A Long-Cherished Wish on a Spring Night

Ni Xiao vs. Han Su

Cheerful, gentle, doting older bottom vs. obsessive younger top with an intense widower vibe

Ni Xiao and Han Su first met one summer many years ago.

The little kid clung to the screen door like a giant gecko, bawling like a cicada and refusing to stop.

When he saw Ni Xiao, Han Su hurriedly wrote his name and his parents' phone numbers on a piece of paper.

Watching him write each stroke carefully, Ni Xiao questioned him: “Doesn't that say Han Feng? How can you say your name is Han Su?”

Han Su asked in a childish voice, “Did you do badly in school and get held back? Is that why you don't know this character?”

Ni Xiao was a respectable eight-year-old primary school student. How could he let a six-year-old brat question him? He insisted, “Your name is Han Feng. Han Xiaofeng!”

From then on, “Xiaofeng” became his special nickname.

Han Su was stubborn by nature, and Ni Xiao became the greatest obsession rooted in his heart.

Even as a little boy, he would cling to Ni Xiao's arm and say, “Brother Xiao, come with me, okay? I'll never be apart from you.”

Later, as a teenager, he declared with absolute certainty, “Ni Xiao, you're the only one I care about. Nothing in this world can ever separate us again.”

“If you really die, I'll die with you.”

The thought of “separation” could make him wall himself off from everyone, while the desire to “be together” could make him smash open an escape room door, deliberately hurt his own hand, and scheme to “capture” Ni Xiao and bring him back.

Even a moment apart leaves him on the verge of madness.

Ni Xiao isn't afraid of the weight of Han Su's feelings. Han Su spent ten years mute for his sake. Ni Xiao can't help but feel for him, and he loves and spoils him wholeheartedly.

He loves Han Su's obsessiveness, too. To him, isn't that just another kind of devotion?

But when their feelings grow so intense they seem almost wicked, they begin to feel as though they can't withstand scrutiny or the questions from their families.

Did Ni Xiao mistake sympathy for love, or can Han Su not tell the difference between love and obsession?

In the end, even vows of eternal love cannot overcome the helplessness of a young person unable to control his own life.

Years passed after they parted.

Ni Xiao only wants to comfort Han Su properly. They're adults now, and he's willing to go along with anything.

But Han Su is even more “perverted” than before. He makes Ni Xiao read aloud a handwritten letter from years ago.

As Ni Xiao reads, a belt buckle jingles softly. A chest, much broader than it had been in their youth, presses down on him.

The “peace and safety” talisman Ni Xiao gave Han Su is still smooth and warm, hanging like a tear of blood above his sharp shoulder blades.

A warm hand strokes his waist, and the fine gold chain there trembles softly.

The words of the letter crumble in Ni Xiao's mouth. He can barely read a sentence aloud.

Tears wipe away the insincere words on the page, while a hand crumples the letter to pieces.

Their surging love sets their longing alight, then burns the years of emptiness between them to ash.

At the very end, Han Su presses close to Ni Xiao's sweat-damp ear. His voice is tender as he calls him by the most intimate name from their childhood:

“Brother Xiao.”

Key points:

#No obsessive younger top without a doting older partner.

#A top with a widower vibe who goes mad when he can't see his beloved.

Reading guide:

1. Includes a reunion-after-a-breakup element, but the story begins with their childhood bond.

2. “Widower top” refers to his aura, not his actual marital status.

3. There are occasional tearjerker moments, but overall it's a light, everyday story with a bittersweet sweetness.

4. Younger top, two years apart. Both virgins and each other's first love, with a deep bond where neither can bear anyone but the other.

5. The entire novel is complete, with over 400,000 characters. It won't be dropped. I hope you'll show it lots of support.

Theme: Keep love in your heart and grow with care.