"If I die tonight, I will admit that I love you."
In 1971, Severus Snape had a beautiful yet ugly mirror image. He didn't like looking into her eyes because they were filled with something unreal, and didn't look at all like the sun.
In 1978, Dolphin Rohl didn't believe what her sister said. Snape and her were two geniuses and the stars of a scandalous romance. He knew they could be lovers or enemies, but they could never become husband and wife.
In 1979, Narcissa Malfoy suspected that she would betray the organization. On the eve of victory, she would do something unwise, together with her husband, who knew nothing about love.
In 1980, the Dark Lord still didn't understand what love was. If Severus had steeled himself to kill her, everything would have been fine. But they exchanged wands and became the "family that had defied him three times" in the prophecy.
In 1997, Albus Dumbledore laid out all his plans. Only then did he finally understand that Severus and she had made a promise: she would repent for him in prison, and he would save those she had once been powerless to help.
In 1999, Imogen Fray pieced together her parents' lives from a few scattered memories. She could only guess from those fragments that they had loved each other, and loved her too. But they were too consumed by guilt to even leave her a goodbye.
Read before starting:
* Double-death bad ending.
* Both leads are treated equally, with neither whitewashed.
* Both leads have unpleasant personalities! Their relationship is somewhat toxic!
* Both leads kill people (not Albus Dumbledore).
* A redemption story where neither can save the other. They have different views on life: the male lead stands for justice, the female lead for love. The male lead understands love but cannot love; the female lead understands justice but doesn't choose it. From the author's perspective, Mitchell's motives are always love, never justice. Some readers in the comments may have misunderstood, but you're free to interpret it however you like.
* Told from the male lead's perspective, with plenty of his inner thoughts. There is no female lead POV, but she is often described in third person.
* A character's stance does not represent the author's, and their thoughts and feelings only reflect their own perspective, not necessarily the truth. But with an omniscient view, we can think about more.
* The timeline jumps around, but it won't affect your reading. Told through a cast of characters recalling the past. The author has many subjective opinions, so please don't read if that bothers you.
* I write fanfiction out of love. I can only write the Severus Snape I understand. If it's not to your taste, please leave. I won't accept criticism that goes beyond the work itself.
Cover artist: Industry Pest
Character card artist: AileenWuornos
Theme: How can love be judged the winner?
It felt like all of Luo Er's arrogance, flirtatiousness and frivolity were concealing her inner confusion and fear. She has lived in an environment that can be said to be luxurious and luxurious since she was a child, but this kind of luxurious environment itself is unstable. The mother and daughter seem to be glamorous, but in fact they have never received truly reliable love and life. Luo Er witnessed his mother's embarrassing divorces time and time again, and relied on her beauty, blood and social skills to stay in the upper class to please men before entering the next marriage. The social butterfly seems to be playing with the emotions of men, but in fact she is in an absolute weak position. Rohr is afraid of this position. She has never received the love of her mother, or even the sincere love of anyone. She just follows her mother and bounces among various men with her. Her heart is actually full of a strong sense of insecurity. Therefore, she has an eccentric personality, is moody, and is very competitive. She cannot admit defeat even to death or by any means. She competes with others and competes with her own fragility in places she doesn't know. She didn't want to be a weakling, so she didn't want to fall in love with someone else or be with a man who was stronger than herself. Even if she fell in love with Snape, she wanted to compete with him and step on him under her feet, causing conflict, entanglement, and pain. This kind of life is empty, flirting with boys, dealing with girls tactfully, socializing, family background, wealth, marriage, and false love... But she grew up in this environment and was raised in this direction by her mother. She can't think of any other way of life or hobbies in the world besides this kind of life. , Dreams, love... She has neither, nor dares to pursue it, nor can she even see the possibility. As she said herself: "We are not living in a novel." In her living environment, these are invisible and incomprehensible. No one tells her how she should live and how she should live out her own personality. After all, she is only a sixteen-year-old girl, and she lives in the same environment as her parents, so her cognition is limited. But as a person with a soul, she is not willing to do this. Perhaps on the surface of her consciousness, she is not aware of this. Even if she is aware of it, she is only more confused because she has no idea what to do. Even for her love, she didn't know how to deal with it and didn't dare to believe it. The older she gets, the more she starts hanging out with boys. She may not really want to do this, after all, she probably doesn't like these idiots very much, but she just doesn't want to seriously face her true love, and she doesn't want to be rigid about marriage. Do it even if you hate it. This mentality feels similar to the feeling of "I have hurt myself and trampled myself, and others can no longer hurt me or trample me." So I feel that Snape's efforts seem to be in the wrong direction. Even if he really got into the Death Eaters (which he did), and then obtained the wealth, power, status and strength he wanted, and could indeed marry the heroine, his strength would only arouse Rolle's desire to win, control and self-esteem, and the fear hidden under this desire to win. His escape from control, his growing strength, unconsciously placed her in a weak position, and was likely to push her further and further away... This is only part of Rolle's own psychological problems, as well as Snape. This period was indeed a period of confusion for him. Rolle looked fine on the surface, but in fact it felt like he was being held on by force. As long as there was any looseness, he would break immediately. Snape was not much better either. He had a unclear understanding of his own heart, low self-esteem, and a lot of problems. The relationship between the two people is already at odds with each other. The more they love, the more they have to struggle. Outside, Voldemort is still working diligently to cause trouble. Who doesn't know that the death rate of the parent generation is the highest (sad). With the two of them looking like this, I feel that the next direction will not be too good (). However, based on the above, there should still be a lot of sugar to eat. Madam, please don't be behaving like a redemption QAQ. QAQ I originally wanted to say that the above character analysis is only my personal opinion. Think about it, isn't it nonsense? If it is not my personal opinion, why would I post it? () Smells so good, waiting for updates
A very fleshed-out character set. Luo Er is arrogant and domineering in front of outsiders and has a sweet voice (I don't know if it is much different from the pink toad, but she is nervous when no one is around, and her family full of rifts makes her bitter. I don't know what her next story with SS will be, I'm looking forward to it
The description of physical appearance in the middle is a sonnet, and Alan has read it! I can search for the audio, it sounds great [like][like][like][like]
Good guy, both of them died in a place unknown to the other. Fortunately, I read the last few chapters after it was finished. Otherwise, I would have been tortured to death.
OMG I loved this chapter!! I particularly liked the description of Rolle's office from the beginning!! It's exactly what you imagined a magic office would look like!! The dialogue in this chapter is also my favorite!!
I haven't been to Jinjiang for a few days, and the sky is falling apart. The hero and heroine suddenly broke up. Jpg
OMG this is just the right inducement, what a fool for love.
The dining table game in this chapter is so interesting! Like!
I cried so much that I burst into tears, but luckily I had the ending plot to save me. This is a masterpiece 🌈🌈🌈🌈 Come on!
How can I forget all about the female goose!!