Armed Special Forces

I had been standing in front of me as the main attacker, but after Ai died, I felt that Ai was pretty good... Ahhh, is this the "only winner"? After Ai's death, his harm to Deng seemed to have been forgotten by Deng and the readers. It was clear that he had forced Deng so hard before, and Deng was scared to death of him before he lost his memory! But Deng! Why do you fear him and love him at the same time? Why do you want to stay away from him and yet rely on him? You don't feel love for him so much as family affection. This kind of family affection is quite common in my opinion. Facing that kind of majestic father, the son always looks at him quietly with fear and dependence, trying to escape, but finds that he always has his shadow on himself. If Ai hadn't had that kind of thought, the relationship between the two would have been this awkward adoptive father-son kind, right? In fact, it was Ai who was conflicting, but except for the period of amnesia, Deng's feelings for Ai at other times were more like a strict but reliable father than a lover. . . But death changed everything... It's hard to describe this feeling, it makes me feel very awkward. The three men and two women in this article each have their own ways of loving and hurting each other. They all left an indelible mark on Deng's life. They made Deng what he is now, and Deng will continue to carry these marks with him.

? Unhappy ? Epro actually turned into cannon fodder and died. ? Work hard to raise and then work hard to make sure you love each other ? As a result, I ate a time bomb at the last minute. ? Mitchell almost shot Deng to death but took advantage and went back ? This is more work than the famous migrant worker Sebastian, absolutely not allowed, I am against this, I am against it!

This was the most uncomfortable chapter to read... The whole article felt like a lump in my throat, I couldn't swallow it [Cracked] When I left at the end, I just felt that I had finally finished reading this book [Cracked] [Cracked], it was so painful to read. It's very uncomfortable... I'm trying to accept Mi, but I really can't love her, she's so hypocritical, annoying, and scheming. What should I say about the ending? Although I can't accept it, it can also be said to be pretty good. The love-hate relationship between them was too painful. Love is a kind of letting go, so Epro gave up. He hoped that Kevin could have the free life he wanted. [Epirote] Epro should not have died. He gave Kevin the Eye of Brahma again and retreated to the United States. I can only hope that they will meet again in the future. The ending also stopped at Mi confessing to Kevin, and Kevin didn't say whether he would agree or not. Even if he agreed to Epro, it would be an indelible black moonlight in Kevin's heart (ah haha, how do you say that word?

Resubscribe and leave a comment~ I like the contrast between Lao Ai giving a white rose and Lao Lei giving a red rose at the beginning, but neither of them accepted it, so in the end they didn't get it? In the end, Lao Ai really turned into the white moonlight that Kevin would think of in his heart from time to time, and Lao Lei's words made it even, and the mosquito blood turned into a cinnabar mole in an instant... Although Xiaomi is not my type, I am not very resistant to it. If I want to praise him, I don't know where to start... Although the length of several attacks is not much, the shaping can still leave a strong impression on people. I especially like Lao Ai\(^o^)/! ! I have absolutely no resistance to this kind of age. In the end, I feel that Lao Ai dumped Kevin Orz, or that he returned to his identity as an elder and adoptive father at this moment, once again guiding him in the rest of his life. This kind of thing is really rare in this year QAQ~ It doesn't matter whether he is dead or dead, Kevin will miss him for the rest of his life. As a cp, I feel very satisfied... This long time will only make the longing stronger. Although Lao Lei is still young, I feel that he is very arrogant... Xiaomi said that he values ​​​​interests, and it is precisely because he values ​​​​interests that he blocks the gun in order to get even with Kevin... I don't know why I feel so cute, this kind of arrogant and arrogant way. It's good to stay at Xiaomi's confession without giving a clear answer. I have a feeling about Xiaomi that I hope he can get Kevin's recognition, but I don't want him to have to live with Kevin in humility and guilt in the future. Will Kevin ever have the ability to love again? This is my question. I don't want to give Xiaomi the kind of love that is not very loving, a love that can be passed along. If I were a Mi party, I wouldn't think this is a winning ending orz... Let this book continue without extra chapters...

I feel that Huaishang's favorite in this book is actually Mitchell. Mitchell briefly redeemed Deng Kaiwen in middle school, but after his confession failed with Deng Kaiwen, he alienated him and found him disgusting. None of this was shown behind Deng Kevin's back. After the reunion, I saw that Deng Kaiwen was high-spirited and was attracted to him again, and began to say that I liked him. He can be said to be Deng Kevin's first love, but at first I always thought that he was the person least likely to end up with Kevin. In the end, the two of them were together based on the premise that the other two people were dead. Don't you think those two people died too hastily? His brother died too hastily! (He died as hastily as the CEO in Chun Hui) It just makes people feel forced to be together As long as one of the first two is alive, he will not be with him. And Kevin also said that he also likes Epro I really feel that Huaishang is partial to Mitchell

Huai Niu, do you still remember the armed special police on the Daming Lake? I strongly request you to write an extra chapter.

I don't want Mitchell! ! I want Neil! ! Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I don't want the two of them to be together ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

It looks good [crying] [crying] [crying] but is this he? [Crying] [crying] [crying] Scam! ! [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] I feel so sad, everyone left one by one, Xiao Deng, why are you so miserable [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] Parents divorced, father died, mother died, Miranda died, Chelsea died, Adams died, Stanley died, just Even April is dead. There are so many misunderstandings. Why is your life so miserable? It seems that fate will take away everything you care about. In the end, only Mitchell is left. Can you really look away from your future life? Can you really go out? [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] My heart I love you [crying] [crying] [crying] There is no extra chapter in this book. You obviously have so many choices and possibilities, but it is impossible to see it [crying] [crying] [crying] Will Huai Shang still remember this book in his lifetime? I really want to read the if line, everyone's if line, and the things you didn't write about Deng Yan and Adams, as well as the life of Xiao Deng and Chelci in San Francisco every June [crying] [crying] [crying] The life of young Kevin in GA, I really want to see it [crying] [crying] I want to see Kevin happy [crying] [crying] (The above are the ratings and comments of Nuo) This book has been killing me. . . [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] To be honest, I rarely read this type of article in recent years. . . By chance, I felt so sad when I read this book. [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] Why are there so many people dying in the back [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] Everyone, please don't leave [Crying] Starting with Miranda [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] Why is this book so cruel? Who is the protagonist? Although I am more on the side of rice when it comes to ethics, Epro is really upset. He and Xiao Deng really love each other [crying] [crying] [crying] and Chelchi, one of the few normal people, I felt so sad when he ended. [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] The most uncomfortable thing was when he died. [Crying] I feel like he hasn't done anything too bad. He should have a better life, and it can't end like this. [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] And Miranda, it was really too sudden. Although everyone's death was reasonable and not unexpected at all, it was just so unexpected and very uncomfortable. I really wanted to cry [Crying] [ Crying][Crying] Xiao Deng should have been particularly happy from the time he was born to the time when his father left. Everything started when Cassandra was pregnant with Sritan, the death of relatives, and the history of his lover. He just wanted to live a normal life and be able to live in the sunshine. He walked down the road without fear of the killer who was everywhere in the dark. He was almost successful every time, as if he could really live his life smoothly. Then things suddenly turned 180 degrees. He had worked hard for so long and the final ending was reasonable and inevitable, but it was too cruel. [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] There was also Deng Yan and Adams. Did anything happen to them before? Although there was speculation but it was not written out clearly, I still want to know what happened. Alas, to sum up, except for Xiao Deng, this book is full of bad people and is destined to have no good results [crying] [crying] [crying] [crying]

(Actually, it's the second time I watched it. The first time was a long time ago. It's no different from watching it again after losing my memory. I don't even remember it at all😭) (Now I just want to watch it again if I really lose my memory😭😭) First of all, I have always liked Huai Niu's articles. My values are completely consistent with those of XP and Huai Shang. So I have a fan filter. Secondly, the following is my personal analysis and does not represent anything! About Kevin: At the beginning, when Kevin appeared, I was probably hit at the same time as Mitchell. (I became a sucker after reading the first chapter of Huai Characteristics🐶) Huai Niu writes about Kevin, about how a person rebuilds himself on the ruins. He was so timid when he was a boy, wearing a second-hand baggy school uniform, and was kicked out of the classroom. But when he stood in front of the SWAT team at the age of twenty-eight, he was already a completely strong man. I personally like this kind of completely new way of writing. The most touching thing about Kevin is precisely the part of him that is not tough - he can never refuse a woman, cannot break up blood ties, will confess his fear in front of Regulus, and will cry loudly when Epro dies. All his strength is built on a soft base, which makes him extraordinarily real. At the same time, I think this is indeed a book that opens low and moves high (personally, I think this is very Huainiu-specific. It's not that the previous writing is not good, I just think the pace is relatively slow) Until Kevin wears the mask of Regulus and boards the Neptune, in my opinion, it is the first absolute climax of the book. From the beginning of boarding the ship in disguise, to Stanley being knocked unconscious, Adams appearing, April's "death", and Kevin being shot and falling to the ground, the entire process was extremely carefully conceived. Huai Niu showed particularly sophisticated narrative control here (I don't know if this is accurate...) Especially since Kevin got shot. Kevin heard the "whoosh" sound on the deck, and the back of his head felt cold and then hot, and blood spurted out. When he knelt down, he obviously tried his best to look back. Huaishang wrote that his instinct forced him to turn around to see who had shot him, and then he stopped writing: "After all, before he had time to turn his head, he fell heavily on the deck with a plop." This was too cold in time. If he looked back and saw Mitchell's face, that would at least be an answer. Even if he was betrayed, deceived, or shot through the skull by someone he trusted, at least he would have a certain identity before falling into darkness. The reader reads that scene with the prejudgment that Mitchell is Wolf Fang. We knew that the sniper on the deck was probably him, and we shouted through the text, "Look back! Look!", But Kevin's body left before his consciousness, and we accepted the answer of "just a little bit" for Kevin. Later, he regained his memory and thought back to that moment on the Neptune. He still had no picture, but deduced it. He learned that Regulus's whereabouts had been leaked and that he was being sniped as Cerci, and then he deduced that the shooter could only be Mitchell. Second-hand confirmation has completely different weight than confirmation on the spot. This made the feeling of betrayal spread over time, across amnesia, across Epro's concealment and Mitchell's cover-up, and finally hit him in a more tortuous way. I later thought that this was probably Huaishang's intention. If Kevin had seen Mitchell's face the moment he fell, even if he survived, the betrayal would have been bloody, concrete, and irreversible. And not seeing it made everything hang for a year - by the time he finally determined the truth, time had paved the way for him with too many other things, the hatred was diluted, and he was finally able to "ask why" to face the person who was destined to be entangled with him for the rest of his life at the door of the classroom seventeen years ago. The absolute climax of the second plot, in my opinion, is of course Kevin regaining his memory. Kevin revisited the place where he first shot the gun on the streets of New York. Old newspapers, old photos, Regulus's narration, Dr. Claire's hypnosis, etc... This series of actions pieced back the memories piece by piece. Epro used drugs and hypnosis to suppress Kevin's memory because that memory contained his most cruel face. Mitchell wanted Kevin to recover his memory because that memory contained the seventeen years the two had missed. And what about Kevin himself? For him, forgetting is safe and remembering is painful. So when he finally chose to think about it all, he was actually very brave and took the responsibility. The real breakout, personally understood, was when he decided to drive alone across the country back to Los Angeles. He returned to Los Angeles not to rest, but to find closure. He met Stanley and got on the boat to find Adams. His right hand was shot through by Brown. However, when he was covered in blood, he met Adams head on and turned the gun to kill Brown. Adams fell in blood and screamed that it was Kevin's father. He saw the man he loved through Kevin. But Kevin didn't even hold his hand, he just squatted down and closed his eyes for him. At this point, the love of the older generation finally ended in Kevin's hands. Then there's the helicopter, Stanley's death, the time bomb on the plane. The last thing Stanley said when he fell into Deng Kevin's arms was "I'm not willing to give in." But Kevin's reply was "Brother, I'm sorry for you." In my opinion, these half-brothers grew up separated by G. A, separated by Epro, separated by differences of belief, separated by the bloody struggle for heirs, and finally completed the entire reconciliation on a helicopter that was about to explode. That "brother" should be the first and only time in Deng Kevin's life that he calls Stanley by blood. The setting that the plane cannot land is cruel. Epro has already been shot, but he is still controlling the passenger plane smoothly towards the sea. He said to Kevin Deng, "Don't cry, my child, I love you." Mitchell and Eplow, two enemies who could be called enemies, were still giving up the escape spot, and they were all out of love for Kevin and for Kevin. Epro pushed Kevin toward Mitchell and the parachute, his push away from him so gently and so irresistibly. The last thing Kevin Deng saw when he was pulled out of the hatch by Mitchell was Epro waving to him over the brightly lit harbor. Stanley, Adams, and Epro, each of the three farewells became colder and colder each time, finally completely separating Deng Kevin from the past. Epro's death was not an accident, it was the result of his active choice. He used death to clear away all ties for Kevin. When Deng Kaiwen fell into the sea and looked up and saw the explosion of fire in the night sky, no shadow in the world could envelope him from now on, because the person who created the shadow was no longer there. (Personally, I think there is also a very strong personal style here. Huai Niu never gives the protagonist a stable period of grief. She always lets death and farewell pile up, until the protagonist has no strength to cry and can really move forward.) Then comes the finale of the last chapter. Its sense of fate is really too strong... In the hospital ward, Eplow was already dead when the black diamond necklace was delivered by courier, but at some point he arranged for the necklace to be delivered to Kevin before he was discharged. Back to the middle school classroom. Seventeen years ago, Kevin and Mitchell met there for the first time and broke up for the first time. Seventeen years later, they started again in front of the same glass window. "The scorching sun in the midsummer of that year came from the distant sky through old memories and time. Time and space overlapped, and the tear-stained ten years in between seemed to have never existed." All those "what if" assumptions, all detours and misses are ultimately accommodated by a greater inevitability - the people who should meet will eventually meet again at the starting point, and every separation just adds more weight to the reunion. "What has happened will happen again." All regrets are actually the foreshadowing of a comeback, and all losses will come back in another way. Next is about a few pairs of CPs: (The sorting is meaningless, I am delicious no matter what I eat😭) Epro × Kevin: This pair is really sadomasochistic... Huai Niu writes that Epro treats Kevin as his heir, son, lover, and work of art. His love is based on absolute control, but his letting go is so real. Epro spent his whole life trying to tame Kevin, but in the end he completed his love by letting go. The juxtaposition of "Goodbye, Kevin" and "I love you" is the first and last time a despot gives freedom. Regulus × Kevin: Regulus is always on the "single arrow", but it is particularly frustrating because he does not get a response. Regulus was the only one who reached out to Kevin in his darkest time (although his starting point was not pure), and he gave Kevin a channel to leave G. A. They remained close for more than ten years, but Kevin never really fell in love with him. Regulus died in Kevin's arms, and his last words were "We are even" - in relationships, he had never received reciprocal love, but in the face of death, he finally gained the qualification to be "pained". Mitchell × Kevin: The sense of fate of this pair is to return to the starting point after seventeen years. Mitchell hurt Kevin as a teenager and spent most of the book trying to make up for it. The contrast between his reversal of identity as "Wolf Fang" and Kevin's is very touching - a person who looks like sunshine, but is extremely dark inside, while Kevin looks like he was born in Japan, but his heart yearns for light more than anyone else. In the last chapter, Mitchell said in the classroom, "Ask him to love me again where we first met." Mitchell changed from a hurter to a protector, and Kevin changed from a victim to a giver. At this point, the two adults finally have the courage to respond to their teenage selves. Epro's love is dark, and Mitchell's darkness is filled with love. (In fact, the opposite is also very suitable for two people.) Finally, when I returned to the middle school classroom, the sun fell on the two goldfish, as if all death had passed away, and the living could finally start over in the summer.

The ending was written too vaguely, including whether N died or not, why K cried bitterly when he got the necklace, and whether K responded to Mi or not. Everything was not explained, so there is no need to discuss it. At the end, the only thing that is undoubted is K's love for N. Before K jumped off the plane, he confessed to N crazily. His attitude was so painful that half of his soul was torn apart.