Youth Without a Speck of Dust

I am Mo Chen. Nothing earth-shattering ever happened in my life. No one ever liked me, and I never liked anyone else. Because of my family, I was always insecure. Sometimes I was even afraid to speak up. I dropped out during the first semester of ninth grade. There was no strange reason behind it. No one beat me up or bullied me. I was just lonely. Whenever I saw other people walking around in groups of two or three, I would feel inexplicably empty. Then I went to a vocational school. Life there was a little better than middle school, and I even made some friends. But a lot of things still didn't improve, and my future remained bleak. After graduating from vocational school, I shut myself away at home. I rarely talked to anyone. You could say I stayed home because I was weak, or you could say I was running away. Whenever I went out to work, I somehow seemed to attract hostility. Either people ostracized me, or I ended up fighting. I didn't understand why before, but maybe I'm gradually starting to figure it out. Being different often attracts resentment. But when I was nineteen, I received a message. At last, my life began to change. This is a different kind of crime novel. It can be pretty sentimental. Unlike the usual crime stories, where everyone is decisive and ruthless, the characters here are often very hesitant. So if that's not your thing, don't even click on it. If you don't like it, you don't like it. Even opening it would only take a fleeting moment.