How Can I Stop Loving You?

A cold, brilliant top student who's quietly and calmly unhinged x a lazy, free-spirited, proud CEO who's easy to tease. Older woman pursues her wife with a broken heart. Happy ending.

Ji Mingxin was born into a life of hardship and nearly died more than once. At last, the year she graduated middle school, a beautiful, kindhearted businesswoman bought her.

At nineteen, she lay in the arms of the woman who had bought her. "What can I give you?"

The woman nuzzled the back of her neck. "Get the top score on the entrance exams for me."

Ji Mingxin did. She became the first person in Tianmu High School's history to achieve that feat, and the first student rumored to be involved with Cen Qiongying, president of the Tianmu Education Group.

**

No one can escape the tender trap of the moon's undivided light. Not even Ji Mingxin, born cold-blooded and indifferent to love.

On her twentieth birthday, drunk, she kissed Cen Qiongying by force. The price was the woman's distance. "We're sleeping apart tonight. Don't cross the line."

Cen Qiongying stopped coming to warm her bed. The day Ji Mingxin could no longer bear the torment and broke down, demanding, "What will it take for you to love me?" Cen Qiongying took her to a cemetery.

At a glance, Ji Mingxin almost thought the person in the photograph on the gravestone was herself. But the name carved there was a complete stranger's: Mu Xiaoyu.

The names on the grave included her parents and one other person: Wife, Cen Qiongying.

Ji Mingxin finally understood. All the kindness she had received was because of the dead woman. The wonderful boss she had worshipped as a goddess had treated her so cruelly.

Her cruel boss was not without a heart or love. She had simply given it all to the wife beneath the gravestone.

After that, Ji Mingxin cut off all contact with her.

[Extra scene]

Ji Mingxin, the prodigy of Jingping University's chemistry department, was recruited straight into the Institute of Organic Chemistry at the Chinese Academy of Sciences in her junior year. Her work on fragrance synthesis made her famous, and she was often seen with Feng Luohua, heiress to the Feng Group.

A blogger claimed: The two spent the night together after a charity gala. Wedding bells are just around the corner.

At dawn, Ji Mingxin returned to her own home to change. Cen Qiongying, who had flown in overnight, blocked her at the door. "How long are you going to keep this up? You just want love, don't you? I'll give it to you."

"Love?"

Ji Mingxin seemed not to understand the word. Calm and indifferent, she said, "President Cen, don't you know I have everything I need now? I don't need your love, just as Tianmu Education Group no longer needs a tool for getting into college."

Cen Qiongying shoved her into the house and bit down on her almost like a madwoman. "You don't want it? Fine. Then we'll keep going until you do."

[Important notes]

Fourteen-year age gap, one-on-one, both leads sexually inexperienced. A Jinjiang-style supernatural story featuring amnesia, a body possessed by another soul, and memories that return!

The Ying-Ming pairing in the main story and the Ying-Yu pairing in the extras are essentially the same two people! Please read with that premise in mind. You won't regret it!

The chemistry details were researched and made up online, all in service of the plot!

[Next novel]

A connected story in the same setting, You Can't Stop Thinking About Me, about an older woman pursuing her ex:

Artistic, carefree small-time singer and influencer, younger top x outwardly warm but inwardly cold wealthy heiress, older bottom

In the year she was at her purest, Xuan Ying joked with her fans on a livestream that if anyone tried to use their power to sleep with her, she'd go down with them, or she wouldn't be fit to call herself human.

But before long, she was in bed with her top donor, willingly using her influence to seduce her again and again.

Once, pausing midway, she laughed and scolded herself. "I'm not human."

Feng Luohua kicked her, then pulled her back. "What are you talking about? Hurry up."

In the year she loved most deeply, Xuan Ying would stand for seven hours in the freezing snow wearing a bulky mascot costume just to get another glimpse of Feng Luohua.

She didn't think it was hard, because the person she loved gave her warm and generous affection on cold nights.

**

To secure her position as the group's heir, Feng Luohua's future partner could only be one of two types of people: someone powerful, or someone talented. A true genius.

Xuan Ying was neither, and to make matters worse, she was an entertainer the Feng family despised. More accurately, she was an influencer, someone even less respectable.

No matter how careful she was, their secret affair still came to an end when forced to choose between personal feelings and her career.

She chose her career without hesitation.

Because Xuan Ying's career was part of that choice, too.

On the day they broke up, they were in love in a movie theater one moment, then kissing goodbye beside the musical fountain the next.

It was the first time Feng Luohua had let Xuan Ying kiss her in public, and the last.

Xuan Ying bit through her lip. The salt of tears mingled with the metallic tang of blood. Laughing and crying, she said, "Feng Luohua, starting tomorrow, don't think about me anymore."

Feng Luohua gently wiped away her tears, a rare tenderness in her voice. "All right."

**

Later.

Feng Luohua really did find herself a genius.

She spent a fortune building a research lab for the genius, dined with her in Jingping's most expensive and tallest revolving restaurant, went with her to build snowmen on the romantic streets of France, and brought her to the family charity gala... She did everything she had never gotten to do with Xuan Ying.

[Extra scene]

After getting over her love-brain, Xuan Ying became hugely popular. In just one year, she signed with a label, appeared on music variety shows, released an album, and landed brand deals. At last, she made a name for herself in Chinese pop music as a singer.

During a late-night livestream, a fan asked her: [Xuan, you've written so many touching original love songs. Have you really never been in love?]

Without a second thought, Xuan Ying replied, "Have I not always been in love? Music is my one and only lifelong love."

Right then, her long-absent top donor came online. After sending one rocket, yacht, and carnival gift after another, she commented: [I miss you.]

The comments section instantly descended into chaos.

But Xuan Ying stayed calm, neither surprised nor pleased. In a joking tone, as if soothing her fans, she said, "Dear sister, you don't have to pay to miss me. Please show some restraint."

The person logged off.

Then the private phone kept vibrating again and again in Xuan Ying's calm peripheral vision.

**

Theme: Love makes people stronger, and it can also drive them mad.