Awkward

Gu Yucen x Chu Songyan

Gu Yucen once thought that, for the rest of his life, all that would remain between him and Chu Songyan was a stubborn hatred, reminding him of what had happened.

Reminding him not to forget the year they spent tangled together in a dark, damp basement when they were seventeen.

Reminding him to pull out the vine that had sunk deep into his heart and kept twisting inside it.

But later, he realized the truth.

The pride he had struggled so hard to maintain crumbled in front of Chu Songyan.

They had seen too much of each other's shameful sides.

Humble and wretched, willing to do anything.

He shoved a little radio into Chu Songyan's mouth.

Its static played that fake "I love you" over and over.

As if telling him:

They weren't finished.

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Chu Songyan believed that from the moment people were born, they were divided into different ranks, and he had always belonged to the lowest one. No one would care even if he died.

Death had become the easiest thing in the world to come by.

The first time he truly came close to death, he met Gu Yucen.

It was a relationship he could have at the snap of his fingers, one he had complete control over.

Cheap, easy to throw away.

But after he threw it away, the memories that came with those feelings surged back like a tide.

Enough to drown him.

Content warnings:

1. This is a melodramatic story, and neither lead is sexually inexperienced. Their views on relationships differ from those of ordinary people, and they may act against each other's wishes.

2. The leads put self-interest above all else and may abandon each other at any time for greater gain, which can lead to frustrating plot developments.

3. The story uses flashbacks. Since the leads have a complicated history and have been entangled for a long time, the narrative may jump around between different moments.

4. Detailed content warnings are difficult to get approved. If the story makes you uncomfortable, please stop reading.

5. I'm busy with real life lately, so updates will be infrequent. Read at your own risk.

Theme: Striving for a beautiful, happy life