support motivates me to write, and I’ll do my best to tell every story well! 3.8kReads8.6Score524Shelves

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    (Please read this book with caution; it will make you feel extremely uncomfortable and unable to eat.) To be honest, reading this book made me feel awful all day. The female lead's love for the male lead was unacceptable. I read over a hundred chapters and then dropped it. It's not that the writing is bad, but I think this book is truly distorted. The female lead's character is undoubtedly an ideal, but her expression of love is morally reprehensible. Her love was unacceptable to me. (The male lead's first love undoubtedly loved him deeply, but she used her body to negotiate sales deals, slept with various men, and even ended up with the male lead's rival.)

43. 493 半 Half-Mountain Ferry: No Shore Beyond, So I Make a Way 半山渡：彼岸无岸，我开路 Get Me得我Modern Romance700k WordsCompleted A boy’s pursuit of pleasure turns into a youth filled with the bittersweet aches of growing up. [Depressed, frail, adored-by-all campus beauty × a battlefield of love rivals | 1990s school days | bittersweet youth, tragic ending | push and pull | dissociative identity | based on a true story] Who can save her shattered soul? ① The domineering class monitor: “Even if I can’t win your heart, I’ll have you.” Du Qinghuan bit her lower lip. “You wouldn’t dare!” His desire got the better of him. “Gues 88Reads8.9Score—Shelves

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    Give me one reason not to read this book?! It's bittersweet, painful, agonizing, and about a woman suffering from depression with no one to save her! Most importantly, it's based on the author's true story! Don't be misled by the synopsis; it might seem like a rags-to-riches story, but at its core, it's a tragic tale. I'm already crying my eyes out [almost crying].

44. 494 水 The Waters of Liangshan in Turmoil: Hu Sanniang and the Short-Legged Tiger 水泊惊变：扈三娘与矮脚虎的风波 Ten Thousand Gu万蛊Male-Channel Fanfiction13k WordsCompleted A Shocking Turn of Events at Liangshan: Hu Sanniang and the Short Tiger’s Turmoil 5Reads—Score—Shelves

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    I bathed her, combed her hair, dressed her, cooked for her, kissed her tears, kissed her feet, ate her leftovers, and held her hand in my arms. But in the end, we still parted ways. Even if you were just a passerby, I can never forget you.

45. 495 前 The Receptionist 前台 Ten Thousand Gu万蛊Marriage & Romance9k WordsCompleted Front Desk 3Reads—Score—Shelves
46. 496 寻 Searching for Her: A Rescue Across Half of China 寻她：跨越半个中国的救赎 Ten Thousand Gu万蛊Marriage & Romance8k WordsCompleted Searching for Her: Redemption Across Half of China 4Reads—Score—Shelves
47. 497 婚 The Deeper the Marriage, the Clearer the Truth 婚久知情深 Ten Thousand Gu万蛊Marriage & Romance14k WordsCompleted Only After Years of Marriage Do You Know the Depth of Love 10Reads—Score—Shelves
48. 498 妈 Mom, You Can Go Now 妈，你走吧 Ten Thousand Gu万蛊7k WordsCompleted Mom, You Can Go Now 3Reads—Score—Shelves
49. 499 我 I'm Pregnant with My Best Friend's Baby 我怀孕了，是闺蜜的孩子 Happy Golden Fish快乐的黄金鱼8k WordsCompleted I’m Pregnant with My Best Friend’s Baby 7Reads—Score—Shelves

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50. 500 烬 Love Reduced to Ashes, Lost to the Past 烬爱，终成过往 Happy Golden Fish快乐的黄金鱼8k WordsCompleted A love burned to ashes, now nothing but the past 5Reads—Score—Shelves

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