My second attempt at a long-form story, in the traditional "pregnant and on the run" genre. Set in an alternate near future with Sentinel and Guide elements, this is a romance-driven story about running away while pregnant.
Bai Yun was used as a bargaining chip by her father and traded to people on the frontier.
She hates this place, hates being abandoned, and hates the man who thinks he can arrange everything. But Yan Fei teaches her to speak the truth and ask for what she wants, and pampers her until she becomes a pearl no one dares to touch.
But the pearl is kept in a box, and the sparrow still has no name.
She hates being called "little sister," hates always being hidden behind a door, and hates that every promise only holds true when no one else is around. At last, one day, she leaves with the truth still unspoken and vanishes into the crowd.
Theme: Fly through a long life on your own wings
Boyun's last poem is almost a confession, right? The tug and pull in the ambiguous period is sad but exciting to watch. This process of guessing each other's hearts is really like a cat's paw scratching the heart, itching and causing slight pain. Both of them realized that their feelings for each other had changed, but because of their differences in identity and personality, they could not express their feelings immediately. They could only keep trying to find certain signals and clues. However, Yan Fei had been on the top floor for too long, and he did not realize that the words of a random drunk would also stimulate Bai Yun's self-esteem. Bai Yun did not have the confidence to block out these bad voices. It seemed that the two of them would still have troubles in the future.
So people's personalities are really complex. You can say that Yan Fei is delicate. He really thinks that taking Bai Yun with him will make Bai Yun's life better. Or he has never thought about whether Bai Yun is good or not, because he cannot see Bai Yun's life and understand how difficult it is for Bai Yun to grow up. This is not his fault, just like me before As mentioned above, a person standing on the top floor cannot see the scenery in the eyes of people on the first floor; but if you want to say that he has rough lines, it is not that good. He can also write delicate words that look like moaning without illness in Bai Yun's eyes. He can even feel something in Bai Yun's fairy tales, but he lacks an opportunity to enlighten him. Bai Yun is hospitalized, and his orifice I also started to know how to pay attention to Bai Yun's health, and I will also be happy because of Bai Yun's proximity. Bai Yun seems to have a twisted personality, but this twist is also caused by life. No one cares, no one loves, is abandoned, and is so poor that only self-esteem is left, so self-esteem becomes the only thing that cannot be given up, because I have never felt it. She is kind-hearted, so she turns other people's malice into the motivation to keep going. In fact, it is really sad. At first, she will act in front of Yanfei, but sensitive people will feel the changes in emotions earlier than others. Knowing that Yanfei really cares about her, she can't help but become a little more vulnerable. This kind of love is both armor and weakness. It feels very poignant.
Bai Yun's psychology is so real that it's terrifying [covering face and laughing], this is not a derogatory meaning, but her thoughts are really very empathetic to me, a cow and a horse. I don't think Yan Fei's words are really innocent. This may be what he really thought at the time. It's just because he and Bai Yun have different experiences and different growth trajectories, so neither side seems to be able to truly understand the other's situation and psychology. Yan Fei's origin determines that there will be people for whatever he does. But Bai Yun has never had the confidence brought by her family, has never been loved or cared for, and has been accompanied by suffering in her short life. She also cannot understand that Yan Fei's strength does not come entirely from her family and surname. It does also have her own abilities, but it is like two people standing on the first floor and the other on the top floor. Neither of them has seen the scenery in the other's eyes. They will only understand each other from their own standpoints. There is no right or wrong, they are just born different.
This chapter is so depressing. I don't mean that my wife didn't write it well, but because it was written so specifically, I can clearly feel where Bai Yun's hatred and pain come from. I also feel that both of Bai Yun's parents lived a very depressing life. His father's soul and body were misplaced, and his mother didn't get what she wanted until she died. Although I don't know how my parents' relationship was, but I I always feel that Bai Yun's mother's mental breakdown may not be because of her father, but maybe because what she wants is too different from reality. Mr. Yan's pain may seem like moaning for nothing, but it is actually real, and this kind of pain is common to Bai Yun and even Bai Yun's family. Everyone is trapped in a cage and cannot be free, so this chapter is so depressing.
Finished spreading flowers [Spreading Flowers] Brother Yan and Yunyun are going to have a good time 🥺 [Orange Candy] got it
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