I Really Don’t Want to be Reborn

In a sense, Little Crucian Carp is the youth of gangster Chen in his past and present lives.

Who are you going to find with the cake?

I feel like this is more similar

Very much like Yanyan, please like it if you like it

The previous ones were too fragmented, so I integrated them...

The number one anti-fan is here again

There is nothing better in the world than your smile Everything you do is right Have you eaten yet Go to bed early Drink more hot water I have a girlfriend, but you are my wife Just ask for a title Ahhhhhhhhhhh

Jianye. As night falls, the lights of Xinjiekou begin to light up, and the flashing neon lights embellish the prosperity of the city. Xiao Rongyu came out of the Guomao Building. He worked overtime for a lawsuit today and got off work a little late. Mother Lu Yuqing called her to ask Shen Youchu's grandma for her birthday and if she had bought her gifts. If not, buy them together. Now not only she, but also Lu Yuqing, completely regarded Youchu as their own daughter, and regarded Zipei as equally important as Zijin. Xiao Rongyu thought of Zijin Zipei, the corners of his mouth raised slightly, and he walked faster towards the parking lot. At this moment, a man in a suit suddenly appeared in front of her with a large bouquet of roses in his hand: "Director Xiao, the moonlight is so beautiful tonight, can we get to know each other over dinner?" Xiao Rongyu: "I'm sorry, I don't have time." Man in suit: "I am the CEO of ×× company ×× brand in China. I graduated with... Annual income..." He looks like a successful man... Xiao Rongyu: "Please get out of the way..." Man in suit: "Look how beautiful this flower is, it matches you very well..." At this time, a ruffian voice came from behind the man in the suit: "What are the flowers for? Do you want a daughter for you?" Chen Hansheng came with the three-year-old little fool in his arms. Zipei opened his two chubby little hands and stretched out to Xiao Rongyu: "Mom, hold..." Xiao Rongyu hugged the little fool: "Zipei is so good... Grandma is celebrating her birthday. I am going to help Youchu decorate the house. Let's go quickly!" Chen Hansheng: "Zijin is at Youchu's place. She asked me to pick you up." The man in the suit froze in mid-air holding a rose, his eyes dull... Chen Hansheng: "We have a warm family of three! Why are you still doing this..." The man in the suit responded mechanically: "Ah! Yes... I'm sorry, I'm leaving now..." I thought that such a beautiful white-collar beauty found a gangster, what a pity... Chen Hansheng grabbed his flowers: "Well, thank you for the flowers..." The man in the suit ran away... Xiao Rongyu: "Xiao Chen, you are still so bad..." Chen Hansheng smiled playfully: "It depends on who is right, I am good to you!" Xiao Yu'er: "Humph, you are still talking about it! You have bullied me since I was a child, snatched my snacks, copied my homework, and finally stole my heart..." "We were childhood sweethearts. Look at the bright moonlight tonight, and so many lights in the city can't cover its beauty. To me, you are my white moonlight. I feel very lucky to keep you by my side in this life..." Chen Hansheng thought silently: If I had not been reborn, maybe you would have always been the white moonlight that I could only look up to... Xiao Rongyu looked tenderly at Zi Pei who was sleeping in her arms: "I can forgive you, although it is because of my two daughters, but the most important thing is that I like you, and I have always liked you..." The moonlight is gentle, and people are like the first time they met...

I really hope that the author will write more about their daily life after reconciliation, just like when they were still running around in school. I just want to see more of Xiao Yu'er. You Chu and Chen Gou have really reconciled completely. I hope to see Xiao Yu'er's tsundere come back. When I first read this book, I read it with the idea of ​​a happy ending, where the male protagonist is blessed by everyone. But when the author gradually deepened his description of Xiao Yuer, he found that it was impossible for this girl to accept the existence of another "sister". Therefore, whenever I find out about the male protagonist and Youchu, I choose to quit and run away, not wanting to face this reality. Neither willing to completely separate, nor willing to face it. In fact, compared to Youchu, Xiao Yuer is more in line with today's aesthetics. Within the parental system, the family is harmonious and happy, with excellent grades, outstanding appearance, and almost no flaws in character. Even though she has been supported since childhood, she has a little bit of arrogance, but in the face of love, she has also become willing to follow the man's initiative. This is also a very distressing point. In fact, in the first Shura field, when the male protagonist went back to chase Xiao Yu'er, Xiao Yu'er could still clearly feel that he was enjoying a sweet love, and he turned into that arrogant and cute character again. But until they discovered the existence of Youchu after discussing marriage, Xiao Yu'er's longing for a better life was completely destroyed, and Xiao Yu'er's personality was completely changed. It wasn't until later that Xiao Hanbao's mother-in-law made Xiao Yu'er not forgive but accept the fact (she couldn't completely separate Chen Gou, nor could she completely forgive Chen Gou for his deception), and discovered that in fact she and You Chu were both pitiful people. Even if it continues to be like this, it's not an option, so just let yourself go. So Xiao Yu'er can never go back to the past, and she will never be the same Bai Yueguang again, even if she ties up her high ponytail again. Just like what everyone is thinking, if there was no Youchu, how happy would Xiao Yuer be. (Author, if you can write it, Xiao Yu'er is not so extreme, but after getting to know and understand You Chu, it is okay to slowly accept the existence of such a person. This kind of compromise-like acceptance after exchanging children is really heartbreaking!) In fact, compared with Xiao Yu'er's unhappiness, You Chu's side is not so difficult to accept (it is true that Chen Gou is not worthy of this kind of kindness). After all, Youchu's character is there. Although she is tough, she is relatively insensitive, or has low emotional intelligence. She doesn't care about many things, and she doesn't think about them divergently. I have come into contact with similar girls, but girls who have eyes for you like her were probably only available in that era. In fact, the environment in which one grows up can really determine a person's character and outlook. Youchu doesn't care so much about worldly views, because the environment where she grew up did not have such things, and she has always had the inferiority complex of a poor child, but Chen Gou forcefully squeezed into her life. It cannot be said that Youchu would have been better off without Chen Gou. In his previous life, it was not until graduation that everyone realized that Youchu was a treasure. Although Chen Gou's existence was a bit of an afterthought, it also greatly avoided some of the suffering that Youchu suffered due to material difficulties (those who say that Youchu would be better off without Chen Gou, try taking a green leather ride for more than 30 hours, then transfer to a train and then walk, and only eat some dry food in the middle). What she cares more about is whether Chen Gou will be angry, sad, or embarrass Chen Gou. It was like when she knew Xiao Yu'er had a child. In the past, like when she was at Shura Field for the first time, although she knew Xiao Yu'er, she wouldn't say anything. But when he found out that Xiao Yu'er had a baby, he quit because Xiao Yu'er needed Chen Gou more, and Chen Gou should also shoulder his responsibilities as a father. She didn't want Chen Gou to be in trouble. In fact, looking at the whole story, You Chu almost never did anything drastic after learning about Xiao Yu'er's existence. On the contrary, Xiao Yu'er took the initiative to escape from the king's meeting with the queen twice. You Chu broke up twice because he didn't want Chen Gou to be embarrassed (once he was misdiagnosed with cancer, and once Xiao Yu'er had a baby), but Xiao Yu'er did it both times because he couldn't accept it. From another perspective, Xiao Yu'er is the core of the conflict. You Chu has never made any remarks that he cannot accept Xiao Yu'er's existence. This is why I said that Youchu is not so unacceptable, because she has been like this from beginning to end, and she feels distressed because Chen Gou is not worthy. It is precisely because the core of the conflict lies with Xiao Yu'er, so after Xiao Yu'er chooses to compromise and accept, everything becomes as harmonious as a sunny day after the rain. In contrast, You Chu has been around Chen Gou from beginning to end. Just like nonsense, Chen Gou is the only one left alive. But Xiao Yu'er, because of two love injuries, completely changed the character of the arrogant little princess and became colder. This change is the most heartbreaking. Although in the final episode, the three of them can ride in the car together and go to kindergarten together. It seems that the future is bright, and they may even have a second child. But the best years of youth have been wasted, and those times will never come back. I can't help but sigh, if Xiao Yu'er had accepted this earlier, they would have lived a happier life, because we trust You Chu. Who would have the heart to hurt and reject such a girl? But in Xiao Yu'er's eyes, love is selfish. Who among us is qualified to ask her to accept this? Chen Gou really deserves to die.

It looks like a happy ending, but it's still quite depressing when you think about it. Xiao Yuer has never accepted the love of three people, and only compromised because of her daughter. Although he finally forgave Chen Gou, the Xiao Yu'er from before Chapter 700 could not come back, and he could no longer be seen acting coquettishly in Chen Gou's arms. Youchu has gone from being full of Chen Gou's infatuation to what he is now. Even though he is still deeply in love, there will always be a thorn in his heart. It is not acceptance, but compromise. After catching up on the extra story, I felt that it seemed like a great consummation. The two accepted each other and agreed to have a second child. But I don't know why I still feel uncomfortable. After thinking about it, I found that it was the changes in the characters that hindered the perfection. In other words, Lao Liu could not write true perfection without destroying the character. After reading through it, I discovered that the abuse in Shura Field was not only about the experiences and psychology of each character, but also about characters who would never return. Most likely, when Xiao Yu'er and You Chu met, they were already dead. In other words, the lively and coquettish Xiao Yu'er and You Chu, who had eyes full of him, were already dead. No matter what method Chen Gou used, people could not be resurrected after death. This is probably the reason why they have been depressed. Xiao Yuer and Youchu are so real and wonderful, but this also means that the two of them will never be able to accept it, and the ending will never be truly reunited. —— 2022.8.27 Thoughts after viewing