The Years My Obsessive Childhood Friend Didn’t Love Me

[Complete. Possessive young general-prince × gentle, long-suffering beauty who served as his study companion. 1v1, both are each other’s first and only, happy ending, tooth-achingly sweet! New novel, The Black Lotus Crown Prince’s Daily Life Raising a Child, is now underway!] Xie Ping was reborn at seventeen and discovered that his childhood sweetheart, Yu Chengxue, who had always loved him, suddenly didn’t anymore. He knew Yu Chengxue had also been reborn, and that he had plans of his own. So, when faced with the choice between believing Yu Chengxue had fallen for someone else and believing Yu Chengxue no longer loved him, he chose to trust Yu Chengxue. But no matter how much Xie Ping loved him, even he would eventually grow tired of all the turmoil. In his previous life, he hadn’t cared about being framed, poisoned, or assassinated, because Yu Chengxue had always stayed by his side. But in this life, being ignored, neglected, and forced into things slowly chilled Xie Ping’s heart. Even so, Xie Ping stayed by Yu Chengxue’s side for eight years. Finally, with peace throughout the land and everything going well, Xie Ping chose an auspicious day to leave Yu Chengxue, leaving behind a letter that read, “Farewell in this life. May we never meet in the next.” What Xie Ping didn’t know was that Yu Chengxue had been reborn twice. He didn’t know that after dying for Xie Ping in his first life, Yu Chengxue had wandered as a lonely ghost. He didn’t know that in his second life, Yu Chengxue’s hair had turned white overnight after Xie Ping died, and that he had spent ten years in madness. And he certainly didn’t know that Yu Chengxue had traded away years of his own life to make Xie Ping be reborn and return to his side. All Xie Ping thought was that Yu Chengxue truly didn’t love him anymore. This was Yu Chengxue’s third life. In his first life, Yu Chengxue was pierced by a rain of arrows while protecting Xie Ping. After becoming a lonely ghost, he saw his beloved die of grief, coughing up blood just six months later, at the age of twenty-four. In his second life, Yu Chengxue chose to ascend the throne, hoping to protect the one he loved with his power. But his beloved went away to a fiefdom for five years, then died of an illness after coughing up blood, at the age of twenty-four. In his third life... Looking at his childhood sweetheart lying quietly in his arms, Yu Chengxue thought of their previous two lives and finally concluded that he himself was the source of all their misfortune. If he could make Xie Ping stop loving him and leave him, then Xie Ping would survive. But Yu Chengxue tried every self-sabotaging trope imaginable, from “substitute romance” to “white moonlight” to “regretful crematorium,” and still couldn’t drive Xie Ping away. Then, after Yu Chengxue had resolved everything and was ready to open his heart and explain, Xie Ping left a letter and disappeared forever. The letter read: “First, may we each live well and forget each other in the rivers and lakes. Second, may Your Majesty live ten thousand years, and may peace reign throughout the land. Third, farewell in this life. May we never meet in the next.” Yu Chengxue went completely mad. [A pursuit of the beloved, but no regretful crematorium. The blurb explains why: poor Yu, what a miserable life.] Blurb for The Black Lotus Crown Prince’s Daily Life Raising a Child: On the fifteenth day of the eleventh month in the thirteenth year of Qingyi, a heavy snowfall blanketed the land. I personally escorted my Crown Prince brother to his wedding. On the fifteenth day of the eighth month in the fifteenth year of Qingyi, the air was clear and the moon bright. I pinned my Crown Prince brother beneath the bed curtains. [Gentle homemaker × deranged puppy] Reader’s guide: 1v1, both are each other’s first and only, pregnancy. Theme: Love life and make the most of your youth.