My Archrival Writes Online Essays About Having a Crush on Me

[Tentative title. I might not write this after all. Anyway, it's a danmei story, saved for later.]

An ascetic, repressed, self-deprecating illegitimate son with a gloomy streak as the top x a lawless, arrogant beauty who thinks he's always right, the spoiled young master as the bottom

Xu Yue x Feng Yang

A crossover with "Deskmate."

The blurb is made up. Don't believe it.

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The three essentials in life: eating, drinking water, and taking a dump.

Feng Yang took all three very seriously.

One day, while sitting on the toilet and devoutly scrolling through his phone, he stumbled across a long post.

It was beautifully written and immersive. The blogger was intensely interested in a man, and reading the posts made Feng Yang feel as if he'd fallen in love right along with the blogger, despite his own heart having been tempered a thousand times over.

He clicked on the blogger's profile and spent the afternoon reading all hundred-plus posts. In the end, he discovered the blogger was a man too.

The unruly young master Feng said:

Damn! Who knew there'd be such a hopeless romantic among the gays!

He checked the IP address and saw the blogger was from the same province. Feng Yang sent him a private message, saying he admired him and would be happy to grab a drink sometime.

A few days later, he checked to see if the blogger had replied, only to find that the account had been deleted.

Feng Yang: ?

I just wanted to make a friend. Was that really so scary?

What are you, a Japanese schoolgirl?

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By the time Feng Yang had forgotten about it, he stumbled across the blogger again, this time on another platform.

He skimmed through the post dates. They had all been published after the old account was deleted, and each post had the date it was originally written marked on it. It looked like restoring the archive had been a lot of work.

He found the last post he'd read and continued from there, this time with no intention of bothering the blogger with a private message.

But the very first post said:

He found out. I wanted to stop writing these things, but I just couldn't help myself.

When it comes to him, I've never been able to help myself.

Blurb, version 2, updated 260222

*The top mistakenly thinks the bottom is promiscuous, when in fact the bottom is incredibly pure. The top spends years overthinking, misunderstanding things, and getting jealous.

*The top has a secret crush, but the bottom pursues him. After they get together, the bottom discovers the top is a gloomy pervert, not at all what he expected. He tries to return him, but fails and gets thoroughly devoured instead.

*The top writes online posts about secretly watching the bottom.

*Feng Yang is 23 when the story begins. (The timeline may change.)

*The top is older.

Theme: People should respect, trust, and love themselves