The Story of a Terminally Ill Patient

Today, I am taking the history of modern and contemporary literature. The teacher spent more than a class with us analyzing Haizi's "Facing the Sea, Spring Blossoms". One of the small conclusions we got is that even though Haizi fell on the train in Shanhaiguan two months after writing this poem, he never despaired. He just chose not to be. Why do I think of Xu Mengdie? Because she was in shallow but real despair, when I saw some part in the middle, I just felt so pitiful and hateful about Xu Mengdie. The teacher's analysis continued, but after that moment I entered a state of high excitement and dissociation. ... I once saw a topic in Zhihu "What is the thing you least regret doing?" There was a high praise in it. He was playing games in the dormitory. Suddenly his roommate fell to the ground and made a muffled sound. Basically, he carried the person to the school gate and put him in an ambulance without stopping. He accompanied his roommate in the ambulance to the hospital, notified the school and the roommate's parents, signed and sent the person to the emergency room. His roommate was indeed in an emergency and died within ten minutes without resuscitation, but he was not delayed for a second, so the person was rescued. His roommate's family thanked him. Ten years later, he suffered from depression due to various reasons, but he never denied the value of his existence. He saved a life, but he never expected to save himself. Why I think of the respondent is because I think that Xu Mengdie is so desperate and depressed but has never thought about helping others to free themselves. I am not blaming Xu Mengdie. Her growth experience has shaped her way of thinking. Her talent determines that she is just an ordinary person. Her family background makes her do her best to survive. This is Xu Mengdie's strange circle. She cannot get out, but I can enter. If I knew who within ten kilometers of me was Xu Mengdie, who was kind, sensitive, and had to be ignored by everyone after struggling hard (I believe that Mengdie was not really ignored by everyone), I would be willing to go in and pull her out. The way fans helped her was wrong in the beginning. Fans should help her defend her rights and file a lawsuit, which cost more than a thousand yuan. Taking it back from Deng Wen, he should have reminded her when she was panicking to collect evidence quickly, comforted her when she was scolded by Xiao Yan without thinking, reported this behavior when she did not get enough training and had to work overtime due to inefficiency, and spoken out for all those who do not pay five insurances and one housing fund and are not protected, don't go Enrich the team with the idea of illegally exploiting employees. Pay attention to the candidates' efforts to implement labor laws when voting in the National People's Congress. The most important thing is, when everything is changing but no change has been completed, encourage all those who are struggling. Just be kind to strangers. If the track is crowded, study and cultivate yourself. Just rice. Japanese meat has not risen too much, Internet fees are so cheap, believe in time, believe in the times, believe in yourself, go home to study and play, even if you are an adult, so what, don't let outdated routines ruin your golden time, don't sell yourself cheap, learn valuable classics and the latest technology, and produce things that are acceptable to your conscience.

You write very well, really well. This is a very sad article. I was really heartbroken when I read it, but I couldn't stop reading it. I am savoring the pain of Xu Mengdie, a person with no money and sensitivity. If I did not have a rich relative, after my father had a car accident, I would have grown up with her. I am savoring the distortion of Xu Mengdie, and I am still glad that I am not her. But she is not wrong at all. She has "worked hard" step by step. She is basically worthy of the education of the society. She has devoted almost all her time (gold) while being looked down upon without knowing it (or even thinking about it). The education of Xu Mengdie by society and school, and the education of Xu Mengdie by society through Xu Mengdie's parents, is greatly worth it. Except for one bad thing, this kind of reward cannot last. Xu Mengdie will not have more children. I don't know if this is the elimination of society and poverty is the original sin? Eliminate the genes that combine poverty, sensitivity, and mediocre talents through heart-killing methods. Society thinks this collection is wrong. I don't know how to go on. Xu Mengdie is in too much pain. I now feel that the lyrics in the introduction are too right.

Insufficient violence and insufficient aggression are the biggest tragedy for women.

The online reviewer saw it and went to search for it as soon as he clicked it through. The author's words gave people a strong sense of power. The dance to tomorrow is very sad, because only tomorrow can dance, and today there is only darkness and loneliness. Yet it is full of color because we can still dance when we reach our destination. Suddenly, I felt that for Xu, terminal illness was the only way to escape. He could move towards relief in various senses, passively and actively. However, who wants such relief? Trying our best to live ugly and full of guilt, not just moving towards the only distant goal from where we came from, but we are still alive. To tomorrow, to dance.

Very sad, very low. I am taking the college entrance examination this year and have no plans for the future. I want to leave my mother and go out into the world, but I am afraid that I will become like the heroine in the novel. I am confused and forced to move forward.

Suddenly I found that the beginning and the end echoed each other, not only the title, but also the fact that they were all riding a bus. At the beginning of the chapter, I took the bus to go to the interview, and at the end, I took the bus to the hospital.

[Glasses] My first reaction after reading the whole novel was that it was too bad to finish. How did Mengdie become such a person? Didn't I read a story about the unremitting search for hope in despair? Why did Mengdie turn into the person she hated the most? I thought Mengdie would wake up after the public account incident, but I sadly discovered that what has changed is what has changed. That Xu Mengdie who just left college and had a strong bottom line will never come back. Later I wrote something, the story of a terminally ill patient, which definitely refers to not only physical but also mental terminal illness, and even not only personal terminal illness, but also the terminal illness of the entire society. At first, I wondered why I wrote on the cover of the book like a doctor stuffing a dead mouse into the wound on my arm. Later I realized that maybe there really was a "dead mouse" stuffed into Mengdie's body. From the moment she knew she had a terminal illness, the dead mouse had been eroding her and poisoning her all the time. People may be completely different when they have hope and when they are terminally ill. They may also be completely different when they want to die at any time and when they desperately want to live. It would be an honor to die but to live in an ignoble way. I understand and understand the changes in Mengdie, but I still feel sad about it. The reality is that there are no fairy tales. If Mengdie is left to struggle in poverty, I would rather she get money by any means and live happily and comfortably. Finally, this article solved many of my questions as a graduating college student and gave me a lot of valuable experience. At the same time, it also buried more mysteries for me. If Mengdie had not been terminally ill, what would her ending be like? In other words, where would the future be for ordinary graduating college students? The society is too deep. How can we maintain our original aspirations and separate work and life? Maybe I will give the answer after graduation, maybe I will never find the answer in my life, but I am honored to read this treasure novel before graduation 💪

The author's writing is really good. Some of the psychological descriptions of the protagonist are like what I have thought about before: the favorability of men and women and the eagerness to work to repay parents. Some of the protagonist's thoughts also solved some of my doubts. Hope you will continue to work hard.

Well, poverty distorts people, and so does wealth, especially when the poor suddenly become rich

Oh no, oh no, not a good development