What am I?
I'm neither a plant nor a teddy bear abandoned in a garbage dump.
I'm worthless, unwanted.
The book says that things the world has no need for, of course, receive nothing in return.
So I understand why so many people pass me by.
I'm an empty can by the roadside, waiting to be kicked aside. I'm a fish stranded on the shore. I'm a raindrop, falling, scorched, and evaporated: that's my whole life.
I am everything, and I am nothing.
- Notes and musings
- About finding myself
[Cover art courtesy of @Zhou Jimian]
Theme: After struggling with myself for so long, I'd rather be myself.
On this boring night, when I can't sleep no matter what, I suddenly remembered the story you wrote and wanted to find it again. It's called "Wen Dong". I read it a year ago. The male and female protagonists in it all have their own wounds in their lives. Coincidentally, I think so do I. Coincidentally, I think this story can bring me a little energy. I haven't had time to read your other stories yet, but now I will read them one by one. There is one thing I want to say, life is a long road and the road of life is also very sung. Let's go slowly.
Qingyue, be your own evergreen tree. It doesn't matter if it doesn't bloom.
People have indeed been learning to reconcile with themselves. After all, each of us has dreamed of what we will become in the future. Especially the growing environment of our generation has subtly shaped our thoughts. Our parents always subconsciously hope that we are good enough to shoulder the great cause of family rejuvenation and bear their heavy and overwhelming love. It is difficult for us to grow out of our own growth environment. We can only try to move to a place that suits us when we realize that such a growth environment is not suitable for us. But this process is undoubtedly painful and deeply doubtful. We not only need to change ourselves to another place, but also need to repair our long forked branches and shine sunshine on those unbearable foggy places. Sometimes it is not relief or letting go, but a kind of swamp, which shines into all the shameful scars. It must be painful, lingering at the intersection again and again not knowing whether to take another step forward. So don't rush, just take your time. I think the greatest convenience this era has given us is to tell countless people like us that we are not the only ones struggling. Going into your own heart and making peace with yourself is the most important issue in life. And sister, I don't want to interfere with your decision, but at my age, I feel that friends are really indispensable in life, and they are people who are very important to everyone. I have a lot of staged friends, and I also have friends who I talk to all the time but can't really get close to each other's hearts. But this does not prevent them from accompanying me through a very important journey in life, or silently accompanying me. There are too many things in life that you cannot digest on your own, and you must say them out. It is good to have someone listen to you, but it will be even better if you have good friends who you trust and are willing to solve it with you. I hope you love yourself more today than yesterday ❤️
It's been a long time since I read anything written by you, Yueyue. I met you in the book Midsummer, which is one of the few books I've read that is a bit group portrait. I like Xia Lian very much. She has a firm tenderness, and your words give me a feeling of a gray rainy season, so even after reading the ending, I still have a faint feeling of being unable to escape the sultry heat of the humid season. Of course, it's also because of midsummer that I followed your vb and collected your essays. To be honest, I think it's quite interesting to read the author's essays. It's a bit like writing a diary. Some are daily records and some are self-confession. But I feel that some people are prone to internal friction and sensitivity. They have clearly said that they won't be sad for anything, but they will still quietly wipe away tears next time. I think you will have expectations when you pick up a pen and start working on this path, especially when you already have works. But no matter what, when we enter the dull period, we still have to try to adjust our mentality to accept it. Then we might as well slowly transition from finding what we like and want to do... I hope you can be happy every day and create the words you like 🤗
Her only desire is to be herself. It's like she doesn't care where Rome is. I only care about whether the path I take is uncomfortable for my feet.
It's rare to see it updated again... It's really touching that my youth leaves traces in other people's stories but is still remembered over the years. It turns out that it was still before my eyes, not illusory, only existing in memories or dreams 🤔
Happy New Year! I really like your writing! Great support! [Bi Xin] [Qing Xin]
From the first chapter, I felt familiar and intuitively understood that this was an inner analysis of an INFP's constant exploration, fragmentation, and reorganization of the self. Sure enough, until I saw you in this chapter, you also became an INFP. You can use words to describe your inner feelings, but I often think divergently about various feelings about myself, but I can't express them clearly and coherently. You are really awesome, don't doubt yourself.
Today is a good day. I wish you all the best^^
Yes! I think the author has done a great job. I really like girls like Wen Dong!