Half-Mountain Ferry: No Shore Beyond, So I Make a Way

"This is just a book that you all dare not read. But this is my life and you want me to live. ——Du Qinghuan" Hello everyone, I am Deme. I am the author of this semi-autobiographical youth pain literature. I prefer campus, romance, redemption and group portraits. I like to find light in the darkness and write tenderness in the brokenness. "Mid-level Crossing: There is no shore on the other side, I will open the way" is the accumulation of my many years of life. I hope it can speak something for the silent people. "Mid-level crossing: there is no shore on the other side, I will make the way" is a semi-autobiographical diary novel. Du Qinghuan in the book has shadows that I am familiar with, and there are also parts that I reshaped for the story. I treat 70% of my real experiences as soil, and plant 30% of fictional flowers on it - those pains, brokenness, and redemption have all been filtered by time and literature. Updates are stable. Please leave your thoughts or stories after reading the article in the comment area.

I really like this kind of realistic and imperfect heroine. Let's talk about the character highlights first. Du Qinghuan has many highlights. Her classical appearance and temperament are her least worthy of mention. If I were a man, I would fall under her pomegranate skirt. She is so charming and graceful, and blessed with a melancholy and classic temperament. Her every frown and smile make everything in the world eclipse. She is also very talented. She can write poems easily and win awards for essays. She can dance with grace and grace, and can also play the guzheng. She performed the song Butterfly Lovers at the New Year's Day performance and stood out. Can you not confuse all the boys in school into mentally retarded? Anyway, I don't think the setting of her having so many suitors is exaggerated. In real life, for an average-looking person like me, I had many suitors during my studies, not to mention Du Qinghuan, a school beauty with outstanding beauty and talent. I read in the comments that this is a semi-autobiography by the author, Da Da. Is the story based on your own true story? Then you must be so good-looking. I am also a promising person, and I can actually read the autobiography of the school beauty. When I read your book, I automatically reminded you of Bu Bu Bu Jing Xin Ruoxi's appearance, which is melancholic, elegant, refined, and super elegant. Let's talk about the imperfections of the heroine. Du Qinghuan's character is very melancholic, too awkward, and too sensitive. But the thing about depression is that, although it is not written that she went to the hospital for a clear diagnosis, it can still be known through her series of paranoid and suicidal behaviors. She also has a second personality, her main personality is very kind, and the second personality is like a devil. Let me ask you a question, do you really have a second personality in real life? Is that murder real? Another imperfection is that the heroine Du Qinghuan gives hope to those boys too easily and is too kind. A favor from a meal made Liu Yu completely obsessed with her. If it were me, I would be too lazy to deal with such an abnormal person. Fang Minwei and Jiang Yao were quite decisive. They tore up the notebook and slapped them, which was very irritating. I feel that the heroine's feelings for Sun Luyang are quite complicated. She is respectful and afraid of Sun, but she doesn't reject him thoroughly enough. She impulsively accepted Sun because she was moved and grateful rather than out of love. Then she suddenly realized that she deeply hurt Sun when they broke up with her. Although the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend only lasted for one day, Sun was very broken and really hurt. I was also very broken when I was involved in it. The heroine's feelings for Zou are even more complicated. Is the heroine an evasive personality? Anyone with a discerning eye can see that after her romantic partner Yu Shiai broke up with great fanfare, the heroine gradually fell in love with her friend Zou Xin, who appeared in time to save her. Sometimes I feel that the heroine is quite slow in terms of emotions. I don't know if she is really confused or pretending to be confused, or maybe she doesn't want to ruin the friendship, so she chooses to turn a blind eye. But Zou is also a person who likes to show off. He knows that the heroine really wants to be firmly chosen, but he just hints, or makes a little joke, plays with ambiguity, and even promises a seven-year appointment that seems very romantic but very unrealistic. I see that everyone in the comments is very moved by this vow, but I feel that he is not brave enough, firm enough, and too hesitant. If you like him, just say it out loud. If you want to be together, just confess and say I like you. Why are you pretending that we will be together in seven years before you are married and I am not married. Which girl can stand it? No wonder Du Qinghuan didn't dare to respond to him. Therefore, if two people cannot be together in the end, there are definitely reasons for both sides, and it is not a problem of one person. Including the final breakup of Du Qinghuan and Yu Shi, not to mention Du Qinghuan's stubborn temper, he likes to repeatedly verify the other person's love for him and likes to torture the other person repeatedly. This kind of relationship is so awkward, sweet is sweet, torture is really cruel, and pulling is really pulling. Yu Shi, a person who always shouts "Wandering is for searching, searching is for wandering," seems to me to be a quote from a scumbag. Why does this become an excuse to change girlfriends one after another? Is it fair to Du Qinghuan, who has never been in love? The relationship between Yu Shi and Du Qinghuan is destined to be full of tragedy, and it will be a matter of time before they break up. Who would Du Qinghuan be happier with? I think Zou Xin is the first choice. Although this person is hesitant and not brave enough, he is better than Yu Shi, a prodigal son who pursues freedom, and better than Sun Luyang, who seems to be restrained and affectionate but is actually a thief in the city. Jiang Yao is not comparable to these people and is too lazy to complain about this person. Fang Minwei is humble and cowardly, not the heroine's cup of tea. This is the first time I write such a long book review to analyze each character. What I want to say is that the writing is really good. It's not black and white. Everyone has a sense of life. No character is perfect, and they all have their own highlight moments. It's quite exciting. I love watching it, but I just can't get enough of it. I'm waiting for tomorrow's update!

I don't know how to write this book review for a long time, because I'm afraid it won't be worthy of the book and the author's ups and downs along the way. I was still a little kid when the story took place, but the author's portrayal of adolescence shocked me - much more than just love. Du Qinghuan has low self-esteem because of her mother's clothes, feels empty due to the death of her uncle, is betrayed by her friends, fails to get good grades in key classes, and has no hesitation to read again after the college entrance examination... Every plot makes me feel "right, I understand." None of her suitors are perfect: Jiang Yao is emotional but saves her; Fang Weimin is paranoid but fills his diary with her name; Sun Luyang is controlling but silently protects her; Yu Shi hurts her the most, but is the one who has the strongest resonance with her spirit. The male protagonist Zou Xin is like a bright spot, and every time she breaks down, he heals her with "cluck". The most shocking thing is Du Qinghuan's heroism: no matter how much suffering she goes through, she still remains angry and rational. Because she has been caught in the rain, she works hard to become someone who can hold an umbrella for others. This is a work worthy of being on the top list, and everyone who is willing to think should not miss it. It's been a long time since I've read a novel that appeals to my appetite. The next few chapters feel a bit depressing, but maybe this is life. I didn't expect that there are so many feelings that are difficult to resolve, Brother Heng, Xiangyi, Zou Zou... [Crying] Zou Zou is really Bai Yueguang. The author has portrayed him so perfectly. He is always free and happy, always high-spirited and always in his prime. Therefore, it is destined that he cannot be retained in the human world. He must pay off the grievances of his whole life and then become an immortal. I really burst into tears after reading his last letter, "I want to take one last look at the spring in this world"... [I'm about to cry] I hope he will be forever young in another world and will not be tortured by illness anymore. If Huanhuan herself is a knight with a high heart and an awe-inspiring character, then "she" is a knight who eliminates rape and supports the weak. I wish Huanhuan everything will be smooth in the future and live well with Xiaoyuer, Jiuzhou and Zhenxia. I can live my whole life under a coop of mist and rain, and there is neither wind, rain nor sunshine.

It really made me cry and jump back and forth with laughter! The heroine's brother is simply the best brother in the world. When he died, I cried harder than the heroine💔 But it was so fun to watch the heroine and Zou Xin interact with each other on a daily basis! The heroine, please read the story about Yu Shi. It's so sweet to be locked with Zou Xin. Happiness comes first! Zou Xin's phrase "life is so beautiful" that he often talks about is so healing! You can be happy and worry-free all day long, and it comes with a little sun buff. The heroine who suffers from depression should be with this kind of boy. He will have proper happy special effects and cure emo! When will they be able to break the window paper? I'm so worried! When they were young, Zou Xin made a seven-year marriage contract to the heroine under the blue sky and white clouds, in the breeze and green grass: "Du Qinghuan, in seven years, if you are not married, if I am not married, there are spirits within three feet, the heaven and the earth are the witnesses, and the mountains and rivers are the matchmakers. I will marry you, do you want it?" It killed me! Promise him quickly, say "I want it, I want it"! I'm so anxious, I even want to promise him for the heroine! They have such a sense of déjà vu that they have childhood sweethearts and childhood sweethearts. I really want to hold their heads and get married on the spot! These two happy enemies are so happy, heroine, please be wise and arrange a sweet ending for them as soon as possible. Don't use the knife, please, please🙏

This is the first time I watched a youth campus genre on Tomato. It felt very fresh and refined, and quite shocking. Based on real experiences, the author tells the story of the love and friendship between a sickly girl, an aloof school beauty, and several boys. The content is real and moving, and the writing is stunning! ! Especially the various memories of that era (people born in the 1990s) are perfectly reproduced, which makes people feel moved from time to time! I hope that the heroine will only have health, joy and happiness in her future life! Suffering will eventually pass. . . [Blows a kiss] Come on, I will read it. I have finished reading, and I once again like the shocking writing style [Like] [Like] [Like] I hope that more people will see this good work, and I hope that every character in the book will have a good life in real life [Love] [Love] [Love]

Seeing the recently updated chapter, Zou Xin, a friend of the opposite sex for many years, stretched out a saving hand when the heroine fell into the abyss during the breakup of Yu Shi, and shined like a ray of light when there was a crack in her life. The details of the interaction between these two people are so warm, healing, and sweet! My aunt laughed the whole time, grinning from ear to ear. This kind of pull between Zou Xin and Du Qinghuan without breaking the window paper is sweet and heart-wrenching. It is the highlight and highlight of the whole book. The mood of the whole book is depressing, but the only place where Zou Xin appears is in the clear sky. Who doesn't like sunshine? Du Qinghuan also liked it, but she had stood in a damp place for too long and she didn't dare to step forward. She was afraid that she would be like a potted plant that had never been exposed to sunlight and would rot when suddenly exposed to the sun. She is even more afraid of losing her only friend of the opposite sex. This is the reason why, whether in TV novels or in real life, it is so difficult for a relationship like "the lover is not satisfied, but the friend is above you" to be successful in the end. Friendship is sometimes more precious than love. No one is willing to risk losing a good friend by rashly breaking the window paper. The writing is very delicate, and every character is very real and not fake. Although it looks like a heroic novel, the actual style is a more realistic youth pain novel. Every emotional line is handled appropriately and not exaggeratedly. The heroine is not raising fish or having a harem, and has an almost paranoid view of love for one person for a lifetime. It's a pity that she has no connection with Yu Shi. Yu Shi is actually a pretty good person, although many book friends are scolding him. Yu Shi looked at the dissolute love of freedom, but in fact he was very sincere in his heart, and he also gave his sincerity to Du Qinghuan. It's just that two young souls don't know how to love and persist. Sun Luyang's model is the crush most girls dream of. She has an ascetic face, a bronze figure with eight-pack abs, and is 1.88 Meters tall. She wears a pair of ascetic glasses. Wow, wow, wow~ coupled with the subwoofer's phrase "Xiao Qinghuan, come here--", it fascinates me! He is cold and stern towards others, but restrained, gentle and affectionate towards the heroine. Du Qinghuan, Du Qinghuan, I really envy you. There are so many handsome guys of different types surrounding you, tsk tsk tsk... Please update soon. I want to see the ending as soon as possible. Can you give everyone a good ending? I'm afraid of knives

Coming from a place where there is a shortage of books, I saw that the author said that it was adapted from his own real experience, which was 70% true. He also said that he suffered from depression and wrote this article to save himself. Then I had to read it twice! As a result, I stayed up all night and read the latest chapter in one go. Oh my God, how could there be such a sweet, sad, in-depth and well-written article? ! Are new authors so good now? If you really want to read a sweet novel, you can take a detour. This is not the traditional and common kind of pure campus youth sweet pet novel. There are cookies and knives in this book, there is redemption, there is healing, there is love, there is hatred, there is sinking, there is struggle, there is also depression, dual personality, crime, light suspense... If you want to read a sweet, youthful romance, but also want to read something deep, thoughtful, and a little bit dark, you can read this book! I was so excited when I saw Du Qinghuan holding hands with the person she liked. It was such pure love! The youthfulness of a young girl is so beautifully written! I was so angry when I saw the post about reminiscing about my stepbrother! The sweet love is mixed with some complicated and confusing plots, I can't stop it! I just like this feeling on my head. The story is so layered, with pure love, sourness, pain, and light suspense, which whetted my appetite. I must recommend it to you! However, the previous plot is relatively slow, so you have to be patient to follow it in order to taste the taste of this fine chaff. I love to eat it😋 The heroine Du Qinghuan's spirit is getting worse and worse in the recently updated chapter, and her bones are getting harder and harder! Bring feeling! I just love seeing her second personality come out (even though it scares me). Finally, I would like to praise the author and his beautiful writing style! ! It's really good to read. The recently updated chapters are so sweet, especially the interaction between Zou Xin and Du Qinghuan is so CP! Pink bubbles are about to appear, and I can't hold my mouth shut~ When will you, heroine, accept classmate Zou Zou~ What a boy who is so optimistic and sunny, you have to look forward! Just like what Zou Xin said, "There are cracks in life, and light can come in." There is also the promise Zou made to Du Qinghuan on the lawn, "In seven years, if you are not married and I am not married, we will be together, do you want it?" Everyone made it so obvious, but Du Qinghuan actually said, "I don't take jokes seriously." How stupid! Zou Mingming said the truth in a joking way! If they don't get together in the end, it will really be hard for me to let go, woo woo hoo~ Alas, it is actually very difficult to break through the unsatisfied feelings of lovers above friendship. I am afraid that in the end we will no longer be friends, and I am reluctant to destroy such a sincere friendship. I understand Du Qinghuan's concerns. Just like who sang "If I say I really love you, who will clean up the broken friendship". It's such a stretch... In fact, they are a perfect match. Du Qinghuan and Zou are the happiest and laugh the most when they are together, right? Author, you are so amazing. Whether you are writing about pain, sweetness, sourness, or suspense, you all write so well. Update faster, faster, 2 chapters a day is not enough for me~ I really want to see the plot development of Zou Xin and Du Qinghuan! Damn it, don't put a knife on them! Du Qinghuan has suffered enough. She met Yu Shi before, but ended up breaking up for no reason. Now she has finally met Zou Xin, who can truly redeem her. She must make the heroine happy!

I accidentally saw it in a book store last night. I was immediately attracted by the cover and title. I clicked on it and stayed up all night. I was so immersed in seeing it now that I couldn't help but stop and type out these words. The shock in my heart and the stasis in my throat were so severe that I couldn't continue reading without expressing them. Its writing, style, plot, characters, and conception are all of the highest quality, with no flaws at all. It is not a cookie-cutter youth darling on the market. It does not have brainless sweetness or deliberate romance. It is also not the kind of bloody novel that abuses for the sake of abuse and blindly piles up pain. It will not make you feel depressed and suffocated, but every word will poke at the softest place in your heart. Like what? Like the wind that passes through the forest in the late autumn afternoon, with a touch of coolness, but also wrapped in fine tenderness; like a cup of warm tea, which is plain at first taste, but full of mellowness and bitterness in the aftertaste. When you swallow it, there is a heavy feeling in your throat; it is also like an old time hidden in the years, unfolding slowly and unhurriedly, kneading the joy, struggle, regret and redemption of the characters bit by bit into the lines, so real that it seems to be happening before your eyes. You will follow the emotional ups and downs of the protagonists, be heartbroken by their forbearance, be moved by their struggles, be moved by the tenderness hidden in the details, and be sore by the regrets that cannot be controlled. It describes all the complexity and reality of youth, including perseverance in darkness, redemption in pain, human struggle, and the tenderness of time. After reading it, I was filled with heavy feelings that I couldn't get over for a long time. It is worth staying up no matter how long the night is to encounter such a book that touches my heart.

This is a large-scale diary style novel. I always thought that the diary style was like keeping a running account, but when I read it, I realized that it was not the case. Although it is in the form of a diary, it is not verbose, the plots are interlocking, and the emotions are very delicate, making it easy for me to relate to it. Du Qinghuan's diary is her only safe house. She was born with a congenital heart disease, her father was in jail when she was three years old, she was left in the care of others when she was five years old, she was bullied at six years old, she was bullied in school at nine years old, she was domestically abused at fifteen years old, and suffered setbacks in her college entrance examination and relationship at nineteen years old... She gradually fell into depression and a dual personality that was difficult to escape. On the high school campus of this small county town, she traveled between undercurrents and glimmers of light, and met a group of people, including suitors, teenagers she liked, good friends, mentors, and lunatics. Some people stretched out their hands to pull her out of the shadows, some were pushing her in the dark, and some wanted to drag her into the abyss. She smiled, held on to her life, and opened her own way. Crossing people? Cross yourself first. Halfway up the mountain, there is no shore on the other side - "Only after she walks over can you discuss the ending." The author uses the first person, a unique and novel diary-style semi-autobiographical form, to write down Du Qinghuan's joy and sorrow, crime and punishment, hate and forgiveness. He also writes down how she was pushed halfway up the mountain step by step between madness and sanity, and how she achieved self-salvation step by step. Transition may not be liberation, but continuing to move forward with all the weight. As I write this, my heart cannot calm down for a long time. Five-star praise! The intention is very high! We can't let such a good article be buried.

Unlike other book lovers, I personally feel that what pricked me the most in this article was not the emotional pull between Xiong Jing and the heroine, but the author's particularly penetrating portrayal of the heroine's depression and dual personality. Du Qinghuan herself had a heart disease, and was trapped in a broken family, childhood shadows and youthful criticism. The long-term depression slowly bit her emotions, and depression took hold of her, trapping her in boundless depression and self-denial. Others only saw her as cold, weird, distant and withdrawn, but no one understood her late-night collapse and silent internal strife. What is even more worrying is her dual personality. The gentle, timid and kind-hearted person habitually tolerates and gives in, hiding all the grievances in her heart; the other personality is sharp and vicious, fighting back for her and protecting her fragile self. The two personalities are pulling back and forth, like two selves confronting and struggling in their hearts. There is no deliberate sensationalism or exaggerated settings. The author writes the psychological struggle, emotional breakdown, and the pull between personalities in a very realistic way. She is not a perfect heroine. She is struggling to move forward with her illness, heart knots and personality conflicts. She reconciles with herself bit by bit amidst interpersonal entanglements and youthful confusion, and carves out a way for herself in a life with nowhere to go. I haven't finished watching it yet. I hope the heroine Du Qinghuan can be happy in the finale and get real redemption. I will review it after watching it.