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- Status
- Completed
- Length
- 30k Words
- Genre
- Danmei (BL)
- Updated
- 7y ago
- Source
- JJWXC
Synopsis
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Explore more →Eclectic Tastes / Personal Archive of Fully Purchased Danmei
I’m an extremely eclectic reader. I mainly pick books based on the characters, plot, and writing, and only list ones whose plots I still remember. I don’t follow gossip, just the books. I don’t avoid any tropes; I’m open to everything and have no dealbreakers.
① Free Reads I’ll Finish Sooner or Later (BL)
It's all free, so you'd be missing out if you didn't read it. Feel free to leave recommendations in the comments. Let's support creators who write for the love of it! [This list is full. Find more in 2]
Completed, Highly Rated, and Free
You get your money's worth just by reading these. Mostly fanfiction, with a few original settings. Only danmei and romance.
Some Western Fantasy and Cosmic Horror Stories
Wonderful
Personal Taste
Danmei and no-couple stories. I read whatever I feel like, and my detailed thoughts on each book are in the reviews. Short reviews are for books I read a long time ago. Check the tags for my likes and dislikes. No particular order.
Personal Archive: A Mixed Bag, in a World Where Players Come First
I'll read anything, but I lean toward feel-good stories. Life is bad enough as it is, so let me enjoy something nice. All kinds of perspectives welcome. I like wild ideas as long as the characters stay in character.
Some Free Novels (A Messy Mix)
Free stories can't make it into the top lists, so I'm gathering the free ones from my bookshelf here. There's BL, BG, and no-CP, all jumbled together. I've read some and haven't read others
Personal Preferences
I like all of these.
Insectoids, Nonhumans, and a Touch of Cosmic Horror
A feast of stories I personally love. (Taking a bite) (shoving it in your mouth) :) Updated now and then
High-Energy Ahead
High-octane
A Bit of Everything, But Extremely Picky
Great writing and a good plot are both essential! I love a steady, healthy romance. Just let the characters communicate already!!! Ongoing updates.
Some Compelling Love Triangles
Lately, I'm really into the brooding, twisted male lead archetype. Yang Mi, Yang Mi!
Short Stories
Some good novellas (under 200,000 words, I think that counts as a novella?).
Esotericism and Cosmic Horror
For personal use. Keeping track of books I finished, or didn't finish but still thought were pretty good.
A Mixed Bag of Reads, Recommendations Welcome
Some stories I like that don't have any glaring red flags. I generally don't read campus, esports, sports, or derivative fiction.
Danmei with a Strong Plot
Plot-focused stories, all worthy of five stars, but JJ won't let me give them that, so they get four.
Nonhuman Characters
What I love about nonhuman characters is their inhuman quality. If they don't have that, they need some other compelling point. Most importantly, ideally they're hopeless romantics.
Lovecraftian Horror, Anomalous Containment, Nightmare Fuel, and Dark Intrigue
Lovecraftian doesn't necessarily mean strictly faithful to the original. This includes COJ, but not stories that are just tentacle play. Don't ask why I haven't bought every chapter; I have several accounts and don't want to buy them all again.
All Nonhuman Characters
Some nonhuman stories I really love, mostly with nonhuman tops… No fake humans or humanlike characters. I just love nonhuman stories with a strong sense of otherness.
Notes
Some are early reads and some are recent, but I love them all. (Updated from time to time. I tend to prefer bottoms, but I’m pretty open-minded.)
Everyone Should Read These
Homomorphism
Interesting cult novels. My tastes: timid, trembling, clever cats (A Ye); utterly chaotic people who only care about having fun (Scum C/Nyarlathotep).
Western Fantasy Recommendations for Big Imaginations
Some recent Western fantasy romance stories with really original worldbuilding, including but not limited to Cthulhu, magic, and insectoid races.
I Like Seriously Unhinged People Falling in Love
Interesting! Unconventional! Fun! (I'll add more recommendations and general reviews later.) I like authors who write interesting things.
More by this author
Let's Talk About That Time I Was Followed by a Ghost
A Hymn to Crawling
The Urn of Ashes and the Cabinet of Curiosities
A Sweet Sentinel-and-Guide Story
Human Honey
A Longing That Cannot Be Soothed
Later, I Became an Idiot
Do Not Ponder Too Deeply
The Nest [Insect Queen]
I Drew the Male Mom Character Card in an Infinite Game
The Supreme One Descends
Mother of the Unusual Species
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After reading it twice in a row, I roughly sorted out an idea for speculation - the male protagonist was mentally contaminated when he first came into contact with "Him". As the situation escalated, the male protagonist may have vaguely felt that his spirit was contaminated, but he was unable to stop the expansion of the pollution, so in order to preserve his final sanity, or his human mind, he split his personality into two parts: "Chris" and "I". "Chris" is the part that is mentally contaminated, which is why Chris is the one who insists on laying eggs, that is, the one who is obsessed with "closing the loop". "I" is the personality that still retains humanity, and in order to protect this part of personality, the most unbearable memories are isolated by the self-protection mechanism. Then came the "closed loop" process - "He" came into contact with the male protagonist and gradually came into the world. Under "His" mental pollution, the male protagonist and the people at the institute arranged for the male protagonist to give birth to "His" eggs. After the eggs hatched, "He" was eaten by his own offspring. The descendants have destroyed the world, leaving only the male protagonist who is still ovulating. (There is also a very ridiculous speculation. At this time, "He" has been eaten, so whose eggs are the male protagonist still laying? There is a sentence in the original text of Chapter 9: "They have been unwilling to let him go, so he will keep screaming." - So the male protagonist has probably been OX'ing the offspring of "His" that were hatched, so he continues to lay eggs for the offspring... Ugh... I am disgusted by my own speculation. I need to read a real brainless sweet article later...) Then at the beginning of the story, a grown-up offspring, the male protagonist's favorite offspring (he himself did not recognize it) came to the male protagonist and listened to his story (at this time, the male protagonist was still ovulating someone's eggs... Ugh...), And then this most favored offspring will take the male protagonist on an interstellar journey for billions of years, which is what the male protagonist once dreamed of. After the trip, this favored offspring will be attracted to the male protagonist in another parallel world, descend to that parallel world, and as the "him" of that world, lay eggs with the male protagonist of that world - repeating the previous process, completing a closed loop. (Due to the different time and dimensions of the gods of Cthulhu, "He" and his most favored descendants should have been able to see the entire process of the situation from the beginning and be committed to closing the loop. "He" has mentally polluted the male protagonist since he came to the world from the beginning, so part of the personality of the male protagonist "Chris" is also committed to enabling himself to lay "His" eggs and start the next closed loop). Then, after this favored descendant left the male protagonist and came to the parallel world, the male protagonist recognized this descendant of himself and "him", and realized that this descendant went to the parallel world to repeat the next cycle. The male protagonist may have retained a part of his humanity that was still resisting, and wanted to break the cycle, so he put this part of his experience Instilled in the brain of the male protagonist in the next parallel world in the form of a dream, reminding him that Zisha is here to break the cycle - because the time he inserted into the dream was when the male protagonist's spawning experiment was in progress, but the eggs had not yet been laid. If the male protagonist succeeded in self-shaking at this time, he would not have laid eggs that would lead to the next cycle, and the cycle would be broken. It's a pity that the male protagonist's efforts failed in the end, and the cycle continues.
... After that long dream of traveling in the stars, the most profound and memorable thing you remember is "I must kill myself." During the process of laying eggs, you struggled wildly in blood and mucus countless times. You said, "If I can really control them, I will let them kill me." Facing "Chris" with his abdomen filled with eggs, you wonder, "How could he do this without committing suicide?" But the reality is that you don't have any thoughts or actions to commit suicide. The miserable human mind is always screaming to commit suicide, the assimilated body is always ignoring this choice, and is always loving and close to Him. Finally, tens of millions of years later, new evil gods were born on human corpses.
Help, help! I keep eating eggs and ovulating! Ahhhhh!!! Ah!!!!! Keep eating and eating ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
The closed time loop can be said to be the most despairing ending. It's my first time to come across a Grammar novel. It's both fascinating and nauseating at the same time (both the description and the plot are disgusting).
Nice. But one thing that matters is whether He is wise or not. There should be none. But judging from the "brothers and sisters", it was Him who spoke to me in the end. Combined with the fact that we went traveling together in the end, what I thought of was that He who listened to the story took the initiative to travel, and He also made the boat. I still like to talk about wisdom, just think of it as if it has it. Good reviews
It's actually a very delicious article 🐰 At first, researchers discovered some mysterious creatures, or gods, that did not exist in the world. So the protagonist "Chris", a somewhat lonely nerd, was asked to conduct experiments and observed Him. He may have sensed that Chris was his mother, lover, and half-body, so he responded to the call. Chris was also attracted and stayed in the White Tower to work (Dr. Tyrant in white coat prprprpr, tempting). As the research proceeds, all kinds of strange things happen, and the protagonist Chris also splits into two personalities, a simple male personality and a cold doctor personality. One is resisting Him and wants to escape, while the other is a serious evil heir mother in reserve. Thinking about the doctor's personality, he had a calm face but decided to use himself as a container to keep him, and maybe wash him and change his clothes. But wearing a white coat and rimless glasses with a name tag, and being overpowered and bullied in a serious manner is also pretty cool. I'm scared, ashamed, looking forward to it, and forcing myself to calm down. Maybe I have to cover my mouth and cry quietly [][][] I felt a little pity for the remaining little monsters but I was still ready to train and use them, but I lost my temper. The children ate Him, and with their entities, they could pollute the real world faster. Chris finally panicked and couldn't control himself. He hurriedly prepared a house for himself, left a note for himself, and his personality was completely messed up. The children just eat and sleep with their mother, and they can also listen to their mother telling stories. In the end, there is nothing left in the world, "one person and one god", and we go on a journey from eternity to almost eternity, eating snacks along the way. Until a certain moment, He once again sensed the call of his mother who was not around, so he responded to her again, and started reincarnation again. A Yogurt shed tears after watching Silent Naiya, and Shub calls him an expert. A heart-warming story 🐰
The author is amazing. "I" remember my own name, and I also remember that I want to commit suicide, but I don't connect the things I remember with myself, which makes the cycle unstoppable - some good mental states.
After reading this, I feel that my wife needs some inspiration or a sanity evaluation [changed]
God, what did those little sisters who said this book was very sweet think about? There is no emotional communication at all, only the most primitive desires, and it is still very vague. There is no description at all, so people can only know a little bit from the protagonist's mouth, and every time it is mentioned, he says that he can't remember it and doesn't want to think about it anymore.
I had already guessed that this listener was the person "I" was afraid of, but I really didn't expect it to be this person.