Notes from the Gray Tower (Web Edition)

This is my first time to write a book review. The narrative of the story is great. It describes their painful love from Allen's perspective, and tells about the last resort, cruelty, and killing in the war. At that time, even trust was precious and made people sigh. Other characters in the book also have their own shining points. Anne's initiative to apply for a rescue mission and Raphael's contribution to the decryption machine are very vivid and unforgettable. The character traits of different characters are very distinct. Andermont is so cruel. After agreeing to Allen, he used him again and again (I even sometimes doubted whether he loved Allen or not). He knew everything and said nothing. In the end, he just apologized over and over again. Andermont lost Allen's love forever and lost his lover in that high tower. But it's still very interesting to watch. Alan Custer, he shines in his field of expertise, it's really hard not to like him. The decryption part is also quite interesting. I will always remember the cryptographer Alan Custer, a genius like a hero. I hope he lives in a world without war, gets what he wants, and doesn't get hurt anymore [almost crying]. It hurts every time I see him get hurt. He shouldn't be treated like that. [Almost crying]

This is the novel that touched me the most so far. No one got a good ending. Andermund is worried about gain and loss; Allen has lost his memory; Arnold is unable to love; Edgar is hateful because of love; and there is a mother who will never be able to meet her son. I can't change anything, I can only hope they are happy in the parallel world

"Gray Tower Notes" is an unsolvable game The more I read the Gray Tower Notes, the more I know how Andemon and Allen fell in love, and the more I understand that this story is a dead end with no solution. Allen really fell in love with Andemon at first sight, so the apple tree in Cambridge was mentioned many times in the article. That was the beginning of all the stories. And what about Andemon versus Allen? It was also love at first sight, but he could not realize and accept this love easily, just like the original text's psychological description of Andemon - he could fall in love with me impulsively, and he could also fall in love with others impulsively. I never question the relationship between Andemon and Allen, but no matter how indestructible the love is, it seems powerless in the face of war. Andemon tried to give Allen a quiet and secret happiness, but Allen refused. He could not deeply realize the darkness of the Intelligence Agency, nor could he give up the opportunity to work side by side with Andemon, nor could he be indifferent to his country at war. Everyone thinks that in this story, the only person who has the choice between lover and country is Andemon. In fact, they are wrong. Everyone is in this dilemma, Edgar, Arnold, Andemon, Allen, etc. Edgar couldn't betray his country, and couldn't watch Allen die; the same was true for Arnold; Andmond, as the head of MI6, the British could not tolerate his betrayal; and Allen, who seemed to have not been lucky among the three men, A talented mathematician with a happy love, the blood of the British flows in his bones, so he obviously had many opportunities, whether they were given by himself, Andemon or Edgar, but he gave up because he could not stay away and turned a blind eye to the smoke-filled London. Perhaps Andemon understood this, so he gave up persuading Allen to withdraw. Of course, another point is that Andemon believed that he had the ability to protect Allen. However, the war situation was unpredictable, and no one could make the situation go according to their own ideas. This ending, which has been criticized by many people, is that he is not as good as be. It is also the best ending that I can think of that is logical and consistent with the character. It would be great if... If Andmond was really just Professor Andmond Wesson who teaches advanced mathematics in Cambridge

When I read it again, I found that Andermon actually loved Allen very much, but during the war years, his love level was the lowest. Gray Tower is a very be. Allen was forced to fall from a proud son to a mediocre person. Just because of the "homosexuality crime", Allen was suspected by the organization and was forced to lose his memory. Andemeng will always be trapped in worries about gains and losses for the rest of his life, fearing that his lover will think of the past. Some of the author's descriptions are particularly British, with a feeling like an oil painting, which has always had a profound influence on the author's description of Undermund under the apple tree.

This is my fourth playthrough, and I still feel bored after watching it. I feel really sad for Alan. Because when I see the happy life of the two of them in the later period, I can't help but think of Allen who was in pain and despair in the Gray Tower, and "he will forget the beginning of everything, but he is not happy" (´;;`). We can never know whether the real Allen will be satisfied with the final ending. Of course, personal opinion, don't comment if you don't like it😭😭😭😭😭

I like my White Moonlight. I still shed tears after rereading it ten times. Now I downloaded Tomato Reading for it. I am so happy to be able to watch all the extras in a row.

2025.8.28, Second brush This is a tragedy written in code - about how love becomes the sharpest weapon and the most unsolvable cage. London's winter fog is cold and damp. Geniuses use their rationality to solve the riddles of war, but they still cannot decipher the secrets of human heart and destiny. In the end, both freedom and love became victims of the times, with only the gray tower standing among the ruins of memory, silently witnessing everything. "I just want to tell people who see this note that the author is Alan Custer, who died after the victory in World War II. He missed the blue sky in Cambridge and his lover who bent his eyes and smiled under the apple tree outside the library. He will abandon all memories and be reborn, but he will not be happy."

What I have always believed is that people are shaped by experiences and memories, so the former Allen is dead, and the one whose memory has been erased is no longer the former Allen. I think Allen and Andermon fell in love at first sight. Andermon escaped at first because he knew what would happen if Allen was selected into the Intelligence Agency. The only thing that makes me sad is how could there be so much deception and exploitation in the love and friendship that Allen has? But when I look back at Andermon, he looks at Allen in despair. He is also painful in his heart. When it comes to whitewashing the peace, if there is no Andemon, Allen will stay in the Gray Tower for the rest of his life. Andemon does not respect Allen's ideas, but I think Allen is reborn and stays in this beautiful world. In peacetime, he was not accused of being a traitor. He was still a high-spirited young man. I think it was good. Allen was indeed no longer complete, but at least he was happy. False happiness is also happiness, happiness when he has forgotten everything is also happiness, and happiness when he thinks he is real is also happiness. The gray tower that is always shrouded in fog is not only the academic temple of Cambridge University, but also a prison where the truth is imprisoned. Allen's pure pursuit of mathematical truth was crushed into pieces of glass on the ground by the war machine. When the national will forges mathematical formulas into war codes, those mathematical symbols jumping on the manuscript paper eventually turn into the never-ending Morse code in the listening station, weaving free will into the prison network of national interests. When knowledge becomes a vassal of power, even truth itself will be burned. In the end, they met under the apple tree outside the Cambridge Library... I can't judge or distinguish everything at that time. I can only say that whether it is at the beginning or at the end, I still have great hope that they can achieve complete happiness.

Alan Custer, died after victory in World War II. He misses the blue sky in Cambridge and his lover's eyes bent and smiling under the apple tree outside the library. He will abandon all memories and be reborn, but not happily. [Almost crying] [Almost crying] 2025.4.19

The writing style is very British, and it even feels like a work translated from a foreign country. In short, the writing style is so in line with foreign literature that the characters seem to really exist [almost crying] [almost crying] The whole book gave me a feeling that can be described in one word as "moist". Everyone is shrouded in dark clouds, and everyone's face is full of depression. Even for Arnold, I often feel that his smile is used to cover up the emptiness and depression in his heart. This is probably a war, and no one can achieve perfection. To say he or be, I prefer the latter. Andermon will worry about gains and losses until the moment Allen recalls or after Allen passes away. It is a sword of Damocles. It hangs above his head for a day, and Andermon can only live in depression. And Allen can no longer be called a complete personality. He has suffered spiritual castration. It does not mean that the ending together can be called he. He requires the blending of body and soul between lovers. Andemon and Allen themselves are already scarred, but they still have to use love to desperately cover the gap that has opened between them. They love each other, but they are by no means happy.