Tragic BL with a Bad Ending 双男Be虐文

1. 1 鲸 Whale Fall into the Abyss 鲸落深渊 The Evil Dragon Blows Bubbles恶龙吹泡泡Two Male Leads39k WordsCompleted Little fish, little fish, may you swim out of the abyss soon. His younger brother, whom he had raised by hand despite no blood relation, sent him to a detention center for two years to “set him straight” and told him to come out once he was normal. Those two years were a nightmare that devoured him, one he could never wake from. His body and mind were tormented, his feelings worn away, and he was trained into numb, hopeless submission. “Knowing you raised me makes me sick. Why don’t you just die 26.4kReads8.1Score4.7kShelves

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   The 1st book is very sad. I cried when I saw the 6th picture.

2. 2 戒 Diary from a Conversion Therapy Center 戒同所日记 Youthful Years, Thinking of the Brocade Zither华年思锦瑟Two Male Leads29k WordsCompleted A diary recording the final two months of my life... Maybe I'm just not meant to be loved. Otherwise, why would everyone who loved me leave? 13.1kReads8.2Score2.8kShelves
3. 3 蓝 The Handsome Hostage Prince 蓝颜质子 Cheng Tan Meixuan橙檀美萱Historical16k WordsCompleted The Blue-Eyed Young Hostage 900Reads—Score—Shelves
4. 4 替 After His Substitute Endured Endless Torment, the Regent Went Mad 替身受尽折磨后，摄政王疯了 Cheng Tan Meixuan橙檀美萱32k WordsCompleted After the Substitute Suffered Endless Torment, the Regent Prince Went Mad 4.6kReads—Score—Shelves
5. 5 假 After Faking My Death, the Mad Prince Slaughtered All of Nanling to Claim My Life 《假死之后，疯王爷屠了整个南陵来追我的命》 Cheng Tan Meixuan橙檀美萱12k WordsCompleted After Faking My Death, the Mad Prince Slaughtered All of Nanling to Track Me Down 228Reads—Score—Shelves
6. 6 囚 Captive Love, Ashes of the Past: The Obsessive CEO Has No Way to Win Back His Wife 囚宠归烬：偏执总裁追妻无门 Cheng Tan Meixuan橙檀美萱49k WordsCompleted Prisoner, Returned to Ashes: The Obsessive CEO Has No Way to Win Back His Wife 735Reads—Score—Shelves
7. 7 求 Please Don’t Leave Me 求你别丢下我 Cheng Tan Meixuan橙檀美萱15k WordsCompleted Please, don't leave me behind. 309Reads—Score—Shelves
8. 8 赝 The Counterfeit 赝品 Green Ink青墨Two Male Leads50k WordsCompleted Synopsis: Song Cheng had been with Qin Minghua for five years. He always thought that even if he couldn’t win Qin Minghua’s love, at least he was someone special to him. But when that person appeared, he finally understood that both his feelings and his life were nothing more than tools Qin Minghua used to protect them. Out of love, Song Cheng resigned himself to giving up everything he had, but everything slowly began to move in a different direction. A fierce love and hatred, like an endless b 49Reads6.3Score—Shelves

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   It's all, two male protagonists torture stories

9. 9 顾 Sleeping Peacefully Beneath the Sophora Tree 顾枕槐安 Autumn Soul of a Thousand Years千岁秋魄Two Male Leads63k WordsCompleted Younger man + substitute + love grows over time + regretful pursuit of the ex + putting scumbags in their place + angst, angst, and more angst!!! Before he turned eighteen, Du Huai’an had no father in his life. The year he turned eighteen, his mother, who had raised him alone, was diagnosed with stomach cancer. So she took him to meet the man who was supposedly his father. That was when he learned his father was the head of the prestigious Zhu family in Jingyuan. He entered the Zhu family as the 1.6kReads8.4Score152Shelves
10. 10 鸩 A Cup of Poisoned Wine, and Drunk with You 鸩酒一杯与君醉 Flowing Wind流风Two Male Leads60k WordsCompleted Blurb: When they first met, he was a subject, and he risked his life to take a sword meant for the other man. Later, that man became emperor, wiped out his entire family, stripped away his pride, and forcibly kept him by his side. He waited, full of hope, for his elder brother to return victorious, but all he received was a cold corpse. In the end, he drank poison in front of everyone, smiling like a spring breeze. “Your Majesty, I offer my life as the price of regicide. May you live for all ete 1.5kReads8.0Score173Shelves
11. 11 自 I'll Chase My Own Wife 自己媳妇自己追 Potatoes Braised with Beef Brisket土豆烧牛腩Two Male Leads122k WordsCompleted The arrogant heir of Prince Qin Xiang, Xiao Qi, had fallen for a fool with the mind of a ten-year-old. The news sent the aristocrats of the capital into an uproar. Though foolish and slow-witted, the girl had a beautiful face. Only on closer inspection did people realize how much she resembled Xiao Qi’s deceased first love. Unless you looked closely, it was hard to tell them apart. Xiao Qi disregarded the prestige of Lanling and insisted on keeping the fool by his side. She relied on him and tru 235Reads—Score—Shelves
12. 12 你 You Are the Sunshine of My World 你是我世界的骄阳 Bi Lian碧恋Two Male Leads89k WordsCompleted [Heartbreaking + Bad Ending] Blurb One: Shi Fan was born on Children's Day, yet grew up in the mire. He longed for a glimmer of light, for someone to free him from the shackles of fate, for someone to heal his shattered heart. Blurb Two: Would you let me carve out the cinnabar mole in your heart and take its place? ----- Jiang Chenrui When a sunny school bully meets a boy whose heart is in pieces, can he lead him out of the abyss? 76Reads8.5Score—Shelves
13. 13 相 A Shattered Longing 相思碎 Green Ink青墨Two Male Leads49k WordsCompleted One meeting, and they were fated to be entangled for life. Jiang Lingyu never imagined that the person he loved most would destroy everything he treasured with his own hands. “If you ever betray me, I'll make you wish you were dead!” His dignity, his body, and his shattered heart were trampled underfoot and ground into dust. He had obeyed, begged for mercy, and fought back... but in the end, he could only surrender to fate. Who can truly see through love and hate entwined? When all was settled a 862Reads8.6Score101Shelves
14. 14 予 You Gave Me Deep Love and Turned My Life Upside Down 予你情深，乱我一生 Su Ziyao苏子遥Two Male Leads50k WordsCompleted Eighteen years ago, Wen Ziyu was the person He Jingyang promised to stay with forever. Eighteen years later, Wen Ziyu was locked in an attic by He Jingyang and cruelly abused. He Jingyang always said Wen Ziyu owed him and that he'd make him pay little by little. But in the end, it was He Jingyang who owed Wen Ziyu a pair of eyes, a life, and a lifetime of love and devotion. 378Reads6.8Score100Shelves
15. 15 鲛 The Merman Has Lost All Hope 鲛人他心灰意冷 Hua Xi花溪Two Male Leads32k WordsCompleted The merman Chen Xiao was lured to the human world by Murong Jing's promises of love, never imagining that a trap had been laid for him long ago! He was imprisoned in the imperial dungeon and tortured day after day. It was all because Murong Jing wanted to take his most precious merman pearl and use it to save his seriously ill first love! After learning the truth, Chen Xiao died in despair. But Murong Jing had always said Chen Xiao disgusted him. So why did he go mad and try to bring him back to 1.1kReads8.0Score109Shelves
16. 16 阉 The Eunuch 阉人 So It Is Said笑之曰Two Male Leads193k WordsCompleted Shuangjiang stood by Li Yue’s side as he went from a prince walking on thin ice to the throne, watching him marry one beautiful woman after another. Ten years ago, Shuangjiang said to the powerless Li Yue, “I’m only a eunuch. I wouldn’t dare eat this osmanthus cake.” Li Yue said, “Shuangjiang is my favorite person. From now on, I’ll bring you as much osmanthus cake as you want.” Ten years later, Shuangjiang was frail and ill, longing for a piece of osmanthus cake. Li Yue said, “You’re only a eun 3.1kReads8.4Score269Shelves
17. 17 哑 The Mute’s Diary (Bad Ending) 哑巴日记（be） Autumn Grasses Drunk on Spring Colors秋芜醉春色8k WordsCompleted A Mute's Diary (Bad Ending) 798Reads—Score102Shelves

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    I can't just let myself be abused

18. 18 愿 May You Know Peace for All Your Days 愿汝长安 Jin Yu TL瑾瑜TLTwo Male Leads46k WordsCompleted [Male-male romance] [Emperor shou] [Both leads are each other’s first and only] Jiang Hongyu never expected to accomplish anything during his reign. Just staying alive would be enough; even being a puppet emperor would be fine. But things rarely go as planned. Kidnapping, the death of a friend, and the turmoil of war leave him struggling to breathe. But He Chang’an is like a ray of light, keeping him going. As long as they’re together, Jiang Hongyu feels he can do anything. But what will he d 7Reads—Score—Shelves
19. 19 我 I Won’t Fall for You 我不会喜欢你 Falling Blossoms and Flying Rain落花飞雨Two Male Leads110k WordsCompleted Mo Qian spent six years trying to warm a cold, unyielding heart. But life is full of disappointments, and love is one of them. Even on the day he died, he never received the love he had yearned for. But he could never have imagined that after his death, the one he had loved in this world would finally awaken, overcome with grief. Day after day, they knelt before the tiny pile of ashes he had become, sobbing and weeping, until they died beneath those ashes. ***Content warnings: * A groveling ex a 1.3kReads8.8Score109Shelves

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    The first one is pure-hearted. The full text be but there is a side story with he. The protagonist Gong has always been in love with Shou, but he always felt that Shou's love for him had ulterior motives. He never dared to face his love for Shou directly. He also did many things that hurt his heart. He also thought that he He married Shou because Shou drugged him and forced him to get married. As a result, he was injured and heartbroken, and he was diagnosed with an illness. I can't remember what the illness was. Later, because the illness was so tortured, he went to euthanasia alone. Only then did Gong wake up and regret it. He wanted to make amends but was unable to do so. The second book, Shuang Jie, is sadistic and belongs to the type of change of attack. Shou begins to marry a doctor, and Shou loves him deeply, but the doctor has his first love, and the first love is receiving treatment in a foreign country. The first love is also very good, and Shou is also very good. This doctor is not a human being, and does not deserve their love. The doctor actually likes Shou, but he prefers his first love, because Because of this, I beat and scolded Shou for domestic violence, and later her first love died after being cured. Shou was also disheartened and left the doctor, and started a relationship with the real Gong. Later, she found out that she had early-stage Alzheimer's, and didn't want to delay Gong, so she made excuses saying that she didn't love him, and only found him because she wanted to have fun, and then left. Later, the doctor came over. The doctor accidentally learned that Shou was sick and wanted to take care of him. Shou refused because he felt very tired and asked the doctor to keep it secret. He went to his hometown and lived alone in the high school house (Shou's parents had passed away). Later, he was tortured by the illness and did not forget the person he liked. Who was it? Gong's name was written all over the wall of the house. Later the doctor came to find him. He was very sad when he saw Shou like this. He went to find Gong. He Gong told Shou's condition and the real situation. The doctor later went abroad and has been specializing in Alzheimer's disease to contribute to Alzheimer's. Gong was shocked and very sad, so he later found Shou, and it turned out that Shou had been waiting for him at the gate of the same high school as Gong, holding a note that Gong had given him when he was in high school. The note read: After class, I will go to your house for lunch. Shou had been waiting for Gong to go to his house for dinner [crying] [crying] Gong saw that he couldn't cry, so he took Shou home and said that it was snowing in his hometown and took him to see the snow. Shou happily agreed

20. 20 何 What Brings Joy to Life 何生欢喜 Iron Fist Lin Daiyu铁拳林黛玉Two Male Leads136k WordsCompleted Two male leads + body-double romance + BE aesthetic “So, Xu Linxun, what am I to you? A tool you summon whenever you want and discard whenever you're done?” “Say something!” Xu Linxun's eyes were just as cold, their depths impossible to fathom, as if the feelings they had shared over the past three years had never meant a thing to him. “Say something... Tell me, even if you have to lie...” Yu Chensheng dug his fingernails into his palms, the pain cutting to the bone. Still, he forced a smile and 995Reads8.8Score100Shelves
21. 21 攻 My Target Has Turned Evil? Then I'll Die One More Time 攻略对象黑化了？那就再死一次 Shi Lili时笠笠Two Male Leads664k WordsCompleted [Quick transmigration, top protagonist + sickly and delicate + utterly unhinged + coercion + nothing but acting skills = an unconventional 1v1] For normal people, a dramatic reunion means panic and confusion, heartfelt explanations, and a happy ending. But Qin Yili has never been normal! Facing the enemy emperor who has returned for revenge, he breaks his own bones one by one and smiles as he always did. “Are you satisfied with how I ended up?” The young master, who has bipolar disorder and was 3.6kReads9.3Score324Shelves

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    Abuse, hehe, especially the second one, it's really good.

22. 22 快 Quick Transmigration: The Tragic Beauty’s Path of Slaughter 快穿：美强惨的刀人之路 Writing Practice练笔Two Male Leads615k WordsOngoing [Quick transmigration + two male leads + protagonist is the pursuer + faking one's death + both chaste + one-on-one + beautiful, strong, and tragic + the love interest is a fragment of the protagonist.] It should probably be called "Quick Transmigration: The Beautiful, Strong, and Tragic Path of Stabbing People". There was an issue with the title of my first book because I named it carelessly, and I can't change it now. Please forgive me, my dear readers. [Xu Yan is the pursuer. All the original 1.1kReads9.1Score103Shelves
23. 23 快 Quick Transmigration: Passing Through a World of Cliches 快穿：在狗血的全世界路过 Shen Lei沈儡Two Male Leads857k WordsCompleted [The completed audiobook adaptation, featuring a real-life cast, has the same title] [Top! Top!! TOP!!!] Pei Yu was on the verge of death when he was bound to a System belonging to an organization called “Dog-Blood Drama.” He had to take the place of the original characters in various melodramatic stories, live out their lives peacefully, and save a particular person. Pei Yu: “...” A small matter. In the body-double romance, he is the frail, unattainable white moonlight the protagonist gong can 31.9kReads9.5Score2.7kShelves
24. 24 周 Dr. Zhou's White Moonlight Is Dying 周医生的白月光快死了 Ten-Line Que十行阙Two Male Leads219k WordsCompleted [Fragile, ill bottom VS cold, aloof top] [Heart-wrenching angst + mutually exclusive devotion, 1v1 + bad ending + extreme bottom fans, beware] Wen Ci had terminal stomach cancer. The doctor said he had at most thirty days left, and Wen Ci could live those thirty days for Zhou Ying. But Wen Ci died on the twenty-seventh day. After his death, Wen Ci left behind twenty-seven unread letters, a rabbit, a book, and a crushed red maple leaf. 19.7kReads9.3Score3.3kShelves

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    This book. I personally think it is very beautiful because there are so many details in it. It just looks realistic from the first few pictures to the back. There are more memories, and their interactions and conflicts are described very clearly. By the end of the 27th letter, I was already crying. So if you like reading sadistic stories, I strongly recommend you to read this book.

25. 25 误 Imprisoned by a Mistaken Favor 误恩囚 The Deer and the Rabbit鹿与兔Two Male Leads1.1M WordsCompleted [Two male leads + both devoted to each other + angst + physical torment + fictional setting + unequal status + happy ending] [Bottom fans, get out] Synopsis: After an accident, Ning Huairu, the young lady of Wangyue Manor, rescued Wen Jinchuan, who had been poisoned. When he woke, however, he mistakenly believed that Shiqi (Ning Huaizhi) had saved him. And so he began to indulge and favor Shiqi. He forgave Shiqi’s schemes, his cruelty, his selfishness. Having never known what it was to be favore 4.7kReads9.1Score362Shelves

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    1: When I first saw him, I saw him as a minister, but later I saw that he was a king. Anyway, he was very abusive [crying] 2: The two men abused both their bodies and their minds.

26. 26 藏 Hidden in Midsummer 藏于盛夏 Autumn Chill秋日凉Modern Romance308k WordsCompleted A heads-up before you start ❗️: One of the side couples is a gay couple, so please skip this if that bothers you. [The print edition under the same title is now available] [Healing × Love that grows over time × Angsty school romance] Sweet, gentle, well-behaved student × rebellious, handsome bad boy That midsummer seemed hotter than any before. The girl in the graduation photo smiled sweetly, with a boy in a white shirt grinning boldly behind her. They met in midsummer, and parted in midsummer t 82.8kReads9.6Score14.6kShelves

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    You must watch it. It's so good that I cry.

27. 27 黑 The Darkened Master's Guide to Redemption 黑化师尊洗白手册 Fire-Worshipping Heavenly Venerable Who Likes Astilbes喜欢落新妇的拜火天尊Two Male Leads500k WordsCompleted A cool, aloof master burdened by a sea of blood and vengeance x a scoundrel at first, a devoted loyalist later How will a beautiful, powerful, tragic master and the disciple who brings his aloof master down from his pedestal fight and fall in love, hate and stay devoted to each other? Two male leads, no female lead. 326Reads7.1Score—Shelves
28. 28 二 The Husky and His White Cat Shizun 二哈和他的白猫师尊 Meat Bun Won't Eat Meat肉包不吃肉Two Male Leads1.4M WordsCompleted [The audiobook adaptation of the same name, starring Gu Jiangshan and Sanshi, is complete. Tune in and give it a listen!] Mo Ran thought becoming Chu Wanning's disciple had been a mistake. His master was far too much like a cat, while he was like a silly dog wagging its tail and fawning over him. Dogs and cats can't reproduce together, and the silly dog hadn't wanted to reach out his fluffy paws toward that cat in the first place. He'd always thought dogs should be with dogs, like his senior bro 108.1kReads9.7Score21.7kShelves
29. 29 快 Quick Transmigration: After Torturing the Big Shot to Tears, I Faked My Death and Escaped 快穿：把大佬虐哭后我死遁了 Seagull Swimming沙鸥游泳Two Male Leads1.0M WordsCompleted [Two male leads, scum gong regrets his actions, chases his wife to the crematorium, sickly, coughing blood, forced love, shou fakes his death and escapes, BE in the small worlds, HE in the end] [System: Reminder, Host Yun Chen, this is an S-rank conquest world. The principal gods of every plane are extremely powerful!] [Yun Chen: Oh.] - The domineering CEO, wealthy enough to rival a nation: You’re nothing but a substitute picked out of the mud. My one true love is the chosen one! Yun Chen fell i 21.5kReads9.5Score1.9kShelves

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    Both 1⃣️ and 2⃣️ are written by the same author in big letters. It's a quick travel story about the small world. Be in the end is super beautiful.

30. 30 快 Quick Transmigration: After Faking My Death Due to a Terminal Illness, the Yandere Tycoon Went Mad 快穿：我靠绝症死遁后病娇大佬他疯了 Seagull Swimming沙鸥游泳Two Male Leads824k WordsCompleted [Yandere x obsessive, angst + catharsis, two power players putting on a show] [System: Host Yu Tang, a world’s main god is incredibly powerful and impossible to overthrow!] The tycoon who controlled the lifeblood of the economy: “Heh, you think you can escape my grasp?” Yu Tang: “Oh, really? I have late-stage stomach cancer, so I’ll die before you do.” The Federation’s celebrated war hero: “You’re nothing but my plaything. Be good and stay by my side!” Yu Tang: “But I have a serious heart con 11.9kReads9.5Score1.1kShelves
31. 31 绿 The Wild Little Tea-Green Psycho Can't Keep It Up Anymore 绿茶小疯子他野不动了 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads243k WordsCompleted [Dual Male Leads, Happy Ending] A handsome, bad-boy school bully as the pursuer, A sickly recipient who plays the pig to eat the tiger. When Wen Mo was nineteen, his parents brought him back home. His mother gave him his very first gift. He wore it with delight. A year later, a confirmed diagnosis made him realize it was his mother's death warrant for him! A genetic mutation, organ failure, and paralysis on one side of his body. In just two short months, he'd gone from full of life to nearly at 3.8kReads9.3Score364Shelves
32. 32 我 I Want to Leave 我想走 Little Fox Cub狐狸崽崽崽Two Male Leads161k WordsCompleted After ten years of marriage on paper, Yu Shuyi still couldn’t make it to the end of the contract. At first, he begged his husband to look at him, just once. Later, he begged his husband to come home and have a meal with him. In the end, he begged him to let him go. He said there was a saying: Better a brief pain than a long one. So I’ve let myself go. Please let go of me, too. I’m not asking you to love me or forgive me. I’m only asking you to let me go. Don’t save me anymore… Setting: Same-sex 5.1kReads8.4Score538Shelves

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    This book is really sad, I watched it in bed in the middle of the night and cried [crying]

33. 33 小 The Little Troublemaker Doesn't Have Long to Live 小坏蛋他命不久矣 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads273k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled love + the pursuit of a former lover + happy ending] School bully, sickly bottom Academic superstar, top On Xiao Yu's birthday, his father locked him up in a conversion camp. From that day on, he lost Fu Zechen, the person who loved him most. By the time he escaped that living hell, battered and bruised, Fu Zechen had discarded him without a moment's hesitation. When they met again, his eyes held no trace of affection, only indifference and estrangement. “You're not w 16.8kReads9.2Score1.3kShelves

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    Be well, little fish baby

34. 34 死 Still Waters, Cold as Death 死水薄凉 Frostblade Fish霜刀鱼Two Male Leads99k WordsCompleted [Scumbag Top x World-Weary Bottom] [Mad Dog x Mad Dog] [Forced Love] [Tragedy] The world had never been so dull. It all began when Xu Yanzhi picked up the countdown. Xu Yanzhi, a rich second-generation layabout who did nothing but coast through life and wait to die, encountered Li Yan after he returned to the country ten years later. Forced to tear open his wounds, Xu Yanzhi gradually let his true nature show. I’m done pretending. I actually hate this world. I set fires, hurt people, and framed 789Reads8.7Score105Shelves

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    Short abuse story, be Our love is pure, and our hate is also pure. Watching the one you love get married, but die in front of everyone. Xu Yan and Li Yan will never meet again.

35. 35 痛 Addicted to the Pain 痛瘾沉溺 Frostblade Fish霜刀鱼Two Male Leads226k WordsCompleted Former title: Sinking into an Addiction [Two male leads + love after an arranged marriage + powerful pursuer + coercion + both are devoted only to each other + madman + scheming + melodrama + bad ending] [A twisted, dark, unhinged crown prince seme × a cold-faced but warm-hearted, aloof, beautiful actor uke] . As a child, he was bitten by a vicious dog. As an adult, he married one. Qi Zhuo has attracted psychos since he was little. None of his admirers, from childhood to adulthood, have ever b 1.6kReads8.7Score180Shelves

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    "I really love you, no one can compare to you" - "Only" (Suing Five People) I love you

36. 36 你 Yet You Love Someone Else 你却爱着一个他 Shui Qiancheng水千丞Two Male Leads339k WordsCompleted Proud and self-assured, Jian Suiying loves fiercely and hates fiercely. He relentlessly pursues Li Yu, his younger brother Jian Suilin's classmate. But his arrogant, domineering attitude makes Li Yu feel deeply humiliated and provoked, awakening the beastly, frenzied side of this pampered young heir. Desire and affection become hopelessly entangled, impossible to separate. What seems to be nothing more than a pursuit and contest between the two gradually spirals out of control because of Jian Su 91.6kReads9.4Score20.3kShelves

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    After reading these books, I feel like I have been rubbed repeatedly in a pit of abuse. Each couple is using their lives to interpret the love that cannot be achieved. Is there any book that reminds you of the night when you were tortured until 3:00 in the morning? Please share your list of books that make you feel uncomfortable in the comment group.

37. 37 谁 Who Takes Whom Seriously? 谁把谁当真 Shui Qiancheng水千丞Two Male Leads363k WordsCompleted One is a fickle playboy who lives life as he pleases. The other has been through countless trials and puts reason before emotion. A relationship that began with “living in the moment” gradually turned into a bloodless battle of wits, where each tried to win the other’s heart. They distrust each other, yet feel drawn to one another, constantly testing each other’s limits with suspicion and probing. They knowingly fall into the trap, surrendering to feelings in confusion, until they’re caught in a 38.3kReads9.5Score8.2kShelves
38. 38 一 Drunk for a Hundred Years 一醉经年 Shui Qiancheng水千丞Two Male Leads339k WordsCompleted A secret crush is like a flask of strong liquor. You know that drinking it will leave you dizzy, make you lose control, and bring you pain, yet you still throw yourself into it like a moth to a flame, all too happy to suffer. You only take a sip, while I drink until I’m drunk. But everyone who drinks has to sober up one day. A calm, aloof engineer bottom VS a selfish, cold-hearted celebrity top 20.4kReads9.4Score6.3kShelves
39. 39 娘 Sissy 娘娘腔 Ba Shiba八实鲅Modern Romance117k WordsCompleted Read the blurb carefully! This is not danmei!!! It's a romance novel about healing!!! [Complete. Youthful angst + mutual healing and devotion + a happy-ending bonus story about two men (I want to write it, so please don't hate) + a reborn happy-ending bonus story for the glamorous male and female leads] Yan Shang is a sissy. Why? Who said so? They did. And so it became true... “We will treat you with kindness, and hope the world will absolve the innocent.” One day, a girl named Chen Sanqi pulle 500Reads—Score100Shelves
40. 40 临 I Cleared My Name One Second Before I Died 临死前一秒我洗白了 Little Li Fish小黎鱼Two Male Leads243k WordsCompleted [Initially uncaring, later devoted attack × socially savvy, checked-out receiver; one-on-one, equally matched, both chaste] [The first dozen or so chapters focus on the plot, but at heart this is a groveling romance; Jian Huai is the attack] As the last descendant of the Vermilion Bird divine clan, Gu Yi'an's duty is to protect the Fallen Spirit. But in this life, the Fallen Spirit has not only gained sentience, it has also taken human form and become Jian Huai. Gu Yi'an: “...” How am I supposed 3.4kReads9.4Score370Shelves
41. 41 临 Before He Dies, He Wants to Give Up His Allergen 临死前，他要戒掉过敏源 Crimson Jiangnan江南绯色Two Male Leads429k WordsCompleted [Male-male romance + angst + late-blooming devotion + the hero’s long road to winning him back] Shen Pei’an was ill. On his birthday, the doctor told him he didn’t have much longer to live. He hadn’t planned to hide it. He meant to wait until Ren Xu had celebrated his birthday with him, then tell him the truth. But the big star Ren Xu never came. All Shen Pei’an got was a birthday cake that would trigger his allergies. He was twenty-eight. It was his ninth year in love with Ren Xu. There would 1.1kReads6.6Score100Shelves
42. 42 丧 Stray Dog 丧家犬 A Bite of Coconut Jelly吃一口椰冻Two Male Leads317k WordsCompleted [Reader advisory: A cruel lover faces retribution in this angst-heavy story. First person, bad ending.] [Contracted for publication] [Cold, elite, callous top x rough, middle-aged bottom] Zhou Xian was reborn. In his previous life, he died like a stray dog on the day his former lover Shen Wen married the man he had always loved. This time, he was reborn three months before his death. To get revenge, he asked Shen Wen to date him for one last three months. * Successful in his career, Shen Wen had 497Reads9.3Score105Shelves

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    It's so cruel that it makes my heart skip a beat, both in the main story and in the extras. Because later on I thought it would be He but I didn't expect Be. Highly recommend, it's very beautiful.

43. 43 银 When the Ginkgo Leaves Fall 银杏落下时 Wanyan Yuning完颜雨凝Two Male Leads62k WordsCompleted [If you enjoy this, please leave lots of comments and ratings. Love you!] #BoysLove #Angst #Tragedy #BEAesthetic #Realistic #MutualDevotion #UnforgettableRegret #ConversionTherapy #DoubleDeath At nineteen, Cheng Ye and Lu Ming thought love could conquer everything. A ginkgo-leaf bookmark, two handmade rings, and a promise to go south. They ran away together on a rainy night and kissed beneath a bridge, believing that if they went far enough, they could reach a future of their own. But their pa 278Reads—Score—Shelves

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    BE! Two men! It's really cruel! I was in a daze for a long time after reading it!

44. 44 他 He Didn't Comfort Him 他没哄他 Nine Leaves九叶叶叶Two Male Leads50k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + campus + lighthearted + unrequited love + a touch of bittersweetness + BE + short story] (Soothing someone = comforting them = deceiving them) Gloomy top student [Mu Qi] × doomed delinquent [Ling Shu] Every relationship needs someone to make the first move. That's inevitable. So Ling Shu spent two years preparing before stepping back into Mu Qi's life. Liking someone doesn't guarantee you'll end up together, and love doesn't have to be earth-shattering. So Mu Qi kept watch ove 158Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Want to try some mild abuse?

45. 45 他 His Little Fool Doesn't Cry Anymore 他的小傻子不爱哭了 Love Rain into Dew恋雨成露Two Male Leads1.2M WordsCompleted [BL + both pure + angst + just rated] In a corner of Shengying Noble High School, there was always a figure named Su Nian. As the illegitimate son the Su family kept hidden from the world, he had suffered a childhood accident that left him with a brain injury. He was always half a beat slower than everyone else, and his clear eyes were often filled with timid confusion. When classmates mocked and shoved him, all he could do was tear up, like a little beast nobody wanted. In the hallway, Su Nian 7.2kReads9.3Score568Shelves

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    It's really cruel! I have always longed to be loved, my mind is clear, my reaction is too slow, I dare not speak out about my sufferings, I was bullied at school, plotted against by my family, I was dragged into experiments, but when the experiments failed, I was dragged to the black market, ugh! One link after another! I can only say that Nian Nian is so pitiful.

46. 46 请 Please Love Me Once 请爱我一次1 Soaring Blue翱翔蓝12k WordsCompleted Please Love Me Just Once 1 40Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Two male protagonists, sports students

47. 47 仙 Immortal Lord, Long Time No See 仙君，好久不见 White Sugar Autumn Pear Blossom白糖秋梨花Two Male Leads100k WordsCompleted [Playboy + Blunt + “Strange God” gong Yi Hanqi / Gentle + Secretly in Love + Spring God shou Lin Wanjun] !!!!!! Warning: The gong in this story is not chaste. Yi Hanqi finally became a High God... The master he once revered is dead. The girl who swore she would become his master’s wife has shut herself away in the Tea-Rotted Marsh, cut off from everyone. The brother who fought and grew alongside him has become the new Emperor, and the two have gradually grown distant, as though everything has ch 12Reads—Score—Shelves

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    Two men, the world of cultivation

48. 48 放 Wait for Me After School, Unlucky Classmate Mingyuan 放学等我，不幸的明远同学 Huan Buyu欢不语Two Male Leads400k WordsCompleted Comedy + Happy Ending + Campus Romance + Two Male Leads + Both Strong and Alpha. The only story I've written with two male leads. It clearly got decent reviews, sigh. Xu Kai and Cui Mingyuan are both unlucky souls who got dealt a terrible hand from the start. Fortunately, after ten years of hard work, Xu Kai finally improves his life. Unfortunately, Cui Mingyuan struggles in the mire for half his life, only to die miserable and unfulfilled. Out of sympathy, Xu Kai accepts a mission to defy fate 54Reads—Score—Shelves

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    I almost tortured him, but I laughed immediately and couldn't torture him even a little bit.

49. 49 昭 Dawn Breaks Brightly 昭昭破晓 South of the Desert River漠水之阳Two Male Leads164k WordsCompleted The Great Yu Dynasty is mired in a quagmire. The eunuch Wei Quan controls the government, noble clans seize the people's farmland, and commoners are driven from their homes. The frontier is engulfed in flames, yet the treasury is empty. Su Tang, a scholar from a humble family, hides ruthless determination beneath his gentle exterior and is set on changing this devastated world. Crown Prince Xiao Zhaoheng seems mild-mannered and composed, but the chaos engulfing the dynasty has left him deeply p 1Reads—Score—Shelves

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    They once worked together to break the situation, but in the end Yin and Yang were separated.

50. 50 万 The Most Hated Guy Is Seriously Fierce 万人嫌他超凶的 Lemon and Cola柠檬加可乐Two Male Leads379k WordsCompleted [Two male leads + rekindled romance + everyone faces their comeuppance + happy ending] A sickly, universally disliked bottom, a top who’s an esports superstar. After receiving a diagnosis, Shen Ning cruelly abandoned Qin Jiu, the only person he had to rely on. Two years later, they met again. The penniless boy from back then had become a rising esports superstar. Shen Ning tried to explain, but a single stab ended all hope. Dragging his battered body along, he watched his beloved take the stage 8.1kReads9.2Score657Shelves

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