An Old Friend Is Hard to Find

The last time I read this story was a year ago. I didn't understand it the first time I read it, but it was only after the second time that I felt it had great staying power. I read it over a dozen times over the course of a year. I was chatting with a friend last night and for some reason it came up and I highly recommended her to read it. She didn't understand it the first time either. But I suddenly became excited and said, let me tell you this story. This story is actually very similar to an extra chapter of a book about rebirth, but there is no main text. In one sentence, it can be summarized that Emperor Jing dreamed of Chongjun, listened to him talk about his past and present lives, and agreed on the next life. The complicated thing is that the background has been moved back to the tea shed where we first met. Shigejun is standing somewhere outside this life and talking about this life. I don't know how many times I read it, and when I saw "Why do you only see trouble with me?", I seemed to feel in a daze that this was not only Chongjun's complaint, but also his emotional accusation. Maybe the accusation was a bit deep, but this was the first word that I could think of. After this sentence, the store owner was no longer just a store owner, he was also Emperor Jing. Emperor Jing, who had been with Chongjun all his life, was the one being accused. If this is Chongjun's perspective, perhaps we can say so, but this is not the case, this is Emperor Jing's dream. As Chongjun said, Emperor Jing was not good enough to him before and looked down upon him. He would not have a drink with him on a rainy day and put the jade given by Liu Xu in the ancestral hall of his hometown. This must have made Chongjun sad, and for Emperor Jing, he must have some regrets. He regretted not treating him well enough at that time. He still remembers it to this day and in his dreams. So he would be restless when Chongjun revealed the reason why he didn't like rainy days. He would be silent when Chongjun said that he was broad-minded and didn't care. He would be restless when Chongjun said that in the next life, when he opens his eyes and is in front of the tea shed again, he will definitely not take the original path. But they must be in love. If not, Chongjun would not say "the person I care about" or "my wife", he would not be "very squeamish", "his expression becomes a bit gentle", he would not acknowledge "family members", and Emperor Jing would not "lean by the coffin", "hold the corner of his clothes feeling aggrieved", "like a child having a tantrum" and "complain". What interests me even more is the day after three rounds of drinking, Emperor Jing's "indifferent" and "as if we should be like this", and when Chongjun walked around the city wall twice, Emperor Jing's "never exposed" and "received Chongjun back to the camp". There is also a small detail, "The store owner stretched out his finger and tapped the table" and "The young master immediately calmed down and felt aggrieved." These words all express their love for each other. When Chongjun confessed his feelings in the dream and agreed on the next life, Emperor Jing felt an indescribable discomfort. Perhaps he felt guilty that he had not treated Chongjun well enough before, or he could not really hear Chongjun's words. I think they will be together in the next life, even if this is Emperor Jing's dream, even if there is no time to answer the yes. In fact, what is revealed between the lines in this story is that two people are in love, but I still feel bad about the previous lack of love. The tone of Chongjun's narration was too brisk, which made me sad. I'm also sad that this is the end of the story and an illusory afterlife. I still remember that at the beginning of the story, Chongjun did not shout "I can help you assassinate my brother", and Emperor Jing did not serve tea and raise his sword. This is the best ending. Ps: I didn't want to write this comment originally, but I went to do nucleic acid analysis early this morning, and suddenly I remembered this story again. After I came back, I couldn't sleep, so I wrote this paragraph intermittently. ——2022.5

It's not abuse in the traditional sense, it's just that I feel a little cold in my heart, just like the water drops slowly dripping from the eaves of the window on a rainy day. They fall, sink, and leave no trace. The myriad waves are just a dream in life.

After all, they are together for life... Zhongjun's nephew is still alive, and he still has a family, which can be considered a good ending... Alas, this torture is not like a knife, but like a gentle rain QwQ

I don't know why I suddenly had new feelings. The reason why it sounds so sour to read is probably because it was Emperor Jing's idea. Love is always feeling indebted. Emperor Jing loved Chongjun so much that he disliked his previous "unloving" behavior. It's more like a trial, his own trial. The beginning of the story. The grievances suffered by Chongjun were what Emperor Jing felt he should be grievances about. It was obviously not an unforgivable crime, but Emperor Jing had always been worried about it. Really, Emperor Jing wanted to heal all his "grievances", even though Chongjun might have been relieved.

It was so difficult to get out of this book, as if I was really caught in the rain, and then I listened to the sound of rain outside the house, which never stopped. The book review below is also very good [Orange Heart]

Is it because my tears are too low? It feels like the children have been dumbfounded by the knife But it's really, really, really beautiful. I feel that the first 3,000 words are still very sweet.

Sigh... But it can be regarded as a life together, no regrets. This ending is also romantic...

I don't know how to put it, anyway, I don't think it's very sadistic, but it just makes people feel sad for some reason. In the end, I can only sigh, ugh

I really want to read their stories! Woo woo XX, the author is so awesome! Waiting for you to expand qvq

Well written! The first time I watched it was different from the second time I watched it. If I hadn't been too lazy to type, I could have written a short essay.