The Silent Redemption

I came across this article by chance. I've read many, many novels, about paranoia, yandere, everything. But once I see that the background of the story is in modern times, I can't control myself and get scared. All kinds of scary words suddenly appeared on my blackboard, and I would step into the author's words step by step. There are countless things in real life like forgetting to breathe and being afraid, and then getting involved in emotions and laughing at yourself. I like the author's writing very much, so I hope to write this long review objectively. Because I personally have not read the author's words before, I defaulted to love. However, during the reading process, I felt that it was not appropriate to attach the names of the characters that appeared to love. So after reading about ten chapters, I started to give up my preconceived impressions. Su Li, Su Jingsheng. When I first read the name Su Li, I thought it was interesting. Mi and Li merged together to form Su Li, a small child named after his desire to eat little but not be satisfied at that age. Its gender is unclear, and it looks ordinary and pitiful in every line of words. It is impossible for such children not to exist, but they were on the news again and became famous before meeting Aunt Zuo and Aunt Chen. And the later name couldn't help but make me laugh. It was as if she had left her exclamation without swearing and disappeared in the greeting without any malice, marveling at all the wonders in this world, and it was amazing because of it. Chen Li is very real, and I understand why she is fascinated by the heroine. After I read the entire story, I suddenly understood why the heroine was described in the text as calling herself a businessman, and society called her a good person. She always said nothing, but when talking about the cost, she transferred money to Jingsheng to eat something good. Knowing that she would be blamed, she beat Reporter Hu away. When something happened, she walked up to him, and she walked up to protect the others behind her. She lived like a man as Jingsheng described. She has never seen anyone's back in the words I have read. Such a person's hair is long and difficult to wash, so who wouldn't want to wash it for her? Chen Li, who has lost his friends and peace, wants to leave money, see his old friends one last time, and go home. I can understand. At first I thought the yandere was the male protagonist, a shocker, and it was possible at first, very possible. But later, both she and he were attracted by other daily warmth and trivial things, and pain and loneliness were no longer everything in life. She brought these to him. Maybe the 22-year-old who firmly believed that she could still carry 1.6 Billion people was always there. The arrogant and fearless she who seemed to be weak and arrogant was always there. Then, she came to draw thunder from the sky. Halfway through the book, I began to think of birth as a person's choice. This person can choose to be a boy or a girl. It was as if she was still conferring with her newly formed cerebellum and praying to her newborn internal organs in her mother's heart. The conversation between the two followed, the surprising questions, and the elders' answers. I feel the values ​​conveyed by language, the magic of dialogue with the author. What should I do as a girl? What should I do as a boy? Why can't girls? Why can't boys? Society is cruel to boys and cruel to girls. On the one hand, I understood those metaphors, and on the other hand, I understood them for myself and felt fear and beauty. Thanks to the author's words for bringing me thinking, tears and emotion. I read about redemption and also about the silence of most people. I am very much looking forward to more texts, and I regret not being able to read earlier works. (Actually, I originally planned to finish reading this novel on the plane overseas, but I couldn't hold it back. Haha.)

I felt sad after reading this. I had no gender concept in elementary school, and my parents didn't tell me anything about it. It wasn't until I was assaulted in the third grade that I realized that men and women were really different. I didn't understand much, but at the time I thought the consequences might be serious if I told the story. I went to junior high school, took physiology classes, and became more connected to the Internet. I used the news to test my family's attitude, and the response I received was even greater than the original impact. I wanted to tell my brother, but he was impulsive and worried that he would do something wrong. Now that I am twenty-five years old, I can't get out of it for a long time when I see related things. In fact, after seeing Su's quilt, I felt that I should stop. I still watched the ending like a self-abuse. Liu Zhang and Li Denan's punishment was far from enough. What about Liu Guocai? Maybe this is reality.

It made me teary-eyed. It was not just about the romance. I didn't even want to call it the male protagonist or the female protagonist. Su Jingsheng was so miserable. I felt bad when I saw Liu Guocai appear. I didn't expect it to be so miserable. He actually violated Su. Ah, ah, bastard, bitch/human/animal/student. In the end, there was no sanction. I thought of it when I watched it. The principal in the melting pot, and Liu Zhang and Li Weinan, damn, they are two bastards and scum of society, damn, and Liu Guozhen is also a bitch, you are a doctor, what about medical ethics, casually reveal the patient's privacy, just because of your disclosure, Su Jingsheng was harmed, ah ah, everyone wants to go in and sha got them. In the middle, Su wanted to be a girl, and even when she was violated, I complained a little bit about Zuo Chen. Why didn't he take it seriously when he was almost hurt for the first time? Why didn't he protect Su better? Why didn't Su Jingsheng protect himself better? Woo woo woo

Was it because Liu Guocai and the others had guns? Only Zuo Chen, the red old man, couldn't resist, so she accepted the 300 million, but this was not letting go, but dormant. Before, I didn't understand why the promised thunder was picked up high and put down gently. Only at the end did I understand that Zuo Chen quit his job and asked Chen Li to get the goods, all for this moment. I guess Liu Zhang and Li Denan were infected with drugs under Zuo Chen's secret control, and Liu Zhang was already infected with AIDS, so Zuo Chen said that if Li Denan had not shared a needle with Liu Zhang, he would not have become impotent. There are many ways to destroy a person. Zuo Chen cannot take his life because she still has Su Jingsheng, so she chose this method. A person who is immoral, arrogant, and openly yells at his mother is already rotten to the core, so he will only get worse if he is infected with drugs and AIDS. The Li and Liu families want to protect their son's future, so Zuo Chen destroys it. This is what hurts. This is the second time I watched it. The first time I watched it was a pirated version on a website. I forgot about the sadness in it and only roughly remembered some of the content. Now that I have completed it and watched it again, I found that the gray in it is so painful. I hope Zuo Chen and Su Jingsheng can live happily.

When I was studying medicine, I memorized a lot of books on hermaphroditism, which contained a lot of broad knowledge. At that time, all of this could only be regarded as test points. A few months ago, a real case was encountered clinically. The medical record showed that the five-year-old "male" had an examination of the uterus attached to the scrotum. Naturally, the family was asked to make a new appointment because the doctor's order was wrong. The family member and his wife were stammering, older, and poorly dressed. They insisted that "they just have two sets." Several teachers looked at each other and guessed it. The "little boy" looks as short as a 3-year-old boy, but he has a rosy complexion and red lips. I have never seen such a good-looking child, just like the embryo of a "disaster". After taking off the pants, it appears that there are two sets. When the probe is placed, the image shows that there is no uterus but an organ that looks like a prostate. I asked about the medical history and whether the chromosome results were out. The family members said that it would take some time to get the results. Then they asked about the grandparents who brought me to see the doctor. My mother was gone and my father was at home. The teacher only said these few words in the end: "Have you made up your mind to treat it?" "Step by step, watch carefully." When I read this article today, I was so shocked that it really restored the "boy" I met. I hope they can all be raised by guardians like the sea, and at least someone will give them tolerance and comfort.

Very good, the story is so beautiful that I have nothing to say. The author's style is very similar to "Summer Palace" or "Suzhou River" where crazy dreams and cold worlds are superimposed on each other, just like the real world is always more cruel than tender, and nightmares are always wider than happiness. Girls around me, everyone discusses the luxury goods of lipsticks and masks, male stars, and I wonder more than once, whether they are really that happy, whether they feel that everything is a secretly priced gift. People are animals that are easily satisfied. From thousands of years of feudal oppression to now sharing part of the power, they are already satisfied. When they see African circumcision, drowning of aborted female babies, and preference for sons over daughters, they choose to escape, "Oh, it's none of my business." "Fortunately, my dad is rich and my husband loves me." "I have a son just to get a good reputation. I don't favor sons over daughters." "That's what women are like, just endure it and it will pass." Is mental slavery more painful than sexual intercourse? Is the value of my existence just to have children? I don't judge anyone. I know that waking up is a relay race. I am definitely not alone. We are all moving forward in silence. 2018.12.30 Night

I feel that I rarely read modern novels because I understand too well that the villains in novels are very weak. They are inexplicably bad and are naturally stepped on by the protagonist. But the reality is not like this. The ratio of good and evil is very complicated in people. At the same time, bad guys rarely get real retribution. Their suffering is less than one percent of the victims. There are too few pure and beautiful feelings, and there are still many dirty things in the world. This ending is very close to reality for me, and I can accept it, although I am not relieved. Those evil people didn't know until the end how scared and painful Su was at that time, or what he had lost, but this was just reality. At least Xiaomo gave him Zuo Chen.

I finished reading it in one night. After reading it, I felt heavy in my heart and felt very uncomfortable. I thought it was a cookie, but it turned out not to be very sweet. Maybe growing up means growing up with wounds on your back. Why does the bad guy not get the punishment he deserves? It often requires the protagonist in the story to spend a lot of energy and do it himself. , Jingyun went from a very remote place to a big city. I thought I would slowly live a good life, but sometimes accidents happen suddenly. When I saw that article, I was thinking about what I would do if this happened to me when I was in junior high school. I hope our country will have stricter measures in this regard.

It's so well written, so well written. Silent, firm, gentle and powerful

After reading a case today, I realized that the story of Su Jingsheng's childhood was based on a prototype. It was just that the child was not lucky enough to meet Zuo Chen. So when I was watching the case, I was heartbroken, and at the same time I guessed that maybe a child in another world had met my own Zuo Chen.