I Get So Ruthless, I Kill Myself

Reborn revenge story with a narcissistic romance: a sinister, ruthless bottom and a scheming, faux-pure top Read the blurb here ↓ Xiao Yan dislikes his own name. Yan means peace and calm. But after being framed by villains, abandoned by everyone, and left with a ruined reputation, he barely escaped death. You could hardly call his life peaceful. Later, he changed his name to Xiao Yanli of his own accord, rejected worldly conventions, became a cultivator of dark arts, slaughtered all his enemies, and earned a reputation as a notorious fiend. The fiend Xiao Yanli inexplicably transmigrates back several decades. There he meets his younger self: a rising star of the immortal sects, a gifted young man, adored by everyone in the sect. Then he looks at his own body, stained with countless killings and steeped in sinister energy, liable to suffer a backlash at any moment. Xiao Yanli decides to strike first and deal with all his enemies before they can act. While he’s at it, he’ll… choose an auspicious day and possess his younger self. Before then, he must make sure the boy is in the pink of health. Xiao Yan lives up to his name. A prodigy from a young age, everything goes his way. His sect dotes on him, and the immortal sects adore him. Until one night, he dreams that his fellow disciples frame him, sever all his meridians, destroy his cultivation, and leave him to die in a storm. The dream feels so real, and the pain cuts so deep that Xiao Yan wakes up on his guard. He begins scrutinizing those around him and discovers that his closest friend is honey-tongued but treacherous, and the immortal sects harbor sinister motives. Hardly anyone is decent. Once gentle and kind, Xiao Yan becomes suspicious of everyone and stops trusting anyone. That is, until a sickly young man who looks exactly like him appears, offering him precious medicine, fussing over him, and eliminating one threat after another on his behalf. Xiao Yan assumes the young man is a twin brother who has fallen from the heavens. First comes suspicion, then respect, then absolute trust. And one day… Xiao Yan holds the sickly young man tightly in his arms, eyes red as he confesses, “Brother, I’m no better than a beast. I’m worse than an animal, but I really do love you… Wait, you’re saying you’re not my brother?” Warnings: 1. One-on-one romance, younger love interest, both leads have only ever been with each other. 2. The bottom is a darkened demonic overlord: sinister and ruthless, and occasionally willing to do whatever it takes. Proceed with caution if that’s not your thing. 3. A setting where spiritual energy is running dry, with low-powered martial arts. If you want orthodox cultivation, proceed with caution. 4. With spiritual energy drying up, the immortal sects are in their final days, and class divisions are quite pronounced. This is all set up to be overturned, never glorified. 5. Nothing else comes to mind for now. I’ll add to the list based on comments later. Coming soon. Please add it to your reading list: Everyone in the Cultivation World Is in a Master-Disciple Romance, Except Me A silly, lighthearted subversion of the usual tropes, with an overwhelmingly strong, sharp-tongued bottom and a top who pretends to be gentle but is really a drama queen. Chi Jiuwei was a proper master in a cultivation novel, devoted to the Dao and indifferent to worldly affairs. Until one day, the whole world’s tone abruptly changed. All five of his disciples had somehow awakened to the plots of master-disciple romance novels. His eldest disciple was possessive and unhinged, the second turned dark to seek revenge, the third secretly pined for someone, and the fourth resorted to coercion. Even Ning Hui, his usually obedient and sensible fifth disciple, began acting timid and pleading for his affection. Overnight, the sect fell into chaos. The neighboring immortal sects fell one by one, and the world was filled with master-disciple melodrama. The entire cultivation world had been completely invaded by master-disciple romance plots. The desperate pleas of his old friends rang out without end, and Chi Jiuwei became their only hope. He decided to leave the mess behind and personally set the crooked Heavenly Dao straight again. Before he left, his little disciple Ning Hui tugged pitifully at his robe. He was covered in bruises from taking beatings for him. Chi Jiuwei thought he looked the most harmless of them all, and that he wouldn’t last long among his deranged senior disciples, so he decided to take him along. But he never imagined… Even after order was restored to the cultivation world, Ning Hui still hadn’t come to his senses. If anything, he’d gone even crazier. Ning Hui transmigrated into a book and became the youngest disciple under Chi Jiuwei. Chi Jiuwei was the person dearest to his heart: breathtakingly beautiful and profoundly cultivated. Apart from his sharp tongue, he was almost perfect. Unfortunately, everyone in this orthodox cultivation novel diligently followed the plot and pursued their careers, leaving Ning Hui no opportunity at all. Then one day, his four senior disciples inexplicably went mad and fought each other senseless over their master. Ning Hui: This is bad. Unable to bear the thought of his master falling into the hands of those lunatics and being tormented, Ning Hui jumped straight into the fray. He couldn’t out-crazy his senior disciples, so he played the soft, sweet, obedient one in his comfort zone, which made him seem remarkably normal. He had planned to fight to the death and physically resist the plot. Worried he’d be bullied, his master took him along without hesitation. Along the way, his master treated him with a cool expression but a warm heart, cared for him attentively, and even risked his life to protect him… Ning Hui’s eyes reddened. He wanted to go crazy, too. Theme: After years of struggling with myself, I would rather remain true to who I am.