A 16-year age gap / Angsty push and pull / Sex and hate fiction
1.
If Song Zhiye were as meek as she looked, like a little lamb, she probably wouldn't have lived to see her fifth birthday.
A mother who drowned herself in a river, a father who drank and beat her.
Since she was little, she'd known exactly what kind of person she was. She'd deliberately let a dog bite her to get compensation money. When she was starving, she'd intentionally press her arm against a steamer until it blistered, just to get a few buns. Vagrants often stole the scrap she'd collected, so she'd fight them like a madwoman. In the end, she'd be covered in injuries, but she'd wear a victorious smile and spit blood all over them.
If she didn't fight for what she wanted, how could she survive?
Then, when she was seven, her father traded her away for a thousand yuan to become another family's child bride.
Song Zhiye refused to accept her fate. She kicked and punched in the matchmaker's grasp, until a slap left her dazed. As the world spun around her, she suddenly fell into someone's arms, soft and fragrant with a scent that didn't belong in the village.
The woman's face was full of concern. With just one look, Song Zhiye decided she would follow her for the rest of her life.
2.
Yu Li took her home, but the warmth she'd shown at their first meeting soon faded. She was sometimes warm and sometimes cold toward Song Zhiye, and often wouldn't even look her in the eye.
Song Zhiye saw her as a lifeline and called her "Auntie" all day long. She changed tactics and decided to be a good girl, all to win Auntie's affection. Only if Auntie liked her could she stay by her side for the rest of her life.
She called her that obediently for ten years, until other feelings began to stir.
3.
After Yu Li said, "Aren't homosexuals disgusting?" Song Zhiye kept herself in check and never crossed the line, afraid Yu Li would hate her.
She was always good at putting on an act, but time and again, she came up against a wall. And every time, it was because of Yu Li.
Whether it was her bad side or her love.
Just as Song Zhiye finally gave up on Yu Li, she suddenly learned that Yu Li had a first love she could never have.
That first love was dead.
At the same time, Song Zhiye finally understood why Yu Li had found her when she was seven: the dead first love was her mother.
4.
On the surface, Song Zhiye was as obedient as a little lamb. But at night, she would climb into Auntie's bed, wrap her arms around her in skimpy clothes, and whisper in her ear, "So what if you loved my mother? She's gone now."
"She's dead! What can she possibly do to compete with me?"
Yu Li slapped her and told her to get out.
The young woman covered her face, but smiled as she licked the blood at the corner of her mouth. "You don't want me either?"
Song Zhiye & Yu Li
Cool and quiet on the outside, but secretly twisted and unhinged & A restrained, patient social butterfly
Blurb archived on November 1, 2025. Revised on February 7. The central premise remains unchanged.
Theme: Across the years, we travel far apart; between us, people come and go
