Designed Me as a Container but Told Me I Couldn't Accommodate Her

There is a Buddha and a demon living in my head. But what they don't know is that there is also a source of fear in the world. Buddha said: Letting go is bliss. The devil said: Only after death can there be new life. What's ridiculous is that my 'container', which is being fought over by Buddhas and demons, is being pointed at by three thousand poison-quenched crossbows. And just now, my mother used her body to break eleven crossbow arrows for me. Buddha and demons were quiet. I said: Since there is no room for her, then this world should not exist, including me! The moment his mother closed her eyes - he opened his eyes!